I finally know why...
I finally realized why we always say...dat i cant live without you...dat ur da only thing dats worth living fo...blah blah blah...its cuz were so scared to lose eachother, yah but still do u ever think dat were really gonna say goodbye to one another? I mean really can u imagine dat in ur head? I mean yah we say bye and ive said dat i didnt wanna talk anymore n shit, but really can u imagine really sayin goodbye and really really meaning it fo like good good, well i dunno bout u but i really cant...I cant imagine my life without you, even tho sometimes i wish dat things were bak to normal and i never met u, i really couldnt imagine my life without you, i mean i could but it wouldnt be a very pretty site...but jus today i realized dat da only reason dat i think dat we still put up wit eachother and da only reason we dont hate eachother like other friends n shit, and da only reason we jus dont ignore eachother sometimes, like all my other friends, is cuz were scared, not to lose eachother, but to jus say goodbye...like scared dat we cant live without da other, but knowin dat we can, which is da scary part, ya know?

I hope u understand dat...cuz i know its confusin...i dont even know how to explain wat im think rite now...its so confusin...our relationship is so confusin..my life is so confusin and urs is too...dast why its so confusin to explain...but i dunno im done fo now...latahs

Love always,
~*Shawty*~ :-D

FUCK LIFE!
Ya know wat i dont give a fuck anymore! FUCK EVERYTHING AND RITE NOW I DON FUCKIN MEAN EVERYTHING! Fuck all of u fuck EVERYTHING! i fuckin hate life...