everyone we know is growing old

:: 2006 7 April :: 9.28am

the urge to say it is overwhelming. whenever he looks at me just right i can feel the worlds bubbling up to my lips and the smile spreading over my face and my heart catches a few butterflies... but i stop myself because i don't want to say it. but the butterflies are persistent and the flowers blooming in my soul don't wither, they keep pushing up towards the sunshine of healing. i think i'm finally moving on... because i don't feel like dying after talking to you.

but i love it, being with him. it's so full of happiness and good times because that's all we want... is to have fun together. and we look so cute together. and he's so ticklish. and we know what's funny... but he's so destructive and devilish. more of an adventurous little boy than you were... but both need to be spolied, and i'm just so good at it.

'you're too good to me...'

i love hearing that. i also love hearing how good i look everyday and getting a hug and kiss for it... and hearing how perfectly touchable i am. it's so good.

i'm going to buy some shoes to exercise in today. so i can go on jogs again, like i should to relieve stress and get in better shape. i've lost 12 pounds (the twelve i've gained since we broke up and from a little before)....

so now today, we're going to sushi.com.

brooke - if you come over and i'm not here, just hang out with my sister because we're going shoe shopping now... hearts and loves.

'you look good everyday...'

love,
amelia

1 told me | i want to hear the stories of your love for me

:: 2006 6 April :: 8.43am
:: Mood: happy

He told me about his life last night. It was very sad... His mom is so insane.

He told me that he had been feeling pressured to tell me that he loves me in the past week. But he didn't and now he doesn't feel like he needs to. We aren't really in love, he said, it's like we're just in a relationship. He doesn't need to be in love with me, he's just happy that he gets to be around me.

I wanted to say it, very badly, but I didn't want to say something I didn't mean. I don't know if I love him or not, so I'm just going to go with not because it's probably true.

Being alive is such a strange and horrible place. But it can be beautiful. It's breath-taking, when you realize you're alive and someday you will die. "You can't experience being alive without realizing that you have to die, she thought. But it's just as impossible to realize you have to die without thinking how incredibly amazing it is to be alive." It's beautiful how much humans suffer, how we all die broken, dejected, incomplete. Because we have no meaning in existence without suffering... That's the human condition. It's wonderful, though, to be able to overcome the suffering and be happy despite how aweful things become.

Everything in the world means something to someone. No matter what you destroy, it will always hurt someone some how. Sometimes it hurts more than you thought.

Someday, I'll die. And people might miss me. And I'll have a funeral and people will cry because that's what you do at funerals. And my stuff will be given away and eventually it will be like I never existed. Because no one is immortal, especially me, who will never be etched forever into history for everyone to remember. "To be forgotten is worse than death."

My birthday is in less than a week. I'm done talking about it.

I love the spring.

"'i thought you said i don't make you nervous anymore..' 'yea, well, i lied...'"

love,
amelia

:: 2006 5 April :: 10.55am

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2 told me | i want to hear the stories of your love for me

:: 2006 5 April :: 7.58am

Today is Josh's birthday. So we're going to a movie and stuff...

Yesterday I played DDR with Kirk and saw The Inside Man with Kirk... That was pretty fun. I also studied, got my blood drawn and hung out with Lauren. And took a shower.

And I'm so looking forward to moving. It's going to be so great and fun and amazing! I'm so excited! God, I don't want to have to wait five months... It's going to be so awesome.

Well, I should go study and do some homework now...

Everyone should have a wonderful day...

.... i feel another story coming on...

'i'm just happy to be here with you...'

love,
amelia

:: 2006 4 April :: 10.45pm
:: Mood: sad

When there is nothing left to burn
You have to set yourself on fire

God that was strange to see you again
Introduced by a friend of a friend
Smiled and said "yes I think we've met before"
In that instant it started to pour

Captured a taxi despite all the rain
We drove in silence across Pont Champlain
And all of that time you thought I was sad
I was trying to remember your name

This scar is a fleck on my porcelain skin
You tried to reach deep but you couldn't get in
And now you're outside me you see all the beauty
Repent all your sin

It's nothing but time and a face that you'll lose
I chose to feel it and you couldn't choose
I'll write you a postcard, I'll send you the news
From the house down the road, from real love

Live through this and you won't look back
Live through this and you won't look back
Live through this and you won't look back

