:: 2011 30 June :: 11.24 am
:: Mood: tired

I love Utah
I didn't have a goodnight sleep last night. I've been sleeping on an improper pillow. I didn't buy a pillow yet because I thought I'd be okay with sleeping on a towel. Usually I tend to wake up late, but I had a terrible dream. Not a nightmare. Just an irritating one that woke me up.

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:: 2011 27 June :: 2.36 am
:: Mood: blah

I am so friggin bored. It's not even funny anymore. I like living here, but I have so much to hide. I'm just going to be open about everything now. Everything in life is good except one thing that I cannot change. What I am right now. Not the person I am, but this thing that stood in my way. Not a sickness or a disease. I'm worried about being unproductive. I'm worried about not getting hired. Fresh off from college and still have tons to learn in life. Am I capable? No encouragements right now. I'm just afraid that I won't be able to hold a job, but my mind tells me firmly that I can hold a job if I'm hired. Don't even know what I'm saying anymore. I've been extremely bored. Now I'm just blabbing tons of random thoughts and words. Nothing makes sense. I talk to my friends about tons of random crap that didn't need to be said. It seems like I always have to wait for time. No motivations lately. Life is good, but I'm just unproductive. It makes me feel guilty everyday that I can't find a job yet.

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:: 2011 18 June :: 9.50 pm

Watching Movies
Summer weather in SLC is the best. I get to experience real hot weather for once. There was barely summer living in SF. SLC has the perfect weather. Snowing and cold for half a year is good. I went to my first movie screening here. I saw "The Art of Getting By" on June 14th and really liked it. I knew it was a simple movie about a teen living in New York City trying to get by, but it sort of reflected some parts of my life. School wasn't too hard, but getting yourself to do school work was hard. I liked the movie a lot because I understood the city life, which is why I wanted a change. I would go into it more explaining every single scene, but it would turn into a movie review.

I went to see Green Lantern today. I liked it a lot too. I think one of the reason is because the team put so much effort into it, cost them $300 million. So that's definitely a lot of work. For us moviegoers, we should just enjoy the film. I read some stuff online that people said Ryan Reynolds is a boring actor or something, but I thought he did good as Hal Jordan. There were some funny parts, entertaining action, interesting special effects and the message I really liked. They really emphasize will and fear. The visuals were super and flawless.

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:: 2011 11 June :: 5.20 pm
:: Mood: okay

Bored
I sort of feel bored lately. Not the boring I don't have anything to do, but bored because I don't have a stable job yet. I have to wait for one more week, then I'll be working. I would like to go places without spending any money, but one of my bike tire is flat. I have to get that fixed first otherwise I won't be able to go places yet. Without my bike, everywhere looks like miles and miles of blocks. It would literally take me 1 hour if I walk from home to the theatre. A bike would only take me 17 minutes.

I like living in Utah. Nice quiet place.

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:: 2011 5 June :: 12.26 am

I wish I can be myself anywhere and everywhere I go. I constantly have to hold myself back all the time. It makes me tired.

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:: 2011 30 May :: 2.18 pm
:: Mood: tired

New job
I took on a temporary server job at Utah to start off. First day of job training was alright. I hadn't ride a bike since 6 years. I got a bike like a week ago, and really started riding today. Just came back from work. Now I have a headache. Maybe cuz I'm sort of nervous for the new job. I was also tired and sweating from riding the first time. Then I went straight to work. I guess I need to wake up earlier so I have time to eat and take it easy in the morning. Overall, today wasn't bad for a Memorial Day.

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:: 2011 28 May :: 2.06 am

Updating this journal on my itouch. I'm glad those days are over. I'm out of SF, just the way I have imagined it. Not sure exactly what I would do with my life. Just going with the flow. Anywhere God leads me. I think it's funny how I went back to playing FarmVille again and there is GagaVille. I don't like Lady Gaga, but FarmVille is forcing me to like her and her music. I guess I sort of like her music now?

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