:: 2004 10 August :: 2.24 pm

I didn't think I was going to see or hear from you until the next time you decided to come back but you called! I am glad i got to talk to you about the whole girlfriend thing to. I am just glad you remembered!

do you love me?

:: 2004 4 August :: 12.46 am
:: Mood: crushed

brokenhearted
I was sad that you were leaving but part of me was happy because you showed me that not all guys are ass holes but once again I was proven wrong. The first day we hung out you asked me if I had a boyfriend and I don’t, I asked you back and I get a no but now I find out you lied. I don’t want to believe it because I like you so much. I guess I know deep down that we could have never have had anything because of the long distance but you gave me something to hope for, A good guy. God you were just such a nice guy or so it seemed. If only you didn’t live so far away and we could talk about this. I guess I just fell to hard to fast to even stop and think maybe this is all just a lie. You really gave me hope and now I have nothing just a broken heart.

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:: 2004 2 August :: 10.06 pm
:: Mood: lonely

Summer romance!
So this summer has had its ups and downs. I am just so glad I got to see you, I just wish you could have stayed. Now your gone and I miss you so much but I will remember every minute that we were together. Why is it that the perfect guy has to live so far away? I love every thing about you.... the way you looked at me, the way that we could just stay up all night and talk and laugh it was like I have known you all my life. The way you wore your cowboy hat for me!! Theway you sang to me, the way that we just connected so well and I felt like myself when I was with you and I could tell you anything. I could see it in your eyes that you felt the same way. There is just so much that I love about you and the only flaw I could find is that you were leaving in a week and live really far away but you gave me the best two weeks of my summer. And I cant wait till you come back.

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:: 2004 4 May :: 9.35 pm

For the longest time I have been thinking that its you that I want back in my life but after I talked to you and saw how much you have changed I realize that its not you I want its what we had together or what I thought we had. It made me think that I never really wanted you back I just missed being in love and having that one person whos always there for you. I just want that feeling back.

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:: 2004 20 April :: 7.09 pm

Your mine!!
I am so happy. I havent been in this great of a mood in a long time. I really like him when he talks to me its like everything stops and its just us. I havent had a "crush" on someone in a long time and I love it I just get so girly and giddy. Wow I am just so happy but I am really scared I dont know why just cause i havent really felt this way about someone in a long time. Uh I dont even have words for the mood I am in I am just so happy. He is so nice and he just says the sweetest things that I just melt. I just hope that it isnt just a crush I hope it turns into something more. hehe!! :)

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:: 2004 13 April :: 11.25 pm

so its been awhile... things have been going alright I guess. My parents are away so its just me for two nights well katie is over here tonight.

Some people are just stupid and love drama. uhhhh not to mention hypocrites. This whole thing is just stupid and why are people sooooo dumb?

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:: 2004 18 March :: 10.03 pm

CIRCUS!!!!!
Today was a good day I didnt go to school cause I didnt feel very well and then went to the circus with Katie and some of her family,it was my b-day present and it was great fun! but thats all for now I guess.

do you love me?

:: 2004 11 March :: 8.09 pm

Well lifes been going good. I am so glad I can finally drive hehe! I broke up with kevin but its ok cause it was for the better he just wasnt my type and he liked me more than I like him so ya. But I guess thats about it cause nothin ever really interesting happends in my life...

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:: 2004 3 March :: 9.41 pm

Today was a really good day. I am now 16!! I got a nextel for my b-day. So thats cool if you wanna call me my number is 1616-520-3496. I picked up Katie and we went to get some food and stuff so that was exciting. but I guess thats really all for now.

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:: 2004 2 March :: 4.01 pm

Tomorrow I will be 16! yay. And you all must get me something. lol. This week has gone by fast so I am happy with that and me and Kevin are going out so its been really good! But thats really all I got.

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:: 2004 1 March :: 4.12 pm

Last night me,my sister and my grandpa went to see The Passion. That movie was uh there really are no word, it was so hard for me to watch and when I was watching I was crying I think everyone did. It just made me realize alot of things. But Kevin asked me out today so we are going out now! So I am happy!

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:: 2004 29 February :: 12.05 pm
:: Mood: excited

I am really hoping that this week goes by fast I just want it to be wednesday so I can drive cause I will be 16!!!!!!! This weekend has been really good. Friday me,Katie,Tony and Kevin went to the movies and then on saturday we went to the club with them...lets just say that was an interesting night! My Grandpa from colorado is staying with us right now for about a week and a half so we have a little family thing today then maybe after that me and my gramps are gonna go see The Passion of the Christ. Well thats all I got for now

do you love me?

:: 2004 26 February :: 7.25 pm

Ok I cant take it anymore, I wasnt going to tell anyone but I took my driving test yesterday and I passed so on my b-day I will be able to drive. ahh it feels much better now!!! yay!

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:: 2004 25 February :: 7.01 pm
:: Mood: exhausted

This week is kicking my ass. I havent got any sleep this week because I just sit up at night and think about everything. I can hardly stay awake at school and thats not good cause I have about 7 tests. I have been thinking alot more about Kevin, he is so sweet and we all know that I need a sweet guy after Dan. He is just so uh nice and caring. I need a guy like that. I deserve a good guy for once, one that doesnt do drugs. I tend to date those kind of guys but its time to change.

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:: 2004 22 February :: 10.58 pm
:: Mood: hopeful

I have been thinking alot about Kevin and the more i think about him the more i like him. Its been so long since i could think about someone and smile and get butterflies. I just really hope this turns into something great.

do you love me?