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2006 6 June :: 7.36am
so.... going to be bored today. We went to osaka and hiroshima, good stuff. I've been trying to avoid the obvious tourist things... but to no avail, no matter what i do here I'm always going to look like a tourist. Osaka is fucking huge city, which is apparently now notable for what matt calls "osaka style". Everyone dresses like some bizarre model and has a walk. I'll get a picture of it. Also, theres these groups of guys that hassle girls on the street, and they all look like punk chique(SP) sort of speak. You would only see people like that in new york on acid or in hell... but I guess osaka harbors them. My brother forgot to bring his charger for the camera phone thing so I have lots of pictures of hiroshima but none of osaka. Speaking of which, Ironically enough there was a HUGE festival in hiroshima when we were there, just out of random chance. It was nutts. They like hott dogs on a stick alot. I saw where the a-bomb hit and what not, that's a once in a lifetime deal, phil would have appreciated that. Speaking of which, I apologize phil... I get mixed up alot, especially lately being that I couldn't drive.
I got addison and chris gifts... and oh boy, chris, you're going to love yours. so that leaves alot of people. Oh well, big trip to Tokyo tomorrow with just me :(. I don't know what I'm going to do with myself. I want to hit some clubs. In your opinion, is it wierd for me as an american, to just go to a club by myself? take note that just because I'm american it doesn't make me a demi god to japanese women, just gives me a slight advantage. Here= ugly dudes with HOT girl friends = me having a slight chance - the ability to speak japanese = damnit
P.S. I got naked with my brother... if you are following then good, if not, don't think about it too hard
P.S.S. Sorry phil
P.S.S.S. Amanda, almost got you a kimono, and if you want boy problems, I can help you baby ;)....
alright, now that I've just creeped everyone out, I'll just be on my way....
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tuwang
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2006 2 June :: 4.20pm
So , I'm alive. For all those who think Japan is fucking crazy... you're right. What's the first thing I see? Fucking beer in a vending machine... what did I see an hour later? Porn in a vending machine... Those two things make me want to become a Japanophile. So I really wasn't supposed to leave until today, but , well, let me explain. My flight was the same number and time as the one the day before it. Which makes sense. However... to my luck, being that I drove to detroit to get on a plane, the flight was delayed. This is good, because I would have been sent all the way back home, but the clerk just assumed that I was supposed to be leaving on that one because it was delayed. I now realize how funny this is because he couldn't find my reservation for the plane with my last name... now I know why... So, point being that he changed me to fly to L.A. (which is an annoying airport btw) , then to osaka. The total in air time was about 17 hours, but the flight was nice. I drank wine, ate sushi ( really bad sushi and wine) , watched king kong 4 times and some korean movie about a girl ina guys apartment and dancing, it was great. Landed in osaka at about 5:45 P.M. ( 4:45 A.M for you bitches), and went to get my train ticket. That left around 6:50, then after an hour on that train I had to get off and on another one for 9. So in the end, I traveled for about 27 hours... but now I'm here and it was totally worth it. Everyone is really polite. Osaka is fucking huge, I can only imagine what tokyo is going to be like. Also... I find Japanese girls to be more attractive in their own context, if that makes any sense... Going out tonight, going to be a blast... Gotta go those, catch you handsome gents later...
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tuwang
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2006 31 May :: 2.30am
Well... off with me then.
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Jacqui-Chan
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2006 27 May :: 12.01am
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: silence
bonfires...
I'm never going to get what I want, am I? I'm never going to be able to do stuff that I went, have a late curfew, have a guy love me back. I'm not going to get what I want ever. Why can't I just except that? Life is not going to work that way... it never has, and never will. His friends are always going to talk badly about me, they're always going to think I'm a loser, a bitch, a controlling freak. I'll never fit in, and he'll never let me. I'll never kiss him, hug him, hold his hand, or feel his touch again. I'm always just going to be his friend. I'm going to be his friend in the way that Jamie is, not the way Katie is. I'll never be the one he hugs and messes with and gives back rubs. I'll never be the one he flirts with and laughs with. I'll always be the one who's making him look like an ass. I'll always be the one trying not to cry. And in the end I'll always end up going home repeating over and over to myself that he doesn't matter, and that I'll find someone better.
I'll never be what he wants, but I'll always be what he needs. And I'll always love him... even though I won't always like him. I hate the pain I feel... it hurts worse than anything ever has before. And trust me, I know pain... I really really do. Physical pain is nothing compared to this. I just want to be the one he wants. I want someone to want me too... and I want it to be him. Why do I have to still want him? Why do I still have to love him? Why can't he just still love me?
Why am I even asking? I'll never know the answer... but I'll always wonder... and I'll always miss him. Always.
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Jacqui-Chan
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2006 22 May :: 8.45pm
:: Mood: indescribable
:: Music: The Real Thing :Bou Bice
Tell me that it's fate drivin' me insane.
So, I really cannot get over him. I just can't. I literally cry myself to sleep a LOT thinking about him. It drives me nuts. What I like, however, is that he hasn't gotten over me yet either. He kissed me tonight. We had a serious talk, which ended in tears, then I showed him my scrapbook and pictures of us. (Amazing pictures!) Then I asked if I should do a page devoted to us or not, and he kissed me. That was his way of saying "yes" I suppose. We just laughed after that. We wrestled and laughed and talked and had the BEST time. I wish he could hold me forever. I wish he could kiss me forever. I just love the feeling being with him gives me. Yep, *sigh* I'm in love. Funny how that's not always good though, huh?
Anyway, I should jet. I just thought I'd gush about everything. But now it's sleepy shower time... and then maybe early to bed. Who knows, I could definetly use the sleep.
Anyway, I'll check ya' later loves.
