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2004 15 July :: 11.49 pm
:: Mood: happier
:: Music: Vertical Horizon-Best I ever had
I wished upon a star tonight....
..and it came true..
sorta
I wish it would always be this easy.. just wish on the first star you see and everything will suddenly get better.. but it's not always like that. I can't depend on such things to make my mistakes vanish.. I need to learn to think before I say certain things that could hurt another person... and even hurt me more....
::thankful::
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2004 14 July :: 11.59 pm
:: Mood: ughhh I miss him
:: Music: Never Really Was.... -Mario Winans
I woke up this morning thinking you were still there... then I realized it wasn't all a dream :[
I don't know what to think I don't know what to believe...
I need answers I need to find out how and why it's coming down like this
It's really bugging me that I haven;t talked to him... so obv he doesn't care enough or else I wouldn't be sitting here wondering why this is happening
All I know is it's no suprise...
he never did stay <|3
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2004 14 July :: 12.50 am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: 97.7
tonight sucked.....
well tonight went from boring and relaxing to dissapointing and just fucked up...
it appears that two of my "friends" told kim I called her a slut n shit which is messed up cause if you ask anybody they'll say I would never say nething like that about her. ya we had problems n shit in the past but that's wen I didn't know her.. I love her I'm not about to call one of my girls a slut whether ppl wanna say so or not.
ya well thats the fucked up part... n it was also disapointing to hear that my so-called guy friends would try & start shit between me n her
then I got kinda upset when I heard Robbie said he hated me n blah blah wat the fuck
hah that isn't too hard to believe though it's Robbie were talking about...
ohhh well I'm gonna take some advice from a former friend n just say fuck it cause I'm not about to ruin a Summer over this shit so I'm gonna try real hard to just stay up.. n hopefully things will fall back into place within time... it'll kill me if we all stop talkin... I was way too close to losing Jimmy over this whole thing n I'm not gonna let that happen again this year....... no way
They saY gOod thingS dOn't lasT....
I wouldn't argue :[
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2004 13 July :: 4.34 pm
Definitely! Someones gotta crush on you! It's
Obvious that this guy likes you, so stop
doubting it! If hes a little shy and hasnt said
anything, maybe you should be the one to make
the first move (If you feel the same way of
course). If you dont feel the same way, and he
has already told you that he likes you, tell
him how you feel in the nicest way possible,
after all he was brave enough to tell you.
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2004 13 July :: 3.00 pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: none
Summer Lovin'
Once school starts again... everything will be the same as it was last year and I can't stop myself from thinking about it. :-\
97%
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2004 12 July :: 2.10 am
:: Mood: restless
:: Music: Matchbook Romance-Tiger Lily
It's not about keeping your promises, it's about following your heart.
that movie has really been making me think..
"I think the greatest loves are those that have overcome obstacles because they have withstood those things that life can throw at them."
with every great love comes a great story
-- The Notebook
I am nothing special; of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough.
--Noah
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2004 10 July :: 11.16 pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: JKwon-Hood Hop
The Notebook
is suuch a good movie.. I saw it for the first time today. I cried my eyes out though they were right when they said it would make you think alot about your own life
I came out of the theater with my eyes all red and puffy from crying so much... I've never cried like that over a movie. But I guess for once I can somewhat relate to what they're talking about.. and it made me really sad.
But anyways its an awesome movie-I recommend you all go see it.. even the guys. It's worth every penny.
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2004 10 July :: 1.41 pm
:: Mood: rested
:: Music: Jagged Edge-Walked outta heaven
this journal pisses me off
ah I hate this thing I can never get all of it to match the way I want damit
umm ya well I'm gonna go get some food n sit on my ass I'll update later.
Let me know if u like. :-)
kelsey
<> soak it or leave it - haha jessie u crack me up
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2004 9 July :: 9.21 am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Mario Winans-Never Really Was
Lizzy's leaving tomorrow... :(
Lizzys going to Maine for TWO weeks on saturday, I'm sad I've never been away from Lizzy for more than a week lol she better call.
and she's missing my birthday too wat the fuck!
but we are going out to breakfast soon I think so it's all good
Robbie n Mike came back yesterday... I thought they were coming home today. I saw robbie last night after I was forced to fuck up all my plans to go see him... but thats ok it was fun
ya.. my moms a cunt >:O if she ever does that again I swear I'll smack her. and I've been pretty patient with her lately cause she hasnt done anything GAY.. but if she wants it to be like it used to I can play that game too mother fucker
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2004 8 July :: 12.06 am
:: Mood: burnt out
:: Music: Heaven is a place on earth
When I feel alone
I reach for you
And you bring me home
When I'm lost at sea
I hear your voice
And it carries me
In this world we're just beginning
To understand the miracle of living
Baby I was afraid before
But I'm not afraid anymore
"no that bench looks scary.. y dont we go walk down those strange streets??"
haha that was funny I'm an idiot
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