Update...

Yesterday before I left for work Joey came to see me for like 5 minutes but then he had to go cause I was late.. n then I guess he came to visit me at work but I was upstairs doing orientation, and no one bothered to tell me he stopped by when I came down, lol. So then he showed up and I was like wow how random. So he called me when I got out of work, and then I went to the mall to get new noserings and Friendly's - and the fuckers didnt even give me my grilled cheese... just a big container of fries, WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT. So last night was pretty bad. Ohh but it gets worse.. when I went to clean the new nosering in the sink I accidently dropped it down the drain, HAH can you say DUMB. yeah, so then I had to put some weird rainbow tinted colored one in but that's okay, that's what I get for being a complete idiot. So then after hours of stress, I got a ride to Joey's nanas because my brother was driving up to Hollywood video with his friends. It was fun, I love his family their so Italian and so nice :-)

Last night was Goncha's birthday party - but I couldn't go cuz I got home so late and my mom wouldn't drive me. Then I had that whole issue with my nose ring that took me about an hour to fix. The little diamond in the nosestud fell out and the inside started turning all green n shit it was gross... n the hole was all swollen and it started to bleed when I took it out :[ meh

But anyways today after work I'm going to Party City to get her some balloons and then tonight I'm dying Meg's hair for her-it's gonna be fun :-)

yeaaaah
I'm trippin face tonight ha haaa :-D

Welcome back. :-)
Any moment everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulder
For a minute all the world can wait
Let go of your yesterday

Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing and take control?

[CHORUS]
Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can
deny and start to try 'cus it's your time, time to fly

All your worries, leave them somewhere else
Find a dream you can follow
Reach for something when there's
nothing left and the world's feeling hollow

Can you hear it calling?
Can you feel it in your soul?
Can you trust this longing and take control?

[CHORUS]
Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can
deny and start to try 'cus it's your time, time to fly

And when your down and feeling low,
just want to run away
Trust yourself and don't give up
You know you better than anyone else

Any moment everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulder
For a minute all the world can wait
Let go of yesterday

[CHORUS]
Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can
deny and start to try 'cus it's your time, time to fly

Fly
Forget about the reasons why you
can deny and start to try 'cus it's your time, time to fly

Any moment everything can change





yeah I love that song. anyways I found this layout and fell in love :-) so I decided to start updating again cause people have asked. If you all don't leave me oodles of comments though I'll get bored of this again, so make sure you do!

much love

this is the town where tha clowns throw it down baby...

So here's my plan for this year.....
this Summer was everything I wanted.. it was perfect. I spent almost every day with the guy I labeled as the one I "love" ..but who the hell knows what the word means at 14 & 15 years old..

anyways.. yeah the perfect summer ended sadly a few nights ago.

but from a different point a view, it could be a good change. a chance to get my life back together and do things I wasn't able to do this year because of the priorities I had chosen... which are fun for a while but after a year of all of that... its like one big long vacation and no hard work. too much focusing on drugs and friends and...robbie.

well thanks to a few of my inspirations :-) Serge,Tori,Ryan, and an old friend..., I will be recovering hopefully... I came into high school different then when I left junior high... and I think it's time to change again... or atleast try, I need to see what else is out there.. besides what my heads been focusing on this past year.

and as far as robbie goes, obv me and him aren't supposed to be together right now...
and maybe not EVER. so whether or not that day ever comes he will remain in my heart and I can start a new life......


to my old friend who probably will not read this... I respect the reasons why you did what you did, I didn't understand then but I understand now. and I'm sorry.

x's are true, _'s are false
(_) I have never been drunk
(_) I never have smoked pot
(_) I never have kissed a member of the opposite sex
(x) I never have kissed a member of the same sex
(x) I never crashed a friend's car
(x) I have never been to Japan
(x) I never ridden in a taxi
(_) I never have been in love
(_) I never have had sex
(_) I never have been dumped
(_) I never shoplifted
(x) I never have been fired
(_) I have never cut myself on purpose
(x) I never have been in a fist fight
(_) I never snuck out of my parent's house
(_) I never have been arrested
(_) I never made out with a stranger
(x) I never stole anything from my job
(x) I never celebrated New Year's in Time Square
(_) I never went on a blind date
(_) I never lied to a friend
(_) I never had a crush on a teacher
(x) I never celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans
(x) I never have been to Europe
(_) I never skipped school
(x) I never slept with a co-worker
(x) I never have thrown up in a bar
(x) I never have purposely set myself on fire
(x) I never have eaten sushi
(_) I never have been snowboarding
(_) I never have been happy with myself
(_) I never have met a movie star
(x) I never went to a prom
(x) I never bungee jumped
(x) I never have been to a pop concert
(x) I never have dated someone for over a year
(_) I never ate a mango
(x) I never killed anyone before ...or have i...
(x) I never went sailing
(_) I have never had a job
(_) I have never told someone how much they meant to me. (and paid the concequences)
(x) I never have gone sky diving
(x) I never ran outside and danced in the street naked.
(x) I have never had a lesbian/gay close friend.
(x) I have never watched C-SPAN for over an hour.
(x) I have never been out of the country
(x) I have never made out in a carwash.. sounds fun though
(x) I have never had cum come out of my nose during a blow job
(_) I have never gone night swimming with a hot person of the opposite sex
(_) I have never eaten peanut butter.
(x) I have never seen Citizen Kane all the way through.
(x) I have never broken a bone.
(?) I have never been able to think of original "I have nevers"
(x) I have never enjoyed eating veal
(_) I have never been whale watching
(_) I have never stayed up until 10 AM listening to music
(_) I have never seen real boobies
(_) I have never gone an entire month without some form of soda.
(_) I have never liked people.