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2006 12 August :: 12.58am
:: Mood: f'ing sticky
Dedicated to: tulips & yo mom
I am...
I am nervous.
I am contemplative.
I am excitable.
I am shy.
I am hesitant.
I am small.
I am sad.
I am happy.
I am angry.
I am wondering.
I am here.
I am empty.
I am envious.
I am sneaky.
I am tricky.
I am troubled.
I am mistaken.
I am forgotten.
I am misread.
I am silly.
I am wack.
I am confused.
I am afraid.
I am looking forward.
I am sitting indian style.
I am hot.
I am tired of this place.
I am easily irritable.
I am confused.
I am peppy.
I am unsure.
I am not tan.
I am wearing a shirt I will soon hand over to my sister.
I am counting days.
I am not looking forward to september.
I am thinking about change.
I am fearing.
I am about to go insane.
I am unsatisfied.
I am craving Bagel Chateau.
I am bad at water activities.
I am messy.
I am private.
I am clean.
I am quiet.
I am biased.
I am comfortable.
I am a klepto ..sometimes..
I am wearing my contacts.
I am tired.
I am missing what I don't have.
I am yearning.
I am cool.
I am indecisive.
I am slow.
I am dreamy.
I am in love.
I am bad at singing.
I am good at napping.
I am jumpy.
I am bitchy.
I am easy to humor.
I am surprising.
I am sleepy, a lot.
I am wierd.
I am always unsure of how to spell wierd.
I am a wishful thinker.
I am a hardworker.
I am also a slacker.
I am lost.
I am unsure.
I am late for an appointment with a friend.
I am more things.
But what are you.
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teenybeany
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2006 11 August :: 9.38am
:: Mood: contemplative
Dedicated to: nothing in particular
I wish..
I wish it wasn't August 11th.
I wish it was August 24th.
I wish this room wasn't so messy.
I wish it wasn't so hot.
I wish my hair was straight.
I wish I was home.
I wish I was tan.
I wish school started later.
I wish people could be honest.
I wish I wasn't so afraid.
I wish mosquitos didn't exist.
I wish my ipod didn't die so quickly.
I wish my laptop wasn't so hot.
I wish I could delete all the songs on my ipod and start all over.
I wish I could start all over.
I wish I knew where I'll be in 5 years.
I wish I knew where I'll be in 10 years.
I wish I knew where I'll be in a month.
I wish I knew who read this.
I wish I knew what you are thinking right now.
I wish people would stop fearing death.
I wish children weren't such pain in the asses.
I wish it was winter.
I wish it was December.
I wish I didn't have to teach anymore.
I wish my cousin would shut the fuck up.
I wish people wouldn't make me do things.
I wish I didn't have to major in graphic design.
I wish I could stop spending money.
I wish money wasn't an issue.
I wish moeny will stop being an issue.
I wish I could make decisions faster.
I wish people could read me better.
I wish people didn't judge so quickly.
I wish I didn't judge so quickly.
I wish I could have a falafel salad from Thayer St. right now.
I wish I could snuggle with ...
I wish my eyes weren't so bad.
I wish my cousin would shut the fuck up.
I wish children could be better tamed.
I wish I wasn't so picky choosy.
I wish I could have dinner with my parents and my siblings all at once.
I wish I didn't keep myself at such a distance from people.
I wish I stared less.
I wish I wondered less.
I wish I could shut my cousin the fuck up.
I wish I was home.
I wish I could solve my problems.
I wish I could be more patient.
I wish there was a point to this list.
I wish there's a point to everything that we do.
I wish this winter, it will snow lots.
I wish I will have someone to snuggle with this winter while watching the snow.
I wish kids in Korea had it easier.
I wish I could trust more.
I wish I could trust less.
I wish I could go camping with MSD.
I wish people didn't assume.
I wish FC liked me more.
I wish FC genuinely likes me.
I wish there wasn't pressure.
I wish I could live by my own rules.
I wish it didn't matter.
I wish people wouldn't ask questions.
I wish I had a boyfriend that I could trust.
I wish I could travel the world.
I wish I could hang out with my dad more.
I wish I could communicate with my parents better.
I wish there was one universal language.
I wish taxi drivers didn't scam people.
I wish I could not care.
I wish wishes would come true.
I wish red lights would turn green faster.
I wish I could bitch slap a lot of people right now.
I wish I didn't eat dinner so late.
I wish people didn't whine.
I wish I could fast forward time.
I wish..
I wish......
What do you wish.
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teenybeany
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2006 10 August :: 10.05am
:: Mood: satisfied
Dedicated to: gambling
it's wierd how you can see someone on the street, and think they're a complete stranger, but you might be connected to them somehow.
i really like pomegranite flavored things.
i have 14 days left here. i'm getting really sick of other people's nasty smells. i will miss the subway and walking everywhere.
it's 11 pm. during the day, time always flies. but days, not so much.
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teenybeany
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2006 9 August :: 4.39am
:: Mood: :O
Dedicated to: familiararityrairiaktir
i decided this is where i belong. this summer is a lot about where i belong, where i should be, where i'm not, where i want to be, where i need to be.
i have 15 days until i get on my long long plane ride home. but regardless, the 15 days are a lot longerrrrrrrrrrrr than that plane ride. i have been here for a long time. so long, i even have credit at a store. i also know how to ride the subways without the map. i know what t.v. shows are popular. and what's happening in every single one of them.
my mom leaves tomorrow, and it seems like she's been here for 2 days. so, maybe, the next one-five will go by quicklyyylallalayalaya.
i miss a lot of people and a lot of places, but i think by now, i'm just numb and that missing feeling is just something comfortable i'm used to feeling and something i don't actually know the meaning to anymore.
tata.
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teenybeany
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2006 18 July :: 11.34am
:: Mood: full
Dedicated to: all the fish in the sea
i'm going to try out live journal, so relocate to there:
www.livejournal.com/~vegetab1es
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