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2005 17 January :: 9.35pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: snoop + pharrell- lets get blown
ap physics test tomorrow but i wanna think about my bday!
just taking a QUICK break from all the ap physics studying!
BIRTHDAY COUNTDOWN: 5 DAYS AND A NIGHT
and if u dont know what to get me:
cds- snoop (r&g), ludacris (the red light district)
food- chocolate, cupcakes, cakes, homemade bread, muffins, japanese candy (im pretty flexible)
useful stuff- shiny jewelry, scarves, handbags
and anything random involving- p diddy, italian stuff, kiwis, or weird japanese characters (ESPECIALLY totoro)
alright just something to keep in mind until the 23rd
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2005 15 January :: 10.34pm
:: Mood: definitely not happy
:: Music: rhcp- porcelain
is this how junior year is supposed to be?
i don't really know what a good friendship is. i have no clue who likes me and whether or not they want to be around me. and ive realized that part of my mom not letting me go out is because she wants me to spend time with real friends- well honestly i dont know if that will work. i would like it to.
when i think about every friend ive ever had, i would classify 3 as definitely real. 1 of them at branson. i dont know about the others, cuz i cant tell how much they like me.
and another thing, my middle school feeling has come back so when i hear people talking about going somewhere im afraid to go with them and i feel like i need to ask and im too much of a wimp to ask. but also i dont want them to have to be around me if they would rather not... really this is my downfall. i thought i was so good at understanding people and the one thing i cant figure out is the most important thing, what they think of me.
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2005 5 January :: 11.29pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: dro pit li keit shot
ohhh i should be working now...
just had to mention this observation of mine- every day this week i have seen smaller and smaller "visitors". and i call them "visitors" because some are so small i dont know why they would be looking at highschools now in that way.
Monday: in my italian class, a kid below 5' who was not only the height of a 10 year old but had the FACE of a 10 yr old, but then he talked and his voice was DEEP like any highschool guy. so surprising and freaky.
Tuesday: G block free im in the library and i see a visitor come in, some asian or mexican or something kid (i just saw his skin) who was probably below 4'7", i looked over at a freshman who also saw him and he had the same shocked look on his face... i mean he was TINY
Wednesday: walking up to music before C block, theres some old people and these 2 dressed up little boys who couldnt be older than 10, probably 4'2" or something, with old people (grandparents?) anyway, no clue why they were there
following this trend, tomorrow i should see either toddlers or midgets
i dont get graded on these great observations tho, so time for more homework...
p.s. heather and i had a great party going in the music room before C block... we played my mp3 player thru the speakers in the music room with the bass way up- and it wasnt classical music. needless to say DICK kept walking by and staring in a nonunderstanding "why are you children having fun in this building?what do you think classical seminar is FOR?" sort of way. asshole.
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2005 1 January :: 11.16am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: interpol- evil
happy new year
well there went my first potentially fun new years eve... it actually was fun, but not ideal. my mom started enforcing during this break her rule that i cant go to anything where there isnt parental supervision... because apparently i am not trustworthy at all but as my mom says "its just that i dont trust other people" meaning people who drive me. thanks, yes, my friends are reckless idiots. shes like "when ure in college you can do whatever you want". the difference between the end of highschool and college is like 3 months... is that when i am suddenly going to completely change? no i will be pretty much the same person. i could spend hours complaining about this but it wouldnt change the fact that i "cant go to parties where there isnt adult supervision". meaning all parties. very reasonable. i guess ill just need to start lying more.
but anyway it was a better new year than most cuz courtney came over and we watched tv and open water. open water didnt scare me too much, im proud, but if it was a movie about people snorkeling in 4 ft deep water with sea cucumbers all around them i wouldve screamed my head off. and we watched some mtv too, cuz i assumed p diddy would make an appearance in the whole new york thing. but i got tired of waiting after like 5 minutes.
well i just heard an audi drive up our driveway cuz my dad actually MADE A DECISION ON A CAR. really shocking. and my moms pissed at him which made me even happier cuz honestly IS NOT HER CAR, ITS NOT HER DECISION. it is a manual tho, so shes pissed that its less practical, but whatever she can drive hers and the exploder and the old 7 series. but this morning when i saw it in daylight for the first time and i looked in the glove compartment there was the piece of paper that the put the specs on when its sitting in the dealership, and it gets 15/21 mpg. the M3 gets better than that. THE M3 WHICH HE WAS CONSIDERING and is the most gorgeous car u can get for its price. yes its a 2 door but if i knew the audi got worse mileage than it i wouldve said get the M3... its not my choice tho, what can i do.
