:: 2002 11 October :: 6.52 am

its about 5:45 am and ive been watching the news for 45 minutes. there were four different shootings in north st.louis last night... three cheers for the right to bear arms....

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:: 2002 7 October :: 10.14 pm

i just read that the average age that a girl first menstruates is 12, regardless of ethnicity... it just keeps getting younger too. i know in a sense its positive because it reflects all the improvements in nutrition and whatnot, but on the same token its so sad that girls have to deal with this shit earlier and earlier...

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:: 2002 6 October :: 9.52 am

"Where are we going?"
"Nowhere."
"So what's the rush?"

-The lost boys

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:: 2002 27 September :: 9.02 pm

i really like peanuts... i really like peanut butter...

it feels like winter because winter feels like holidays and holidays feel like family dinners... and family dinners feel like wierd family smells and good food smells and the oblivion that alchohol contributes, which is fine by me. and it seems like winter because i am alone and doing the dishes... late into the night. although it is only 8:00pm here.... before i can leave for the evening, i have to do my parents and their socialite friends' dishes... and glasses... they waste so much alchohol. its saddening. but i guess thats only if youre under 21. yeah, anyway, i miss everyone...

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:: 2002 23 September :: 3.29 pm

People only want to hear the good shit...life eternal, a place in God's heaven...but as soon as you hear that you're gettin' all this good shit from a black Jesus, you freak. And that, my friends, is called hypocrisy. A black man can steal your stereo, but he can't be your savior.

--dogma

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:: 2002 17 September :: 7.32 am

i dont really have anything to say except that i havent come here in awhile. i cant sleep, big suprise. i hate getting to school and seeing everyone that just got up like, 15 minutes before class when ive been rolling around for hours in a frustrated exhaustion. my mom has begun what she has dubbed "college week"... there are about 25 different college viewbooks covering our kitchen table, along with a chart that she is in the process of making. its very bizarre, but in the same sense, i'm so ready to get the fuck out of here. i hate school with a passion. it feels like daycare. or prison. tomorrow i'm 18. yay porn/cigarettes/lottery tickets/voting.

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:: 2002 15 September :: 12.49 pm

"The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to talk, mad to live, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars" - j kerouac

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:: 2002 3 September :: 8.43 pm
:: Music: sage francis

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:: 2002 3 September :: 8.17 pm

and the days go by like broken records...

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:: 2002 30 August :: 7.09 pm
:: Music: keller... freaker by the speaker

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:: 2002 30 August :: 4.18 pm

"its friiiiday. we aint got no jobs. we aint got shit to do"

after a long day of school, i've made no conclusions or realizations.
just an appreciation
for the end of the day
and no polo practice...
the guys on my team said i would be awesome on a womens team, but not so much on ours... because i 'wont grab nuts and i'm not butch enough'. i'm not sure how i feel about that. i dont think i feel anything at all.

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:: 2002 27 August :: 3.54 pm
:: Mood: hot

humid as hell
last night i went to bid a friend farewell that is going away to school. he asked me if i ever thought that we would be close friends. it made me think, 'whats the rush' so i said, 'yeah, but i think we're the kind of people where it will take like, 10 years'then he said that it only takes three. "to be close friends or to know if we should be?" "to be close friends". so i guess we're behind schedule. but, in the immortal words of greenday, 'you cant go forcing something if its just not right.' then again, its not so much as it isnt right... because it is... but to expect a friendship to play out like you've always known a friendship to do so is fairly absurd...

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:: 2002 25 August :: 7.25 pm

i just got back from water polo hell. eric nyman and i got out of the clinic at 4:00 and are just now home at 6:25. thats ABSURD. we got stuck in non-moving traffic on the highway for TWO HOURS. we had to stop for gas because we burned the rest of his by just sitting on the highway, and when we got there we got snacks and i got a MAXIM to read in the car for entertainment/education. when we make it up to the register, i see a piece of paper on the counter that had magic marker letters/#s on it. i asked what it was and the guy said "an alternate route to the traffic". i love quicktrip. everybody buy stock in quick trip. so about 2.5 hours we made it home. luckily, my pops told me to get a beer when i got home so perhaps the hell is worth it. probably not, but i can never turn down a sunshine wheat beer. never.

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:: 2002 21 August :: 4.36 pm

first day back from hell. hell hell hell.

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:: 2002 20 August :: 8.17 am

i just read on the new york times website that an african woman was sentenced to death by stoning for 'having sex out of wedlock'. five judges denied her appeal and maintained that the sentence will be carried out when the womans daughter has been weaned from breast feeding. nothing happens to the father. i hope i'm not the only one about to vomit.

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