NOthing at all
So I stayed up till three o clock this morning. Dawn (my step mom) had this big huge talk about everything that she could think of. It sucked cuz I cried the whole entire time. Plus I was on the internet at the time and she made me get off but I could never get back on.Sorry Rob. And after that happened I went to go get back online but my dad was being all pissed off and wouldn't let me back on, so I got all pissed off for other reasons and so I went to my room and cried for about another hour until my dad got his head out of his ass and came to see what was wrong. So we had a big discussion on that. YOu would not believe how bad you would feel the see your own Father cry because of you. He stayed in my room until like two or so and then he told me to go to bed. I couldn't fall asleep. I threw up from crying so much and I had the biggest head ache ever. So I didn't get to sleep till about 3. Then I woke up at about 7. I got out of bed and there was three messages on the answering machine so I checked it and I found out that my nephew Dakota was in the hospital since 6:15. He couldn't breath and was on steriods in the hospital. He had to get x rays. Nobody knew what was wrong. Then at about 10:30 he was admitted into the hospital. He's still there now and I"m sitting at home doing nothing. Wanting to do something with Addison but I have to do something with my dad but he's all pissed off so I don't want to. Well I got to go. Talk to whoever wants to next time.

Today
So toady Addison is coming over. As a matter of fact he is here right now. I have missed him. I'm glad that I finally get to see him. But oh well I'm going to go so I can hang out with Atman. LYSYB.

horse races
So today I went to the horse races with Addison and his family. I met both of his grandmas, his grandpa, and his aunt Jen and Uncle. (I don't remember his name.) His parents horse ended up winning which was cool because I got a cut in the money. But the bad thing was that I had to get my picture taken... damn you Addison. Oh well it wasn't that bad. It could have been worse. If you're wondering why my mood says very depressed it's because I forgot to take my meds this morning. I forgot it at my mom's house. And I have to go all day tomorrow without it too. I know that I'm going to freak. I already was at Addison's grandparents house. We played pool and I won a couple of times and so did Addison. I needed to get away from everyone I didn't know so we played pool and NO not pocket pool. I'm proud of myself though because I had the chance to cheat on Addison the other day (I won't say who with though, they know who there are.) and I didn't. I don't want to screw things up with him. I don't want to lose him. We have something really special that I have never had with anyone else. I wish that I could actually be convinced that I am worth something besides what Addison thinks of me. Well g2g. LYSYB.

Movies
Yeah so I just got home from the movies. I went and seen Finding Nemo. And of course Addison took me. It was so cute and funny. It was so cool. The thing that sucked though was that there were so many little kids there that wouldn't shut up. It was very annoying. Oh well I had fun. I got to spend time with Addison. I love spending time with him. He is so great. He's amazing. I wish that we could be together forever, but I think we all know that won't happen. I wish but no. It sucks though. He is so great to everyone, especially to me. I love spending time with him. Well don't want to bore you all.LYSYB.

school
I'm so happy that school is finally out. I get to be away from everyone that I hate and that hates me. I really can't stand some people. I hope that I do actually move this summer. I want to but then I would miss the very little friends that I actually have. I'm really worried about Bill. He's freaking me out. I don't know what to do. My knee hurts, I was laying on the floor in p.e today and mike Jumped on my knee. I miss Addison. I hope that we can do something this weekend. I wish that I could drive then I could do anything that I want to whenever I want to. I'm bored and I don't know what else to right. Well Addison I LOVE YOU.
LYSYB.

Whatever
I'm so glad that softball is finally over. I hate Ringler but it's going to suck because he's going to be the JV coach next year. I really don't want to have to put up with him but softball is my life. I don't know what I would do without it. Anyway Bill got me sick. I feel like shit. I don't want to put up with being sick in the summer. It sucks I have to go to work tomorrow. I really don't want to because it's so hot in there but I guess it's cool cause I get money. I miss Addison I'm waiting for him to call so we can do something. I wish that I was with him right now. I hate my life. You would not believe. I can't take it anymore. Well don't want to bore you anymore. LYSYB

drowning.
Does it count as suicide if your brother pushes you into a pool and you drown?

suicide
get the gun, put in the bullet, put it up to my head, cock it, pull the triger, I'm dead.

Atmans house
Yeah so today I woke up and a couple hours later I went to Addisons. And of course nobody else was home so you all know what we did. ;) :0 So anyway we went to blockbuster and rented Overboard. It was pretty dumb. It had Adam Sandler in it so that's why we rented it. We wanted to rent Billy Madison but they didn't have it. We went back to his house and watched the movie. We also watched Happy Gilmore, and Zoolander. I really wasn't paying any attention. I had fun though. So about an hour before I had to leave his mom showed up. It wasn't so bad except she kept poping up at really weird moments. But oh well I got to spend my day with Atman. I was so exstatic. It was awesome. I miss him already and I just left his house at 7:00. Oh well I get to see him again Monday.
It sucks monday we have a band thingy to do and I have no clue where my flip folder or liar are at so I'm practically screwed unless I memorize the music in about 5 minutes that I would even have to do anything but I would be too busy with Atman. So I'm not sure what to do. I already looked where I thought it was but it wasn't there. So I have to look some more. But I guess I'll have to actually try. Well don't want to bore you. LYSYB.