:: 2002 29 October :: 9.28 pm
:: Mood: crazy

I wish I could be of more use to my friends. I don't even know what is going on with half of them. I feel so useless when I don't know what is wrong. I don't know... maybe I'm being a moron again.

:: 2002 27 October :: 3.04 pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: The Battle Music on traverse Town on Kingdom Hearts

:: 2002 25 October :: 11.24 am
:: Mood: amused

Homecoming Picture
^.^ I have one picture of homecoming. You know the other person with a camera who took our picture? Well Aparently, it was developed already. I have it!!! I'll let Jackie see it asap, and I'll get it scanned for you Kate. I have a few other special people who I know would love to see it, too, so once it is scanned, it shall be e-mailed to them too.

:: 2002 25 October :: 9.42 am
:: Mood: groggy

Ummm...
OK here's what I say now. I got a new game for my ps2 last night. Kingdom Hearts. So that's a good thing. the bad thing is I feel like crap. Anyone feel like shooting me? It would probably make me feel better. Lol isn't that what you do to suffering animals? Put them out of their misery? Sounds good right now. Stupid cold...

:: 2002 24 October :: 11.35 am
:: Mood: depressed

ok aparently I have been screwing up every time I open my mouth, so I'm not saying another thing. If i cannot do something useful, then I wont do anything.

:: 2002 23 October :: 9.59 pm
:: Mood: blank

I don't know. I'm still here so theres a plus. I don't really have time to talk now,. but I wanted to make sure everyone knew I am still going. Don't worry about me, I'm not going anywhere any time son, regardless of how I am feeling. Bseides, I'm getting sick, so I can't do much anyways.

:: 2002 22 October :: 11.32 am
:: Mood: uncomfortable

I don't know... suddenyl I feel all draggin and stuff. It feels like my depression again, but I don't know what triggered it. Maybe it was something I read earlier. I will just have to try to fix it. In the mean time, I'll tell what's happened in my life... Not much. At least with nothing happening, it cannot be bad. I jsut wish I was of more use to those who need me, but the combination of qualities that make me, well, me have left me with a big debt in the helpfullness department. that and every time I find someone In real life that I like, they have no apparent interest in me. There may be one exception to this, but currently I am unsure. Who knows, maybe I'm just being a moron again. I know someone is reading this, so feel free to post a comment, since I have allowed it.


Ok an update later that night.
I'm still unsure of many things. My friends all seem to be shying away from me, and a few are hurting and confused and there's nothing I can do to help. I hate this feeling of uselessness.I need to have someone to help.

:: 2002 21 October :: 1.27 pm
:: Mood: cheerful

^.^ Here's a rare one! I'm never really cheerful, but I had a great weekend, dispite Sunday's incident (shall be later explained). On Saturday I woke up really early, which sucked, but it all balanced out when I got to the homecoming dance. I normally don't look forward to dances, but I wanted to go to this one. After I found my friend and *blind-date*, things got really great! I had so much fun, much more than I expeted to have. I didn't want the dance to end, I was having so much fun. I even was able to dance with Jackie, though I don't think she really looked forward to it very much. Oh well, I just wont ask her to dance again. I'm not really out to bother anyone, just have fun. Besides, I think someone else would like to dance with me some more, given the proper chance. All I can say is, next time, I'm going in m y normal clothes.

Sunday I sent most of the day on thr road to, from, or at, Bay city. It was ok, except for the fact my aunt hit a deer on the way home. she freaked when it happened. (Don't worry, I was in the other vehicle). I was mostly worried about my 78 year old grandfather, who luckily was uninjured. It took us another hour when it should have been 25 minutes to get home, because we were babying my aunts truck so the damaged radiator could still keep the engine cool enough to funtion properly. We guess there is about $6,000 dollars in damage there. Big time bummer. Still, the dance was so great that it made the whole weekend worth it.

:: 2002 14 October :: 9.47 pm
:: Mood: amused

dunno
I worked on Runescape again today. I don't have much time, but I got another mining level. Fot those who dont play runescape, but are truely interested in my mood, I'm ok, but I don't know if my head will stay in right place.