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phil-himself

:: 2011 29 April :: 10.13am



Got a hole in my head
Everything falls right out
Through my ears, through my eyes
Makes no difference where you are

You wanna know how I do it?
I do it all right
You wanna know how I do it
I do it all right

I got a hole and I’ll never go home
There ain’t nothing can fill it up
I got a hole and I’ll never go home
There ain’t no one thing

A new road, a new road
A new road, a new road
You never get right back
A new road
You never get it right back
A new road

You wanna know how I do it?
You wanna know how I do it
You wanna know how I do it
I do it all right

I gotta hole and I’ll never go home
There ain’t nothing that can fill it up
I gotta hole and I’ll never go home
There ain’t no one thing out there

Not me with a gun to my head
I can let it go
Not me with a gun to my head
I can let it go
So I sing

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phil-himself

:: 2011 27 April :: 12.19pm

sometimes you just deal

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phil-himself

:: 2011 25 April :: 10.55pm

I read journals from friends and myself back to 2006 today and I'm wondering where the hell the time went and what the hell happened to us all.

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phil-himself

:: 2011 22 April :: 1.34pm

2011 has been quite the adventure so far, where it will take me next I wonder

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phil-himself

:: 2011 14 April :: 8.27am

You're So Vague - Queens of the Stone Age
"Girl I think I love you and the mess you made."

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phil-himself

:: 2011 31 March :: 10.06am

Queens of The Stone Age - The Bronze

I've been waiting
Waiting under things
That rise in the morning
I've been holding
Holding back so long
You can own it
Take it off my hands
Do me a favor
Nothin wasted
Just fingerfucked and
Busted up all at once

I'm so lost out on the highway
With no direction left to go
Everyday sit up and wonder
Where it was I started from

The more you've found
The less you've been around

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phil-himself

:: 2011 30 March :: 9.47am

How long do you stick your neck out till it gets severed off?

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phil-himself

:: 2011 28 March :: 11.54am

gettin' pushed around by the county, glad I'm done with Jury Duty.

it's fuckin' stupid

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phil-himself

:: 2011 27 March :: 11.05am

Always WINNING!

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phil-himself

:: 2011 24 March :: 2.57pm

I'm too fucking grizzled and stubborn to stay down for too long.

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phil-himself

:: 2011 20 March :: 7.00pm

Waiting, this is painful. Sometimes you just have to roll those dice and see how they land.

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phil-himself

:: 2011 4 March :: 2.28pm

WINNING

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phil-himself

:: 2011 23 February :: 11.08am

I'm a grown ass man.

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banana

:: 2011 18 February :: 9.42am
:: Mood: good

Pieces of Muffin
There are pieces of muffin in my coffee this morning.

There is something that I have come to realize after reading my past posts from high school.
#1: I was immature.
#2: I was boy crazy.
#3: I was selfish.
I wish someone would have been up front and honest with me about my actions. Even though I pulled good grades all throughout high school, you can definitely tell I did not care about such things. This really surprises me because I did really well in high school. If I weren't actually trying my hardest, think of how well I COULD have done.

Looking at my life right now, I know that if I tried to take on one more thing, I probably wouldn't be able to function correctly. I know my limits for what I can take on and still get accomplished. It seems like in high school, I didn't even try those limits. If I weren't so concerned about boys and what other people thought of me, I might have actually had more friends.

Four years later, I can tell I am very different from the person I was at Cedar Springs High School. My mentor thinks I have no confidence now, he should have seen me back then. I personally think that I have come a long way out of my shell. Boys aren't that important to me anymore because I know that it is my choice to have a boyfriend or not. It is not up to those silly boys and whether they like me. It is up to me what I want from life and what I will get out of life.

If I weren't so focused on other things, I might still be friends with more than two people from high school. I feel like I am that girl you run into from high school that you know, but you remember not really liking all that much.

There are some things that you must do but there are many more that you choose to do. I am not going to use the excuse that I am too busy anymore. I am going to make time to see everyone before I move out of the country. If I don't stop to smell the roses once in a while, I might only get pricked riding by.

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banana

:: 2011 17 February :: 11.18am
:: Mood: cheerful

Current Situations
I have realized lately that time is creepy by me. I haven't really been able to sit down and reflect on what I want and where I see myself going. Yesterday, I had a wonderful conversation with my professor/acedemic advisor Quincy. Quincy is sitting on the LEETA board with my mentor at my internship. Tedi and Quince chatted briefly about me. I was told that the things said weren't all that great. It was exchanged that I could be moody and have a negative outlook. Also that I have potential but I don't realize it because I am not confident enough. This has been stewing in my mind since yesterday and I have come to realize that these things are completely true. I have been so caught up in school, my 2 jobs, and my internship that I haven't had time to just vent to anyone. Therefore, my venting has been put on the shoulders of my internship mentors. I think in order to change this and become the person that I want to be and the positive person that I thought I always was, I am going to need to take time to myself. I am not superwomen and I do need help sometimes. It has been a long and winding road for me to realize this. I think it partly had to do with the conversation I have had with my Dad as well. We have become so much closer since we have been able to be honest with each other. I have been so stressed and focused on so many other things, that I have been coming off as indifferent and uncaring. I know this will never allow me to excel and be the leader I want to be. I am going to start thinking more about my goals and how to achieve them in the short time I have before my graduation. Only 2 more months to go!

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phil-himself

:: 2011 28 January :: 10.49am

Kyuss and early Queens of the Stone Age

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phil-himself

:: 2010 24 December :: 8.05pm

Downtown Browntown

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phil-himself

:: 2010 21 December :: 7.33am

USA #1

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phil-himself

:: 2010 15 December :: 10.26pm

If this deal goes through I will be a member of the land owning community.

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phil-himself

:: 2010 8 December :: 7.25am

Your music is bad and you should feel bad.

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