There's one thing I have to say so I'll be brave
You were what I wanted, I gave what I gave
I'm not sorry I met you
I'm not sorry it's over
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save
I'm not sorry there's nothing to save

2 told me | i want to hear the stories of your love for me

:: 2006 4 April :: 2.02pm
:: Music: Jimmy Eat World

Story Time...

once upon a time there was a cat. it was grey with a pink nose. this kitty met another cat, he was yellow and had a black nose. these kitties spent all their time playing in the grass, catching bugs and mice. they took dirt baths together and slept under the stars together. the yellow cat told the grey cat that these were the best day of his life and nothing could be better than being there with the grey kitty. and the grey kitty was happy, and the yellow kitty said he was happy.

but one day the grey kitty got hit by a car. she didn't die, but the yellow cat decided he couldn't be her friend anymore, she wasn't who he thought she was. so the yellow cat left and the grey kitty remained. the yellow cat came around every once in a while and told the grey kitty how much he missed her and how sad he was without her, and the grey kitty said the same, and she meant it. eventually the yellow kitty and the grey kitty made new friends. the yellow kitty found another yellow kitty, but she had white stripes coming out of her mouth. the grey kitty found a red tabby the green eyes.

the grey kitty would always sit and listen to what the two yellow cats had to say, because she missed her yellow kitty and wanted to be in his life like she used to before the car attacked her. she heard him say all the things he used to say to the grey kitty and it broke her heart. but she couldn't stop listening because she missed the yellow cat so much. the only time when she forgot all the saddness she felt was when she was around the red tabby, or her favourite garden, which could talk to her. even then, though, the grey kitty found herself remembering the yellow kitty and wishing he could be who she thought he was.

eventually the grey kitty died from complications with the car. the yellow kitty went on with his life, happy. and she would watch him from kitty cat heaven and she cried and down where the yellow cat was, it would rain. the grey kitty always wished he'd look up and see her grey body hanging in the clouds, the tears falling into his life. but he never did and soon he forgot all about her.

and that's where storm clouds come from.
(yeah, right)

'i can't help it baby, this is who i am... sorry, but i can't just go turn off how I feel... you kill me, you build me up, but just to watch me break... i know what i should do, but i just can't walk away...'

love,
the lost

:: 2006 4 April :: 11.01am
:: Mood: sleepy

I look so bad. I have these huge ass loops under my eyes and permanent sleepy eye... I'm so frickin' tired... But I had fun with Lauren last night!

I don't remember what it was I dreamt, I just know it was a dream...

Got my blood drawn today. It's eleven and I've already been to two doctors! Yay...

Tomorrow I'm hanging out with Josh because it's his birthday. I have yet to study today... But I'll do it soon. God damn it.

I feel fat today.

I don't really know what to say except I can roll my r's better now. I'm cool.

'after all that we've been through...'

love,
ameli

:: 2006 4 April :: 10.19am

it would be nice if my mom left me notes when she leaves the house before i wake up.... because right now i'm home alone and i dont know why...

its kinda sad and lonely...

but meh whatever.

1 told me | i want to hear the stories of your love for me

Namu

:: 2006 4 April :: 7.52am

You finally did it. You kissed me in my dreams last night. It was weird, it was a dream as if we were just getting to see eachother for the "first" time again. Brooke and zuzu were there, and zuzu was mad at me for something. So I had a moment to talk to you. I gave you a hug, and we talked for a little bit. Then I had to leave, and as you were leaning in to give me a hug, you went for a kiss. I was avoidful at first, but then I gave in. Weird.....

"I never thought I would be able to kiss you again"

2 told me | i want to hear the stories of your love for me

:: 2006 3 April :: 6.04pm
:: Music: Jimmy Eat World - Kill

it's times like these when my life feels so futile.

4 told me | i want to hear the stories of your love for me

:: 2006 3 April :: 4.49pm
:: Music: Frou Frou - It's Good To Be In Love

I don't know where to start...
I'm moving for reals! How exciting, huh? I'm totally going to be an adult and living with a stranger in a small, enclosed space in a strange town where my current boyfriend and ex boyfriend will be living! And my friendy friend Brittany! And I'll eat sushi and bake cakes at Kirk's brother's appartment! And go to the mall and maybe have a job and all that really exciting college student stuff! And everything will be nice because my parents won't always be bugging me about everything that's wrong with me!

And I won't have to deal with stupid high school crap! That's the best part.

