:: 2004 2 November :: 6.09 pm

well i re-did my journal.. i like it for now.. its a change.. i was getting sick of that red..

i feel really sick right now.. ive got a bad cough.. maybe mom will let me stay home tomorrow..

the train was crazyyy today.. i think someone got stabbed at my stop lol haha longggg story i'll tell it later.. im on the phone with kaitlyn right now.. ehhh longer letter later..

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:: 2004 31 October :: 8.49 pm

HaPPy HaLLoWeEn!!!

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:: 2004 30 October :: 11.40 am

awww Erin's birthday today! we threw her a suprise party last night at Hinsch's.. major props to Julie for keepin her busy lol "then try em on!" lmao.. wow we had so much fun.. Julia was sooo stupid me and Nicole we dying with laughter.. Alexa came over after.. and these guys were like hitting on us from the car.. i was like shut the fuck up and we walked down a block that was a one way street so they couldnt turn down it lol.. i met Alexa's parents last night theyree sooo sweet.. Brittany came to Erin's party.. i really didnt want her to.. it was my fault that she came though cuz she lives on my block and she was walkin down the block while i was outside talking to alexa and she heard me say 'hinsch's, half an hour, with julie and erin, erin doesnt know" so it was like i couldnt really lie to her and say ohh nothing's going on lol.. oh well..

she goes from really really annoying to not bugging me at all, but last night she was really really annoying.. ehh oh well.. its over.. i got erin this pair of earrings that i want lol they were really pretty i was gunna go back and buy em for myself last night but it didnt.. i bought a pair of hoops though.. so its all good.. Erin was soo suprised.. she was like wtf and we're all like HAPPY BIRTHDAY! lol im going to matt's game now.. my soccer season's over, i need to get some soccer somehow..

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:: 2004 26 October :: 9.05 pm
:: Mood: sad

To Ms. Ferrara
I'm sorry
I heard about the bad news today
A crowd of people around you
Telling you it's okay
And everything happens for a reason

When you lose a part of yourself
To somebody you know
It takes a lot to let go
Every breath that you remember
Pictures fade away but memories forever

An empty chair at all the tables
And I'll be seeing you when all my days boil down
But it's better where your going anyway

I'm sorry
I heard about the bad news today
It's really hard to get through
Tough times and long days

For now we'll say goodbye
We know it's not the last time
I've lost the best part of my day

This is the last thing
I will remember
Its better where you're going anyway


"Sonny" - New Found Glory

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:: 2004 26 October :: 9.14 am

im in 1st period now.. ms. ferrara died... the whole school is like crying hysterically.. its sooo sad.. the seniors are soooo upset a ton of them came into HR this morning to see ms willard cuz they know they were like best friends.. ms willard made our whole hr cry.. and i saw alexa and she was crying soo hard, she made me cry again.. and cait's real upset too cuz she knew her soo well.. her whole homeroom's a mess.. this suckss.. and ms willard was gettin all into 'if you've ever lost a family member' and briana started crying cuz of her mother.. i was like omg.. this whole day has been so horrible.. i just want it to end..


R.I.P. MS FERRARA

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:: 2004 25 October :: 6.47 pm

omg i think i sprained my ankle.. and we still have a game left.. omg it hurts soo bad.. like i twisted my hurt ankle and the pain just shot thru my ankle and i remember gettin dizzy for a sec and losing my balance and then standing up til the ref blew the whistle to end the game 5 seconds later.. and i collapsed.. grrr it hurts! i dont wanna believe that its sprained but i think it is.. =( i hope i can play tomorrow.. we can win that game.. if i dont play christle has to..

haha we had the ref that hates me.. he screamed at me and chucked the ball straight at me.. it was the same ref who fucked us the first time we played stella...

oh well.. dinner..

