Because of you..

:: 2007 6 April :: 10.28pm

today i listened to the get up kids and the 311 transistor cd.

good stuff

who can't love amber?

woah ohhhhhhhhh...

right now brandon and roman are playing video games. we went to craigs cruisers and had lots of fun and got a cute picture in the photobooth .

:: 2007 2 April :: 7.55pm

god i hate being alone.

i should have just went with roman to his mom's house.
god some people can be such fake stupid jerks. how am i supposed to be friends with someone who treats me like shit like that. TOTALLY UNRELIABLE. i seriously will not be able to have her in my wedding because i honestly don't trust that something wouldn't "come up" where she'd need to skip out on the big day. god i fucking swear. so fucking annoying. the last fight we fricken got in was because she ALWAYS and i mean ALWAYS fucking cancels on me, but no, she does it AGAIN the next time we hang out. and then fucking doens't pick up my calls or call me back. i'm not a fucking idiot. i knwo you fucking look at your phone like 15 times in 20 minutes and i know you fucking have your phone on you AT ALL TIMES. half the time we hang out you're texting someone anyway. so do you really think you're fucking fooling me or something when you don't pick up the phone and dont return my calls? like i am just supposed to think you didn't look at your phone or you "lost" it again. YEAH RIGHT. poeople don't lose their phone that much and people dont leave their phones at peoples houses that much and people don't "forget" to charge their phones that much. god i am so pissed off because i dont want to fight with you but i have no choice when you treat me like shit!!!!
do you realize we dind't even have any time to catch up when you came over because you "would rather sleep alone" which is a total lie, you just wanted to be alone even though you were "so tired" so that you could call someone else and get on the internet all night. what the hell is that? we didn't even have anytime to talk that whole night and then when you say you're coming back the next day you fucking bail on me and change the plans AND you tell me you're just hanging out with someone else but in fact you are going to a party instead. god that is mean. and then you tell me you'll bring me my stuff the next day "around 2" so what do i do? i fucking wait around my fucking apartment doing NOTHING waiting for you and hmm 2 oclock goes by, then 3, then 4 then i say fuck you and leave to do my own thing but not before claling you only to get your answering machine. funny me, i thought if you wouldn't be able to make it you'd have the decency to pick up your phone for 2 god damn minutes and just tell me you wrent coming over afterall but no you leave me fucking hang ing AGAIN. god i can't believe it

and the time before that the whole time i was at work i was all loooking forward to hanging out and thinking about how we were gonna go on a bike ride and i couldn't wait to get some fresh air and it'd be fun to catch up but then you fucking cancel

god i am done ranting it's not fucking worth my time. GOd i am so pissed at you. you are RUDE and INCONSIDERATE and a LIAR. work on that.

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:: 2007 2 April :: 6.16pm

cool look i'm on davenport's website neato

for real that's me, looking down- it's from the photo shoot from a long time ago...

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:: 2007 31 March :: 1.18pm

i seriously love roman bryan garcia.

and i'm watching austin powers right now... funny stuff.

also. we went to this club last night... not gonna say where. but me and jessie hazen went and OMG. so effing stupid. lol. ahhh last night was crazy. i hope no one heard the dog. that stupid stupid ugly dog. oh yeah but the club. seriously. hahahhaaa never again will we go there.

i think i'll do my homework tomorrow. i put stuff off so much. but i dont care.

oh i love my new tanning place- midnite sun and cruise. it's so nice. the beds are so nice. yay i'm gonna be tan soon.

we are going to a fricken carnival on 28th street tonight. isn't that crazy. theres a carnival less than 2 minutes from my apartment. that's weird. a weird little carnival . we have to go though because... we have to! yay

okay peace out.

:: 2007 29 March :: 10.31am

bleh i dont wnat to go to work. yay they didn't charge me the overdraft. blehhh i seriously can't wait until work is over today. ...but then i have to back tomorrow... ahhh the cycle never ends..........!

jessie g- do you want to come over tonight? supposedly shae is coming.

