:: 2011 6 April :: 3.03 pm
:: Mood: okay

Escape
This may sound funny, but it feels like I sort of turned fiction and fantasy into real life experiences. I love road films, and enjoy the feel of those films. I rode on the Greyhound to visit my mom in Utah, and met some strangers that I talked with on the Greyhound. It was a weird experience, but I like to hear different perspectives from different people who don't live in the city. Even though I don't know them, we had really good conversations. Thinking about Utah is like an escape. I just want to run away and get out of California as soon as possible. I don't like living here. It's the vibe that ruins it for me. I don't want to be around people who smoke, use drugs all the time and fornicate. I want to be around someone who appreciates nature and beauty and isn't under the influence of drugs and alcohol. I see drug addicts as zombies because they don't think and aren't aware of anything even themselves. They don't care about themselves.

Being in Utah and thinking about Utah makes me happy. The beautiful weather, outdoors, mountains, people with manners, nature. And I like looking at empty roads. It was a relief to get to see God's creation. I wasn't bored when I rode the Greyhound for 20 something hours. It's because I'm not disturbed. I don't have to do laundry. I don't have to work or deal with people. The people on the Greyhound didn't bother me. Overall, a good trip and a great experience. I must sound crazy talking to myself on this blog and daydreaming everyday. I just want to get out.

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:: 2011 6 April :: 2.55 pm
:: Mood: irritated

Cockroaches & Bedbugs are annoying
I'm finally out of the old place. Moved to a different district in SF at my mom's friend. It's a nice room by the garage with another room where I put stuff. I'm still annoyed at the fact that some of the cockroaches followed me to the new place. I can't let them know that I found 3 cockroaches (which I killed). I hope it doesn't get pregnant or else their place will be infested with cockroaches. That would be messed up. I actually sprayed the cockroaches, so I hope it took some of that poison with it. I hate killing bugs like cockroaches and bedbugs because I hate killing any living thing, but if I don't do it, it'll leave trails of feces everywhere and make me sick. I got sick several times. It's bad for the health. I noticed that some of the bedbugs are very tiny. It might have came with me. I don't know. I guess overtime, I will find it and kill it before it matures into an adult and lays more nasty eggs. I think bedbugs and cockroaches have to mature into full size before it could do that.

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:: 2011 4 April :: 12.15 am
:: Mood: tired

Moving out
Came back from Utah today. My day is super hectic. No rest. Moving out tomorrow to stay with my mom's friend. Cleaned and cleaned all day until now. Still didn't finish because I have too much junk. Still trying to decide what to keep and what to throw away. Very exhausting. My goal is to only have a luggage, duffel bag and a backpack. It's hard to decide. I'll be moving to Utah next month when I graduate. I have to be out by 6pm tomorrow, but I still have all this junk. *sad face*

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:: 2011 25 March :: 11.44 pm

I planned on taking off today, but the snow storm caused the road to close down. Hopefully, tomorrow will be okay. I want to leave as soon as possible because my spring break starts today. I cancelled my internship for a whole week, so I want this trip to be worth it.

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:: 2011 25 March :: 1.35 am
:: Mood: sleepy

Obsessed with vegetables
Vegetables are my candies/snacks. I always wolf down vegetables whenever I get the chance because I barely cook at home nowadays. Not having time means I have to buy food at school. I get 50% off, which makes it perfect. I like that my classmates always piles my plate with great amounts of veggies. I don't know why I came to be obsessed with eating veggies and fruits. When I'm hungry, I go for vegetables. I think it's cuz I feel the difference. I used to be weak and can't really run. Now I can run/walk fast when I stop eating meat. I eat it once a week because my sister doesn't have taste buds for vegan foods. She said it's not filling. I would like to make yellow curry veggies, but she doesn't like eating only veggies. So I had to do chicken. Here is my lunch. I eat something like this most of the time.

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:: 2011 19 March :: 11.33 pm

Mars Needs Moms, a terrific film
Saturday was the weirdest movie-going experience I have ever had! I thought I might have been the only one in the whole theater auditorium watching Mars Needs Moms, but some old guy came in, so I wasn't the only one. I sat in the upper top and he sat in the middle. The theater should have been more prepared though. I paid money to watch this movie in the morning. Yes, I know it's 11am, but there is a morning show. They should get their stuff together. They tried playing the movie for 25 minutes. The movie ended up starting at 11:30am I believe. Towards the end, the sound went off. I was very irritated, so I told the theater worker to go back to the part when the sound went off. She was nice and did it for me. I was able to finish watching Mars Needs Moms even though there was an interruption towards the end. I finished watching the film alone because I guess the old guy was fed up, so he left. He should have stayed. Oh well. It was indeed an excellent film. I knew about the film last year, and always wanted to watch it, but since there are so many movies I thought I would skip it. Glad I didn't. It was way too amazing! That explains why it's a box office flop. People don't like to watch good movies. In a way, the movie was sort of 80's in the sense. I thought it was very science fiction for an animated film. Aliens, outerspace, very emotional. The reason I really loved this movie is because I love my mom. This movie is obviously about moms. A kid saving a mom sounds neat. That's exactly what I would do if my mom was in any danger. I just love this movie so much. I can understand why it didn't appeal to the majority because it looks very appealing to me. What is appealing to me doesn't appeal to others. No one has ever heard of these movies: Paperhouse, Mindwarp, A Troll in Central Park, etc.. etc.. Some bands I love that no one listens to: Ex-Voto, Nosferatu, Theatre of Ice...

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:: 2011 16 March :: 7.25 pm

Outdated
I don't realize how much the world had changed. I was stuck in the past. I hadn't gone shopping for a few years due to not having a lot of money. Two days a week, I cleaned my room little by little so last day of staying in San Fran wouldn't be much of a burden. I noticed the stuff and the pricing at certain stores I used to love really have changed so much. 1) Hot Topic: No longer dark/black, not everything is about rock music anymore. 2) Rasputin: The Gothic music section became smaller. DVD's seem cheaper?

Okay I'm not making sense. People prefer to watch their stuff online probably. I feel old/outdated at the fact that I still use CD's, CD player and a 1GB mp3 player. I noticed my mp3 is starting to broke down. The back cover went soft and it broke on it's own because it's fragile. I still use it because it plays the music well. The sound is fine. I don't plan on buying a new one yet. I don't really like to listen to music when I'm walking. Now I hate taking the bus. I prefer to walk. It seems like the bus is always packed now? or is it bad timing? It just seems like everywhere is crowded now. It didn't use to be like that..

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