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piiCk me up now , ii need you SOO bad .
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2004 13 April :: 10.41 pm
:: Music: twenty3-- yellowcard
i was at mias today.. watching maria break down. her tears are running down here cheeks making puddles of sorrow.. i cant satnd seeing ppl cry.. but itz the cycle of life. her best friend's husband died today. and they were madly in love.. 2 kidzz. he was dry walling a house, and fell off the edge. 2 stories up. the doctors told her that he wasnt gonna make it. and the kidz had no idea until they came home from school.
imagine
be strong, beleive
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2004 10 April :: 12.51 pm
:: Music: hoobastank-- the reason
I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
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2004 10 April :: 12.48 pm
:: Music: hoobastank-- the reason
im not a perfect person
why is life so hard.. why cant everything be easy.. wouldnt that be good for everyone? if god loves us why does he make pain, suffering, guilt, and hate? why are ppl always upset? unhappy?
1 dr0p everything |
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2004 9 April :: 9.10 pm
:: Mood: _hAPPY_
:: Music: 99x
last night was ok.. i had a softball game that kayla went to. "wow, she had straight teeth" lol. we (unfortunatley) lost 3 to 7.. i made a run.. then afterwards we went to kayla's where we watched swimfan.. [[good movie]] ate matzo and left the cream cheese out. stayed up til 2.3o talkin. woke up at 11 ate yogurt, talked, discussed our plans [[what plans?!]] lol around 2 chris came over looked thru the yearbook. lol. we walked around blind and chased the ice cream man, and butterflies. we hung out at kaylas til like 6. went to the mall. had s0 much fun.. chris got hit on by some scary gothic chic. lol. we went and got pictures taken lol. got 20 cent lollipops, window shopped and left lucky pennies behind. the trip to the mall was followed by my dad interrogating chris.. lol. "im a skateboarder dude" lol. chris searched for his house.. him and kayla had some arguments about where he lived.. and you know what?? we still cant find that dam beanie!!! lol..
iight ne wayz, now im back at kaylas spending the night AGAIN lol.. tomorro i hav to wake up at like 9.3o b/c i hav to go home, and get ready for the play.. chicago. afterwards is roberts party,, should be alright.. we'll see.. lol.. ne wayz today was AWESOME!!!! and i love chris and kayla this much more> ... lol.. we gotta go!! muah!!
love
LaLa
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2004 3 April :: 1.09 am
:: Mood: _ConFuSed_
.,"*MaRk On THe pHONe*",.
hey, sorry i havnt updated in awhile.. ive been pretty busy. i got adios. black kenny andresons. P i m P lol.. im talkin to mark on the phone right now about mia, and her gayness and poserish life. lol.. tryin to be cool. wear mah shitt.. not happenin. grrr....
im at baileys right now!! wow.. im gettin really pissed.. AHHH.. ne whos.. im gonna go cause im gettin really tired..
muah!!!
always
LaLa
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2004 27 March :: 12.32 am
colleens party was so fun...
alexa, emily, lacey, brittany, robert, andrew, zach, colleen, me, calli, heather, and some other ppl were there.. we had so much fun singing say my name on karaoke and calli lacey and me sung the thong song...
i love calli moore so much she is so nice and so fun to hang out with.. and shes great at pool.. lol. well hey i made a cd and im gonna go listen to it.. muahz!!!
2 dr0p everything |
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2004 21 March :: 7.06 pm
andrew not liking me= understandable
andrew ignoring me instead of just breaking up with me= that bastard
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2004 21 March :: 6.19 pm
twinkle twinkle little star.. screw the world and everyone in it..
hey hey everyone.. including calli who [[somehow]] got my journal address and reads it. lol.
im in sarasota right now. FUN. my bro and dad are settin up a bball hoop 4 my cuz b/c itz his b-day tomorro, 11. kayla.. if u still need a place to dvertise your icons an address for that is
www.textads.biz
oh yeah and i found a whole bunch more iconz for ya.. i searched blurty and got like 15... that proves how much i love you lmfao..
um lets see,, i went with bailey and her family to a deserted island.. got burned like a b_tch..
i talked to my bro's gf britney.. shes really nice.. thought i would let everyone kno that!! lol..
im talkin 2 robert about b*****.. lol um, daniella [[mark's gf]], jenn [[mark's ex]] liz, eric, and matt.. all my homies lol.
good news::
i can go out for track and feild.. so bring it on.. b/c now that i got my appendix removed.. im lighter=faster. lol.. yeah right..
okey dokey.. ima go eat..
-x0
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2004 17 March :: 9.01 pm
HapPy sT PaTrIckS dAy!!!!
hey hey guyz, im at my neighbors right now.. very fun, there's a whole bunch of ppl.
i was talkin to calli and she didnt kno chris was moving.. hey now i finally hav some thing to brag about.. lol
anywayz my spring break so far..
friday:: mia and i went to the bowling alley thinking that malike would be there on time of course we were wrong.. so we ended up going to the movies and seeing him. he told us that he went to the bowling alley and we werent therr.. lol.
well i dont hav time for ne more!!!! love ya!!!