K

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:: 2004 24 October :: 8.08 pm

wow no one comments anymore.. i used to have like 6-10.. now i have 0.. woohoo.. i'm loved!

lets see.. the news for today.. i made 20 bucks reffing for brian! yeaaaah.. and i found out who peter o'rourke was lol.. i knew who his brother was but i didnt know him.. and i'm playing a joke on lori, this girl alexa knows that hates her and erin and its really funny lol.. anywayyy.. yea i dont have time to update about anything else.. i thought i'd have time for a long update but i dont.. later

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:: 2004 18 October :: 9.53 pm

soccer today.. we lost.. but i scored a goal! woot! and im the sweeper! lmao i got to take the penalty shot and the goalie blocked it but i got it off the rebound! hahaa.. sorry it was exciting.. if you dont know, the sweeper is the last defender, which means im nowhere near the goal we shoot at, which means im probably not gunna get another goal for a long time lol.. yea but omg it should have been tied.. we lost 3 to 1 but the second goal was an offsides and the third goal.. i was down and crying hysterically cuz i really really hurt my ankle and the ref is standing right next to me watching me cry but not stopping play until they score a goal, meanwhile sophia and allison are next to me seeing if im ok so with me and allison not there half the defense is gone.. the ref is supposed to stop play but he didnt.. and he kept cheering for the other team!!!!!!!!!! i was like wtf! reffs are supposed to be UNbiased.. it was such a shitty game.. we play them again next week.. omg if we have the same ref im gunna kill him. we should win.

Loren! YOU ARE A GOALIE KILLER! lmao love youu<3 IM GOING TO STOP YOU IN YOUR ATTEMPT TO KILL THE SWEEPER!!!

haha julie in gym.. what does a sweeper do? my reply: they get to take a broom and sweep the ball away from the goal and hit the other team with the broom when the ref isnt looking =) julie: ohhhhh!

=]

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:: 2004 17 October :: 8.14 am

my night last night...

me and Erin and Alexa going to see the forgotten.. and yea we kinda laughed a little lol ok maybe alot.. but like it helped cuz sometimes when i was scared, she'd be cracking up and then i'd start cracking up and yea.. like when the lady got like thrown into the sky erin was cracking up lol

and then i went to kaitlyn's.. lol it was really funnyy.. we watched mean girls, and then we made popcorn ((i know, why make popcorn after the movie?)) but we did. so anyway, kaitlyn decides to spray the floor with furniture polish to make it slippery lmaoo

R.I.P. Swiffer. 1985 - 2004
A lovely 19 years it had, carrying Kaitlyn across the floor, and getting in Kelly's way making her fall on her ass =) We will miss it dearly.

oMg kaitlyn had fifi hair and lipstick all over her face! and kelly's new name is pierre. and my new name is sasha! lmao wow we had so much fun last night.

im cold.

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:: 2004 16 October :: 9.35 am
:: Music: champagne, sugarcult

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:: 2004 14 October :: 9.00 pm
:: Mood: amused

wow, ok, caroline and emily hate me for doing something i didnt do!

this is fucked up

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:: 2004 13 October :: 7.32 pm

oCtoBeRr 13tHh!
oMgG siCkeSt daYy todayy<3

~mYy SoCcErRr cReWw iNn tHe cAr pRaNkinn cAitLiNn<3~
*juLiAa*dAnieLLe*kAiTt*KieRaA*
yOu'ReE tOo muChh<3


JuLiAa and heRr subWaYy tHeoRy's! RuNn tOwaRds the tRain or GeT a MoNkeY! lol<3


OmGg DuCk DuCk GoOsEe iNn tHe GyMm<3 tOoo fuNnyy<3 misSs CaUghEyy stoPpiNn uSs fRom aCtiNn LiKe we'Re twOo lol.. 5 siCckeSt people<3
*eRiNn*aLeXaA*MaRiAa*JuLiEe*tHeReSaa*

aLexAa and eRinn haha LauReNn tHiNks iMm stupiDd!! =)



lol fuNneSst dAyYy eVeRrrr<3

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:: 2004 11 October :: 8.31 am

saturday I went to the Levatinos... Jess got a new job! yay! I'm soo happy for her, shes really excited.. she's leaving HBO to be an executive assistant and is making something like 12,000 dollars more or something which is really good! She starts Wednesday.. I'm excited for her.

She's also lookin to move in with Vinny (her bf) which is cool too..

Yankees won! lol I'm not a big baseball fan but it was cool.. I'm more of a football/hockey fan.. which leads me into some more stuff..

I went to the Jets game yesterday! woot! They won! yayy 4 and 0 haha but they played the Bills who are now 0 and 4 so they should have beaten them by more than 2 points!!! The Bills were leading for awhile too.. It wasn't too good.. They scored with a minute left in the game.. But they still won so it's all good.. Now for the whole thing I wanna say about hockey..

