ridiculous
ok so first of all, my week is going to be fucked by the new sats.

that said, i have a hilarious, pathetic, random, and incredible story.

this week i was planning on getting some exercise for the first time in... a long time. but last time i went on just a hike my feet were hurting like hell cuz i couldnt find my orthotics. today i went on another walk and my feet hurt like hell again, so when i got home my mom and i decided to systematically tear the house apart to find out what the hell i did with them. so we searched every corner under every pile in my room, for nothing. we searched the downstairs shoe closet twice, for nothing. i got to thinking about the last time i saw them, and it was definitely upstairs in my room after ordering some shoes online. i put the orthotics in them to try them on, and probably took them out and put them in some box or bag. the shoes didnt fit me so i shipped them back to the company, in indianapolis. now in the process of removing every thing from the closet, we found two green, unused, nike womens insoles.

its certain now. i shipped my orthotics to indianapolis. so much for hiking and running this week...

OH YEAH i got invisalign today. i really have never been so happy going to the orthodontists, i just want my teeth to be fixed now at all costs- well not really because i insisted on getting invisalign instead of normal braces. thank god for that, but there is a sharp edge in one place and i really am having a hard time talking. MAJOR lisping. when is that going to go away? i think im going to have to read dr. seuss books out loud once i finish this damn SAT practice test.

random thoughts
so first of all, yay both teams for winning by 18 points! that was exciting.
i need a new camera, my old one is broken, i think i can get one on tuesday maybe, or at least look at some
i also need sunglasses really bad. gotta call bcbg stores and see if they still have the ones i wanted.
i might actually get exercise this week, that would be great
oh shit ima go a week with having to make my own food most of the time. arrr.
i wanna see a movie! i havent in forever!

and most importantly, lizzie informed me that the supposedly awesome music video website that i linked to and got stuff from killed her computer. so im gonna guess that its okay to just see the video in the journal, but dont click on it or respond to any pop ups or links from that website. and sorry if u did, i should have known there would be something wrong with "free music videos for your website!"

arrivederci

nuthin
found the best website ever. check out the guestbook...

havent started homework yet
i realized today that i had never had a bad headache before, or even a headache in probly 5 years. so i woke up at 10 with this horrible headache, waited for it to go away and i felt nauseous, then took a pill and the rest of the day i was exhausted and drowsy. really dont wanna work... saw anchorman that was great.

now just watching ms swan clips that i downloaded. soooo funny.

in starbucks: "you on edge, sisteh! no more coffee foh you!"

hm supposed to call the library to talk to the wicked witch of the east, the slightly nicer head librarian (as opposed to the wicked witch of the west, the other head librarian is reeallly mean) to chat about how i lost my job there. lot of motivation there. "hey, hows it goin, so you wanted to talk about me not working there?" well as a result its been 3 weeks and i havent called. it gets worse every week. ugh.


and the really cute shoes that i got online stretched out and are way too big and i need to make them fit somehow... i couldnt walk at the basketball game until i crumpled up bits of the "program" and shoved it in the toes. (i dont know if its really called program.)

tomorrow is gonna suck

not feelin so great
so just as a brief story to demonstrate how tired i am before i actually do the work i need to do, this is what happened about a minute ago: i opened microsoft word and was trying to start writing a composing process essay but not really thinking. and when i do that sometimes i just hold down the shift key for a really long time (to capitalize the first letter, you know.) and this notice came up, which comes up a lot when i am spacing, saying that when i hold down the shift key for more than 8 seconds something... happens. the different thing this time is that i was watching a clip (more on that later) earlier today, so the volume was way up, and when the alert popped up on my computer it made a really loud high pitched whistley noise, which startled me because i was falling asleep, and then afterwards i realized what happened but because of the initial being-scared-shitless i started crying. not for very long, mind you, but i cried.

and about the clip, i was referring to this: http://rainbow.arch.scriptmania.com/rainbow_tv_episode.html
which you must watch (or at least read the script underneath it.)

i think ill take a nap before doing the rest of my homework- at least until my mom comes upstairs and sees that im sleeping and yells at me

junior trivia night
TOP SCORE- TIE BETWEEN mr. henriksons team and faculty team
3RD PLACE- ONE POINT BEHIND- rebecca, dana, heather, santi, dana's parents, rebecca's dad, and me

thats 7 people and NO faculty

and we lost a point for sayin "cola" cuz he originally said to be "general", and also he said "snow patrol" wasnt good enough for kids playing in the arctic... GRRR

and a total of 50 bucks at jamba for the first team... even though some people won that much just in the raffle, for buying a frickin ticket. but whatever, we basically got the same as the FACULTY teams... biatch...

