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2006 1 July :: 10.32am
finally figured out what song satine sings after zidler tells her to stop loving chirstian. it's called gorecki by lamb. it's my new favourite song.
<3
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2006 1 July :: 8.10am
stayed up super late last night.
i'm insane.
but i'm doing better now... i think...
i have to call brittany today...
but i want to go shopping too.
and i don't have time to do both
so i'll wait on the shopping because... well...
friends are more important than material wealth.
four o july i have off, fuck yeah.
'i don't know why we are here, but i'm pretty sure that it is not in order to enjoy ourselves...'
love,
amelia
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2006 30 June :: 10.30pm
work schedule
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right now, i feel hurt and a little betrayed and i'm trying not to feel like this... but i can't help it.
i mean really... wtp?
i'm jealous and upset. but i don't want to talk about it.
graahahahhrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh
(i just want to cry)
'you are my only one...'
love,
amelia
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2006 30 June :: 11.55am
totally got disqualified... but whatever... next saturday i'll try again...
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2006 30 June :: 8.50am
my drive test is today. i'm a little nervous, but i think i'll do okay. i mean, i'm pretty good at driving... and i can parallel park and back around corners when i'm not being told how to... but when i get nervous i forget things and stuff. i hope i don't get too nervous and forget important things...
but i mean, my brother passed it... so i should be able to, too.
work today at five. suckz0rs. but totally get my monies today so i'm good. i want to go down and get it early and deposit it in the bankz0rs so i can see how much morez0rs i need to savez0rs. i'm so fucking cool.
hahah.
and yeah... i'm bored if can't tellz0rz.
so... off to do nothing because i have few friends. who like to sleep and stuffz0rz. i want to bake, but 'it'll be too hot' meh...
gr.
'simply being loved is more than enough...'
love,
amelia
p.s. wells fargos website sucks
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2006 29 June :: 7.54pm
god i'm so bored.
i want to use the phone. i want to go outside and chill with friends.
i want to not work six days in the fucking week.
i want to stab nikola.
keri is such a sweetie.
and... yeah... what's today? the twenty-ninth... and that means... kirk is coming back in a fucking long ass time damn it. i want to go and make him come back. grr. and i'm so itchy and i have no clue why!!!
grr. grrrr! GRRRRRRRRRRRRR! rawr.
totally sang some spanish music today. i'm so cool. and i did an "a" drive today.
tomorrow's the test.
'don't go breakin' my heart...'
love,
amelia
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2006 29 June :: 7.55am
so, i have to work all day today... which i guess is nice because of the money, but it isn't nice because it's so boring at work... and i think karson will be working.... which isn't cool. but tomorrow is payday i think... (i'm not sure) but if it is it's my first full-time paycheck. pretty sweet. like... i don't know... and tips too. and this time i won't forget my paycheck haha.
sorry, i'm tired. i don't know what's wrong with me... i love sleep i miss sleep. i want sleep to marry me. but sleep has filed a restraining order on me...
i love my huge screen.
anyway... i'm missin' my kirk. texting with him is so fun. talking with jeremiah is nice, too. and talking to kirk is great... and having friends is so nice. and josh is a real nice guy.
man, i'm sleepy.
mmmmm... roadtrip. i'm so excited for that roadtrip with kirkery to the ocean through the forest... it's going to be so great. last time i was at the ocean i saw a marriage proposal written in the sand... it was so sweet.
yup...
'and still you promised forever... and ever...'
love,
amelia
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2006 28 June :: 9.13pm
when he comes back it'll be so much fun:
we're going to go out to sushi and to a movie and watch the stars come out.
and we're going to be in love super amounts.
and everything will be beautiful like the stars.
i'm really happy.
things are pretty happy.
<3<3
i wish everyone could be as happy as me...
things are so unfair.
'you are my only, my only one...'
love,
amelia
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2006 28 June :: 11.22am
yeah.......
sometimes i hate how my friends make me feel like shit. but it's probably deserved because i'm not the best friend ever.
and by sometimes i mean when they make me feel like shit. period.
so... that phone call was pretty shitty. i feel bad.
yeah, today is going to be a weird day... my day off and it's going to not be supa coo fun timez.
suckz0rz.
'i hate you...'
love,
amelia
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2006 27 June :: 10.45pm
i would hug you if my arms werent so nubbly
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2006 27 June :: 10.21pm
wow, today kinda sucked. I'm sick....and lonely...and that sucks more than anything really.
thanks for talking with me though, that helped
and that's life....
