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:: 2003 25 September :: 3.52 pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Right thurr remix...lol

Another...
Another shitty day at skool and now ive freakin gotta go to work in a lil bit and i wont get to talk to britt t day/nite either damn it! I miss her... :-( but oh well...

Well lets see a few things excitin happened t day... There was 2 diff fights n i got to watch em both lol but yah one was wit stephanie n nikki n da other was wit Jaimie n da one and only BRITTNEY! ahah i was sittin there laughin my ass off it was fuckin great, and lets see i prolly failed my media test t day...n like yah i gotbitched at by steff cuz of dat..."Jill u need to apply urself better u raelly r a smart girl if u try" YAH MY ASS STEFFANIE!! Lets see lots of things happened t day...uhm another thing dat happened was dat like well yah dis is kinda bad i passed out in gym t day like at work...yah we were runnin da 800 around da track which is only 2 times around n like regularly i can go round 3 times no prob, but like t day after da first lap i was running i like started to get dizzy n i jus fell down on da track, n like yah tiffany n da teacher n natalie n all dem like ran up and picked me up and i had to like go sit in da shad en everything so like Kyle like put his arms around me n walked me ova to da bleachers...*whoa babey* lol it was great i luv him, ive known him forever n hes like one of my best guy friends hes da biggest sweetheart ever! But yah wit all dat sweet n cute news bout him guess wat t day was!! His fuckin last day at our skool! hes movin to missurie or wateva i cant spell, but yah and he went home early and like i went down to da office durin 3rd hour {gym was second hour} n hes in both of those classes wit me and lik eyah i went to call my mom and he was down there to and like yah he was callin his mommy too so he could go home cuz he felt like shit ya know, and like i was going bak nto class n he was gettin picked up n he was like r u going bak to class n im like yah and hes like oh well ur leavin me on my last day of skool without givin me a hug?! Awwe it was so cute so i went to go givve him a hug n like he wouldnt let go lol i felt so bad den he like FINALLY let go n like yah he walked me bak to class n like we were standin outside like cuz my class is rite by da bak doors n like yah he was like well im gonna go bak to da office n im like okay good luck n everything n he was like yah thanks and den im like well yah im gonn...and da next thingi knew we were kissin, and i dont mean juus a peck on da lips! ;-) and like yah it was really weird n like yah when we finished kissin lol he like looked at me n he had tears n his eyes it was so friggin sad so i was like how long will it be til ur mom gets here and he said she'd be here in like 35 minutes so i skipped my class n went off wit him and we jus went by da baseball diamond n like "hung out" lol jk but yah we jus sat there n talked fo like da whole time n like den da next thing i hear is da end of class bell and like it had been like an hour and like he was like oh shit ive gotta go, n i was like well hey heres my numba call me and he was like will do, n like yah we kissed again lol and yah dat was it he left, i cant imagine not havin dat goof ball in my classes anymore he was in my 5th most of my 6th 7th n like 3 in 8th n like 3 in 9th and now hes gone! Urgh i fuckin hate when dat happens, i miss him already n he aint even left da skool yet damn it! So yah t day was and is going to be a shitty day! I jus wanna fuckin sleep forever n never ever wake up! Dat would be fine n great wit me! But since i cant do dat, {well i could, by doing something naughty ;-)} but since i CANT do dat im jus gonna go take a nap n wait fo my mom to get home or to katies so i can go to work...:'(

Latah...

~*Jilly*~

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:: 2003 24 September :: 11.50 pm

Ya knw wat now i raelly wish dat i could have said to britt,

"Hey britt ive been havin a shitty couple of days do u thimk dat we could talk bout it?" n she'd be all lik eyah whas wrong n everything n id tel her and shed be like oh im srry is there anythin i can do and id be like no its okay no biggie, and things would be ok cuz ya know i jus talked bout shit n let things out ya know...BUT NO! I cant even say dat to my best friend, and if i cant do dat den home da hell am i surposed to be able to like tell someone else bout it ya knw...i was surposed to go see mrs blume t day after skool but i couldnt cuz i had to friggin work...im quitin dat job fo odd reasons dat i wont go into detail rite here but yah neways...

I dunno im kinda tired rite now but not really, i jus wanna crawl into a lil ball n jus lay down somewhere n cry! Jus cry forever, and however loud i want, n so nobody can hear, so nobody can hear how friggin weak i am! But since i cant do dat, ill jus have to deal wit sittin here on da bed here cryin softly so not many ppl here can hear...

Off to "Sleep" den to da place others call skool but which i call my own personal hell, i fuckin hate skool...since im failin everythin n i always will cuz im fuckin dumb neways bye everyone haha

--Jilly

Make a wish!!


:: 2003 24 September :: 11.03 pm

Okay last-i think-but last on purpose, Cassie...

Okay well lets see wat can i write bout cassie, well like since 5th grade we've been like real close n like shes been my best friend and she seriously has meant everything to me we were always together always talkin passin notes at eachothesr houses, i mean everything, she was always there fo me i was always there fo her and we did everything together! I would have to say most of those years were da best years of my life, dat is until last year in 8th grade at least...

Last year everything changed, i felt like my life was ruined, i hated everyting and everyone jus cuz i lost cassie, she meant everyting to me and one day she jus all da sudden hated me and found a new bff tiffany...{which i think like made cassie stop talkin to me and caitlin cuz she didnt like us but yah} I was lost without cassie and actually to say da truth fo once, i still am, i mean yah i know dat she treated me like shit n everything but ive still got a soft stop fo her ya know...like its hard to forget bout someone like her so easily ya know...n actually sometimes i still fall asleep cryin cuz i miss everyting dat we had together, like earlier, i started cryin cuz of it but dats besides da point neways i dunno, da only thing dat i can really think to say bout cassie is...

I jus fuckin miss her still!! :'(

--Jilly

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