i feel this sudden sickness come over me like im suddenly broken.. suddenly smacked into reality. i just cant handle this im not built for this kind of pain and yet its constantly shuttled at me. i would rather not know the truth and just be happy the way i was.. i dont want things to end i dont want it to be over if it is.. once again ill be depressed and once again i will not have any purpose.. i dont have a purpose im here for no reason.. and nobody will have me.. nobody wants me.. nobody needs me and thats what kills the most..

please just take me..

I still recall the taste of your tears.
Echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears.
My favorite dreams of you still wash ashore.
Scraping through my head 'till I don't want to sleep anymore.

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Come on tell me.
You make this all go away.
You make this all go away.
I'm down to just one thing.
And I'm starting to scare myself.
You make this all go way.
You make this all go way.
I just want something.
I just want something I can never have

You always were the one to show me how
Back then I couldn't do the things that I can do now.
This thing is slowly taking me apart.
Grey would be the color if I had a heart.
Come on tell me

[Chorus]

In this place it seems like such a shame.
Though it all looks different now,
I know it's still the same
Everywhere I look you're all I see.
Just a fading fucking reminder of who I used to be.

[Chorus]

I just want something.
I just want something I can never have
I just want something I can never have

Think I know what you meant.
That night on my bed.
Still picking at this scab
I wish you were dead.
You sweat and perry ellis.
Just stains on my sheets.

[xXx]