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I'm cold.. and I look like crap. Buuuut anyways.
Jim and I are going to Kennywood after prom. I got my dress, Becky and I went to get ours together.. mine is dark blue.. I'll put a picture of it up sometime next week.
Kelly and I have been going to Drivers Theory everyday from 5-8:30.. it's so boring sometimes, but we always end up ordering pizza or eating something. So that's cool. It's a small class- which is good because I hate big classes.
Jim and I? I don't know what to do.. we're so good together, but I can't ignore that I like someone else. Should I ignore the feelings and just get back with Jim? I mean, he's trying so hard to do everything that I want him to.. I wish I knew what to do.
Gabrielle is 7 months already.. I'll have to put up a picture of her when I put up a picture of my dress. She's getting so big.
Sunday=Mothers Day!!! It's my first Mothers Day! Awww.
I'm so bored right now, Becky told me to update because I never do anymore.. I'm so busy. Weekends I try to please everyone and go out with friends, with this one guy, Jim, my Aunt Loraine and it's hard. Weekdays I'm busy with school, then going to Drivers Theory.. I hardly get to see Gabrielle anymore.
I don't know whether or not to send Darlene (my "mom") a Mothers Day card.
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yeah, so i cant even describe prom... it was that awesome.
and awesome really doesnt even do it justice. EVERY aspect of the night was perfect. and i know i use perfect alot.. but this time more than any other do i mean it. short paragraphs seem fun... mine probably wont be as short as keegans.. but hey i'll give it a go.
hair: 2 and a half hours... my cousin audra did my hair and makeup.. we watched the entire meet the fockers.. and still were doing my hair a little before and after... but it turned out SO good, and it didnt even lose the curl the ENTIRE night...
the getting ready process: after my hair and stuff was done and i got home.. it took me maybe a half an hour.. i put my dress on, but my flower in my hair... waited around. yeah, i got ready by myself. .how sad... KEEGAN got ready in 12 minutes... pshhh. laughs* i was really scared, i called him at like quarter to five and he wasnt even in the shower yet, 15 minutes later i call him and he's on his way. im like... whaaat.
pictures: my house first. my mom, keegan, my aunt susie, and suprisingly yancy... im so glad he was there. then we went to keegans house, when we got there his mom had little orange cones set up all over the yard for "picture spots" laughs* it was so cute. (i got all my pictures back today by the way... and keegans too.. those cones sure payed off, cuz every single picture turned out SO good)... aww and when we got back to keegans he gave me an orange and yellow rose that matched my dress... because i dont like corsages.. crazy i know. but usually i always tell my dates NOT to get me a corsage.. yes they're pretty, but they get in the way, and i'd rather not wear one.. *giggles. .im SO not a girl am i?!* so now my rose is hanging upside down so it can look like the rose he got me for swirl.. which is beatifull and makes my room look so elegant.... THEN we went to brandees house for pictures. and those were good...
Cygnus: we seriously must have eaten at the nicest resturant out of everybody.. it was the most incredible view i've ever seen. top floor of the amway. our waitor even PULLED out mine and brandees chair. our napkins were CLOTH, and there were lit up trees in the middle of the resturant.. i felt like i was gonna break something just sitting there. we got really good pictures there, even better food, and the best memories!
Horse and Carriage ride number ONE: awwww.. so elegant. i felt like a princess! :) our horses name was Morty *and i JUST happend to notice that that JUST happens to be one of johnny depps names in a movie... TALK about making the night even more perfect!* i've never been on a carriage ride before..... it was just the best ever!
