I saw my Dentist drinking pop yesterday. It made me giggle on the inside.
My Birthday in 3 days! I'll no longer be a 'teen' and that feels really weird to me.
Welcome 2008! I sadly worked during New Years eve, so I ddnt even get to sit home and watch the ball drop, let alone be out with friends. =(
Damn Meijer Nazis.
On another note, I heard Vitamin C's "Graduation" while working the other day. I admit it brought on a couple tears.
EDIT: Haha! Gotta love Wee-man dude. This was posted on his myspace blog yesterday.
i love it when i have those moments where i feel like i'm on felix felicis and everything just falls into place.
then there are those other times where i try and try so hard to adapt and adjust correctly so that it will fall into place, but no matter how hard i try, it just doesn't fit.
i hate those other times. i'm always tempted to give up on them. but i never do, because i know there's always hope that suddenly felix will step back into the ring and make it all better. but he doesn't always do that. and then i'm left holding the bag.
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2007 31 December :: 12.40am
:: Mood: on the precipice
:: Music: jamie cullum / jamiroquai (libby's playlist)
i've never really made a new year's resolution before. i mean, i've had little things that i decided to do or not do, but nothing monumental. kind of similar to lent. i give shit up for lent sometimes, but it doesn't fucking matter. i don't take it too seriously. mainly because i think it's bullshit.
mom makes new year's resolutions every fucking year and never keeps them. which is far more huge than she realizes, because it exemplifies the much larger personal issues she has yet to overcome.
the point is, this time i'm actually resolving to do (and not do) a few things. however, the chronology is merely coincidental. i would be doing these things, regardless of the time of year. which is why i'm not starting the effort precisely on new year's day. but i am making the effort ... and soon.
additionally, i'm not doing it for anyone other than myself. to prove to myself that i don't have a problem. i mean, i know i don't, so in that sense i don't require proof, but that doesn't make the proving of it superfluous or unnecessary. i am essentially proving to myself that i can prove it, even though i know i don't need the proof itself, per se. how's that for circular logic?
and i'm going to use the reallocation of funds idea that hunter gave me this evening as a part of that effort. and it's going to be brilliant. the only flaw is going to be making sure that the fund is not liquid, so that i wind up spending it on other stuff, which is what always happens. the fund has an express purpose. it's not a slush fund, it's exactly what i said it is, a reallocation to a different end.
so, to recap:
:: i am making some resolutions, which should resonate in my mind, body, and pocketbook.
:: although it will be the new year, these are not new year's resolutions.
:: although they are outward acts, these resolutions are for nobody's benefit or harm other than my own, despite their potential external impact.
I cleaned out my closet and my drawers today. Its amazing some of the things that I found A notebook from my Junior year with "Jackie + Chris" in Japanese scribbled in various places on it. A note from my freshman year from Tim Seifken asking me to Swirl. A note from Zach Garnsey from when we were going out. A bunch of pictures of Jessie Wilde and I at the RHCP concert. Random choir pictures from Cedar. Awards from more recent years that I remembered encouraged me to pursue a music career. Pictures of old friends, and many other things. It made me sad going through my things, pitching some of it, tucking away my favorite memories. The thing that made me the saddest was how I remembered that things were good. And I just want things to be that good again, you know? Nonetheless, I cleaned everything out, and re-packed my drawers so that I can move my dressers easier. Hopefully things will start going better.
:)
one of my friends happened to dissapear, i got an earful from his girlfriend becasue she doesn't have any meds left, doesn't have a car to go get them and has a doctors appointment tomorrow at 10 am.
take care of your shit man, I've had your back before in the past, and you've done a bunch to help me, but your on your own now.