So it looks like I'll be in Haggett Hall if everything goes according to plan... And if not my second choice was McCarty, which should be okay. Then I asked for Terry if I don't get the other two... I'm nervous about staying in the dorms because Kirk and Kirk's mom both say that the dorms are just one big mass of drunks and druggies and that really frightens me... I don't want to have to deal with that... So I asked for a quiet floor so all the drunks and druggies do that crap with their doors closed so I don't have to see it. Now I just hope my room mate doesn't drink and everything will be peachy.

I'm half excited, half scared to move and be "on my own." I don't know if I'm really ready to grow up like that. I don't even know if I want to do any of this... But I've wanted to go to college for so long that if I don't my whole life will have been in vain. A waste of my time... But I don't know what it's going to be like and I'm afraid that I will be disillusioned with the whole spiel. I don't want to be disappointed... I'm so scared to grow up already that I don't want to get there finally and find out it sucks as much as I thought it would... That would be aweful...

In other news, my birthday is in nine days. And I have no idea what I want because I don't watch movies, my sister has all the cd's I want, I don't have time to read, I don't draw anymore, I have a journal for when my current one gets filled... All I really need is socks and panties. I love clothing, but I should be the one who buys that kind of thing... I'm so boring! What do normal people want for their birthdays? DVD's and CD's and that kind of stuff... I need some new earrings that are stainless steel because everything else makes my ears burn and itch... I guess I could just ask for good times, happy times... Before I move away...

Things you think I'd like. Anything with thought behind it is wonderful because it makes me feel like you really love me. Even if I didn't ask for it or really want it, if you thought I would love it, I will. Anything from the heart should be cherished...

'i wish i could count to ten and make everything wonderful again...'

love,
amelia

Namu

:: 2006 3 April :: 12.38am

Well.....I guess that's it then. I just have a few more things to wrap up here, and then I go...

I miss spokane, and the people there. I wish it was easier to visit. Brooke, we need to see eachother again soon, you silly emogirl. And Amelia, believe it or not, we need to see eachother again too. We still make a good trio of friends, wouldn't you say?

God I miss the good ol' days.....

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2 told me | i want to hear the stories of your love for me

:: 2006 2 April :: 7.24pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: Jimmy Eat World - Futures

I always believed...
My dad talked to me today about myself. It looks like I'll probably get evaluated and then, if I need it, some professional help. I hope. I really do hope because I want so bad to be better... I want to be happy.

I'm frustrated because I don't know myself at all. I'm such a mess, my thoughts are always contradicting eachother. My brain and my heart are telling me two different things and it's making me insane... I want to know who I am, I want to be able to be happy when I'm alone. I don't want to constantly talk to people so I can feel good about myself. I want to know for a fact that I'm pretty and acutally feel it, too.

My weight loss is going good. I'm happy that I have will power. I want to go and eat ice cream and noodles and sushi.com so badly. But I won't because I need to reach this goal.

I kind of want to go to bed right now. Pretty bad... Kirk said the loops under my eyes were incredibly noticable and I should get more sleep. He looks so silly with his puffy cheeks. And he was totally fat in seventh grade and it was so funny looking! It was fun. Today was a good day with Kirk. He kept picking me up and saying nice things to me... But his mom... She's frickin insane. God, that crazy woman.

So yeah. I'm going to be learning Spanish soon. I've been talking to Mauricio... He speaks Spanish so pretty, he reminds me of Jeremiah which makes me really sad... But I'm excited because I'll be able to speak Spanish and impress Jeremiah.

'and hold each others hands to fight the dark... so you know that you're never on your own...'

love,
amelia

p.s. you suck at stalking me. i have four more journals besides this one. loser.

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:: 2006 2 April :: 9.20am

so...... what's going on in your life right now..?

4 told me | i want to hear the stories of your love for me

:: 2006 1 April :: 9.09am

[The Basics]
Full name: Amelia Grace Helena Rose Bergh
Date of birth: 4/12/88
Gender: Female
Location: Washington
Ethnicity: White
Zodiac sign: Aries
Reason for taking survey: Nothing better to do

[Going Deeper]
If any, name any phobias you have: Being alone
Do you drink: No
Do you smoke: No
If any, what drugs have you done: None
Are you a junk food person or a healthy eater: Depends
Living arrangements: Mom, Dad, Zuzu, Ori
Name any pets you have: Totoro (Tubby), Baci, Chica
Siblings: Ori 21, Zuzu 16
Do you like your school: No, I hate it with fiery passion
What is your favourite class: Uh, um, eh... Outdoor living or AP Euro.
What is your least favourite: FUCKING AP Engliah
What genre of movie do you prefer: Horror
Are you into self categorization? I try.