I'm sure all of you heard something on the news about some kind of argument in the NHL I think it was something about money, I cant remember.. If you didn't see it on the news you saw it somewhere in my journal.. Anyway.. THERES PROBABLY GONNA BE NO HOCKEY SEASON!!!! IM GOING TO DIE!!!!!!!!! =( ::cries:: That also means I'm not getting a tv in my room until there is a hockey season!!! ((long story, don't ask how they relate)) But I'm sad =( i need hockey to survive.. I refuse to be stuck with just basketball to watch.. especially since I hate basketball..

Its 8:30 in the morning.. yay...

Joe Drivas is like my hero I wanted to hug him so much yesterday.. He reffed my games so I could go to the Jets game! And he was like my last resort too.. I was soo happy! lol THANKS JOE! =)~

Its been awhile since I could sit down and randomly post stuff about nothing.. I kinda miss that.. I think I'm going to call Alexa today.. See if she wants to do something.. Which means I have to do my homework in the morning lol cause my mom wont lemme go if its not done.. I'm soooo fucking happy we have Columbus Day off.. I needed a three day weekend SO bad.. and I'm still falling asleep at 8:30 at night.. I was falling asleep during the JEts game.. Not because it was boring, but because I was just so fucking tired.. BLAHH.. I don't know what to do today.. I wanna go back down to the field.. We only went one day this weekend.. Matt had a bye.. Even though I can't really play.. I twisted my ankle saturday night and it still hurts.. not happy about that.. Especially since we play Kearney and Fontbonne Tuesday and Wednesday.. Vadim's gunna be soo mad at me.. But it's not my fault!! It was dark out and I couldn't see the stairs! lol haha yes I fell down a couple of stairs lol.. But it still sucks..

I don't feel good.. I'm gunna go and update later.. Since I feel sick.. bye

_kristen_

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:: 2004 8 October :: 7.28 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: page avenue, story of the year<3

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:: 2004 7 October :: 9.15 pm

lmao me and shawn got into a HUGE fight and im cracking up about it cuz i think its funny.. i kinda think i won cuz im the one that hung up on him so like yea.. ali was like 'when dont you win an argument' and i was like i know i dont stop until i do, unless its with matt cuz its impossible to win against matt.. but yea, i think i won..

i got pissed off because i heard that he told fabiana that Ali asked him out and they kinda sorta weren't really going out and i was like wtf he asked her out and they ARE going out, not kinda so i said, "aint it kinda weird that he told his ex that they werent going out?"

so yeah..

I REALLY THINK ITS FUNNY!

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:: 2004 6 October :: 7.00 pm

I'm cold.

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:: 2004 5 October :: 5.24 pm

i found this entertaining..
BlindedByTears2x [5:07 PM]: heyyy
BlindedByTears2x [5:07 PM]: hows my twin?
BlindedByTears2x [5:07 PM]: im coming to see you on thursday!!!!!
syCOsNowbOArDer [5:08 PM]: lol im goood twin
syCOsNowbOArDer [5:08 PM]: YAY
syCOsNowbOArDer [5:08 PM]: come visit me
syCOsNowbOArDer [5:08 PM]: lmao
BlindedByTears2x [5:08 PM]: lol if you see me in the window you ask to pee or something cuz i dont have a reason to see mrs seminara
syCOsNowbOArDer [5:08 PM]: ill ask for water
BlindedByTears2x [5:08 PM]: ok lol
syCOsNowbOArDer [5:09 PM]: :-D
BlindedByTears2x [5:09 PM]: i didnt mean say to her 'can i please pee?'
BlindedByTears2x [5:09 PM]: lmao
syCOsNowbOArDer [5:09 PM]: lmaooo
syCOsNowbOArDer [5:09 PM]: i know
BlindedByTears2x [5:09 PM]: rofl
syCOsNowbOArDer [5:09 PM]: ill ask for water so i can pee lmfao
BlindedByTears2x [5:09 PM]: lmaooo

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:: 2004 4 October :: 7.32 pm

no one comments anymore!!! Jena is the only one with an excuse!!! You all are mean..


