:: 2002 6 June :: 3.43 pm

you're girl, interrupted. you're fun and friendly, and just a little bit crazy.

take the which prettie movie are you? quiz, a product of the slinkstercool community.

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:: 2002 6 June :: 1.20 pm

the last time i was suprised was at singled out, the senior funraiser, when maria evola said, "if you pick me i will give you the best sex of your life..."

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:: 2002 5 June :: 9.14 pm

our anti-hitler/nazi/etc. sentiment is so great that we sit around and are unable to fathom how anyone could have let it happen, and how the people of the time weren't complacent but didnt have the means to do anything... and it is beyond my comprehension how anyone could essentially LET it happen... but its happening again with arafatt, and it makes me wonder if in 50 years, there will be another AP revolutionary class that sits back and reflects on this year and wonders, the same way i wonder about WWII, how in the HELL some of this shit could have happened...

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:: 2002 5 June :: 7.17 pm
:: Music: ben harper- the drugs dont work

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:: 2002 2 June :: 6.55 pm

after being a recluse i dont feel like i have the right to tell anyone how fucking depressed i am. in two days i will take my last anti depressant, as i have been tapering off to be reevaluated. I almost forgot how much this sucked... almost... i pretty much started tearing last night at graduation without the aid of my emotion numbing plastic capsules manufactured for my happiness... ive hurt too many people and in return have hurt twice as much.

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:: 2002 18 May :: 3.36 pm

10 Bands You've Seen Live:
1- ben harper
2- counting crows
3- rusted root
4- urge
5- ani difranco
6- string cheese incident
7- keller williams
8- rolling stones
9- csny
10- dave matthews

9 Things You're Looking Forward To:
1- bonnaroo!!!!!!
2- memorial day weekend
3- beer
4- figuring out which course then going on outward bound
5- freeing tibet
6- visiting my brother in colorado
7- friends coming home from college
8- sleep... if possible...
9- sun

8 Things You Wear Daily:
1- silver ring on thumb
2- deodorant
3- ponytail
4- skivvies... cK
5- pants
6- tshirt
7- chacos
8- badger balm/ chapstick of some kind

7 Things That Annoy You:
1- incesstant babble
2- klife
3- white people cant dance
4- driving behind someone going/under the speed limit
5- the word 'panties'
6- spilling coffee
7- little dogs

6 Things You Touch Every Day:
1- toms of maine toothpaste
2- burts bees citris facial scrub
3- laptop
4- plastic bag
5- backpack
6- doorknobs. lots.

5 Things You Do Every Day:
1- say, 'i'm tired' about 27 times
2- eat
3- drink
4- type
5- attempt to avoid reality

4 People You'd Want to Spend More Time With:
1- too
2- many
3- to
4- list

3 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over:
1- braveheart
2- animal house
3- croupier

2 Of Your Favorite Songs At This Moment:
1- only
2- two?

1 Person You Could Spend the Rest of Your Life With:
1- ha. right.

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:: 2002 17 May :: 12.12 am

i dont understand education and american culture. one national news hour after another air 'special reports' on 'what your teen is really doing... ectasy... are they growing up too fast? are they over booked? whatever happened to family values?' and on... as we profess this crap, we note in medical journal after medical journal that kids are physically developing astoundingly younger and exceptionally faster than in the past... due to nutrition advances, etc. however, our educational system has yet to change. if all of this rapid development stuff is accurate, highschool lasts, at the very least, one year too long. most are just a few credits short of graduating after three years, and spend the fourth lamenting and getting into trouble for lack of stimulation. we complain our students are ignorant in terms of world awareness, and refuse to introduce forigen language until 6th or 7th grade. We groan that our students know nothing about history, and teach them- from the cradle- that the pilgrims and indians sat down to dinner together. while we are worried about our students being bored in class, which is a given regardless, we go through our entire education without really learning how to write a paper without switching tenses or using to-be verbs. we're so concerned about a student's self-esteem that we pass students to the next grade who are not prepared to do so; then the rest of the class, the teacher, and ultimately that student/s suffer more because more time is spent on discipline, backtracking, and learning how to use commas. this may sound unkind, but its just a system that i dont understand.