:: 2007 28 March :: 7.12pm

god people can be so insanely fucking rude. stupid fucking ugly bitch girl at the tanner was a big fucking rude bitch. stupid fucking bitch.

god that stupid fucking bitch made me fucking cry.

god i hate mean people!!! there is no fucking reason.

also, people who don't use their turn signals relaly fucking bug me.

oh AND i also like paid my insurance twice this month or something on accident which i didn't figure was a big deal b/c it just goes toward next month but since i am waiting to get my check on friday before i cash my 2 other checks since my bank is so far away there is not much money in my account and i got gas today too so now i probably overdrew my account if the gas payment goes through my tomorrow and then i'll have an overdraw fee WONDERFUL SHIT HSSHITSHITSHITHSITHS grr.

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:: 2007 23 March :: 7.06pm

oh i forgot to mention- i totally chopped off like all my hair..

my kitty fergie-

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:: 2007 22 March :: 9.50pm

i had a very intense dream last night that i was one of the final contestants on American Idol.

Vote for me!!! ..............

:: 2007 21 March :: 12.25pm

my new kitten, fergie keeps letting out these little squeky meows as she purrs. she is so cute, aw i love her. she is fascinated while watching me type.

i hate school.

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:: 2007 16 March :: 9.46pm

what should i name my cute little kitten? it is spotted like a cow black and white with a black patch over her eye.

yeah it's a girl help me out.

i was thinking priscilla because we already have elvis :0) you know... priscilla was elvis's wife. get it...?

:: 2007 15 March :: 7.28pm

oh my goodness today was so exhausting.

i really do like working at the day care but it is so tiring. working 9-6 or 8:30 -6 with screaming kids is like....ahhhh.

i have a headache!

:: 2007 13 March :: 8.32pm

So i really really like my new job at the daycare. i seriously love those kids so much. it always makes me want to be a mommy but yeah duh i know i shouldn't right now. but hey it is what i want most out of life so i'm not suprised that working at a daycare makes me want a kid even more. Everyone says it makes you realize why you dont want a kid yet but seriously i rarely see that side of it. but still, i realistically don't want a kid until i'm like 23 or 24. okay ggeez i am getting way too personal.

sooooooooooo i watched borat last night with roman. i thought it was...interesting. i liked the chicken.

ummmm i work 9 hour days at the daycare it is really really tiring. but i love it.

i love roman so much. we are doing so much "better' i guess you could say even though that sounds like the wrong way to put it... since our little time apart when i went to florida. we are in a better mood with each other. have more patience with each other. It just had been a long time since we had spent more than like 2 days apart from each other so it was good for us. ANYWAY

blah blah i'm rambling. i think my parents are buying me a gym membership for my birthday. i hope they do . i seriously want to lose like 30 pounds. i want to be like supertiny and wear my freaking clothes that i used to be able to so i dont have to throw them out lol. ahh it's said but i'm just more content with my body even if it is bigger.

omg today at the daycare yeah i know this is horrible but the "teacher" that i was working with ( we are all called teachers) was "teaching" stuff about syllables and she seriously was teaching it ALL wrong. but i just couldn't correct her because i didn't want to embarass her. i finally sort of corrected her when she said one of the kids had 2 syllables in his name and he said no i have 1 i said yeah he's actually right and i tried to explain why but seirously she was like "Rake, rA-ake" i'm like dude no, it's one syllable. i seoriusly couldn't take it. it was making me so upset that she was teaching these precious little children the wrong way AHH. Beans, feel me on this! Justine, feel me on this! Jessie and Michelle, I know you know what i'm sayin girls! People are so dumb! ahhhhhhhhhhhh how can you not know what syllables are... then again, i'm not even sure ifi 'm spelling that word correctly.

oh PAUL i bought you a present!!! :0)

anyway i'm gonna go.

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:: 2007 12 March :: 9.12am

does anyone have any suggestion of what i can write a demonstrative or informative speech on ...

it's kinda sorta pretty much due today so... yeah i need help.

:: 2007 12 March :: 9.11am

omg i totally had a dream last night that i bet George Bush and shook his hand.

he was wearing a cowboy hat.

eeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.