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2007 15 November :: 4.02am
:: Mood: groggy
:: Music: Chad VanGaalen
My hardest classes are the one credit music classes...
Next Semester:
-Sight Sing Ear Train II -
-Concert Choir -
-History Survey Music II -
-Academic Learning Skills -
-Mass Comm Contemp Socty -
-Piano Class II -
-Bowling -
-Voice Lesson -
-Studio Class -
-Voice Area Recital/Music 097 -
-Opera -
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2007 12 November :: 11.44pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: Old school Kirby stuffs
Petty annoyances
So, lately I've been depressed, and have been unable to locate the source of this depression. I've discovered the truth behind it, and while I don't like the answer, I've accepted it.
I truly live for the weekend. I hate the weekdays, and most people I meet. While a few weeks ago I learned that drowning my sorrows in booze is nowhere near the answer that I seek, surrounding myself with friends and family is.
Had a great time with phil and nate on friday, though I got the impression that nate's woman wanted to rip my head off. That won't be the last chick I drive to a murderous state of mind.
Saturday and sunday were spent hanging out with david. I'm amazed at the nothing we can do, and yet I enjoy myself so much. One of these times we will actually do something, god willing, that doesn't involve booze or sitting around all night.
The other problem is that if I'm not with someone on the weekend, I get lonely, and that has become devestating for me. The whole over-analyzing thing bites me in the ass, and I contemplate many things that I shouldn't, such as things involving heather, my friends, my 'distant' family, myself, hell, even Katie Albrecht. I mean, srsly, what the fuck is wrong with me?
A stupid girl today reminded me that most people are worth dick. She was talking on her phone, and followed me nearly all the way to class. With speakerphone on. For about 5 minutes, I got to listen to two typical valley girls chat it up. Yeah, no problems there.
After Lara (the girl using her speakerphone) told Sandy that she couldn't figure out why Jamal left him, I spun around and replied, "Maybe because you are whiny, or self centered, or stupid. Maybe we can just combine all three and say he left you because you are a whiny, self centered, stupid bitch." She then looked at me and said, "Don't butt into my conversations!" We argued, but I eventually copied a move from david's book and used the over exaggerated head nodding with a goofy smile technique. It was super effective.
For some reason, I haven't given a damn what anyone thinks about me since then. All it took was a huge moron to remind me why people aren't shit, or at least most of them out there. Now to finish that homework that I've been avoiding for about three hours...though this kirby game won't play itself...dammit.
So Christmas came early at my house last night.
Mike bought me a 20 inch Widescreen (because they only had widescreen) Flat Panel Monitor.
I have a sort of interview tomorrow, to take an IQ Test.
There is a place in Edmore looking for an Office Assistant and April from Manpower is looking into that for me.
Yep I still check this from time to time
Wow it's been a long time since I posted. Let's see....what's up with my life...
Caleb turned a year old on Oct. 26! Yay. He had his doctor appt on Tuesday. Stats when he was born: 6 lb 10 oz, 19 in long.
Stats when he was a year old: 22 lb, 32 in long
He is soooooo tall! Seriously, he's in the 97% ! He's 97% taller than all other 1 year olds! The doctor said with his height he's the size of a normal 17-month old. But his weight is just normal.
Carazy. This year has gone so fast. I am in my 3rd year at GRCC still no sign of graduating anytime soon. ha. Still cookin up good things all the time. Not working right now, just a stay at home mommy. Charlie and I are doing great. We're living in Wyoming right now, but we might be moving to Traverse City in the next couple years. It's sad I don't really have much to write about after all this time. Except Caleb, he's wonderful.
He's brought so much to my life, I love him so much.
Anywho I need my beauty sleep, HA! Nah, I have a date in the morning with a little boy to watch Clifford cartoons!
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2007 8 November :: 12.33am
:: Music: the voices (they're everywhere)
going to maryland. leaving tomorrow. should be fun.
jessica is super-cool. and awesome. and having to tolerate me. which sucks. and so is everyone else, but they're just not faring as well in their tolerance as she is. which is unfortunate, although not entirely unexpected.
i'm fucking tired. and i haven't done shit this week.
oh well. maybe at the end of this tunnel i'll find myself. or at least someone else who can find me for me.
"Loneliness is a power that we possess to give or take away forever.
All I know can be shown by your acceptance of the facts; they're shown before you.
Take what I say in a different way and it's easy to say that this is all confusion.
As I see a new day in me, I can also show if you - and you may - follow.
Speak to me of summer, long winters - longer than time can remember,
The setting up of other roads, to travel on in old, accustomed ways.
I still remember the talks by the water; the proud sons and daughters
That knew the knowledge of the land spoke to me in sweet accustomed ways."
and stuff and things.
all in all, though, feeling good. just very lost. and my concept of time is completely out the window.