WE WON OUR SOCCER GAME TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOT! we're really happy it was our first win lol.. WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOO! WE'RE LIKE GUNNA THROW A PARTY!! lol srryy we're just really happy =)

gotta call erin and alexa.. song contest practice tomorrow... GRRRR we gotta be in early again.. oh well..

laterrrr..

if i dont update for awhile.. its cuz i have a latin test on thursday and im busy studying my ass off ::shudders in fear::

mwa call meeeeeee

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:: 2004 2 October :: 3.09 pm

walk-a-thon yesterday.. omg we had to walk 8 miles uphill i was sooooo tired when i got home i took a nap.. i cant remember the last time i took a nap.. it was sooo much fun though.. i walked with liz the whole time.. well, not really.. like the second lap.. and Jelena for the second lap and most of the first cuz we lost our group and the sophs were gunna get into fights with the seniors, the juniors and the frosh.. it was soo funny cuz they were pissing off everyone around them but not on purpose they were just having fun lol.. and then that night, xaverian dance! lol friends only update coming up in a few minutes! comment on this but read the next one if you're a friend!

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:: 2004 30 September :: 7.37 pm

haha today was breakfast day w/our seniors! i love my senior shes sooo sweet... and Tati, omg she was soo funnyy we have like a scavenger hunt and it sounds kinda corny but what we do is so much fun and Tati keeps like grabbing my arm cuz ushes a senior like every time i ask her a question and she finds me the senior i need and she was soo cute shes like grabbing my wrist and running thru the people it was soo funny i love her..

Michelle made me laugh at soccer today.. shes so cute and short =) she always calls sophia 'sofa' lol and sophia was sick today so she was like 'no sofa?!' lol.. we lost but oh well.. we didnt have some of our key players.. and we know who to mark next time we play them.. IT WAS SOOOO MUDDY.. MY JERSEY HAS MUD ALL OVER IT AND SO DOES MY HAIR AND IT GOT ALL OVER MY FACE! oh man, it was bad.. i wasnt afraid to go and run into it to get the ball, i mean, its my job but damnnn after i got the ball outta there i was like eww get it out of my mouth!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol

blahhh

i end with that final statement..

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:: 2004 28 September :: 5.08 pm
:: Music: takes my pain away - jimmy eat world (((I LOVE THIS SONG!)))

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:: 2004 26 September :: 2.51 pm

Donk2000 [2:38 PM]: i heard she hoooked up wit some mexican for like a 1 nite stand.
Donk2000 [2:38 PM]: ..
Donk2000 [2:38 PM]: is it true?



roflmao

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:: 2004 26 September :: 2.17 pm

i saw him down at the field again today =)~ we said all but maybe 10 words to each other cuz my dad's a bitch lol but thats ok.. GRR! HES MAKING ME COACH MY BROTHERS SOCCER TEAM WITH HIM CUZ BRIAN GORMAN CANT HELP HIM CUZ HES ON CRUTCHES! GRRRR!!! i dont wanna do that! i could have talked to him sooo much longer if i could have just practiced against my wall like i wanted to.. im pissed.. im telling him he has to pay me.. cuz i didnt fucking ask for this job.. im really mad at him, im losing my voice cuz im screaming at the stupid fucking kids who dont listen.. i yell "ANTHONY KEEP RUNNING UP TIL I TELL YOU TO STOP" he fucking takes one step.. so i have to yell again.. stupid fucking kids i hate them.. sorry im cursing alot im just really mad.. i cant forget to call Erin tonight.. I have to teach her how to take the train to school lol..

grr im still pissed now i cant talk to him til next week.. fuckkerrrr

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:: 2004 26 September :: 2.09 pm

dammit matt's a fucking dick he knows how much i fucking hurt about that and he says it to me anyway.. i hope he dies..

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:: 2004 25 September :: 9.04 pm

Firedragoon12: 9/11 was hysterical


i hate matt... i HATE him..

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:: 2004 25 September :: 7.28 pm

haha i ref'd my first games today w/john gavin.. he got nice again!!! lol he used to be really nasty but he got really sweet<3 i think you guys know where this is leading lol.. he's reffing my brother's game tomorrow, game after it, and 2 games before lol hahahaha =) seriously he used to like hate me and he talked to me today lol so yea that was cool... i made 30 bucks dammit! =) i dunno i just thought it was cool that john got nice again.. really cool lmao..