Prom: like keegan said.. all the other high school dances combined couldnt even compare with this one. the museum was the BEST place we could have had it. it was beautifull. the dance floor WASNT that small.. and if it was.. i liked it cuz everyone was so close. the carasel was the pefect touch, our prom picture is gonna be fabulous *we did our gangsta pose... :) .... we didnt want to be all posed and such like.. OHHH look at us all romantic and stuff.. thats just not how we are.. so we had fun with it* we danced, keegan breaked, i got so many good pictures.... it was just the perfect night. everyone looked so good.. SO good. and i REALLY felt good in my dress. for not finding one for the longest time... i REALLY did find the perfect one. i felt so elegant... :) i didnt want the night to end, and it ended so fast. but the best part was that the ngiht was far from over.. we did so much before and after, it was like one mega prom experience... and i had the best date i could have ever asked for. we coordinated so good, we fit together so good. WE ARE SO GOOD! laughs*
Horse and Carriage number two!: this time it was even better cuz it was night and we were all so tired. it was so relaxing and so romantic. it picked us up right from the museum. talk about a grand entrance and exit. before and after prom... it was just the perfect way to get there. espeacially cuz the amway valleted *spelling i know* our car. the whole night was all about us. everything we did was catered to us so perfectly, that i just felt like *repetitive... * such a princess! not only did i have the best prom ever, but i have this amazing boyfriend who just proves to me over and over and over again how.. well amazing he is! what other guy could have thought of all this.. to make my night so incredible, so fun.... all i can do is smile.. because he's MY boyfriend. and i dont have to share him! he made prom night OUR night, and i LOVE that... even if i dont love him. and the best part about THAT is i dont have to. because he doesnt, and we STILL had in my opinion the best night out of anybody. and yeah thats probably biased, but seriously.. it was that good. (i just got way off topic there... but by the way for anybody who cares... im falling in love with keegan...... :) it'll take a good couple of years before it'll happen and i'll admit it..... but thats how we roll... *laughs.. because i love everything about US.. and i cant wait that if God permits it, i love him too.) (*ok sorry, back on topic) we even (on the carriage) got the best picture of us kissing that we ever have.. and just cuz im cute and can do this and want to show off my wonderful boyfriend im gonna post it in the next couple of days... *giggles again.. aww im being so girly.. prom night was so girly.. i loved that!* so then the carriage brought us back to the amway, and we got the car. (valleted of course... smiles)
Oasis: i had never been there before.. .but it was so much fun. i got some GOOD pictures there. we ended up in the tropical rain forest one.. it was outside and had this waterfall and bamboo.. it was really pretty. we were there for an hour.. it just added to the night and was such a fun touch. i LOVE brandee weeks, we had so much fun together. and we had the best dates... i never really hang out with her.. but GOSH was she fun! i say gosh because i'm nerdy and dont like the alternative to it.... we even got that sparkling grape juice stuff cuz we're losers, but enjoy being losers.. because in all reality, the REAL losers were the ones... nevermind i shouldnt say that...! in other words.. we didnt have to be drunk to have a good time. and we still remember every detail of our night! something i wouldnt trade for the world. OH and i got to wear my new swim suit.. and i love it. just thought i'd throw that in there. :)
Dani's: after oasis we stopped at my house and got some clothes and all that good stuff, and then the four of us went over to danis.. and that was a blast. when we got there dani, jenna, becky, and josh were in the hot tub.. but they got out and we went upstairs and ate a WHOLE bunch of food.. including this fruit dip that seriously was like an edible orgasm.. it was THAT good... *laughs* awww.. i love jenna and dani! *and of course becky!* all of them looked so pretty on prom.. and were so fun at danis! between the (stops to count) 8 of we talked up a storm.. it was great. then we went downstairs and brought out a massive ammount of blankets and all fell asleep watching beauty and the beast. talk about the perfect way to end the perfect night. i fell asleep with my OWN (corny.. get ready for it) prince charming.. watching a classic fairytale, to top off our own fairytale night. and yes i KNOW thats the ultimate corny line.. but its so true. the ngiht was seriously like a fairytale.. every part of it. i got to sleep with my perfect boyfriend on prom night, and it was so innocent, and it was so just... ( i simply cant find the words.... i hate how corny im being... but ahh.. ! ) and oh my gosh we didn't conceive children! *laughs.
in the morning everyone woke up, layed around for awhile, then danis mom made us breakfast.. and this woman can COOK. she made everyone pancakes and sausage... mmmmmm. i was lookin pretty scary by this point... eh, i was surrounded by friends, so it didnt bother me. finally my prom experience came to an end when i had to leave Danis to go to our red flannel thing... but maaaaann... i dont know what to say without being overyly repetitive... which i already have been... but yeah.. my prom kicked so much ass! it was just... *smiles.
keegan: you're amazing.