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2004 15 March :: 2.59 am
:: Mood: _TiReD_
right now im at mias in marks room with lacey, mia, mark, markus, and yours truly.. cuddling... very intimatly lol.. j/p
today i went to the beach with bailey. shopped at ft myers beach and found mom the cutest bathing suit.. of course, when she finally finds a cute one she doesnt want to keep it. lol. w/e.
umm.. friday mia and i went bowling.. [[well tryed to at least]] no one met us there so we ended up going to the movies. met up with a few ppl. FUN
saturday bailey, spencer, mr. underwater cell phone, and me went to sanctuary [[the skate park]] we met up with chris. who wouldnt skate until like the last 15 minutes we were there. he told me that he would "grind" [[horny bastard]] lol j/p. if i ollied off a three foot high thingy.. i didnt, he didnt. instead he went to the box thing or something. i feel really bad b/c we were supposed to stay there til like 5:3o but instead we left at like 3:i5...
ne wayz chris went to his mom's house up in ft. lauderdale. and he wont be back until saturday. "sunday we'll do something".. we'll see.
any wayz i g2g... love yall
LaLa
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2004 9 March :: 11.32 am
:: Music: evanescence
hello
playground school bell rings again
rain clouds come to play again
has no one told you she's not breathing?
hello
im your mind giving you someone to talk to
hello
if i smile and dont beleive
soon i know i'll wake from this dream
dont try to fix me im not broken
hello
im the lie living for you so you can hide
dont cry
suddenly i know im not sleeping
hello
im still here
all thats left of yesterday
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2004 9 March :: 11.16 am
:: Music: whisper--evanescence
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catch me as i fall
say your here and it's all over now
speaking to the atomosphere
no one's here and i fall into myself
this truth drives me into madness
i know i can stop the pain
if i will it all away
dont turn away
sont give into the pain
dont try to hide
tho they're screaming your name
dont close your eyes
god knows what lies behind them
dont turn out the light
never sleep never die
i'm frightened by what i see
but some how i know theres much more to come
immobilized by my fear
and soon to be blinded by tears
i can stop the pain if i will it all away
dont turn away
dont give in to the pain
dont try to hide
tho they're screaming your name
dont close your eyes
god knows what lies behind them
dont turn out the light
never sleep never die
fallen angels at me feet
whispered voices at my ear
death before my eyes
lying next to me i fear
she beckons me shall i give in
upon my end shall i begin
forsaking all i've fallen for
i rise to meet the end
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2004 8 March :: 11.07 am
:: Mood: _HUrTinG_
:: Music: blink 182
IN PAAAAAIIIIIIINNNNNNN
ouch ouch ouch... i went to the doctors thursday night bc i was having really badd cramps.. i got a cat scan x rays ya know.. the whole sh-bang.. found i had appendicitis and had to get my appendix [[surgically]] removed, we're talkin pain!!lol i had to stay in the hobstical for 3 dayz.. but i had some visttors,,, thanks yall for comin'!! i was bored to tears!!! lol... kayla came and lacey and kristi, and bailey and her mom and sister brooke,, and i got a lot of gifts!! and flowers and candy so im all set.. i mean sure, i can BARELY walk! but.. lol.. the candy's great.. so i get this week off of school but, then i get the second week off to b/c we hav spring break!! awww man im gonna miss criag's birthday. i g2g!! love ya!!!
LaLa
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2004 23 February :: 8.16 pm
:: Music: give it up--fefe dobson
ummm... 4 hours till my b-day!!! today was ok.. ya know, school, what more do i hav to say. kayla wasnt at school today and i came in late b/c of my orthodontist appt.
you want her and you need her and you beg her but you deceive her
during my time in gulf middle i've learned that ppl are self centered, ignorant, perverted, and selfish... [[ANYBODY WANT TO TRANSFER??]] rumors, sluts, [[wanna-be]] pimps.. our school has got to be one of the worst.. but thatnk godd i hav all of my friendz. they're what make this school a little less selfish .. itz not "all about me" with them.. sure sometimes we have attitudes bbut who doesnt.??
well ima go to bedd... and
for all the people who hate me.. one word..
