my stupid mouth/has got me in trouble...
I lost track of so much in this. I even knew what I was doing, and I still preceded with all of it... that, to me, is the ultimate qualification for stupidity. Still, I regret nothing. I did it all for my own reasons, misguided and instinctually-driven as they were. I know we all have a right to be weak sometimes, but I hate feeling this helpless. When I said I wanted to lose control, I didn't mean this much. But maybe I have to hit the other wall, the other side of spectrum, before I can finally reel myself into a happy medium.

Monday, I lay myself on the line, and hopefully receive a verdict. Monday, I get help.

I try to put in it prespective... no matter how out of control I think that I may have been as of late, I'm still doing better than Britney Spears.

The Dust Brothers - This Is Your Life
(sorry, these lyrics suck, but they were the only ones I could find)
And You Open The Door And You Step Inside.
we´re Inside Our Hearts.
now Imagine Your Pain Is A White Ball A Healing Light.
that´s Right !
your Pain – The Pain Himself – Is A White Ball Of Healing Light.
i Don´t Think So !

this Is Your Life – Good To The Last Drop.
it Doesn´t Get Any Better Than This.
this Is Your Life And It´s Ending One Minute At A Time.
this Isn´t A Seminar – This Isn´t A Weaking Retreat.
whereever You Are, Now You Can Even Imagine What The Bottom Will Be Like.
only After Desaster Can We Be Resurrected.
it´s Only After You Have Lost Everything That You´re Free To Do Anything.
nothing Is Stack – Everything Is Falling – Everything Is Falling Apart.
this Is Your Life, This Is Your Life, This Is Your Life,
this Is Your Life, It Doesn´t Get Any Better Than This.
this Is Your Life, This Is Your Life, This Is Your Life,
this Is Your Life, Ending One Minute At A Time.


you´re Not A Beatiful And Unique Snowflake.
you Aren‘t The Saint To Gain Or Getting Better As Everything Else.
we´re All Part Of The Same Compost Heap.
we`re The All Singing, All Dancing Crap Of The World.
you`re Not Your Bank-account.
you`re Not The Clothes You Wear.
you`re Not The Content Of Your Wallet.
you`re Not Your Bowel Cancer.
you`re Not Your Dirty Landry.
you`re Not The Car You Drive.
you´re Not Your Fucking Khakis.

you Have To Give Up.
you Have To Give Up.

you Have To Realize That Someday You´ll Die.
untill You Know That You Are Useless.

i Say Let Me Never Be Complete.
i Say May I Never Be Content.
i Say Deliver Me From Swedish Furniture.
i Say Deliver Me From Clever Art.
i Say Deliver Me From Clear Skin And Perfect Teeth.
i Say You Have To Give Up.
i Say Evolve And Let The Trips Fall Where They´re Made.

this Is Yor Life, This Is Your Life, This Your Life,
this Is Your Life, It Doesn`t Get Any Better Than This.

this Is Your Life, This Is Your Life, This Is Your Life,
this Is Your Life, Spending One Minute At A Time.

you Have To Give Up.
you Have To Give Up.

welcome To Fight Club !
if This Is Your First Night, You Have To Fight.




It's time for me to shut up for a bit.

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