damn i wish it was easy to write this much on jackson and jefferson, which i really need to do right now
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2004 26 December :: 12.36pm
:: Mood: giggly
:: Music: when i used to love you
i dont want to sleep yet
"i hope no one cool or famous is staring at me" - story of my life
(from teen girl squad)
well christmas is over and i am out of money (from my parents) for a month (until my birthday). i basically just said "mom can i get this" and ordered all my stuff online and now i have her credit card number memorized. and saved in my computer just in case.
i got a new mp3 player and clothes and i called customer service for banana republic and found the shoes i wanted in my size in NEW YORK and had those shipped. but the best thing is the first season of reno 911. that will keep my happy for a long time.
p.s. ice skating is incredibly painful when you have flat feet.
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2004 6 December :: 10.14pm
:: Mood: thoughtful
:: Music: something rachmaninoff that i just played
there will always be someone with more embarassing relatives than you
just had concert, heres an awkward story (as told by me a few minutes ago) :
well after the concert this old man starts talking to me and says i am the most beautiful person he has ever seen and a good musician and then asks me where i go to school and what town i live in and then when i think hes just about done hes like "do u know X" and "would you like me to introduce you to him? he plays oboe" and im like uhhh i need to go
cuz his grandkid i think, X, would be SO embarrassed if i let him introduce me
i mean if i ever found out my dad/grandad said that to someone, i would probably kill myself
oh and when this dude asked me where i lived he was like "i mean... nearby? you dont need to give me your addres... as nice as that would be *hah*hah*"
and he had an accent so i felt like he was polish or something...
so, yeah... i hope that kid never finds out about that conversation
but now, i think its important that i post my wisdom about the italian/cuban issue
*disclaimer: if you take me seriously, or get offended for any reason, cut it out. you are a fool.*
"except i think hes cuban
which is like... what splenda is to real sugar"
yeah so now i guess... oh right speaking of guess i have some online shopping to do while my 30% discount is still valid!
ciao!
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2004 27 November :: 5.39pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: weezer- buddy holly
oh boredom is painful
I wish our breaks were more spread out, like less time for thanksgiving and more days off other times. The only reason that would make branson people unhappy is because then the poor kids wouldnt be able to go spend a week in tahiti or new guinea or whatever. wouldnt affect my family.
i have done some succesful shopping, so i now have jeans that fit me. and sweaters and a scarf and my first real pair of sunglasses (except for the 15 dollar guess ones i got at marshalls that broke pretty quickly). but i didnt need a whole week for it. or i dunno maybe i did. its just that the more time i have off the more plans i make that dont happen anyway and then i think "wow, i spent the whole break with my mom." so wtf am i supposed to do? maybe not call people at all?
we got a christmas tree. its 8 feet tall. we used to get 10 footers or something like that, it was really exciting especially when i was 4 feet tall. that was when we drove to petaluma and spent the day roaming around a christmas tree farm and picking one out. the ones at home depot dont go much past 8 feet, and my dad was trying to get a 7 footer. lame, considering our living room has a huge ceiling and we should take advantage of that aspect of our house.
i was excited when i realized on monday or tuesday that i could actually read a book of my choice this week, so i went to the library and got one i had started over the summer. its just so boring now, where i am in it. before it was about interesting stuff, what i thought the entire book was about, but basically now the main character isnt doing shit but sitting around and thinking and i have to read all that. and its boring. what a waste of time. i think i might just stop reading it.
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2004 20 November :: 10.52pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: smokey robinson & the miracles- tracks of my tears
ive found an oldie
People say I'm the life of the party
'cause I tell a joke or two
Although I may be laughin' loud and hearty
Deep inside I'm blue
So take a good look at my face
You see my smile looks out of place
If you look closer it's easy to trace
The tracks of my tears
i like this song... i remember it was on this cd my parents always played when i was like 5 and i loved it. and then somehow this morning (1 AM) as im writing my essay i have it stuck in my head and i download it. and its kinda like MY song. it just pretty much describes how i act when im sad. kinda like mr. poof's personality too... hes in a kinda stupor and doesnt look too happy but for some reason is acting all bouncy and hyper.
and, oh yeah... its INCREDIBLY CATCHY AND A REALLY GOOD SONG!!!
woohooooo tanksgivin brake!
