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2007 22 October :: 2.14pm
:: Mood: crushed
Failure In Love
Okay, so i thought i would up-date since it's been a while. which is what i always end up saying. I dated this guy for a little over 2 months. he never wanted to be official. he always wanted to make sure it would work out. I am always attracted to the inexperienced ones who in the end decide that im not worth thier time. I hate that. I just want a cute guy who i can trust, eventually. not so good in the trusting anyone department. boys are just out to break my heart. i have never been in love and part of me wants to but the other part just wants to protect myself so that i could never get hurt. so far im doing a good job of protecting myself cause i have never cried over any of the guys i had relationships with. never! I cried about rob only b/c i felt so bad for what i had done to him...but other than that....nothing. Some how it's always my fault. i always say something that makes the guy think about whether or not he really wants to be with me. I am hopeless.
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2007 21 October :: 8.44pm
why does this always happen to me?
life was just starting to go good, had a girl friend. truck was running good. then all of a sudden someone wanted to shit on me. had a minor truck problem and got dumped in the same fucking weekend. i don't think this weekend could have gotten much worse.
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2007 21 October :: 12.30am
you know, it's always when things are just starting to look up, then they all just start to come crashing down. I'm still trying to figure how the hell i screwed this one up. i guess i'll never really no
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2007 20 October :: 5.26pm
Canada is on to my spying and has moved its operations underground.
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2007 25 September :: 11.33pm
why would he be telling me sorry, especially when i basically stole his girl friend. it just don't make sense to me. i don't get it.
-Ty
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cowsgomoo!!!
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2007 22 July :: 10.12am
So, I'm not dead... yet, if any of you care.
But I have noticed that people that completely ignored me in school, or looked down on me, or were "too cool" to associate with me during school now all of a sudden want to be buddy-buddy now that I'm in the Air Force. What the hell is up with that shit? Anyone with any ideas, I'd love to hear why.
Other than that every thing's okay, so I'm gonna go now... you all have fun
-me
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2007 22 May :: 3.43am
this is stupid
http://woodtv.com/Global/story.asp?S=6546307&nav=menu44_1
if you don't want people on your wireless internet you should secure it.
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2007 13 May :: 10.41pm
New car.... Yay
1989 Isuzu Trooper
That is all
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2007 6 May :: 8.54pm
:: Mood: my buzz is almost dead
:: Music: something interesting at the coffee shop
Rolling with the Punches.
I haven't updated in months and months. I have been so absorbed in this whole business of making a living and a life, with Dustin. It's definitely drained me. I did not do as well in school as I probably could have because I didn't focus. I'm off of school until the end of June: I am taking one summer course to catch up my chemistry credits. I already had to take Bio twice because I skipped too many classes(including exams) my
first semester.
I just moved on Friday. Almost on a whim, Dustin and I signed a lease for this little apartment near WMU campus two weeks ago and just... moved out. It's hard because we were living with brother in the house my parents own and now he's left with a ditsy, deadbeat 'model' (whom I personally kicked the shit out of one night a couple months back), and her brother. They don't know what he has to go through just to live in that house. It's complicated, I guess.
I haven't really made any friends down here at all. The one time I went out with some of the people I work with, I got everyone kicked out of the bar, and I haven't been invited since. I'm doing a little better at keeping the few friends I've got floating around Grand Rapids (and Chicago), and those are the ones that reall y matter to me; but there are many that I lost touch with and miss :( I don't dwell on it, I try to move forward.
Everything will be fine, it just isn't yet..
Peace, for now.
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2007 6 May :: 10.47am
:: Mood: annoyed
I am still worried about getting a date to prom. I might just ask a random guy...Sam has a date now so i HAVE to get one. Although, everyone keeps telling me that I'm being too picky. Why wouldn't I be picky? I want my senior prom to be wonderful.
~A
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2007 5 May :: 10.39am
Alive....Birthday.....19
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2007 22 April :: 4.52pm
So, I'm pretty sure that I won't be home until Thanksgiving
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2007 18 April :: 9.04pm
:: Mood: tired
Life
So, we broke up. Like 3 weeks ago. He said our relationship didn't go the way he thought it would and he lost the connection he felt at the beginning. I kind of understand but it still hurt alot. I can't believe I am still not over it but i'm not. Age doesn't really matter when it comes to feelings. Well, prom is in a little more than a month. I am currently looking for a date. Since I no longer have a boyfriend, I actually have to look for a date. I want to be voted onto the prom court but I know that i'm not that popular. Why would everyone vote for me?
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2007 28 February :: 8.55pm
I would just like to let anyone who cares, know that I am now in a relationship...kind of. We don't act any differant than when we were just friends except we kissed. If that say you're in a relationship than the world has lost it. Anyway, I'm not sure if it's going to last. I don't think high school relationships last anyway but maybe this one will be different. Probably not. I am going to college next year and he will still be a junior in high school. That....is....interesting. Anyway, thanks. I miss you guys. Have a wonderful day/night. Hopefully we have a snow day tomorrow...fingers crossed.
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2007 19 February :: 1.51pm
Alright, just to prove that I'm alive, and that I didn't fall off the edge of the earth, here is an update for those of you who don't look at any of my million other sites. I'm in Monterey, California. Yes, it is beautiful here, although very expensive. The next time I'll have a chance to come home is either gonna be Easter or late July, i believe. Once I find out more, I'll let you all know. But this, my friends, has been an update
-me
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2007 31 January :: 4.35pm
:: Mood: confused
Swirl
Hey everyone. Haven't posted anything in a while. The only reason I decided to update is because someone left me a comment. I get so many of those...not, Anyway, I am going to swirl with a sophomore. I have to drive because he is only 15. I know...I look kind of desparate. If I was desparate I wouldn't go out with a sophomore. I actually think Ryan is a really nice kid, and he is pretty good looking. My mom said he looks too young. Oh, well. I am excited! Hopefully his mom doesn't think I am bad. I guess I would wonder too. I think I'm starting to have doubts. Oh, man...
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2006 5 December :: 11.16pm
Alright, apparently I mean nothing to anyone except a select few. Those of you who either made it to my party, had a valid excuse, or otherwise tried to get in touch with me "Thank you". From the bottom of my heart I thank you. And, if you don't know what the hell I'm talking about, than this has nothing to do with you, so thank you too.
I leave in 5 days for the Air Force, and I just want to say goodbye to all of you who care about me. For all of you who don't, good riddance. Adios, Goodbye, however you want to put it. I doubt I will see you all again, so, with that I leave.
-me
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2006 29 November :: 6.49pm
:: Mood: amused
Some people seriously annoy the crap out of me. Oh, well. I guess you just have to live with it. Not everyone can be nice all of the time. It's not really their fault anyway. I always feel bad for people who have to pick on others just to feel the satisfaction of thinking they are better than someone else.
Don't you hate it when the only guys who ask you out are the ones that you don't like as boyfriends?
I have had 4 different guys ask me out so far. #One just wanted some booty. #Two asked me out before but is just a good friend. #Three is my little brother's friend who thinks I like him, just because I smile at him!!! And #Four is a really good friend, and that's it.
I am a teachers assistant at the middle school this trimester. Whenever my class(8th) does anything stupid I think of how immature I was at that age. I also think of some people who haven't really changed all that much.
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2006 10 November :: 12.44pm
So, How are things with everyone? The puppies are so cute! It is their 1 month birthday today.
I seriously dislike people right now.
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2006 9 November :: 12.45am
We need to party this weekend.
P.S. If you're not one of the We.. just dont bother
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