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2005 29 April :: 10.23am
:: Mood: gloomy
:: Music: papa roach - done with you
I count the days that we have spent apart
I've got a bad liver and a broken heart
Theres no salvation in the comfort of you
I finally realized your tearing me apart
So help me, save me, tell me that the end is near Help me, save me, tell me that the end is near
I am done with you
You make my life completely miserable
You drove me to the edge,
you've caused me all this pain
But I've always loved you
cause your oh so special
I'm broken and I'm alone and I can't maintain
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2005 28 April :: 11.57pm
i spent all day with emma today.. and it was awesome.
we got our nails done and we went shopping... and it was just a perfect day! aww, she's so fun... at times it doesnt even seem like she's keegans sister cuz we just laugh and talk ALOT... laughs* i know she's quite a bit younger then me.. but today was a blast, and i love getting closer to keegans family.
tomorrows prom... :)
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2005 27 April :: 10.41am
what an awful night at work. there had to be about 200 kids there and we ran out of blades in a half an hour...
after work was good though.. i finally picked my car up from keegans.. its been there since saturday. we're always together anyways, so usually theres no reason for me to even have my car... except this morning... *tears.. i had to drive MYSELF (i know right) to school cuz he didnt have to be here till 8 ish for senior interviews... ahh well. but yeah.. last night was good.... *smiles... soo good. and i really do think that im in love with muffins... they're just so good.. mmmm.
tomorrow me and emma are going to get our nails done.. woohu. im excited, i've never gotten a manicure before. AND im excited cuz i love emma... she's so fun... PLUS she's keegans sister, added bonus i guess. bahh.. i just love his family. and im SO glad its likewise!
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I have the worst cramps.
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2005 25 April :: 9.56am
this weekend was soo good.
friday after keegan got out of practice and i got out of work i went over to his house and we just fell asleep cuz well.. we were tired. go firgure right.... i love working fridays at lazerskate. my friend jordans there every friday.. she's in 8th grade but looks like shes older then me.... i hate when that happens... laughs.
saturday i was with him all day... i went to go tanning in the morning.. but didnt feel like waiting 30 minutes for the mega... so after that i went over there and we got my car fixed.... *smiles... later that night we went to logans... thats the way to my heart. logans sweet potatoes and shrimp... mmmm.
then SUNDAY i spent the day with my mom.. cuz i love her and all that warm fuzzy stuff. AND we got new cell phones... im soo excited. its been like 5 months since i've had a phone.. and that was just a prepaid.. we got matching picture phones.. then we went to the olive garden and were like oooooooh, just playing with our phones. im like, how cool do we look.. laughs* BUT i got a new swim suit and a little mermaid purse and a few sweaters (well i got the sweaters saturday.. ) it was just the perfect day.. ending with my favorite pastime... tickling my favorite asian. (he says... "im your only asian..")
pshh, if he only knew.
*giggles....
yay for my new phone! woot hoot!
this is what all the cool people do... guess its my turn...
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Okay, sorry about the last entry, I was just upset. I'm okay now? But anyway..
Jim came to pick me up at Beckys and we talked. We're still just friends, and we're both okay with that. But he does have a date tomorrow with some girl. I'm happy for him.. He was like "Jena, I do still love you. You know if anyone hurt you, I'd kill them." then he paused and said "But I know someone already hurt you by the way you're acting." Haha, it was cute. We went to Sheetz around 7:00 to get some gas, then we went out to the mall. I got a whole bunch of cute things and spent all my Kennywood money since I don't think I'm going anymore.
Yeah, I love you Becky and Amy.. thanks for being there for me. I know I let things get to me more than I should. But I'm okay now. :-P Love you girls..
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2005 23 April :: 5.59pm
keegan didnt have to dance today.. so we've been together all day.
pshh.. how dare him frustrate me when im trying to talk sweetly about him... laughs*
now im not even gonna go into it, i'd rather get offline, turn around, and attack him since he's looking at me all cute right now. like that just works.. like he can just be all cute and smile at me with that ridiculous hat on and make me melt....
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Well this weekend sucked, I stayed over Amys.. Things happened, Jim 'found someone'. I suck, I'm over Beckys house right now.
So fuck you, and you and you. And just leave me alone.