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:: 2002 15 May :: 11.53 pm

do actions really speak louder than words? because i've made choices for the sake of making the easier decision, even if it's not what I really intended- or i wanted to take the other road, but if it was the wrong way it was too hard to get back to what made me happier... which is difficult enough to come upon in the first place...

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:: 2002 15 May :: 7.34 pm

:: 2002 13 May :: 11.02 pm

i dont care if its corny
"Here's to the crazy ones.
The misfits.
The rebels.
The troublemakers. The round heads in the square holes. The ones who see things differently.
They're not fond of rules. You can quote them. Disagree with them. Glorify or vilify them. But the only thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them
as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do." -Apple Computer
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:: 2002 12 May :: 1.46 pm

i'm so tired of everything. i'm already indecisive... but with complete lack of will/intrest, it gets pushed over the top. I want to care, but i'm too tired, and i want to sleep, but i cant...
'the drugs dont work...
they just make it worse...
but i know i'll see your face again...'

walking around school, seeing kids excited about being there and seeing kids who put their whole life into their clique and seeing kids who are completely oblivious in terms of anything consisting of reality. not like lamenting changes anything or says anything that hasnt been said before... but hell...

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:: 2002 8 May :: 2.59 pm

i really dont understand war over religion at all. what is all the fighting about? who took whos land? what does that have to do with religion? that their imaginary friend/god/whoever told them that was where they were supposed to live? there are far too many isms and far too many definitions that we subscribe to and in turn alienate others and families and opprotunities... i think of k-life and feel sorry that those individuals are so concerned about living for someone else that they surrender and decision making power, because to make a choice would be to put oneself above god. if you are afraid/too ignorant/blind to realize your full potential, how will you help others and in turn not place yourself at highest value? do we associate ourselves so violently with groups for security? protection? actual belief? or what one thinks is a belief?

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:: 2002 5 May :: 10.54 pm

survey that i stole from kristins journal who stole it from emily's journal.. scandalous...
past
first grade teacher's name: dr. wilucki
last words you said: "yeah bye"
last song you sang: 'take me home' -cast iron filter
what's in your cd player: saul williams
what color socks are you wearing: none. my feet are always cold no matter if they are nekkid of not
what's under your bed: boxes of contents
what time did you wake up today: 7:45.. in justin pattons basement... trippy...

future
where do you want to go: everywhere
going to be: if i were to decide now it probably wouldnt be much fun
where are you going to live: at some point, italy
how many kids do you want: eww how can you know that already? that makes every girl/guy you date a possible procreator
what kind of car will you have: maybe they'll have more electric/fuel efficent cars by the time i get around to owning one. that would be swell.
current mood: tired
current music: charlie hunter
current taste: gum
current hair: more than one
current clothes: jeans, tank for sleepy time
current annoyance: insomnia
current smell: spring night wind
current longing: to be physically fit
current desktop picture: mountains
current favorite artist: alexander calder
current book: black boy
current colour of toenails: toenail color i guess
current worry: just one?...
current crush: romeo
current time-wasting wish: physical fitness as i sit here on my ass
1. what's the story behind your journal username? left of cool= awesome bela fleck cd/sticker stuck inside my cd case
2. name five of your favorite foods: vegetarian spring rolls from little saigon, strawberries, grilled cheese, starburst jellybeans, salmon
3. have you ever had a makeover? not to my knoweldge
4. name all members of the beatles. john paul george ringo.. wasnt there a fifth or someone else for awhile?
5. what's the longest time you've stayed out of the country/where? 10 days in london
6. one thing you're grateful for today: not feeling obligated to answer that worthless of a pseudo-deep question

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:: 2002 5 May :: 4.13 pm

the breeze coming in through my windows is perfect, if such a thing exists. someone once tried to argue to me that there were such a thing as a perfect circle, because an 'imperfect circle' could no longer fall into the definition of 'circle'.. i guess its a good point, but that's just a conjecture...

i dont know how i feel about last night... my fun was limited due to the low tolerance of others. and the days go by like broken records.

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:: 2002 1 May :: 7.47 pm
:: Mood: indescribable

Be daring, be different, be impractical, be anything that will assert integrity of purpose and imaginative vision against the play-it-safers, the creatures of the commonplace, the slaves of the ordinary.
-Sir Cecil Beaton

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