i am so tired of work. i need to bring my ap physics grade up to a B-. calc is incredibly confusing right now and i also need an A- in that. and i need an A- in history. ugghhhh.

but props to heather for the snoop cd. its awesome, and might be even more awesome than i think right now once i have enough time to LISTEN to it the whole way.

japanese candy is my staple
NOW im 16, ok?

if u were planning on asking me how my birthday went, dont. i can tell u right now without going into a lot of detail, it SUCKED. i could also give you the details but its 10 oclock and i havent finished 1/5 of my homework.

to those who have taken my quizzes: dont feel too bad if you sucked. they were very difficult material. in ap physics our whole class just bombed a test and i got around 20%. so as long as you got at least 20% you havent failed at life. not to say that thats a good score, but its up to you how important it is to understand me. and i admit i really did try to make those quizzes hard, and i threw in some tricks to kill off the weaklings. im sorry if i just called you a weakling. i guess ill stop talking about my quizzes now and try to finish some homework. oh and if you havent taken them, you are a coward.

ap physics test tomorrow but i wanna think about my bday!
just taking a QUICK break from all the ap physics studying!

BIRTHDAY COUNTDOWN: 5 DAYS AND A NIGHT

and if u dont know what to get me:
cds- snoop (r&g), ludacris (the red light district)
food- chocolate, cupcakes, cakes, homemade bread, muffins, japanese candy (im pretty flexible)
useful stuff- shiny jewelry, scarves, handbags
and anything random involving- p diddy, italian stuff, kiwis, or weird japanese characters (ESPECIALLY totoro)

alright just something to keep in mind until the 23rd

is this how junior year is supposed to be?
i don't really know what a good friendship is. i have no clue who likes me and whether or not they want to be around me. and ive realized that part of my mom not letting me go out is because she wants me to spend time with real friends- well honestly i dont know if that will work. i would like it to.

when i think about every friend ive ever had, i would classify 3 as definitely real. 1 of them at branson. i dont know about the others, cuz i cant tell how much they like me.

and another thing, my middle school feeling has come back so when i hear people talking about going somewhere im afraid to go with them and i feel like i need to ask and im too much of a wimp to ask. but also i dont want them to have to be around me if they would rather not... really this is my downfall. i thought i was so good at understanding people and the one thing i cant figure out is the most important thing, what they think of me.

ohhh i should be working now...
just had to mention this observation of mine- every day this week i have seen smaller and smaller "visitors". and i call them "visitors" because some are so small i dont know why they would be looking at highschools now in that way.

Monday: in my italian class, a kid below 5' who was not only the height of a 10 year old but had the FACE of a 10 yr old, but then he talked and his voice was DEEP like any highschool guy. so surprising and freaky.
Tuesday: G block free im in the library and i see a visitor come in, some asian or mexican or something kid (i just saw his skin) who was probably below 4'7", i looked over at a freshman who also saw him and he had the same shocked look on his face... i mean he was TINY
Wednesday: walking up to music before C block, theres some old people and these 2 dressed up little boys who couldnt be older than 10, probably 4'2" or something, with old people (grandparents?) anyway, no clue why they were there

following this trend, tomorrow i should see either toddlers or midgets

i dont get graded on these great observations tho, so time for more homework...

p.s. heather and i had a great party going in the music room before C block... we played my mp3 player thru the speakers in the music room with the bass way up- and it wasnt classical music. needless to say DICK kept walking by and staring in a nonunderstanding "why are you children having fun in this building?what do you think classical seminar is FOR?" sort of way. asshole.

happy new year
well there went my first potentially fun new years eve... it actually was fun, but not ideal. my mom started enforcing during this break her rule that i cant go to anything where there isnt parental supervision... because apparently i am not trustworthy at all but as my mom says "its just that i dont trust other people" meaning people who drive me. thanks, yes, my friends are reckless idiots. shes like "when ure in college you can do whatever you want". the difference between the end of highschool and college is like 3 months... is that when i am suddenly going to completely change? no i will be pretty much the same person. i could spend hours complaining about this but it wouldnt change the fact that i "cant go to parties where there isnt adult supervision". meaning all parties. very reasonable. i guess ill just need to start lying more.