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2006 27 June :: 8.57am
rant about me
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but yeah, i'm done with my rant.
'you're all i want, you're all i need you're everything...'
love,
amelia
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2006 27 June :: 7.08am
last night i dreamt i was looking for a gift for kirkery, but i found this huge ow pillow that was like a giant marshmallow so i had my mom buy it. it was so cute and soft. so then i go to mythology and kirk wasn't there (because, you know, we TOTALLY had that class together haha) and i couldn't figure out why. and then i realized we had a huge ass assignment over the long break we had just got back from and he skipped. haha. and we all had the same V8 drink because we all won it. i had been thinking i was special... haha...
kirk called me yesterday. it was so nice to hear his voice... i had myself believing it had already been a week, but in reality it was only a few days... this is dragging on forever... it's only tuesday... i have two more to go... two more tuesdays! jesus. but since i got my ps2 and all that cool shiznit it's all fairly good. kicking it with julius tomorrow. maybe we'll play perfect dark or something.
i don't know. we'll do something...
'these hands are mine to hold...'
love,
amelia
p.s. i love kirkery so much. omg.
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2006 26 June :: 5.16pm
:: Mood: tired
haha
i dunno what im doing
the people im hanging out with are weird.
thats all i have to say right now
<3<3
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2006 26 June :: 8.32am
:: Music: Cake - never there
work
monday: 3-9
tuesday: 3-9
wednesday: off
thursday: 11-9
friday: 5-10
saturday: 2-10
sunday: 11-7 (or something I can't really remember)
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2006 25 June :: 7.42pm
:: Mood: bored
So... I'm really bored. I just got off of work. It was Hoopfest this weekend and things were really crazy and stupid and I'm tired.
It's really beautiful outside... I really wish... nevermind.
I'm sorry I'm lame. but that's okay... right?
so.... i feel stupid because i have nothing profound that i feel right now. my mind is blank from lack of sleep and lack of fun. it's just dead....
just flatlining.
and i'm really being bored.
hello, telephone.
'chill it down with the fire gang...'
love,
amelia
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2006 24 June :: 10.17pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: the juliana theory - goodnight starlight
i feel really sad.
really, really sad... and lonely.
i feel sad and lonely and angry.
i feel like i want to cry.
i feel like i'm missing you right now...
my hands are dry and bleedie and all that good stuff that comes from washing your hands too much... and my belleh is all ouchy from being sad and all that jazz.
i can't wait until i move to seattle really really i can't wait at all. this summer is going to drag on between work and nothing to do because my friends are going to be gone/live far away. this sucks.
i mean, eerything kicks ass because i'm totally ungrounded and totally have some spendin' money. hells yes..
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i can't wait until kirk gets back. it's only in three weeks.! wow.
i need to get to work.
'close your eyes.... you're beautiful while you're sleeping...'
love,
amelia
p.s. i totally want to boyfriend goosh right now.
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2006 24 June :: 10.12pm
i dont know what to say.
and i dont know what to feel anymore.
i dont know whats wrong with me.
but im sick of it and i wish i weren't this way....
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2006 24 June :: 2.31pm
i dont even know what to think anymore.
except, people change. if they want to or not.
it just happens and there isnt a fucking thing i can do about that.
so if you dont like me, dont pretend to like me ok.
i just hurts more..
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2006 24 June :: 11.38am
Wow... That was even better than I thought it would be...
I totally thought that maybe it was all just for pretend, but oh my god, it's so amazing. I'm so happy that this is real... That it isn't fake and it isn't forced... I love being in love with him...
And I can't wait until Seattle. I'm so glad that I chose to be a better human. I'm so happy now... I'm... o god. it's just so great here.
The only sad thing is that he's gone now for the next three weeks... And that's going to be hellish... Just like with Jeremiah... But at least we won't break up at the end of it...
It's summer and it's beautiful outside and I'm lonely. I want to hang out with someone outside in the beautiful day... or inside ... but perferrable outdoors where it's beautiful and there are butterflies and birds and chairs and grass and i can find a blanket and make sammiches and maybe we could walk to the store or something and get something tastey and nice... or we can just go for a walk because it's good for you...
ah... The world is so beautiful and great and wonderful. Especially because he's in it... And he loves me.