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2004 10 November :: 8.20pm
:: Mood: thoughtful
:: Music: weird song on live105 that goes "no phone, no phone..."
wisdom
the most wise, eloquent think i have said today...
"confucious say, the pimp must not desire to be the hoe"
this is of course talking about branson people. specifically, 2 branson girls. heh this is kind of like a really cruel guessing game. but ure not gonna get it, and if u did, i would have been saying bad things about people behind their backs. which i already am doing, but its alright as long as im not saying it to a ton of people. and i dont really know how many ppl read this so ill just play it safe and not say anything else about them. except that they piss me off and deserve to be talked about meanly.
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2004 6 November :: 8.56pm
:: Mood: predatory
:: Music: alicia keys- karma
should be sleeping now, but
isnt it about time for a bitchout?
btw i dont really like that song very much its kinda same-ol-same-ol but the violins so good...
so today before the cross country meet this person A asked me about wonderfest. she asked me if there were a lot of nerds there, basically asking me to make a generalization about the people there, and i said that most people there were chinese. that was a fact. tucker had a hard time pronouncing all of their names. are facts racist? apparently so, according to another person in the group, person B.
so i said something like "EXCUSE ME, HOW is that racist?!" and then person A said "oh you shouldnt assume they are all chinese, they could be japanese or korean or blablabla". so basically they were all ASSUMING that i was assuming this. and the more they said the more they just proved how ignorant they were.
i wasnt just assuming. i actually know theres a difference between chinese and japanese people... this summer my psych class was mostly asian, and we talked about how i was so used to being surrounded by white people and how their schools were and we just openly talked about our cultures a lot. also, all of them were chinese, and in fact most asians in california are chinese. of all the asians that ive met, only one has been japanese. i also know what chinese names sound like, and they are VERY DIFFERENT from japanese names. japanese names are much closer to romance-language names than chinese names, whereas chinese names combine consonants together that we normally wouldnt, and are usually one syllable. also, the japanese dont have the letter L.
when i told these people that i knew that the majority of the names were chinese and at least not japanese, person A said "oh really do you speak japanese?" HELLO, YOU ARE STUPID. YOU DONT NEED TO SPEAK JAPANESE TO KNOW HOW JAPANESE NAMES ARE DIFFERENT FROM CHINESE. i said "no... but i can, and its not that difficult". and they all said "yeah it is!" proving again how ignorant they are. fortunately erin, who speaks japanese and is out of all of us the authority on the language and culture says "uh, no. they really are different..."
so did i win? yes... only the dumb bitches ignored us and changed the subject. meaning i wasnt satisfied and had to vent here.
sometimes i really think i would enjoy a job where i could go into a court and inform stupid people that they are wrong.
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2004 13 October :: 11.01pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: rhcp- emit remmus
uh
well i am def glad the psats are over, one less thing for my mom to bug me about. but it just killed me after the test having to go to classes.
i saw the funniest thing when i went downstairs to search for food today. my cat walked into the kitchen and then there was this noise so he looked up at the open light thing on the ceiling where this fly was buzzing around and watched it. but then apparently the fly got a little too close to the bulb so it died and plopped down on the ground. and i laughed and was happy because it was a really stupid fly and annoying to. and then my cat was sniffing at it and it came back to life and flew up and around the ceiling and my cat stared at it with his mouth open and his fangs showing and looked vicious and confused at the same time. and then the fly moved to another part of the room and to get closer to it he jumped up onto a chair and sat at the table and stared at me.
ok i guess you had to be there.
theres another meet this friday. the next 5 fridays, pretty much. i hope it wont suck anymore than last weeks, because that would be reeeallly bad.
i hear really bad music coming from outside, its really annoying. like the sort of stuff they play in longs, kinda whiny saxophony mall music shit. aw god its horrible, make it stop, make it stop.
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2004 30 September :: 8.50pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: rhcp- this velvet glove
putting off my homework again
even tho i did last night and as a result i went to bed at 2 after doing 2 subjects. i dont seem to learn from my mistakes.
today mr parsons kinda scolded me... he looked down on the homework and took in a huge breath of air really fast and went "ure only on number 3, omg..." and i looked up and he was very concerned/shocked looking with his jaw hanging down. i said "yes well, im beginning to understand it... slowly"
um... oh yeah i ran really well today. i think it had to do with the fact that i had a TON of water (compared to what i normally have... and also an ibuprofen heh). i have peed like 10 times today i swear... and its clear. so basically im just pouring water through myself. which is really good for u, so yay. i just need to stay near a bathroom pretty much all day long.
aaannnd... shout out to maggie who informed me that the link to this journal wasnt working on my profile... what a HERO!
