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2013 18 October :: 5.29pm
I'm going to be as optimistic as much as I could from this day on. I've had some of the worst times of my life. It was dead scary and frightening but I choose to forget and start a new beginning. I've talked to my new co-workers and it really got me thinking. Other people had faced worst than me. I'm going back to my old routine again. Sleeping, eating, doing nothing, laziness in my room, working and coming up with new food ideas and I also plan on creating many pieces of artwork. I'm not that great of an artist but I can sketch because I have ideas. Cooking is my life. I love to work around food. It's always interesting.
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2013 13 October :: 7.13pm
If he was in the same situation, he wouldn't listen to me either.
Sometimes I wish there would just be support from his end and not judgment. I live in constant fear of saying the wrong thing... that it will lead to a disagreement... that I will feel worse by telling him something.
Instead...
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2013 11 October :: 6.43pm
:: Mood: sad
I have so much issues in my mind. I think no one wants to be around me anymore. I feel like I'm living an unfulfilled life. Tropical island is nice and all. I now have a job, but I feel like something is still missing in my life. It's incomplete. I have a place to stay, 4 meals a day, an easygoing boss, a good salary but it's still bleh. Maybe it's cuz I don't have my own transportation on this island. I don't have friends and I have a hard time trusting people because people can be cruel. When I said cruel, it is real cruel. Voodoo and stuff. I felt content before, but I gotta be honest with myself completely. I'm happy with everything but I feel empty. My new job is not challenging and my co-workers are so neutral. I don't feel any connection with these folks. I don't know what's next. I probably think too much or make a big deal out of everything, but I can't help it. I'm a pretty depressing person. Wake up, go to work, come back to my room, sleep.. That'll probably be my life from now on. Sigh.
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2013 8 October :: 8.40pm
Black magic and voodoo is real. It's no joke.
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2013 8 October :: 7.44pm
:: Mood: blank
I have come to a conclusion that life and fairy tales are two completely different stories. You have to live life with no expectations about the outcome. I have stopped expecting that I will stay at a new job for more than a year. I don't have hopes that things will go as planned. I don't want to expect anything from anyone. I wanted things to go my way but they never did so I just stop caring. All I know is that I'll do my best at work.
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2013 4 October :: 2.56pm
:: Mood: creative
Halloween & other
My mom dislikes Halloween, but I like the holiday. It puts me in spirit for some reason. I recently saw the news update on Geektyrant about Guillermo del Toro's Epic Opening for THE SIMPSONS Treehouse of Horror XXIV! I'm pretty excited. I don't watch the Simpsons, but if there is a Halloween themed episode, I would be up for it. http://geektyrant.com/news/2013/10/3/guillermo-del-toros-epic-opening-for-the-simpsons-treehouse-of-horror-xxiv
I just also recently found out that I really really liked Pokémon. I had liked Pokémon in elementary school and I forgot all about it when I am growned, but I was browsing some wallpapers on my ipod and found Pokémon artwork. They're cute. I like 'em.
October is a lovely month. I got a new job, a new apartment, plus I feel all better about past issues now. I am able to let go of the past finally. I will be starting over clean and fresh tomorrow with a better attitude about life. I have been down for a year. Now I am all better.
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2013 4 October :: 2.45pm
:: Mood: relieved
Ko Samui
I had a dream that I met Guillermo del Toro. I don't have the rest of my dream details because it was about a week ago that I dreamt. I just remembered now.
I am now living in Ko Samui island. My dad and I went job hunting like crazy. I finally found a job. I'll be back to working in the kitchen as a chef de partie. I tried the front desk job like a month ago and I wasn't suitable. I love cooking, so I'm glad to be back in the kitchen. I can't wait to craft up some new dishes with recipes I found online. I love european cuisine. I am happy everytime I cook up a european dish plus I will be learning how to cook asian, vegetable/fruit carvings, enhancing my knowledge of baking breads and desserts if the opportunity is readily available.
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