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2004 11 October :: 9.45pm
I think there is something wrong with me.
I've now decided to play basketball. I hope it goes alright.
I'm thinking of going to college at SBU as well. Unless there is some other opportunities that surface in various area's of the country.
That is all I know.
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2004 6 October :: 6.35pm
My dad is such an asshole.
I get so tired of his bullshit.
I hate the way im always wrong in his eyes.
I'm sorry im not fucking you.
Forget I ever fucking tried.
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2004 5 October :: 8.10pm
Things I like:
1. Mountain Dew Code Red
2. Catching the scent of someone you remember from the past.
3. Catching yourself in a stare and the feeling of it.
4. Sleeping in complete darkness.
5. Listening to music of any type.
6. Playing softball.
7. M&M’s, any kind but the regular ones.
8. Brown eyes.
9. Tall people.
10. The feeling after you get something completely unexpected.
11. Guys in pink shirts.
12. Labrador’s.
13. Things that make you think.
14. Silence.
15. Darkness.
16. The smell of rain before, during, and after it comes.
17. Feeling comfortable around people.
18. Cuddling with someone during the winter.
19. Fireplaces.
20. Watching a good movie.
21. Shoes.
22. Mystifying objects.
23. Reading.
24. Seeing things differently than everyone else.
25. Knowing the answer when no one else does.. but not telling it.
26. Watching my dog figure out how to eat something bigger than his mouth.
27. Smirnoff Ice.
28. Thinking about spending my entire life with someone I cant get enough of.
29. Lighters of any kind, size, or color.
30. People who think.
I missed alot but, that gives you an idea.
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2004 2 October :: 11.35am
Our make-up game yesterday went well.
We won, 15-0 in the 5th inning!
I was looking foward to the Art Walk but, unfortunately, it was not as fun as I had originally believed. I guess I just wasn't into the artsy mood last night.
I had a dream on the way home on the bus that everyone that had went to school yesterday was dead. Strange, eh?
I dislike being worried.. and I am. But I wont share why for the mere fact that none of you would not have any idea as to what I may be talking about.
Today is really cold. 54 degrees at nearly noon. Brrr... It's a good day to be sad.. cuddle up in a nice blanket or with someone. *shrug* But, I wont be doing that.
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2004 30 September :: 7.30pm
I'm just so tired of messing up.
*shrug* I lost our ballgame tonight.
I miss Godric. I miss his encouragement.. I need his encouragement. Is that greedy of me? I hope not.. but, if it is.. I'm greedy.
I'm out of things to say.. well, not really.. I just don't feel like saying them.
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2004 23 September :: 9.45pm
:: Music: Eve 6 - Inside Out
I'm in a decent mood for once.
Most likely you know who to thank for that.
Three Day weekend. Hooray, eh?
Tuesday I get to play softball again! Finally, I can't wait.
I got voted for four categories in Senior Best: Best Smile, Best Eyes, Best Dressed, and Farthest From Reality. What do you think about that?
I didn't know I was so special. <--exageration.
'Tis all.
..like to take some time..
..clear away everything ive planned..
..was it life i betrayed for the shape that im in..
..its so hard to fail..
..its not easy to win..
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2004 19 September :: 12.50pm
..dying from the inside out..
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2004 11 September :: 7.45pm
:: Music: Tantric - Mourning
9/11
R.I.P. to all of those who died three years ago.
Beyond that,
We lost both of our games today.
It was horrible.
Hopefully Monday's game will be better.
..i'll crawl back into my cave..
..that's how I'll make it..
..beauty thus become..
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2004 4 September :: 4.20pm
Would you get me a glass of water and a couple of asprin?
Why? Do you have a headache?
No, but I want to avoid one.
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2004 30 August :: 7.00pm
The time has come.
It has been a few since an update.
I apparently pissed my dad off yesterday. We had just gotten to Springfield, he turns around and comes back home. So I just got in my car and drove my fucking self!
I give up. I can't get along with him.
We've had two more games since my last update.. we lost them both. But, since my knee is messed up I dont get to play anyway.
Thanks to Adam for wishing me luck that one night even though I was out the rest of the game.
That is all I know.
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2004 24 August :: 8.20pm
Well, first softball game was last night.
We lost. But, not by as much as last year.
I don't have alot to say.
Ellen, I bought your Venus Fly Trap today. I don't know when it will get here but as soon as it does, its yours.
Also, if you still want one of those mountain climbing hook things, I have one for you. A Mountain Dew one.
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2004 22 August :: 2.30pm
[:.Puddle of Mudd :: Blurry.:]
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Everything's so blurry
and everyone's so fake
and everybody's empty
and everything is so messed up
Pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble and I crawl
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You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that i'll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
Imagine where you are
There's oceans in between us
but that's not very far
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Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
Well you shoved it in my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
Well you shoved it my face
..
Everyone is changing
There's no one left that's real
So make up your own ending
and let me know just how you feel
‘Cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world surrounds you
I stumble and I crawl
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You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that I will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
but that's not very far..
Nobody told me what you thought
Nobody told me what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Told you when to runaway
Nobody told you where to hide
Nobody told you what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn
Showed you when to runaway
..
This pain you gave to me
..
You take it all
You take it all away...
This pain you gave to me
You take it all away
This pain you gave to me
Take it all away
This pain you gave to me
..
The sold out concert was awesome.
Nickelback, Puddle of Mudd and Finger Eleven fucking rock.
A guy that looked almost identical to Bryan sat infront of me.. he was nice though.
Ask me if you wish to know any details.
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2004 17 August :: 7.10pm
You know.. rarely does a night go by that I don't dream about me being dead.
I either get shot, ran over, or jump from a high surface due to me being curious.
It's somewhat amusing to the point of me thinking about them throughout the day, wondering how much each thing that happens in my dreams would hurt.
But then, I give up.. because it seems like there would be little pain.. just a release.
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2004 16 August :: 9.15pm
*grabs knee in pain*
I fucked up my knee. Somehow.
It pisses me off... alot.
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2004 12 August :: 10.00pm
*props eyes open*
I'm fucking dead.
I've done more this week than all summer.
Sunday, I'm sleeping.. all damn day!
'Have you joined your local KKK?'..
Who the fuck calls and asks that?
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