[Favorites]
Time of the year: Spring
Friend: Brooke
Family member: I don't have a favourite. I spend the most time with Zuzu
Animal: Giraffe
Sweet food: Candy! Or ice cream
Colour: Green
Sitcom: Friends
Cartoon: Fairy Odd Parents
TV channel: FoodNetwork
Pastime: Sleeping
Drug: None
Magazine: Newsweek
Games console: PS2
Website: woohu.com
Swear word: Fuckers
Ice-cream flavour: Cotton candy Blizzard
Clothing brand, if any: The cute kind..?
Store: Bay Oriental
Place to relax: Here.
Place to shop: I don't know.
Place to party: My basement

[Do you believe in..]
God: Not really, sometimes I do.
A counter-god, or devil: When I believe in God.
Reincarnation: Yes
The Soul: Yes
Evolution: Yes
Angels: Sometimes, not really.
Karma: Sometimes
Do you celebrate Christmas: Yes.
How do you celebrate your birthday: With a party sometimes
What is your religion: None
Does your family have any special customs: Not really...
Have you ever converted from another religion or atheism: No
Are you a vegetarian: No
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[Your Love Life]
Are you in a relationship right now: Yes
Describe your current, or most recent relationship: Right now, it's like I'm just crushing. We aren't in love, we don't want to be.
Are you, or have you ever been in love: Yes
What's your sexual orientation: I pretend to be straight (haha jkjk)
Are you, or do you plan on getting married: Yes
Do you believe in soul-mates: Somewhat
Do you think long-distance love is possible: Yes, but not with me.
Could you see yourself being unfaithful: No
What do you notice about the opposite sex first: Uhm, personality
Biggest turn-offs: Stupidity
Taller or shorter than you: Doesn't matter
Ever broken someone's heart: Hell yes. I do it all the time. It sucks.
Has someone ever broken yours: Yes
Do/would you have children: Yes

[Your Bad Side]
Do you steal, or have you stolen: No
If so, was it from a store or a person you know: No
Have you been intimate with someone else's significant other: No
Do you take advantage of other peoples' kindness: No
Have you lied to your parents: Who hasn't?
Do you get jealous easily: Not really
Do you have a bad temper: No
Have you ever made someone cry: Maybe
Ever physically hurt someone: Sadly, yes
Do you consider yourself racist: No, I'd kill myself if I was.
Must you always seek vengeance: Uhm, depends.

[This or That]
Alcohol or Marijuana: Neither
Coca-Cola or Pepsi: Pepsi
A quiet evening at home or a wild night out: Quiet at home
Extreme intelligence or unbelievable beauty: If I'm beautiful, does that mean I have to be stupid?
A permanent, stable relationship or an insane sex life: No sex for me please.
Christmas without gifts, or Christmas without everything else: Without gifts
Rock or Rap: Rock
The ability to fly or the ability to be invisible: Fly
Hearing or seeing: I can't choose!
Depression or anxiety: Depression
Immortality without the ability to die, or mortality: Mortality.
Death by freezing, or burning: Freezing
Death by suffocation or being stabbed: Stabbed
Lots of acquaintances or a few close friends: Few close friends
To be a singer or an actor/actress: Singer
Eternal day or eternal night: Eternal night
X-Ray vision or psychic abilities: Psychic abilities.
Sweet or savory: Sweet.
To never sleep or to never eat: Gah!! My two favourite things...
To eat as much as you want or to sleep as much as you want: ... -cries-
World domination or infinite knowledge of all things: Knowledge
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera: Britney
Bush or Kerry: Kerry
To resort to cannibalism or to die: die

[The Last]
Person you talked to: My mommeh
Person you argued with: Jay
Person you hugged: Probably Zuzu
Person you kissed: Kirk
Person you texted: No one
Person you had sex with: Jeremiah
Phone call: Jeremiah
Thing you ate: Gross eggs... And delicious strawberries and cream
Thing you drank: Water
Time you showered: Yesterday before work
Time you told someone you loved them: Today, Brooke.
Time someone said they loved you: Today
Time you laughed: All the time. Last night.
Time you vomited: Long time
Paycheck: last last friday
Time you had sex: I don't remember
TV show you watched: Don't remember
Song you listened to: Frou Frou - Shh
Movie you watched: Matrix
Dream you had: Talking to Mauricio
Time you got drunk: Never!
Party you went to: I don't remember... Oh! Lauren's 18th birthday!
Item of clothing you bought: Shirts and skirt
Person you would sleep with: The last person I'd sleep with... Mike.

