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2004 27 April :: 7.21 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Camron-Get em girls
Soo tired...
I haven't gotten any sleep the past two nights... the vacation screwed me up cause I'm used to being awake until 1 or 2 in the morning so lately I feel like shit.
There's really nothing new to write about.... except I hate when people fuck with my head, it drives me crazy >:O
Dark Lotus is May 2nd.. I just realized today that that's THIS Sunday.... I do wanna go but I'm not sure where I'm gonna come up with $30 ??
... And if I can get my mom to pay then that probly means noo Summer Jamn....
write later. xo
...I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do...
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2004 24 April :: 11.11 pm
:: Mood: happy... << for once
:: Music: 3 Doors Down-Away from the Sun :-)
Is this the end??..
After being so miserable for one week...
Everything just keeps getting better
I love this song.... I can't stop listening to it
3 Doors Down-Away from the Sun
It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
Can anyone tell what I've done
I miss life
I miss the colours of the world
Can anyone tell where I am
'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
Away from the sun again
I'm over this
I'm tired of living in the dark
Can anyone see me down here
The feeling's gone
There's nothing left to lift me up
Back into the world I know
And now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
And now I can't tell what I've done
And now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me
'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
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2004 23 April :: 12.57 am
:: Mood: trippy
:: Music: Ja Rule ft. Lloyd-Caught up
Vacations almost over... =(
It's wicked depressing how fast vacation goes... It feels like it just started and its already almost over...
I do kinda want to go back to school to see everyone, but I have an English Report due Tuesday right when we go back and that sucks cause I haven't even started...
The good thing about April vaca ending is that we are that much closer to Summer vaca... '03 was by far the best summer I've ever had :-) It was kind of boring during June n July but by August I had met a ton of new people who I became really close with... some of which I'm not that close with anymore, but that's ok........ I really don't wanna lose them but I guess if we're really meant to be friends then somewhere along the way we will be as close again as we used to be.
What I really want this summer is to be spend every day like we did last August..... But if that doesn't work out I hope there is some alternative and everything turns out to be fun.
Well that's enough for now.... I'll write some more later.
-kelsey
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2004 21 April :: 10.05 pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: Outkast-Roses
4/21
Happy Birthday AMANDA MALTZ I love you
umm...I'm too lazy to write anything....
I'll update later
Caroline,Caroline
All the guys would say she's mighty fine
But mighty fine only got you somewhere half the time
And the other half either got you cussed out, or coming up short
Yeah, now dig this, now even though
You'd need a golden calculator to divide
The time it took to look inside and realize that
Real guys go for real down to Mars girls, yeah!
Well she's got a hotties body, but her attitude is potty
When I met her at a party she was hardly acting naughty
I said "Would you call me?"
She said "Pardon me, are you ballin'?"
I said "Darling, you sound like a prostitute pausing"
Oh so you're one them freaks, get geeked at the sight of ATM receipt
But game been peeped, dropping names she's weak
Trickin' off this bitch is lost
Must take me for a geek, a quick way to eat
A neat place sleep, a rent-a-car for a week, a trick for a treat
Now go on the raw sex, my AIDS test is flawless
Regardless, we don't want to get involved with all them lawyers
And judges just to hold grudges in a courtroom
I wanna see ya support bra not support you!
Better come back down to Mars
Girl, quit chasin cars
What happens when the dough gets low
Bitch, you ain't that fine
No way.. no way.. no way
Bitch, stupid ass bitch
Old punk ass bitch, old dumbass bitch
A bitch's bitch, just a bitch ..
haha that songs soo funny!
Outkast-Roses
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2004 20 April :: 8.51 pm
:: Mood: high
:: Music: lil jon ft jadakiss & Styles-Knockin heads off
stay high til the break of dawn,
hit the bong n come along
HAPPY 4:20!!!!
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2004 19 April :: 9.45 am
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Clay Aiken-The way
Good Morning..
Happy Marathon Monday haha. I got home around 7 from Maine last night it was sooo much fun. We took lots of pics n shit so I will have to upload them soon...
Last night I dyed my hair again cause it started to wear out from when I got it done in December.. It's basically the same color as it was then, maybe a lil lighter..
I dunno what I'm up to today.....
