Leeder

:: 2004 15 June :: 12.43am

Ah, sweet stress and confusion. Am I doing the right thing?

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:: 2004 14 June :: 11.53pm
:: Mood: very well
:: Music: Eminem - Cleaning Out My Closet

Back In The Saddle
Well, now that wasn't so difficult, was it?

Good timing though.

I don't really know what to tell you. I don't want to share my insecurities, and I don't really want to gloat about my victories.

Two weeks to go 'til I get out of here... can't wait.

I'm taking this trip one slow, cautious step at a time towards a place that I wouldn't go so far as to call "perfection," but close. "Self-disciplined" isn't the best term for it, but it's the first that comes to mind.

I've been reading a lot more lately, and I'm getting a lot of new perspectives on things. I'm learning how to "rip my eyes out," if you will.

:: 2004 9 June :: 8.52pm

Hot weather is gross, and my A/C in my car is still broken. **curse and swear**

Working five days in a row is gross as well, and even grosser when three are 10 hour shifts.

I got my pictures back from Europe, and they are not nearly as cool as they should be. Yet another reason why today is a day for much grumbling.

:: 2004 8 June :: 5.33pm

Yeah, go figure.

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:: 2004 7 June :: 11.22pm

I realize that if I put on 20 lbs, I'd have bigger boobs. But I'd be chubby.

However, upon comparison, chubby girls with big boobs are often considered hotter than skinny girls with little boobs.

I'm eating graham crackers smothered in Nutella. Yum.

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:: 2004 7 June :: 11.08pm
:: Music: Black Eyed Peas- Shut Up

Is that all there is?
First night at work really kicked my ass.
I feel a personality change coming on...how cool is that guys? Another one. I don't feel the same.

I think I'm dyeing my hair tomorrow...
Back to blonde for the first time in years..I'm petrified.

Also...for those who really know me, you'll know how shocking this is...I think I've broken my caffeine addiction.

I feel really laid back. It may be time for a roadtrip.

I didn't know that pop expired, but apparently my sierra mist is past the date. Weird.

Since when does "I'll call you right back" mean more than 25 minutes?

:: 2004 4 June :: 7.57pm

I am home.

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:: 2004 2 June :: 9.39pm
:: Music: Tal Bachman - She's So High

He's en fuego today! (with the updating)
I share a couple of interesting articles for your intellectual consumption. First one's about a recent theory that Michaelango (not the Ninja Turtle) was autistic.

Did Michelangelo Have Autism?

This second one brings up some good (liberal) POVs. I really responded to the point about Dubya's recent crass act in placing Saddam's gun in display at the White House. What possible historical value does this item possess, other than reminding us of the selfish and personal reasons that our leader got us into to and perpetuating a national focus on hate and violence...

Read more..

:: 2004 2 June :: 9.15pm
:: Mood: engaged
:: Music: Union Underground - Turn Me On (Mr. Deadman)

Takers???
So, for those of you who ARE left...

Sarah McLachlan
With opening act Butterfly Boucher
Tuesday, August 24, 2004 at 8:00PM
Van Andel Arena�
Tickets go on sale Friday, June 4th at 10:00AM
Ticket prices are $45, $55 & $65

Also, I'm starting to give some thought to my proposed camping trip up to Ludington. Everyone's invited... as long as you don't suck that is :-) j/k. I'm thinkin the weekend of July 24th. Maybe drive up Friday afternoon (the 23rd) and come back Sunday the 25th. That'll give everybody enough time to get the time off of work and the such.

I would more than appreciate any input into any of these plans. :-D

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:: 2004 2 June :: 9.11pm
:: Mood: refreshed
:: Music: Bon Jovi - Thank You For Loving Me

Goodbye...
Hey, guess what...

Andy is no longer "still here." Hehe. As "aren't" Jeremy, Krystal, Steve, Melissa, Smitty, Lindsey, and Elizabeth. Peace.

I'm still here, and I'm glad you are too.

:: 2004 31 May :: 6.42am

Stupid internet cafe closed my windoww before i was done with teh last entry...

anyway, venice was interesting...the transportation really sucks though.

i will miss italy and being able to drink a liter of wine with lunch.

france is so so. i saw the eiffel tower, and the mona lisa. so i'm ready to come home.

on my last entry i lied, i actually come home the nnight of the third. thursday. maybe i'll see ssome of ya.

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:: 2004 30 May :: 12.27pm
:: Mood: yawning
:: Music: U2 - Bad

i'm wide awake!...
So, I've decided after much deliberation while hugging toliet seats that lately I've been drinking too much. Not so much the frequency, but instead the amount. I know my limits, and I've kinda been barreling through them lately. But I promise, it's not my fault... it's my friends who keep shoving fresh shots in my hands and beer bongs in my mouth. Oh well. All in good fun.

A horribly wasted evening boiled down to drunken manly hugs and reassurances of how much we all "miss each other." Sometimes the simpliest sentiments arise out of a big load of bullshit and wasted time.

Is it normal that everybody keeps asking me how my love life is going? My insecure side wants to retort, "Why, am I behind schedule or something?" Instead, it's just friendly concern, I'm sure. I don't know, there are some possibilities out there and we'll see what happens, but there are some roadblocks set up that have to be dealt with... that is, if I want them dealt with. Part of it is that I'm not sure if I'm ready, if another relationship is the best thing for me right now, etc. But I do know what makes me happy... Also, there's a lot of fear. First, it was fear of getting hurt again. Then, I saw the flip side of the coin and I began being concerned about me hurting yet another. But it's both. There was never any possibility of me being detered from getting back up on the horse, but the hesitancy to do so is slightly more than I planned for. It feels like I'm slowing creeping out into traffic at an intersection, my peripheral vision blinded, worried and waiting to get blindsided...

Car accidents as metaphors come to me easily for some reason. :-P

:: 2004 26 May :: 10.13pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: Moby - Honey

I look around to a lot of my acquiantances and even some of my friends and I really don't like how they are living their lives. It's their life and I mind my own business, as I should, but it's troubling. And it seems many of the people I know who are making the right decisions are far and few between as well as far away.

Seems like every month this year, there's been a couple descriptors that pinpoint my attitudes for the month, usually one good and one bad. I'd say this month is malaise and happiness.

I've spent a lot of time training, practicing, preparing. I'm ready...