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2005 22 April :: 1.57pm
community night was fun... i love becky... its true.
oh riiight, im not to say "its true" anymore.... hmph.
prom is approaching quickly... and damnit, what to do about my dress. i hate being so short.. because my dress is to long... i guess i cant really do anything about it now though. ah well.. its still gorgeous... well, i hope. i think it is.
i love the mornings... walking by people... *winks
we're so cool.
i have to work tonight till 10:30, but afterwards im going to keegans and we're gonna sleep... *laughs. maybe his mom will make us muffins. *hopeful smile*
im tiiiired. i dont wanna go tannnning. yes i do. but noooo i dont. its relaxing.. then you're in there for 50 zillion hours and i get board... restless.
last night i went tanning after community night so i had all my red flannel stuff on... a little awkward, fun though. ehhh.
ok, well i've lost interest with this entry.
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2005 21 April :: 9.14pm
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School was okay, I brought in the 2 big bag of starbursts for study hall.. we had that ice cream party today for 7 & 8 period.. I walked around half the time. 'Cuz I'm a loser like that.. then after school I had to go with my Aunt Loraine to take care of somethings.. we stoped at Toys R Us, and we bought Gabrielle some clothes.
I came home and left again, Amy and I went up to Carmel Park to see George.. we hung out.
Then we dropped Amy back off at her house then I stopped at McDonalds then came home. Now here I am.
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2005 20 April :: 10.23pm
i went to the mall tonight with micah and keegan..... tonight was... well it was..... laughs*
first i lost the cap to my gas tank because im a moron... then there was that whole ordeal... then i found my prom jewlery... then in alpine that was the whole other ordeal.... bahhh. whatever right.. lifes not perfect eh?
it was nice after a hectic day to beable to just relax for a couple hours.. and when i say hectic.. i DO mean hectic. lord do i...
tonight was just one of those nights. .but the thing i love is that "those nights" only last for a brief period... lets say an hour TOPS and that hour is still filled with smiles... odd as it is.. what can i say. i just cant help it.. plus the glorious last 15 minutes where either im home late or he leaves late.. it seems to be our magic number... i hate goodbyes.. even though they only last a little while.... cant we just run away today... with my mom of course. heaven knows i couldnt leave her... but hmm that WOULD defeat the whole running away part... i guess its a good thing im so content with my life right now! *kisses....
i've been reading this really good book called "The Case for Faith" its really good... its a whole bunch of "proof" of God and its so inspirational. the part that makes it awesome is that it IS indeed facts and hard evidence that prove the atheists and pagans and whatever else wrong... my opinion of course... but in this matter im pretty bullheaded and choose to KNOW i'm right... we all have our issues right? so what if mine happens to be defensive religion.
well.. im tired, and kind of irritable... i think thats what happens when you eat turkey loaf... turkey shouldnt come in a loaf anyway... *ponders that..... uhhhh.
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Blahhh.. nothing's going right. I suck, I'm a loser. No wonder why no one likes me, and I have no friends. Ha.
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2005 19 April :: 7.59pm
:: Music: Yesterdays- Guns and Roses
Hey, well I dont know if you all know, but I really like this girl, Sarah, the only prob is that she doesnt like me,... sound fimilliar. She cant date till 15, I just wish her mom could get to know me, and maybe approve it, but oh well, good things in life are worth waiting for, right? I guess Ill just wait, no matter how long.
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2005 19 April :: 9.19pm
its hot... really hot. i feel like getting naked... but that would be dirty.
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2005 19 April :: 5.16pm
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Ahhh Mr. Malecki is finially back so we can actually talk again in study hall.. YESSSSSSSSsssssSSSSSSS
Today was good.
I don't really have anything else to say.
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2005 18 April :: 10.01pm
my kitty ran away..
i cried alot today..
and then keegan found him for me.
it is official... he REALLY is the best boyfriend i could ever ask for
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2005 18 April :: 9.03pm
TODAY- Amy, Becky, Kelly, Jake and I went to the baseball game. I went to see my best friend George play. He's the coooooooooolest guy I know.