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2004 24 September :: 7.54pm
:: Mood: optimistic
:: Music: shawnna, ludacris- shake that shit
it is really such a good song
well yesterday my forehead exploded. it still is really annoying. everytime i touch it im like "owww those huge bumps arent supposed to be there..." and then i remember that i can never again go to bed after a run without taking a shower.
on a way better note, i finally got my permit. and this kid i used to go to school with got to the dmv literally 2 minutes after me and then he got his permit too. and then later that day i saw him again. but the POINT is that i finally have my permit, and so then i drove around and not many other people were around fortunately so i didnt really have to worry too much about staying on my side of the road.
this weekend will most likely suck with that english essay and all. especially cuz i HAD TO talk to my teacher about it and when i asked him how to rephrase my thesis sentence to make it sound better, he instead told me what his opinion was about the question. and so i asked him again, "ok, ill say that, but how can i rephrase THIS thing that I have written that I want to say?" and he did the same thing again... so finally i just said "OK" and left. but jesus christ, he honestly just cant handle talking about anyone elses opinion. cant i just write what i think? its my essay... not his...
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2004 18 September :: 8.28pm
:: Mood: pessimistic
:: Music: the godfather soundtrack
my mom is being a bitch
she screamed at me when i asked her why she threw away my banana bag (what i keep frozen bananas in in the freezer for smoothies). apparently she thinks it is rude to ask someone to respect your respect for the environment. actually it all comes down to her not wanting to hear anyone point out that she is a pretty crappy person in general.
later i asked her why my brother was watching tv. 2 days ago she said she was mad at him for not turning his homework in on time, this was because he spends every hour he has at home watching tv or doing stupid shit on the computer. she said his punishment (amazing) was he would not watch tv on the weekend. that night, he was watching tv as she was picking me up from running. why? because "i didnt want to live him home alone without entertainment". ok, great parenting, you think the tv will protect your 12 year old son when he is home alone, and will basically babysit him. she also thinks he would perish without the tv for entertainment. if i didnt have work to do and wasnt allowed to watch tv or use the computer, i would probably READ A FUCKING BOOK, or in his case, play with some of the thousands of toys he has. or play with those pet turtles that he HAD to have, the cat, or the dog, or clean my room if it was as messy as his. there are plenty of ways to entertain yourself. she doesnt understand this because she is stupid and lazy.
so anyway, today at dinner while brent was watching tv, i asked her WHY he was watching tv, considered the first punishment for him i have ever heard of was supposed to be no tv this weekend. and she explained to me (very loudly and angrily) that it wasnt my business, and she excused her crappy/lack of parenting by saying he didnt do what she really thought he did. he turned his homework in, he just didnt do some of it. i said that it was crappy parenting to let him get away with that and she said that i was being to critical of her. and i didnt have the right to criticize her parenting. and then she said that i shouldnt watch tv either if he didnt.
me: "but that was his punishment. he didnt finish his homework because he was too lazy and so he was going to be PUNISHED. i do my homework"
her: "but u do a crappy job on your homework so how is that better than not finishing it"
so thats how she sees it. i spend hours and hours on my homework and dont get A's on all of it, and he spends hours watching tv INSTEAD of finishing his homework. and thats all the same. i am just as bad of a student as him. in fact, theres really no point in turning in my homework on time because it already is done badly.
my mom is a shitty parent.
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2004 12 September :: 9.18pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: balla baby -chingy
uhh
i have 15 hours of sleep to catch up on from the past week. so happy jts is over. i screwed up in the second show, that sucked. so happy i got a ride to the party AND back. when i got home my dad said some shit about curfew and i was like "uh u didnt say i had to be home by a certain time..." and then my mom said 1:20 was sooo late to get home.
got a belt in the mail today. its pretty, too bad i dont have one good pair of jeans to wear with it.
worked 3 hours today. neither the head librarian bitch nor her vice librarian bitch were there, so no problem. theres one lady who's usually there whos really nice. i dont know her name. anyway, i earned money, whatever.
time to make a mix
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