I'm not really in the mood to watch a crowd of sweaty ppl run down the street all morning and neither is Jessie haha so I think we're gonna go to the Mall. Hopefully I can get a new cover for my cellphone since I broke the one thats on it now lol.
TOMORROW!!
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2004 17 April :: 6.14 pm
:: Mood: HAPPY!
:: Music: none
I'm so happy!!!!
MY CELLPHONE WORKS!!!!
I'm so happy... my cell phone works! I dunno how the hell I got txt messaging back but I hope Cingular isn't charging me for it cause then my rentz would flip..
I'm goin to Britt's house tonight, I'm waitin for her to pick me up now..
Then tomorrow me,amanda,liz and britt are goin to Maine for Britt's b-day :-)
which is another suprise because I was suppose to be *grounded* this weekend.
Today is a good day.... :-)
Well I'm out, write more tomorrow night when I get back.
-kelsey
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2004 16 April :: 11.23 pm
:: Mood: uncertain
:: Music: Clay Aiken-The way
Such a good song... Such a terrible day
I heard this song on the radio yesterday in the car and I absolutely fell inlove with it!!
Theres something bout the way you look tonight, Theres something bout the way that i can't take my eyes off you. Theres
something bout the way your lips invite, maybe its the way that i get nervous when your around. And I want you to be mine
and if u need a reason why,
It's in the way that you move me, and the way that you tease me, the way that I want you tonight,
It's in the way that you hold me, and the way that you know me, when I can't find the right words to say,
You feel it in the way, you feel it in the way.
Theres something bout how you stay on my mind, theres something bout the way that I whisper your name when I'm asleep Oh
no. Maybe its the look you get in your eyes. Oh baby its the way that makes me feel to see you smile. And the reasons they
may change but what i'm feeling stays the same.
I can't put my fingers on just what it is that makes me love you, you baby.
So don't ask me to describe, I get all choked up inside, just thinking bout the way.
Today was a fucking bad day...
I got in a fight with my parents over me not having a cellphone, which is a big fucking issue for me. Then my dad "grounded" me?? hah that lasted for about an hour. Then I casually walked out of my house and met Lizzy and Amanda downtown.
Then for the 2nd time in two weeks my friends were ripped off by fucking Framingham kids. that is gay.
Not sure yet if I'm still gonna be able to go to Maine on Sunday for Britt's birthday... but I really don't give a fuck what my parents say they can bite me I've had enough of their shit >:O
basically the whole day sucked.. besides the fact that I saw Joe for the first time in soooo long. It was so random, we were sitting on the corner of west st. infront of the HS and all of a sudden I hear Amanda say "Kelsey look it's Joe" and I turn my head expecting to see one of the Joe's from around here...but nope. haha so that made my day basically...
It's such a weird feeling though, seeing the person you used to love..the FIRST person you ever loved... so randomly and after so much time has passed. It's weird not feeling the same way I used to....
But anyways I'm out, write more tomorrow
-kelsey
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2004 15 April :: 7.54 pm
:: Mood: just one of those terrible moods.. wats new :-(
:: Music: Twiztid-Your the reason
I love you but you don't care...
what the fuck else is new....
today after school Liz Amanda and I had a very deep and emotional conversation at Johnson. haha. we sat there for about 3 hours and just rambled on about whats been happening lately. All of it just made me think about how lucky I really am. I used to think that lil song that went something like "everything means nothing if I ain't got you babe.." was soo true, but after talking about things the whole afternoon it made me realize how selfish I am. I really do have it all... although there may be one thing/person I am without, that doesn't mean my life is as shitty as I make it out to be. I'm just one of those people who focuses on the one thing they dont have rather than the great things that already surround them... like friends and family.
Maybe if I didn't take things for granted as I have so far, then things would work out better for me.
My girls... I love you sooo very much, I don't know where I would be without you. <3
Show me the reason why
we do the things that we do
Show me the reason why
Take a chance with me, I won't let you down..
Tomorrow.. last day before april k-shun :-)
5 days.
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2004 14 April :: 5.39 pm
:: Music: Puddle of Mud- Blurry
have you ever jus sat by the window and thought about life
jus thought about all the shit
and you say you had enough
but never change
then you find yourself in the same postition
feeling guilty cause you didnt listen to yourself before
try waking up every morning
wishing you didnt
jus cause you have a problem you cant fix
no matter how hard you try
nothing will work
anyone relate to that at all.. ?
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