[Have You Ever Been Called]
Bitch: Hells yes
Bastard: Probably
Beautiful: Yes, but I don't believe it.
Talented: Yes
A waste of space: No
Liar: Yes
Geek: Yes
Nerd: Yes
Loser: Yes!
Peculiar: yes
Intelligent: yes
Skinny: No
Fat: Not by anyone but myself
Pretty: Yes.
Preppy: HAHA no.
Goth: Yes
Emo: Yes
Grunger: Hell no
Fiend: Yes
Innovative: No
Weirdo: No.
Stupid: Yes.
Retarded: Yes.
Annoying: Yes.
Freak: Yes..
Brat: Yes.
Cute: Yes.
Interesting: yes
Boring: Yes.
Slut: Yeah, all the time
Whore: Yes more than slut
Skank: Yes, but only by myself
Asshole: Yes
Shitface: no
Ugly: um, on the inside
Disgusting: yes
Shithead: no
Cock: no
Tit: no
Twat: no

[Totally Random]
Tell us the first thing you'd do with a million dollars: Donate most of it.
Why is the sky blue: Because that's the colour our eyes recieve from it
Do you consider yourself to be romantic: At heart
What's the best thing somebody has ever said about you: I'm a wonderful person who is special and they are lucky to have me.
What do you think of P.E.T.A: Insane Terrorists
What do you think of South Park: EW.
Do you like candles: Sure
Do you think emo people are idiots: Yes, but they're hot so it's okay
Do you think goths are idiots: YEs, I hate them
Do you think people who take ridiculously long surveys are idiots: No, just losers
Do you believe men and women are truly equal: Yes
Do you read books very much: Sure
Do people consider you to be a bookworm: No
Describe your mother: Confusing
What's one thing you would change about your body: Smaller body, slightly bigger boobehs.
Would you kill one child to save the lives of 1000 children: Uhm... it depends on the kid.
What one thing would a person have to do to deserve death: Uhm, exist?
The most romantic thing somebody's ever done for you: Anything Jeremiah did for me.
Do you use bittorrent: yes
What P2P programs do you use: None that I'm aware of
Have you ever skydived: No
List three things you want to do before you die: Get married, Stay married, be happy
The world ends and you can only save three people and yourself. Who would you save: Uhm... Jeremiah, Brooke... And some person, I dunno. Quigs :P
If you could kick anyone's ass, who would it be: No one
If you could sleep with anyone in the world, who would it be: No one
Are you bored of this survey yet: Meh
What is the meaning of life: To die

the ends.

1 told me | i want to hear the stories of your love for me

:: 2006 1 April :: 7.49am

five hours of sleep last night, hells yes.

i wake up to someone yelling at me, hells yes.

god, last night was horrible because all the remembering of jeremiah i did was painful...

gah.

...... aiyeaihgrwohgao;hrega;gea gairg al;hga

the end

[edit]
actually... i hate eggs. but i eat them anyway.

humans are so strange.

i want to go to sushi.com today.
i wonder how kirk is.
i'll visit him tomorrow or something.

:: 2006 1 April :: 12.54am

it's so late...

it's almost one in the morning...

and i'm still awake... when i should be sleeping... because i go to work in... ten hours...

wow. aren't you proud?

:: 2006 31 March :: 10.44pm
:: Mood: awake

i am determined to learn spanish. i want to be able to speak it. damn it.

acutally, i want to learn how to speak lots of languages... it's the only thing that really appeals to me... and i'm okay at it (at least in japanese)...

but i don't want to learn french. at all. i have no desire to know french... i want to learn some african language. and chukese. and philipino (whatever that one is called) but not chinese. and not russian. latin would be fun.

but hells yes, i'm going to finally learn spanish and set you all in awe of my 1337 spanish skillz. dawg.

'would you trade me for more...?'

love,
amelia

p.s. smoking is the grossest thing ever in the whole wide world. ew. i am never dating a smoker and i will never start... gross.

