Leeder

:: 2003 8 July :: 10.00pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Modest Mouse- Here It Comes

Walk to your house on my lunch break
Here it comes
"Come inside and pour a drink"
You'll probably tell me everything you think
Here it comes
The place and the time that we knew that things could go wrong
The grass grows green, could you step away from the screen, it doesn't mean
I don't want you to be seen, just not like everyone.
Grass grows green and it's everyone.
You always told me life's a dam that breaks
Here it comes
If you sit still or if you run
Here it comes.
So now we're drownin' in birthday cakes
Here it comes
The place and the time that we knew that things could go wrong
Keep it clean. I didn't mean to be mean. Why does it always seem that I've
never won. Keep it clean and no one's ever won.
The empty promise makers said
"Here it comes"
Make a point to make no sense
Here it comes
Speak about the future in the past tense
Here it comes
"Don't look down." So what'd we do?"
Here it comes
Walkin' around with shit on our shoes
Oh, here it comes
The place and the time that we knew things would go wrong.

:: 2003 6 July :: 1.44am
:: Mood: helpless
:: Music: still South Park...

I make a choice to feel like this. This is not bred in me, this is how I choose to react to the situation.

If I don't have control over myself or my own fate, then I have nothing.

It's always been about control. Always.

:: 2003 5 July :: 1.07am

overall....tonite was a very pleasant nite.

:: 2003 3 July :: 6.05pm
:: Mood: hot
:: Music: Lamb- Gabriel

I can fly...but I want his wings...
My arms are golden brown.

This is surely a lazy, crazy summer.

:: 2003 3 July :: 6.05pm

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:: 2003 3 July :: 4.16am
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: Steelers Wheel - Stuck In The Middle With You

So many contacts and relationships and acquaintances just bouncing around, it's like a bunch of little atoms just randomly shooting around and you never know who is going to run into who. Throw free choice into the mix and it makes things even more interesting. Pull yourself out of the mix and just view how everything is interrelated... hmm, I'm talking like I'm on a bad acid trip. Not like I would know what that would be like.

I wonder what everyone did tonight.

"Well I don�t know why I came here tonight.
I�ve got the feeling that something ain�t right.
I�m so scared in case I fall off my chair,
and I�m wondering how I�ll get down the stairs.

Clowns to the left of me!
Jokers to the right!
Here I am stuck in the middle with you.

Yes I�m stuck in the middle with you,
and I�m wondering what it is I should do.
It�s so hard to keep this smile from my face.
Losing control and running all over the place."

:: 2003 3 July :: 4.14am
:: Mood: yawning
:: Music: Cake - Italian Leather Sofa

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:: 2003 2 July :: 3.01pm
:: Mood: "I'm super, thanks for asking!"
:: Music: None (Georgia is reading my favorite book, SHH!)

OK, here's a couple lists I found that I made during my summer class to alievate some of the boredom. Nothing special, but here you go anyway.

Top 15 Actors
1) Jack Nicholson
2) Al Pacino
3) Anthony Hopkins
4) Robert DeNiro
5) Kevin Spacey
6) Edward Norton
7) Tom Hanks
8) Samuel L. Jackson
9) Tom Cruise
10) Harrison Ford
11) Russel Crowe
12) Robin Williams
13) Jim Carrey
14) Nicolas Cage
15) John Goodman

Top 15 Restaurants
(Yes, I REALLY was that bored...)
1) The Dungeon
2) Applebee's
3) Ground Round
4) Denny's
5) Tony Roma's
6) Papa John's
7) Fazoli's
8) Subway
9) Perkins
10) Rainbow Grill
11) Pizza Ranch
12) Jimmy John's
13) Sam's Joint
14) Rose's
15) Steak & Shake

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:: 2003 30 June :: 12.44am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: The Verve Pipe - Miles Away

and if I could be what you want me to be, would you let me down? stop driving me into the ground...
Blah blah blah. A bunch of meaningless words and I'm sick of reading them.

I'm having a transition period, trying to figure out which parts of the trivial shit in my life manner and which I'm just through with.

I feel unfulfilled. But I'm full nonetheless. Of what, I'm not quite sure yet.

On the upside, I'm in control of my life for the first time in... umm... yeah.

"I defend it and pretend it doesn't matter
If you need me then believe me I'll be right here
Miles away"

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:: 2003 26 June :: 7.18pm

something to remember...

intervenous sedation makes me puke.

i got all four teeth out this morning....which went fine but i didnt wake up from being knocked out for like, two hours afterwards and when they finally kicked me out of the office, moving around made me throw up. A lot. Mind you, I've only puked 4 times in my life until today...and today I can add 6 or 7 more to that tally. Plus the only thing in my stomach was a whole lot of blood because i wanst allowed to each this morning. So I was puking up buckets of blood. Deee-licious.

It doesnt hurt so bad, but my jaw is stiff and swollen, I'm still bleeding some and I can't eat much of anything, but I do think I'm done puking for now...

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:: 2003 26 June :: 9.05am

wisdom teeth out today.

if i dont wimp out.

:: 2003 26 June :: 12.45am

You're Exotic Dancer Barbie. You have some moves,
and will do anything for a few bucks. Take it
off girl, but keep it PG-13 please.

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:: 2003 25 June :: 11.58am

So I found the paper from the Meijer health report thing and finally got to reading the fine print.
It says my blood pressure is optimal, both systolic and diastolic. However, upon reading further...
Systolic- Optimal= Under 120
Normal= 120-129

Diastolic- Optimal= under 80
Normal= 80-84

My blood pressure is 103 over 56...

I'm not even sure if that qualifies me as alive....

:: 2003 23 June :: 3.48pm
:: Mood: None
:: Music: None

None

French Guard
I'm French! Why do think I have this outrageous
accent, you silly king-a?!

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