-Jacqui-
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tuwang
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2006 22 May :: 2.13pm
I go to sleep for 9 hours and the whole place gos to hell... wtf?
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2006 20 May :: 3.10pm
I shouldn't do that.... really.... It only pisses people off. But I have to compensate the loneliness with some sort of attention, I mean, I can't just deal with it on my own...
sad I'm going to miss half of your open houses, So I apologize ahead of time.
Japan in 11 days!!
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2006 12 May :: 11.42pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: 105.3 <
Love stinks
I would honestly love to understand myself. How can I think I love someone who treats me like shit on a regular basis. And now, suddenly he's friends with every other girl in the world. I am such the trend setter. Whoever Jacqui likes everyone else will like too. Yay! Only not. So now I feel pushed to the back burner, and at this point in my life feeling like that sucks even worse than before. I just need him to care about me, to act like I matter more than those other girls. He says I'm still his best friend. Personally, I dissagree. See I respect the feelings and opinions of my best friends, and would never do something continuously that I knew was hurting one of them. But he does it almost daily. The jerk. So why do I still think I love him? Because I'm obviously glutten for punishment. I hate that about myself. Stupid girl.
Oh yea, Phil, I'm VERY upset with you. I have to work tomorrow because you're in Washington. On the day of my mother's surprise 40th birthday party. I think this repays my previous debt. (not really, but I needed to blame this on someone.)
Any ol' how, I'll check ya'll later. Have a smashing Saturday loves.
XOXOXO,
Jay
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2006 8 May :: 4.02pm
i got my hair cut
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tuwang
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2006 3 May :: 1.01pm
alright... one more....
Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net
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tuwang
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2006 3 May :: 12.58pm
Thank you addison... this comic is hilarious...
Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net
on a side note... TOTALLY forgot about becca and the golf cart thing. Poor becca indeed hilary. We should have just put her out of her misery....
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tuwang
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2006 27 April :: 11.44am
strange dream... riding in a golf cart with Samantha Huugen(sp) fighting off a really annoying squirrel. She didn't know how to press the gas down all the way...
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2006 23 April :: 3.12pm
:: Mood: drained
Boys... not men... BOYS
First JD and I weren't going to prom together, then we were, now we aren't again. I'd blame Caleb, since it was originally his fault, but now it's just JD. He's stupid. He wants to date me, and he does. But at school it's just another day. I don't like it. I want to punch it in the face.
I guess I should be use to the craziness of that boys mind by now. Seriously, he's always been this way. But I still get taken by surprise when it comes to him. Craziness.
I'm so so so tired. I slept from 9:30ish last night to 9 this morning. And yet I'm still dead tired. I hate Sundays.
I'll c ya'll tomorrow. Have a great rest of your rainy Sunday. Love ya'.
-Jay-
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2006 18 April :: 9.27pm
My New E-mail is Not-Asleep_Not-Awake@hotmail.com
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Tuwang
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2006 18 April :: 11.44am
hahaha, cedar people who used to hang out by the window in the main hall near the crotch read this.
so I was just reminising(sp). I went back and looked at stacy's old journal and the one where I insulted everybody I could have possibly insulted. 101 comments I think over 3 days or something. pretty good. I don't even remember what spawned it. It must have been those damn pictures with the lyrics. I still hate those by the way. Basically my plan was just to throw as much bullshit and random insults into the arena, and that's what I got back from everyone, bullshit. Some of the stuff was kind of harsh. I had a good time with some of it though. Funny part is I hang out with these people now sometimes. here's how it went.
Me: Babble babble babble
Joe: You fuck pigs!
Me: You're stupid for saying I fuck pigs!
Joe: I hate coherency!
Jimi : My cock is huge! I agree with joe! Brag!
Me : babble babble babble
Stacy : I like sasauge!
Rachel from belding : you're an asshole!
Me: You're a cum guzzling whore!
Rachel : Shit!
Me : Tool! Tool!
Some Jessica Girl : I have no part in this, but I enter anyway with extended comments on how you don't make any sense, even though that was obvious from the get-go!
Me: your stupid for not noticing that I was merely babbling! And I'm stupid for never using the correct fomr of " you're"! TooL!
Phil: haha, TOol!
Mitch: Way to use everything that maddox uses! I only used to quote penny arcade every day nonstop!
Me: Way to notice things I make obvious! Asshole! FUCK!!!
Mithc: I'm sorry I couldn't have made that last comment longer, I was just so excited I noticed obvious things...
Me: Want to be in my music video with jessa? You'll get to make out with her, I promise...
Mitch: YES!
Tom: I kick ass
Me: yay!
Rachel : Blahhh!!! I'm a vampire!!! I'll use our 5 second sexual encounter to deduct conclusions about everything!!
Me: WHORE!!
Jimi: My cock is still huge... but I'll make sure I can negify that comment by stating that my penis is as small as a japanese mans penis, there by stereotyping japanese men... although I earlier refered to you as hitler/ and or agreed with someone when they made that reference... I hate myself
Stacy: am I still even relevent in this argument?
Me: watch as I continue on, regretting everything I say
Joe: I still think you fuck goats (insert reference to my mother being a dirty whore)
Phil: RABBIT HAT!!
I think we should all come together and make this a play... or movie... or a novel that has a play made about it that turns into a movie. It would be fun...
It is, however, good to see that everyone has grown up so much. I consider Joe a good guy, dont' really have much to do with jimi, and Stacy is always cool in my book. Rachel, apologize for the whole whore thing. Phil... you're just phil. Mitch and I have our disagreements but we never let it get to us. It's all good and fun. Infact, reading how stupid we all were made me feel really good about today. Japan in 44 days! I'm goin clubbin. With your response today, leave me what you would like from japan, and for the 55th time, no you cannot have a child. go:
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