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2006 8 April :: 5.59pm
:: Mood: accomplished
Dedicated to: nuts
I just went to ho foods. Yums.
Today is an ugly day. Yuck.
I love chocolate covered soy nuts. Yay.
Good bye. You.
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2006 5 April :: 12.26pm
:: Mood: cold, because it is snowing here, and it is april
Dedicated to: "I <3 Beans"
Hello spazzattacks.
Today is ok! so far. Because today is Leroy Wednesday. Which means, I have 2D. Which means, I am usually bored out of my freaking mind. So today went like this so far... Actually.. start from last night...
After I did my (8) wet charcoal drawings of Sammy... I went downstairs to play with Matt&Ben. I was down there till 2 30 am which was ok because I knew I only had 2D today, which is nothing I really need too much rest for. So I went to bed and woke up at 7 33 am, when Blanche and Julian came in and I said, "What time is it!?" And they said, 7 33. And I was like, "Whaaaaaat?" Because my alarm is supposed to go off at 7 21 am and I guess it did, and I guess I sleep-sat-up and turned off the alarm. So at 7 46 am I got out of bed and got ready for class. But today was a yucky day outside already so I decided to Millburn Lacrosse sweatshirt it. I messy bun-ed my hair and was ready to go and realized that it was 8 10am. Which was the earliest I've ever gotten ready for a 8 30 am class. So I decided to leave and get breakfast. So I went to studio, and got a bagel & OJ. Today was the first time I had breakfast in a very, very.. very long time. And then I went upstairs and found out thaaaaaaaaaaat: My teacher wasn't here (again!) and the stupid t.a. was running the class. So, yay! Because my teacher is senile and we don't like to listen to him. So, we did some stupid shit with viewfinders, and lines, and composition, and then she let us out at 11 am. And gave us a 2 hour lunch break. And when we go back at 1 pm, she only needs to take pictures of our work, and then we're FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
On another note: 48 hours ago it was spring.
On another note 2: Yesterday I cut 175+ peices of cardboard. You don't realize that cardboard can make you dizzy and saiko until you're about, 112 cuts in...
On another note 3: School is getting repetitive and should end. I seriously believe that there is nothing more I can learn from my teachers. We're doing such similar shit to last semester... why are we still here?
On another note 4: I have drawing tomorrow.. (throws up)
On another note 5: Julian just barged in and scared the shit out of me.
On another note 467: Good bye.
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2006 1 April :: 1.15am
:: Mood: not sleepy
Dedicated to: tomorrow is saturday. people come back. :) .
I've realized that I'm really not involved with current events. I never read the paper. I don't ever turn on a t.v. anymore. Even if I did, I would never watch the news. I'm on the internet alll the time, but I never go to a news page. I never engage in conversations about the world. I don't think I ever even hear about anything that's going on in the world... Or maybe I just subconciously block that out...
I really should keep up to date. Just because, it's good brain food. And it's good to know.
It'd be good to know what's going on in Korea. And what's going on, or not going on, in Iraq. And also, maybe, what's going on in America... afterall, I do live here. I bet I'm not mentioning another place in the world that has been headlining for a while and I just haven't realized.
In Ms. Trezpacz's class, we would learn so much about the world, and I would always hate it. And zone out. Now, I envy her a lot for being so smart. Not book smart, but just common sense smart. Just because she has the common sense and decency to forget about herself and focus on others more. I never really liked her that much because I thought she was too full of herself, knowing that everyone feared her, and those who didn't fear her admired her, and because she knew she knew so much. But now I really admire her. I guess it was me who was too full of myself to realize this about her. Atleast I didn't treat her like shit or anything, because than I would really despise myself.
Even though I regret being so out of date with everything going on, I know I won't start to keep up with the news. Sometimes, it's hard to break bad habits.
I think this is the most I've said or thought about current events... talking about how I don't think about them...
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2006 30 March :: 2.30pm
:: Mood: apathetic
Dedicated to: . . .
Do you know what?
School is almost over. In about two months. When I realized this I wanted time to slow down. And I hated how time moves so fast. And before we know it, the sun is gone and it's night. And time to sleep, so that another day can come and time can keep doing its job.
Sitting here in my room, without anyone around, and not much but work to do, I wish time would speed up. I wish it would be Saturday night already, so Elisa will be here, and the next day everyone else will.
But then I thought about how weird and sort of unecessary it is that one moment I want time to slow down, and the next, I want it to move just a bit faster. I wonder when I'll think time is perfect, and at a perfect pace. I wonder what has to happen to me, that will make me believe that. And I wonder, if I ever will think time is perfect and fine where it's at.
So maybe it's because I'm sort of bored with the repetitiveness. Waking up, doing work, seeing the same people, eating the same food, going to bed. Maybe I think that I'm wasting time doing the same ordinary things all the time, that I think I'm running out of time. And that's why I want it to slow down. So I have enough time to do new and different and crazy things.
Or maybe it's because I'm not really enjoying life right now. I think I am, but maybe I'm not. Because, I think that I know it could be better, and I even know how it could be better, and what I could do to make it better. I'm just not doing it... and I haven't yet... and I'm not really sure why...
Normally, I would just accept the fact that time is tricky, and mean, and kind. But I've been doing that for so long, that if I keep doing it then I'm never going to get anywhere, and I'm going to keep doing the same things, and live such an average life. I guess I should take more chances. And not care about what people think so much.
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2006 30 March :: 12.01am
:: Mood: hungry
Dedicated to: bounty sheets
I'm back at school.
And oh so alone!
There's not that many people here... obviously because it's break...
After watching satc and cutting cardboard for so long, i didn't realize how late it was until i looked up and it was 11 45pm! Ack ack!!
I guess coming to art school with a white laptop wasn't such a good idea. It's more like a misty grey/brown now. Mm my favorite.
It's not as lonely as I thought, being here alone. It's peaceful, actually. For now atleast.
I have nothing important to say. ...Ever...
-i'm out.
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