It was a good time. ;)
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2005 17 April :: 10.42pm
another week of desperate houswives has come and gone.. and its not even a new one next week.... damn fools. how dare they show us re-runs.... nobody on here even watches it do you.... so i guess it would do no good to babble on about it.
keegan just went home.. i hate when he has to leave.. but today was a good day. after church i brought my dress over to his house so his mom could see it, and she loved it. she had it hanging in the kitchen until i had to leave... AND she made us blueberry muffins... gotta love that woman. its cool how his house is a second home to me and mine is a second home to him.. i love that. its true too... (and no not "its true" as in my overused phrase... it REALLY is true!) i have my own green scrubby in his shower.. *laughs..... his mom got it for me. now is THAT acceptance or what?! its just ...aklsjdfl;kasdfj.. i dont even know.. my mom loves him too. she was hesitant at first.. but now everythings just perfect.. like tonight.... we all went out and got ice cream.. and me and my mom made fun of keegan.. thats the way it should be! *smiles.. you know like it*
we've been on this whole new excersize kick lately.... and i've been feeling so good. we went to the track the other day and ran 2 miles... I (underline I) ran 2 miles! and me and keegan and emma have been doing abs.. once again (underline I) have been doing abs! incredible... its almost not healthy for me.. its been so long!
you'd think that since we spend most every day together AND we work together that things would get old.. but its just the opposite. we just keep getting closer and closer. he really is my best friend :)
AND imagine this.. best friends DONT even have to sleep together! *GASP* a healthy happy relationship that DOESNT have sex?! wow... is the world ending? pathetic. but i wont go into my whole sex rant, because god knows it goes on forever.
school tomorrow... woohu. bring on the drama.
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2005 17 April :: 5.43pm
:: Mood: tired
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Hey all, not too much is going on latly, I had auditions today for King Karl King Honor Band. and I just got back from a camp. The band is going on a trip on Mon and Wed, and I can go on them because of my stupid LA teacher. So now I have to stay in her class extra, which sucks. Well, not too much else to say, but I hope everyone had a great weekend. Ill try to update this more often. But other than that, Im gonna go.
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2005 17 April :: 1.03pm
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So Jim and I are just friends now.
He's trying everything to get me to come back though.
He makes me feel guilty.
But I'm not happy anymore. I haven't been for a long time.
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so.. we're gonna have the best prom ever.. true story.
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Bridg picked me up at school today, then we stopped at McDonalds to get something to eat.
I went over Jims house about 6:00, then we drove out to McDonalds again to see all the teachers work.. we drove around for like an hour and a half to different places, we stopped and saw Ben he was walking somewhere.. then we went back to his house and chilled, then Gab him and I came back out here and then he went home.
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so today was sort of rough... but it ended just fine. i love how when we argue... he still makes me smile. pshhh... *laughs. theres nothing like trying to make a point.. and then turning away because you dont want him to see you smile... i can get so frustrated, but he's just so cute, i can't help it. im defensive and stubborn... but his eyes get a little wider and his voice gets all serious... and its just ..... ugh... we're just to perfect for eachother.
yesterday me and keegan and emma worked out like mad.... seriously... it involved running AND ab work outs for like 2 hours... it felt soooo good! even now it feels good, cuz it doesnt hurt.. but i can feel it just enough to be satisfyed... woohu for me and my flabby abs.. ! they'll take the bikini world by storm! laughs....* just give me time... they'll be good come june.
tonight was the funnest work meeting ever.. we played lazertag, ate pizza, and talked over eachother alot.... PLUS we're thinking about having 104.5 do a live broadcast... very coooool.
i miss stacy....
just thought i'd randomly throw that out there.
but now im cold, and tired, and STILL have something in my eye.. and thats really irritating me.
gahh.. i shouldnt call him.. but bahh i cant help it....
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Yesterday Aunt Loraine, Donnie, Gabrielle, Gram and I went to get the rest of my things at Darlenes house [I no longer call her Mom.] We had stopped out at the Sand Bar to see if they were there, they weren't so we went to Jays Sports Bar because Matt told us they were there. So we went there and Anna was in the front room playing a game all by her self.. Darlene George and Samamtha were on the deck. They were yelling at her because she stole something. They were both drunk off their asses, sitting there telling Samantha in front of everyone. It had to have been embarassing for her. So I asked Darlene if when I stopped at their house if I could take the crib, or if she wanted it. She was like "No, it's mine- you can't have it." I said fine. Then my Aunt Loraine tried to talk to her and Darlene started yelling at her to get out of her face, to leave her alone and all this other stuff. So she went to try to talk to George about getting the old house tore down and he told her to "shut up and leave." So we left, I gave Anna a hug, and Samantha a kiss.
