The other day i did the stupid thing dat ive ever done in my entire life...I told britt dat we souldnt talk fo a month. I did it for a reason but like i really dont not wanna talk fo a month. I cant even stand not talkin to her fo a day, let alone 31 days! I hate not really talking to her, I mean we've been talking but not really ya know jus agrueing bout who is going to pick if were going to stop dis or not ya know?

Da real reason why i told her dat i didnt wanna talk fo a while was cuz like everytime i try to talk to her she is jus like busy or like seemed to not really have an interest in talkin to me anymore...

Neways, Britt never tells me anything anymore, she used to tell me alot of things, and she used to be like so open wit me, and yeah maybe she was hiding some things but hey doesnt everyone? But now a days she aint telling me anything anymore...its like she dont trust me anymore, and even tho she mite say dat she does sometimes she jus makes me feel like she dont trust me anymore. She wont talk to me about anything, and it jus kinda hurts my feelings ya know? I tell her almost if not everything and she tells me nothing, she cant even tell me about her bad day and wat happened...its frustrating ya know but i dont know i really souldnt or i mean i dont care but yeah dis is part of the reason why i do care here read dis...
Jill-
ok well this is gonna seem really open considering usual im a very
private person. now ur prolly thinkin dats a lie cuz im so loud and talk so
much. but the thing is if i say alot about little things then i can say
only a little bout the big things. im not usually really open with
ANYBODY but u. i dont kno why.. its just i feel more confortable keeping
some deeper stuff inside. buts its not that way with u. i fell like i
can tell u everything and anything which ive neva felt with anybody i jus
meet. chelsie was saying how i just meet u and were acting like best
friends..but dats jus how i feel round u. i feel like ive known u 4ever
and ur my best friend, i dont kno why i just feel like were so close.
which makes me feel really good.

See she used to feel like she could trust me, like she could tell me everything and anything and now i jus feel like she cant or either dat or she jus dont want to ya know?

But neways, If you read dis britt im really srry about dis whole thing, I really do wanna talk to you alot alot but its jus weird ya know, But ya know wat da only reason why i really did it was cuz you said okay fine and u agreed to do it, u seemed like u didnt care if we didnt talk anymore, and u didnt really get upset, or well u didnt get upset and let me see it ya know? You didnt seem to care...but yah i dont know im srry i hope dat u forgive me someday latahs babe...

Dats enough fo now ill write more latahs...