IM IN THE RRC!!! AAAAH!!! I MISS IT!!! im talking to jamie we're having so much fun.. i used to HATE jamie with a passion i fought with her so much lol but yea its kinda funny..

sugarcult performs soo fuckinn well dammit best band i've seen perform live.. well, i didnt see them live i saw them on tv but they sounded really really good

i have my own shirt to ref in =) and i got a whistle!!!! hahahahah wow im hyper i cant stop laughing

wow cellular was really really good last night.. i saw it with Erin and Alexa.. it was like a great kidnapping movie and it had comedy which was great.. and Erin just totally makes fun of so many things and was making me and Alexa laugh soo hard and we were afraid we were gunna get kicked out cuz we were soo loud lol.. damnn the guy in the movie was HOTT!!!!! lol haha.. ERIN!!! ALEXA!!! ITS A DAY SPA YOU FUCKER!!! roflmao wow that was soo fucking funny..

i hadnt laughed that hard all week.. thanks guys!!! <3

Erin's crazy.. she hit a bear with a clown car and it blew into chunks and then she crashed into the wall in the ice cave!!

i know that none of you understand that.. but that's kinda the point.. to make you guys wonder if im insane.. and the answer;s yes.. but that really did happen..

im out.. gotta find out why matt's mad at me..

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:: 2004 24 September :: 4.25 pm

stole this from Kalie
01. Who are you? What’s our relationship?
02. How and where did we meet?
03. What's my middle name?
04. How long have you known me?
05. Tell me one good thing about myself?
06. When you first saw me, what was your impression?
07. My name?
08. Birthday?
09. My Favorite band at the moment?
10. Color of my eyes?
11. Do I have any siblings?
12. Have you ever had a crush on me?
13. What’s one of my favorite things to do?
14. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you?
15. describe me in 3 words?
16. name 5 things I love?
17. do you think im good looking?
18. how would you describe me to someone?
19. would you ever date me?
20. tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did?
21. what do you like most about me?
22. if we could spend the day together, what would we do?
23. have we ever gotten in a fight?
24. do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years?
25. give me one nickname and explain why you picked it?
26. what do you think my weakness is?
27. do you think I’ll get married?
28. what makes me happy?
29. what makes me sad?
30. what reminds you of me?
31. if you could give me any thing, what would it be?
32. when's the last time you saw me?
33. do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
34. do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
35. are you going to put this on your xanga and see what I say about you?
36. if I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
37. what song(if any) reminds you of me?
38. if you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
39. would you make a move on me?
40. do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?
Now, put this on your site, and see what all your friends have to say..

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:: 2004 24 September :: 4.10 pm

wow! an update!!! i havent been online in soo long school is taking over my freaking life some nights i wanna just sit down and cry cuz im so tired and overworked and it sucks.. but yea.. soccer like every day next week.. besides friday.. i'd kill him if he had practice on a friday.. so Briana fell and hurt her wrist pretty bad and lauren fell and twisted her ankle which appeared to be bad but she was walking fine today so i was like whatever.. andddddddd yea.. oyy theres too much that happened in this past week and a half for me to update about it all.. but this weekend you'll get some interesting stuff cuz i wont be working 24/7 like i have been!!! Me and Erin and Alexa are gunna go see a movie today.. but i dont know which one.. they have to call me back after they decide what they wanna see.. for some reason i dont feel like typing right now.. cuz im tired.. so peace outtttt lol sorrrrry was in the mood to say something like that.. laterr...

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:: 2004 21 September :: 4.27 pm

no updates for awhile.. school is taking over.. sorry if i dont talk to people for awhile.. Jena if i dont talk to you before (which i probably wont) GOOD LUCK! love youu<3

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:: 2004 19 September :: 8.49 pm

ashley's josh died.. i still dunno how.. but im shaking.. and crying.. i cant stop shaking.. omg im shaking so hard.. i cant imagine how the fuck shes taking it.. i cant stop shaking i just cant stop.. ive typed this over the course of 5 minutes.. nd im still shaking..

oh thank god.. im thanking god so much it wasnt my josh.. but still.. it sucks.. she really really hurt me at the end.. not these exact words.. too many pieces of it to put into exact words.. but she said 'no, im not gunna stay.. you fucking hate me.. i wanna fucking die'

...and i started to cry.

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