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2003 21 January :: 7.28 pm
these are a few songs that have been stuck in my head lately.
"family protrait"
Mama please stop cryin'
I can't stand the sound
Your pain is painful and it's
Tearing me down
I hear glasses breaking
As I sit up in my bed
I told God you didn't mean
Those nasty things you said
You fight about money
About me and my brother
And this I come home to
This is my shelter
It ain't easy, growin' up in WW3
Never knowin' what love could be
You'll see, I don't want love to destroy me
Like it has done my family
Can we work it out
Can we be a family
I promise I'll be better
Mommy I'll do anything
Can we work it out
Can we be a family
I promise I'll be better
Daddy please don't leave
Daddy please stop yelling
I can't stand the sound
Make mama stop cryin'
'Cause I need you around
My mama she loves you
No matter what she says is true
I know that she hurts you
But remember I love you too!
I ran away today, ran from the noise
Ran away (ran away)
Don't wanna go back to that place
But don't have no choice, no way
It ain't easy, growin' up in WW3
Never knowin' what love could be
But I've seen, I don't want love to destroy me
Like it has done my family
In our family portrait
We look pretty happy
Let's play pretend, let's act like it
Comes naturally
I don't wanna have to split the holidays I don't want two addresses
I don't want a stepbrother anyway
And I don't want my mom to have to change her last name!
Mama'll be nicer
I'll be so much better
I'll tell my brother
I won't spill the milk at dinner
I'll be so much better
I'll do everything right
I'll be your little girl forever
I'll go to sleep at night
Daddy don't leave... daddy don't leave
She Hates Me
Met a girl, thought she was grand
fell in love, found out first hand
went well for a week or two
then it all came unglued
in a trap trip I can’t grip
never thought I'd be the one who’d slip
then I started to realize
I was living one big lie
(Chorus)
she fuckin hates me
trust
she fuckin hates me
la la la love
I tried too hard
and she tore my feelings like I had none
and ripped them away
she was queen for about an hour
after that shit got sour
she took all I ever had
no sign of guilt
no feeling of bad, no
in a trap trip I can’t grip
never thought I'd be the one who’d slip
then I started to realize
I was living one big lie
Chorus
that’s my story, as you see
learned my lesson and so did she
now it’s over, and I'm glad
‘cause I'm a fool for all I've said
Chorus
la la la la la la la la la love
trust
la la la la la la la la la love
trust
she fuckin hates me
"I'm With You"
I'm Standing on a bridge
I'm waitin in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
Theres nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but theres no sound
Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you
im looking for a place
searching for a face
is anybody here i know
cause nothings going right
and everythigns a mess
and no one likes to be alone
Isn't anyone tryin to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you
oh why is everything so confusing
maybe I'm just out of my mind
yea yea yea
It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Wont you take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you
Take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you
I'm with you
Take me by the hand
take me somewhere new
I dont know who you are
but I... I'm with you
I'm with you
I'm with you...
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2003 20 January :: 7.03 pm
hands icey
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2003 20 January :: 4.35 pm
why do guys have to be such pricks. once just once i would like to find a guy that i like, thats likes me for more than just my chest, and that i dont screw up. could one even exsist? if he does i am blind to see. i wouldn't mind a friend with benifits that is at least kinda steady.
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2003 19 January :: 8.13 pm
yo sentir para que zote en seguida! porque liso pensando que it could centro algo.
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2003 19 January :: 12.58 pm
:: Music: fishersnet
last night before i went to bed i wrote in my other journal. but the time i got done writing i had writers cramp, and my hand was sweating. one page being one side i wrote a little over four pages. when i got done i couldn't believe i wrote so much. and i still couldn't really believe what had happen. i am really tired. i fell asleep around 2 and woke up at 5. then i went back to sleep and woke up at like ten or so. my sister wasn't home. she stayed the night at the people we babysit for new house. she babysits for them alot more than i do. i dont really have anything to do today. take a shower, pick up my room, play on my computer, get ready for tomorrow, be board, and watch movies. and munch on food. i want to go running but it is really cold out.
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2003 19 January :: 12.36 pm
What element would you rein over? (For Girls)
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in some ways i do believe pain is beauty. because of the way someone deals with pain. it can show how strong or weak you are. and the way you deal with pain will prove that. in my opinion that is beauty.
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2003 18 January :: 10.15 pm
i went to the bean again tonight. it was alot of fun. i laughed alot. when we were is subway it was the funniest. the guy working there gave us a bag full of free toys, a bunch of stamps. the guy working there also through a six inch at me. and also treathen to beat someone with the sign that warned people the floor was wet. we ran into someone that was really wasted. anyways i had alot of fun.
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2003 18 January :: 11.58 am
i went to the bean last night to hear the band. they are good. they have awsome drinks at the bean. i recomend the italian soda and the kinder. i am going to go out to eat with my mom. i wont be able to get on the computer right away when i get back. later.
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2003 17 January :: 9.21 am
i no longer write certain things in this journal. because i do not know who will read it. so i have a different journal. i write in it almost everynight. i keep it in this new dresser thing i got. because it has a lock. i usually keep the key on my lamp. you are most likely thinking why would i tell the public where i keep it. mainly because i know no one can get to the key or the dresser outside my family. thats all for now. later.
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2003 16 January :: 5.36 pm
when i got home i crashed for 2 and a half hours. i would still be sleeping but my parnets made me get up.
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2003 15 January :: 5.49 pm
:: Mood: strange
i dont know what to do or even think. i am not sure how i am feeling. i feel empty. like there is nothing inside me. or that something is missing. sometimes my body will be freezing and my face will be on fire. or its the exact oppisite. i just dont know.
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2003 14 January :: 9.11 pm
why do guys have to be such pricks? and i am not talking about who you would think
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2003 13 January :: 8.14 pm
i got some new dressers. it has a lock on it. so i put stuff in there that i wanted lock. i have the key on a bracelet ankel thing. i am not sure where i will hide it though
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2003 13 January :: 7.12 pm
find your element
at mutedfaith.com.
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i took this quiz just cuz i saw it in someones journal and didn't have anything better than i wanted/was able to do
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2003 13 January :: 6.52 pm
right now my right hand is ice. i really am short. tryouts were today. the singing part could have gone better. my lip was quivering the whole time. i couldn't get as high as i usuall can. i talked to the person in charge, and she knew i could sing higher so she didn't mark me down for that. the dancing part was fun. the play is once apon a matress. its not as bad as it sounds. its based on princess and the pea. i think it would be fun to be the jester. thats it for now. later. (other than i blushed like mad today before the tryouts, the blushing didn't even have anything to do with the try outs)
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