We went to the house and they had bolted the door shut so I couldn't get in with my key. I called Dustin and he said that he'd just come get me today and I could get my things. On our way back through Southpointe, I saw Samantha standing outside the bar so we stopped so I could see what was wrong. She was crying and saying that she hated Darlene and that she wanted to go live with her dad. I told her that if she ever needed anything or if she wanted me to go pick her up that all she needed to do is to call me.
An hour or so later Sam called and told me that Darlene hit her. So I told her to go up and just lock herself up in the bathroom.
I no longer talk to her, or want anything to do with her. If she's going to be like that- I'll do the same right back to her and throw it in her face. She can have Gabrielles crib. I'd much rather get another one than to use ANYTHING that she's bought Gabrielle.
Today was my Uncle Dons birthday so we had a little cake and everything for her.. it was nice Greg, Tiff, Hailey, and Jim came out.
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i got my prom dress...
thank the good lord who reigns in heaven... i GOT my prom dress.
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Well, as you can see in my mood, Im not too happy.... Raul is being a bitch right now. Ive been listening to that song up there^^^ for like 3days straight, nothing else so I can learn the guitar part to please the band. I swear, right now my life sux.... Raul is like, were going to my grandmas today so we cant practice.. but I was talking to his dad, and his dad said we could practice all night. I feel like Im pulling too much shit for them, hoping something will happen, but nother ever does. No, hey Stephen come over, lets work on a song, hey, lets all go hang at Pizza Factory. Its always Morgan come with us, we dont want HIM to come. Or, Morgan, come over to play with us, but dont bring HIM and Im like right there. It fucking pisses me off soo much you dont even know....
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:: Music: three doors down - loser
Everything's just pissing me off anymore.
So my mother stopped by my Aunt Loraines house Friday to see Gabrielle and my Gram I guess. She told my Gram that she was definitely not moving back to where we were.
My Mom and George went down to Flordia for last weekend- they're looking for a house. Good, let them leave I'm probably better off without them anyways.. I'll miss my sisters Sam and Anna. But what am I going to do? I don't know.. it just pisses me off that because I moved out- my Mom won't talk to anyone on our side of the family. Yeah, GROW UP! Live in REALITY- not your own little world! But whatever- once again what can I do about it?
I just feel bad for my sisters because they still have to deal with her and all her shit she puts everyone through.
I feel so dumb because I don't have anything anymore. It's weird. We were in Child Development Friday and Mrs. Taylor was like "all of you can bring in stuffed bears" I was like "well, I don't have one" and Sarah was like "Who doesn't have one??" Uhhh-- I don't! Everything in my house had to be replaced. Lol, it made me feel bad.. I'm more worried about getting Gabrielle everything that she needs more than I'm worried about myself. So whatever, I'd rather her have everything than myself.
But enough about depressing things.. let's go on about Friday night.
Amy & Beck came to pick me up and we rode around for a little while then we went to the talent show and worked the consession stands.. after that we went back to Amy's house, then drove down to Jims house and he drove us to Wal*Mart, then his Mom called and started screaming at him because she wanted the car.. uhhh- so we went back and he dropped us off then we all went back to Amys house and watched American Pie 2 then fell asleep.. this morning Becky went home then I came back here to Amys Grams house.. I'm going home sometime tonight, going to Janies birthday party, then tomorrow I'm heading back down Cokeburg with Jim.
Gabrielle is with my Aunt Loraine.
DEFINITELY FUN WITH THE GIRLS LAST NIGHT!! HAHA
No eggs Beck! -He was sleeping?!?! YEAHHHHHHH right. Who was SAM?? ;)
Good times- no drugs! ;)
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no luck finding a prom dress...
we went everywhere... the night ended with me buying ben and jerrys mint ice cream, renting shall we dance (which the girl at the movie store told me i'd cry... just what i was looking for) and falling asleep with keegan till 5 this morning.
for a shitty day.. it ended really good.
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