1 told me | i want to hear the stories of your love for me

:: 2006 31 March :: 4.21pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Jimmy Eat World - Work

if only once...
i'm going to work soon so i thought i'd update for all my friend and not friends.

today sucked major ass and i hated almost every second of it.
but thank god i have a b in english and i'll have a better grade in euro soon.

and yea, i hate everything sometimes.

what i really hate is the feeling i get when i'm talking to jeremiah. i love him... and everytime i talk to him i feel like killing myself...

i've felt like that a lot.

spring break is going to SUCK SO MUCH ASS. hells. yes.

so yeah... i'm sorry, i am so... i don't know what i'm apologizing for, but i'm sorry and i want you all to know that i'm sorry for whatever.

i'm sick and it sucks.

i don't want to go to work... i don't want to smile at all those horrible people... i don't want to stand around for hours doing nothing... i just want to curl up and die... or sleep for a very long time...

'my bonny lies over the ocean...'

love,
amelia

:: 2006 31 March :: 6.01am

i took pictures yesterday

it was fun

then i pushed nik down a hill.

Namu	:: 2006 30 March :: 9.10pm at least the tears I cry for you do some good. they make the trees grow.... i want to hear the stories of your love for me

:: 2006 30 March :: 7.45pm
:: Mood: tired

i'm exhausted.

and i need... to... be happy. all the time.

i like it - happiness. it's a good place to be, even if it is temporary.

i want to bake stuff.

fucking diet.

my body aches and i miss you...

i miss you...

'and then you bring me home...'

love,
someone who knows what it's like to be alone

:: 2006 30 March :: 5.55am
:: Mood: cheerful

i love making tana jealous. i love it when girls who are prettier than me think i'm pretty and are jealous of my prettiness.

i love having my things coveted. it's really... i guess it makes me happy in a twisted sense... i loved it with jeremiah too.

i feel totally poser today... very 'feminine' only in a different way... i feel strange. and i hope people think i look cute.

yup.

so... i work tomorrow... yeah... i'm not too excited.

tomorrow will most likely be a lonely day.

i need to grow up and be able to control my emotions. what i really need to do is drop ap english.

'this is just embarrassing...'

love,
amelia

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:: 2006 29 March :: 7.44pm

went shopping today... found memories of jeremiah... it made me sad...

because i miss my sweetheart. i really do... sigh...

but i found some cute stuff... and it was nice to hang out with brooke before she left to california... now i'm going to be lonely! only not really because kirk will be here... and my other friends will be there so it'll all be good...

my birthday is soon. pretty fucking exciting (only not really) because i'll be old enough to do nothing i really care about... yay!

but i really liked shopping, even though it made me feel fat because i've gained so much weight.......

i hate being a fatty. but whatever, guys hit on me today using the loud speaker they installed in their car so it was all good.

i bought kirk some underarmor. he's probably too small for it, but whatever. (secretly i bought it because i miss jeremiah)

but it's a secret.

'i want to be loved by you and nobody else but you...'

love,
amelia

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:: 2006 28 March :: 7.37pm
:: Mood: bored

Two things you wonder about me
1.
2.

Three Things you like about me
1.
2.
3.

Two of my best features
1.
2.

Two things you don't like about me
1.
2.

Three words that describe me
1.
2.
3.

One question for me (ask away, i will answer honestly)
1.

Namu	:: 2006 27 March :: 8.11pm "My heart is yours to fill or burst To break or bury Or wear as jewelry... ....whichever you prefer...." 2 told me \| i want to hear the stories of your love for me

Namu

:: 2006 27 March :: 12.42am

Heh, today was a pretty good day. Kayley surprised me by getting me a studded belt. It's so awesome! And very thoughtful....

Brooke, you are SO emogirl right now. I think we need to talk or something like that, to get your emoness out. Cheer up kid, it'll be aight.

Amelia, what psuedonym should I go as for your letters, hmm???

Zuzu, I miss you, hope you are doing well. Tell stina hi for me too.

I'm out,
Jeremiah

"And the hills are alive, with the sound of music."

3 told me | i want to hear the stories of your love for me

2 told me | i want to hear the stories of your love for me

:: 2006 26 March :: 10.50am

i wanted to see something that's different, something you said would change in me.
wnted to be, anything different, everything you would change in me.

got this way, upfront but never true.
god i'm wrong, it's just the way i am.