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2004 23 February :: 1.35 pm
i swear that i can go on forever again
please let me know that my one bad day will end
i will go down as your lover your friend
give me your lipz and with one kiss we begin
are you afraid of being alone? cause i am im lost without you
are you afraid of leaving tonight cause i am. im lost without you
I'll leave my room open til sunrise for you
I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you
where are you now?
i can hear footsteps
im dreaming
and if you will keep me from waking to beleive this
are you afraid of being alone? cause i am. im lost without you
are you afraid of leaving tonight cause i am. im lost without you
LoST WiThOUt You---- BlInK182
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2004 22 February :: 7.15 pm
My B-DaY iS IN 2 DaYz!!!
hey hey ... i thought of some more things i want... the sims and a
[[which i really want pretty badd..
any wayz... my weekend was good.. friday kayla and mia came over and we rented cabin fever, [[scary movie]] and american wedding [[funny]] on saturday kayla and i went to a party. and we hung out. for 2 hours. lol.. kayla's dad picked us up and we dropped kaitlyn blanchette off at her house. [[we also passed chris' so i got to c his house.. lol]] umm.. when we got home kayla and i were plannin on hittin the movies but ended up just watchin freddy vs. jason, and making funny songs out of blink 182 lol... kayla... playing sims... mad tv and snl.. cruel intentions... a fun time.. what more can i say?? lol. i had to go home at around 2:3o b/c kayla had to go to a bball game up in port charlotte.. i hope u won kaylag [[lol sims]] tell me all about it. at round 4:3o my mom and i met up with bailey and her madre' to get party supplies.. after me and my mom went to get bailey her b-day present [[and she went to get mine]] lol... we tryed goin into jcpenny's but the lady kicked me and momma out "WE'RE CLOSED'' i just dont think she knew who she was talking to.. hmm.. now im at my nrighbors house. i just had din-din.. yum. lol. im gonna go...
hollA
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2004 19 February :: 6.01 pm
:: Mood: _My BiRthDaY is soOn!!_
yo yo yo here's what i want for my birthday!
evanesence cd
britney spears cd.. [[call me gay w/e i like toxic]]
maroon 5 cd
the ring
freddy vs. jason
picture frames [[with ur guyz pics of course!]]
edison mall gift cards
a stick!!
umm... hugz!!
mah girlie mia is gettin me a lamburgini... maybe u will 2!!
a proposal!! lol
pins for mah shoes...
and ne thing else!! u guyz decide but get me a gift receipt lol
I LovE mY WiFe [s]
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2004 19 February :: 5.50 pm
:: Mood: _SiCk_
††††† i DO beleive...
hey yall.. whatz up. i just £ëä®ÑëÐ how to do letters in weirdness!!! lol looky..
pimpin huh?? lol. yeah, kayla u still need to giv me rocki's invite!!! itz vital that i kno where her house is.. oh yeah and i read vuitton's journal. i honestly think her life revolves around u and what u think lol.
any wayz mia is over and we're watching the first wives club. good movie.. yea
today i went home from school. i hav the flu:(
[[sniff]] i finished all of my homework and watched a few movies. i really dont know who all is coming to my party but hurry up and tell me!!!!! 292 8289. yall r slow.. so far itz rachel, kristi, kayla, lacey, andrew, and devin.. god.. seriously 2 weeks!!! u guyz r sad!!! hey rach-- can u bring my cd playa and my two cd's babe!! thanks!! idk wether i should go to softball... im not feelin hott.. but without me we'll prolly lose.. lol [[j/p]] well ima go slëëp!!
†ë ämÖ!!
[[donde estas tu pantalones!!]][[lol, mia]]
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2004 16 February :: 7.23 pm
:: Mood: _HaPpY_
hey yall, sorry i havnt been updating!!! this weekend was REALLY fun.. friday lacey came over and we went to the movies where we met up with bailey, andrew, his friends, kayla goldman, her friends, malike, damion, keishla, matt, alexa, keishla's friend, criag, and prolly sum more ppl. then on saturday me and lacey went to emily's b day party and went to the movies AGAIN and saw 50 first dates, great movie. then on sunday i went to sarasota where my cuzins all spent the nite and we had A LOT of fun!!! then this afternoon me and my grandma went to get a louis vuitton purse, a lv wallet thingy and a prada purse and a gucci purse for my mom... very sexy! lol. i went to the nursing home to c my great gramma... shes doing great. sure she doesnt remember me and i know ur thinking "who could forget???" lol. then my dad met me there a took me home and well... here i am... talkin to calli.. her and chris r going out... and im fine with that b/c i hav andrew!! lol.... hey ima go!! i love every one!!!!
hollA
LaLa
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2004 10 February :: 5.08 pm
:: Mood: _GOoD DaY_
have you ever been in love so bad that you would do anything?...
i have
hey yall itz me!!! sry i havnt updated latley but before u get on my case u need to get on kristis.. SHE'S the one that needs to update. lol. anywayz.. mia is over, eatin pringles n drinkin beer [[root]] lol. we're engaged... sorry bailey but it just didnt work out. i got/found her a nice wavy silver lookin thing... [[cubic zircona]] lol just playin. no diamonds. mark broke his leg in two places. blu cast and i got to sign it. the marlins [my team] beat the giants [bailey's team] 14 to 2.. and i got baileys pop fly to center... HOORAY!!!
okey dokey well i'll update more when i feel like it.
LOvE yOU
[[mia]][[lol j/p]]
LaLa
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