todays starting out to be a good day...well sept for the fact that me n eric arent exactly happy with each other...interesting night last night lol. watched 'the recruit'. good movie...i like all the spy stuff...for example, alias, my fav show...spy show. yep yep im all into that stuff where you never know what'll happen...a plus to that movie...COLIN FARRELL IS DAMN GORGEOUS!!! i was like in heaven for the whole movie n skipped the scene when he made out with the ugly woman...couldnt bear to watch my baby kiss another grl...well now im mad at anthony...long story just thought i should let you know that my mood just changed. oh shit i feel bad now...i just got him so upset...like REALLY upset...i just wanted to fucken set him straight...g2g bbl

omg long time no write!!! yes i know i have the last entry bout 70000 times ignore it...it kept saying "fail" when the entry actually got put into the journal...you only have to read it once. well i was gunna write on thursday till we had the BLACKOUT OF '03 hahah i burnt my hand on a candle...woot...i no longer like the mystery kid all the way from the beginning...cant member if i said that already or not lol...nope im all focused on someone new now...someone who i'm pretty sure likes me back...gotta check that out n make sure...wow its thundering hard outside...torrential rain...big lightning...dont like being in the highest room in the house...::shudders:: big booms...i remember a time...babysittin molly n my coconut w/meggs...huge storm, coco cryin cuz she was so scared...we realized like 15 minutes into this GI-NORMOUS storm that the upstairs windows were open...can you say "FLOOD!!!!!" it wasnt good...alotta stuff got wet by the windows...yeah we spent a good half hour soaking up all water with towels...okay that thunder was wayyyyyyy too close to still be on the computer...byebye

love that song cuz it explains me totally:
~There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more~
can you see how it explains me so much?

I'm flippin out cuz i have to leave in like 2 hrs for my cuzin's play and i havent even packed anything for staying over tonight...i need a hell of alotta cds for the road...oh well lets get back into my moods...

rushed, well i kinda just explained that...oops lol...oh wellsz...ok im seriously hyper...ali hung up on me telling me she'd call back when i calmed down ha ha. annoyed, yes i am annoyed cuz life sux!!! in an IM to a person:
SoFtBaLLgiRL2060: Well, between not getting the call i was supposed to get, you, not being able to see the guy i miss ALOT next weekend, and having to leave in like 2 hrs for a 730 play tonight, life sux
so you can see why i am annoyed...and the you refers to the guy mentioned in the first entry in case you are wondering...umm well i just finished talking to ashley she's goinn to chill with josh again (shes way too lucky)...eh i gotta go straighten my hair for tonight...why im bothering cuz its so humid out i dont know...damn wavy hair...well i hope you are enjoying these entries...its giving me something to do...maybe i'll write more later before i leave...im out...1...<33

ok heres where me and my cousin were scared shitless...it was late late at night...we're at our aunts beach house and she adopted a kid...hes one now...he got this freaky looking doll for his birthday that we say seriously looks like chuckie...okay so we're sitting upstairs and my cell rings...i look at the number, i dun recognize it...i answer the phone and say hello? a deep voice on the other end says "open the door." i screamed and hung up the phone and hopped onto the other bed in the room with my cuz, lauren...suddenly, laurens phone rings, with a number she doesnt recognize either but its different from the one that just called me...she says hello? and someone on the other end says "tell the red head to open the door" so we were laughing and screaming at the same time...so she goes to open the door so these ppl will stop calling the cell...we figured it was someone downstairs playing a prank on us...lauren opens the door and starts screaming so i start screaming and im yelling "what!? what!?" and she moves...the chuckie doll that scared us before was sitting in the doorway and fell forward from its sitting position into the room...i screamed louder and we're like hugging each other on the bed and then my our parents walk in and my aunt hysterical laughing at us! and we're like crying cuz we think this thing is possessed or something cuz it scared us so much...they called us from the house phone and from my aunts sister's cell so we wouldnt recognize the numbers...we didnt fall asleep till like 430 that night lmao...

didn't i JUST put in an entry??? oh well who cares i wanted to prove to you that i was bored heres the proof...anthony keeps bugging me bout when we wanna chill...and i keep sayin I dont know!!! and he dont get that i really dont know...ewww i just squashed a bug...gross...i hate bugs...oh well...i hope you people are getting a kick out of my oh-so-interesting life...i've decided eric's officially pissed at me since he wont talk to me...at least i have a computer to tell everything to...this is my life lmao...wow i wanna talk to ashley and josh, i've decided im giving josh my cell number the next time i talk to him through ashley...can you see how obsessive i am?? i said the exact same thing to ashley and she said she can so im not going out of my mind thinking im overly obsessive...i get really obsessive over josh with her...i get overly obsessive about that guy with ali...i have to face it...im just an obsessive person...i still cant get over the last time a joke was played on me...that was like 3 weeks ago...i'll tell you about that later...wow anthony just believed me when i told him i smoked as a joke...hes such an ass hole
SoFtBaLLgiRL2060: i smoke
FeArDaRkSLaYeR: thats ok i guess
ha ha ant...you suckk. alright i will post this entry for you all to read and then i will give my story about how the shit was scared outta me...

Well I guess I should begin to explain my mood...aaaaaaaaaaaaaah! most of you in school know of the hot hot hot hot hot i could go on forever hot guy that lives in LI...well his dad called tonight! we're goinn to see him!! i did an EXTREMELY happy dance as ashley witnessed lmao...ashley i think you witness a lil too much of what i do haha...i cant wait!!!!! im gunna get so high on sour apple for that its gunna be scary! ((watch out all!)) but no, i dont know the date yet oh well as long as i know im going during the summer i dont really care when!

the still a lil annoyed part of my mood is what we are up to noww...yes, the guy i was talking about above read the journal, heh...yeah he's like "kris im sorry" and didnt talk to me for the rest of the night...hahaha...i dont know why i find that funny...oh well...if he dun wanna talk to me i wont make him and get arrested for stalking or something which with my luck will probably eventually happen to me lmao.

alright now im just going to talk about the rest of my life...em called my cell today just cuz she forgot a name...::sigh:: sad child she is...the other emily feels very special tonight cuz shes in tony lovato's info!!! yay em!!! ummm...ali never called me back tonight...grrr...now i have to kill her...nahh jp i luv her...uhh...im running out of shit since i told you everything that happened in my life in the past hour lol...can you see im bored????

yay! my first entry in my journal! yes, i made it a good month ago yet still havent written in it...sad sad, i knoww... i really like this guy...heh, and i thought he was single when he told me he might actually have feelings for me...totally led me on and then told me he was still with ash...heh...figures...no one can consider how kris might feel once she finds out these things...ohh that pissed me off...can you see why my mood was rejected at the top? heh...grrr im waiting for ashley ((diff ash)) to sign on cuz i wanna talk bout her damn gorgeous friend josh...oh he looks so sexy in the pic! and his favorite band's CD is in my stereo right now!!! hahahahaha...yes, i have talked to him before...he cool...likes my cookie and cupcake icons lol...says their yummy...me and ashley say he's yummy lol...alright well i think i shall escort myself to the rrc...my home, which megan always makes fun of me for cuz i live in there. well poo you megan haha...i'll write more another time...lataa