'it's warm and golden like an oven that's wide open...'
love,
amelia
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2006 23 June :: 2.07pm
twenty pages and two drafts later...
I'm finally fucking ungrounded! hells yes, bitches.
I had to write a huge ass paper on boring shit. woo
so now, after work today i am ungrounded and that's totally fucking awesome. and kirk comes home tonight.
and not much has been happening. i'm still alive and all that good stuff.
<3
love,
amelia
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2006 22 June :: 9.10pm
i don't believe in the word forever
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Namu
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2006 19 June :: 11.30pm
chicken's gonna step on it.....
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2006 16 June :: 5.26pm
:: Mood: pessimistic
:: Music: the honorary title
i lost my camera on the city bus thursday morning.
and i have absolutely no hope of ever getting it back.
i am so fucking bored.
and i miss matthew.
alwk4eurotasudlfjlkAJLKJ0DUW4EOTIJDSLKFGUQ083W2R7AVOSIJDFLSADHFLASHDFJKSHDFKH
rawr rawr rawr
i wish i was ungrounded.
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2006 13 June :: 11.33pm
today was just a bad day......
I hate bad days. And being lonely sure doesn't help. One thing that does help is being able to go to bed and just end the day right then and there.....
So that's what I'm gonna do. Nighty night.
"and you kissed me like you meant it"
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2006 13 June :: 4.51pm
:: Mood: hurt
you forgot? honestly?
c'mon, you can come up with a better excuse
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2006 12 June :: 7.57am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Jimmy Eat World - Kill
Funny how I'm nervous still...
Today I don't have very much to do... I'm going to go cash my birthday checks then I'm going to go get the PS2 fixed so I can accutally play good games... Or games that I've been wanting to play for forever like Xenosaga...
I also go to work today. That's shouldn't be all that bad. The only part of work that really bothers me is how I get treated when I don't come in very often. There is a lot of animosity towards me from Nikola... She's a bitch. She always says that I shouldn't get as many tips because I work less than she does even though the rule has ALWAYS been we split the tips even steven. She steals tips, too. If there are two dollars in the tip, she'll take one and leave the other for everyone else. I really don't like her... Luckily I don't have to work with her.
I had a dream last night... It started out I was in ban, but we had gotten a lot of new people that I didn't know about and I was last chair... I had gotten up to ask Mr. Jay about some strange ligatures I had found in my case and when I got back my chair had been moved over by the French Horns, so I moved it back. Finally that was all over and Mr. Jay told me that the ligatures were for an Oboe (which is funny). Then I left and we were in the middle of a conspiracy to not deliver mail to a store so it would lose business... But we foiled the conspiracy, which was good. Then I was a man who went to a place of wishing because my father/mother had said it was a tradition in the family. So I walk up this driveway of a house across Monroe which is filled with water and I go behind it to an ocean. I climb onto a giant swan and as I'm riding it to the other side of this channel-y thing a baluga whale runs it's back on my hand. It scared me because I thought it was a shark. I finally get over to the statue of Posiedon and talk to it. It said nothing useful and then the tide started to rise and the Swan wouldn't take me back to where I came from.
So, it took me to a strange little town were I had to run away from some bad guys. I ran up this narrow flight of stairs where the doors on each floor had no handles... I finally get to the very top where I and turned back into a woman. I pulled myself up over a banister and Kirk was there with a kid or something (I wasn't paying attention to the kid, I only was paying attention to Kirk) and we escaped to a park where we were having a picnic and we were fly fishing. Kirk caught a car that had been sucken in the pond. The kids' grandpa said that they had wanted a slide, but they had gotten a car instead. I didn't recognize that man at all. Then I woke up.
That was a strange dream...
'you should just be here... be with me here...'
love,
amelia
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2006 11 June :: 9.39pm
this way.....------->
<------ that way....
being torn in every direction
not a fun game to play
Put my head on straight
Focus on the future
Gotta think clearly now
What's gonna happen?
I'm so unsure.....
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2006 11 June :: 8.14pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: ryan cabrera
haha
im happy
ummm
lalalalala
i dont know what to say
i like this song
and this keyboard
and you
and matthew michael lopane
ummmmmmmmmmmmm
and ashlee simpson
ohhhh yeah hellz yuhs
so whats new?
amelia is mean to me sometimes, she calls me a monster
haha but i still love her... most of the time
haha jkjk
<3<3<3
headbang
i dont want to know your name is just want bang bang bang
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