:: 2003 22 December :: 10.44 pm

nobody understands......nobody

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:: 2003 20 December :: 6.41 pm

uh oh

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:: 2003 15 December :: 6.13 pm

Drivers training segment 2 tonight. Great I cant wait. grrrr

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:: 2003 12 December :: 6.05 pm

uh I have the flu, I feel like I am gonna die. This sucks.

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:: 2003 10 December :: 4.08 pm

This is great!!
1. Why does your gynaecologist leave the room when you get undressed?

2. If a person owns a piece of land do they own it all the way down to the
core of the earth?

3. Why can't women put on mascara with their mouth closed?

4. Is it possible to brush your teeth without wiggling your arse?

5. Why is it called Alcoholics Anonymous when the first thing you do is
stand up and say, 'My name is Bob, and I am an alcoholic'?

6. Why are they called stairs inside but steps outside?

7. Why is there a light in the fridge and not in the freezer?

8. Why does mineral water that 'has trickled through mountains for
centuries' have a 'use by' date?

9. Why do toasters always have a setting that burns the toast to a
horrible crisp no one would eat?

10. Is French kissing in France just called kissing?

11. Who was the first person to look at a cow and say, 'I think I'll
squeeze these dangly things here and drink whatever comes out'?

12. What do people in China call their good plates?

13. Why do people point to their wrist when asking for the time, but don't
point to their crotch when they ask where the bathroom is?

14. What do you call male ballerinas?

15. Why is a person that handles your money called a 'Broker'?

16. If quizzes are quizzical, what are tests?

17. If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from
vegetables, then what is baby oil made from?

18. Why is it that when someone tells you that there are over a billion
stars in the universe, you believe them, but if they tell you there is wet
paint somewhere, you have to touch it to make sure?

19. Do illiterate people get the full effect of Alphabet Soup?

20. Did you ever notice that when you blow in a dog's face, he gets mad at
you but when you take him on a car ride, he sticks his head out of window?

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:: 2003 8 December :: 8.11 pm

For about 2 weeks I forgot what happiness felt now but now I am extermely happy and I love it!! yay! :)

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:: 2003 6 December :: 3.24 pm

Its all fun until you get sick. uhh I am so disappointed in myself. :(

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:: 2003 4 December :: 6.14 pm

I hate being unhappy. I hate being sad. I hate crying. But most of all I hate being alone. And everyday I feel unhappy,sad and alone and everyday I cry. I really hate this.

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:: 2003 3 December :: 7.11 pm

I dont think that in this situation I am going to be happy. I could do one thing and that wouldnt make me happy and I could do another thing but that would just make me more unhappy. So I guess I am just fucked.

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:: 2003 3 December :: 6.59 pm

I really dont know if I can do this, its so hard. I have just been putting on a show for my friends making them think I am ok and I am sick of it I am not ok I am really not. I really depressed and alls I wanna do is just cry. Dan called today wow I havent talked to him since saturday and we only got to talk for like 2 fucking minutes thats not a realationship thats just fucking stupid. I dont know anymore. Ahhhhh this fucking sucks.

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:: 2003 2 December :: 9.41 pm
:: Mood: depressed

Tomorrow is me and dans 6 months and he lives in hillsdale now so thats really stupid. So guess what I am doing tomorrow instead of being with him....hanging out with Katie. I really do just love how things are going right now :(

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:: 2003 1 December :: 8.49 pm
:: Mood: sad

My life sucks. Its just pure hell. Why is it that when something is just going right it just goes right back to bad. God my life is hell. I don't even know what to do with my self any more.

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:: 2003 28 November :: 9.00 pm
:: Mood: scared

I've got alot to think about. I am so confused. I hate all these feelings, I really do. I haven't cryed in awhile and here I go. It hurts so much to think about this and to honestly not be able to trust someone. I want to I really do but its so hard. I have only one reason to trust this person and I dont even know about it anymore. I just wanna know the fucking truth, I cant keep wondering I just need to know.

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:: 2003 28 November :: 7.47 pm

Well my mom left for Colorado to visit my grandpa so I am stuck with just my sister and my dad for awhile. Just great.

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:: 2003 26 November :: 5.13 pm

Wow last night was one of the funnest nights I have had in a long time. I so needed that. Gonna have to do that more often. I cant really remember alot of things about the night but that is what is so fun.

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