but anyway it was a better new year than most cuz courtney came over and we watched tv and open water. open water didnt scare me too much, im proud, but if it was a movie about people snorkeling in 4 ft deep water with sea cucumbers all around them i wouldve screamed my head off. and we watched some mtv too, cuz i assumed p diddy would make an appearance in the whole new york thing. but i got tired of waiting after like 5 minutes.

well i just heard an audi drive up our driveway cuz my dad actually MADE A DECISION ON A CAR. really shocking. and my moms pissed at him which made me even happier cuz honestly IS NOT HER CAR, ITS NOT HER DECISION. it is a manual tho, so shes pissed that its less practical, but whatever she can drive hers and the exploder and the old 7 series. but this morning when i saw it in daylight for the first time and i looked in the glove compartment there was the piece of paper that the put the specs on when its sitting in the dealership, and it gets 15/21 mpg. the M3 gets better than that. THE M3 WHICH HE WAS CONSIDERING and is the most gorgeous car u can get for its price. yes its a 2 door but if i knew the audi got worse mileage than it i wouldve said get the M3... its not my choice tho, what can i do.

damn i wish it was easy to write this much on jackson and jefferson, which i really need to do right now

i dont want to sleep yet
"i hope no one cool or famous is staring at me" - story of my life
(from teen girl squad)

well christmas is over and i am out of money (from my parents) for a month (until my birthday). i basically just said "mom can i get this" and ordered all my stuff online and now i have her credit card number memorized. and saved in my computer just in case.

i got a new mp3 player and clothes and i called customer service for banana republic and found the shoes i wanted in my size in NEW YORK and had those shipped. but the best thing is the first season of reno 911. that will keep my happy for a long time.

p.s. ice skating is incredibly painful when you have flat feet.

there will always be someone with more embarassing relatives than you
just had concert, heres an awkward story (as told by me a few minutes ago) :

well after the concert this old man starts talking to me and says i am the most beautiful person he has ever seen and a good musician and then asks me where i go to school and what town i live in and then when i think hes just about done hes like "do u know X" and "would you like me to introduce you to him? he plays oboe" and im like uhhh i need to go
cuz his grandkid i think, X, would be SO embarrassed if i let him introduce me
i mean if i ever found out my dad/grandad said that to someone, i would probably kill myself
oh and when this dude asked me where i lived he was like "i mean... nearby? you dont need to give me your addres... as nice as that would be *hah*hah*"
and he had an accent so i felt like he was polish or something...

so, yeah... i hope that kid never finds out about that conversation

but now, i think its important that i post my wisdom about the italian/cuban issue
*disclaimer: if you take me seriously, or get offended for any reason, cut it out. you are a fool.*

"except i think hes cuban
which is like... what splenda is to real sugar"

yeah so now i guess... oh right speaking of guess i have some online shopping to do while my 30% discount is still valid!
ciao!

oh boredom is painful
I wish our breaks were more spread out, like less time for thanksgiving and more days off other times. The only reason that would make branson people unhappy is because then the poor kids wouldnt be able to go spend a week in tahiti or new guinea or whatever. wouldnt affect my family.

i have done some succesful shopping, so i now have jeans that fit me. and sweaters and a scarf and my first real pair of sunglasses (except for the 15 dollar guess ones i got at marshalls that broke pretty quickly). but i didnt need a whole week for it. or i dunno maybe i did. its just that the more time i have off the more plans i make that dont happen anyway and then i think "wow, i spent the whole break with my mom." so wtf am i supposed to do? maybe not call people at all?

we got a christmas tree. its 8 feet tall. we used to get 10 footers or something like that, it was really exciting especially when i was 4 feet tall. that was when we drove to petaluma and spent the day roaming around a christmas tree farm and picking one out. the ones at home depot dont go much past 8 feet, and my dad was trying to get a 7 footer. lame, considering our living room has a huge ceiling and we should take advantage of that aspect of our house.

i was excited when i realized on monday or tuesday that i could actually read a book of my choice this week, so i went to the library and got one i had started over the summer. its just so boring now, where i am in it. before it was about interesting stuff, what i thought the entire book was about, but basically now the main character isnt doing shit but sitting around and thinking and i have to read all that. and its boring. what a waste of time. i think i might just stop reading it.