Because of you..

:: 2006 30 October :: 11.24pm

I will be the answer
At the end of the line
I will be there for you
While you take the time
In the burning of uncertainty
I will be your solid ground
I will hold the balance
If you can't look down

If it takes my whole life
I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
Cause I can only tell you what I know
That I need you in my life
When the stars have all gone out
You'll still be burning so bright

Cast me gently
Into morning
For the night has been unkind
Take me to a
Place so holy
That I can wash this from my mind
The memory of choosing not to fight

If it takes my whole life
I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
'Cause I can only tell you what I know
That I need you in my life
When the stars have all burned out
You'll still be burning so bright

Cast me gently
Into morning
For the night has been unkind

:: 2006 30 October :: 10.36pm

well shit isnt' this just peachy. what the hell i want something to do.

:: 2006 29 October :: 7.30am

OH MY GOD. people are so STUPID!!!

ugh

:: 2006 21 October :: 4.34am

oh my gosh.

i woke up at 4 am today .

do you want to know why?

so i can go to menards. MENARDS. what kind of crazy person shops at 5 am at menards. or anywhere for that matter.

i have no idea why they scheduled me for 5 am. i thought they had designated people committed to ruining their lives and getting up that early and working the 5 am shifts. but i guess not???

i can not believe i am going to work this early. god i'm crazy. I HATE MENARDS!

:: 2006 11 October :: 12.20pm

So I must vent just a tad to just feel just a tad bit better.

I have changed my major from Paralegal studies to Nursing. Reason being: my full scholarship Lettinga Campus scholarship things has JUST changed the rules and instead of only being allowed to use the scholarship at the either of the two Grand Rapids Davenport campuses, I am now allowed to use the scholarship at any Davenport campus. There are many.

There are 3 campuses that offer the nursing program. Midland, Dearborn and Warren.

Long story short, next year, if all goes well, Roman and I will be moving to the Detroit (Dearborn or Warren) area and living there and going to school and being 2 and a half hours away from any sort of Cedar-ish area.

My scholarship is renewable up to 4 years. But there is a catch. I must earn a 3.4 GPA or better. So, if my math is correct, if I am taking four 3-credit hours, I can afford to get two B+'s as long as I get two A-'s or A's. I am pretty sure I can do it, but I need to set my standards higher. I used to think that a B was a pretty good grade, not that great, but I can deal with it. Now, I need to accept nothing less than an A.

I'm scared.

Okay different subject.

I know i'm just a lil ol white girl from non-diverse Cedar Springs and I'm not saying that peoples' feelings or thoughts especially of themselves and their history and yada yada isn't important but it is really necessary to cry in an English 110 class over a fricken article? IS IT? okay, that sounds very insensitive, but come on, if anyone knows me they know i am very sensitive. It's okay to feel strongly about it and to have those feelings in you and to really be that upset about the thing as a whole but not this article. It was a thought-provoking satire. A THOUGHT-PROVOKING SATIRE. THAT'S ALL!

I honestly can't take it.

in other news. roman and i bought bikes and rode a lot and had fun and rode them all the way downtown as in ridin along on wealthy and fulton and division. it was fun. and the day before that we rode on some trail and saw a deer and a fawn and then we ended up on 52nd and rode all the way back to burlingame and then home. it was so fun. coolie cool.

"Hey popo! We're ridin dirty but I betcha can't tell!!!"

:: 2006 11 October :: 12.11pm

ommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmgggggggggggggggggggggg

seriously, i'm gonna kill myself. i knew i shouldn't have came to english today. why is it that everything that people say seriously feel like knives poking into my spine. i CANNOT stand people.

"my fiance"

bull shit you prissy little bitch. two weeks ago you were screwing the milkman.

i wanna throw up and also i want to leave school. i'm so stressed out

shannon do you have my yearbook? can i get it? do you have it? whadoido

omgggggggggggggggggggggggggggg I HATE .......... it's like blah blah blah blha blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah. people think everything they have on their mind is so damn important. not everything a person thinks needs to be heard by everyone in the room. shut your mouth and if you really feel like expressing your feelings, go right it in a journal. I seem to be doing a fine job of it myself...

UGH

:: 2006 9 October :: 10.18am

so i've decided i'm going to do nursing like i orginally wanted to do and i think there are gonna be alot of changing coming to my life.

and ps.

i love roman garcia yeehaw

bigwilly

:: 2006 9 October :: 12.02am

I made a facebook thing

bigwilly

:: 2006 5 October :: 3.06pm

Update

Dave sucks

:: 2006 2 October :: 8.40pm

it's so bad. because i'm sitting in this class. i'm giving it three hours of my Monday night... and it's not even what i want to do with my life. i dont want to be a paralegal. gaaaaaaaaawd what am i doing... i dont want to be here at davenport. this isn't even what i want.

i just wanna go have babies and be a happy mommy and i duno. something else that isn't a paralegal exactly.

:: 2006 2 October :: 8.35pm

i can't take this anymore. i have to get away. i seriously can't just sit here anymore. and i dont totally and completely mean just getting out of this 3 hour long LEGL 101 class that i'm sitting in right now.

i mean i think i'm gonna go do something drastic..

you've been warned.

BIATCHES!

:: 2006 2 October :: 7.10pm

im drifting so, so very far away from woohu.

i hate being too busy to do anything you actually want to do. if i keep living like this, i'll surely die soon.

3 love me | do you love me?

:: 2006 25 September :: 8.52pm

ughhhhhg i do not like to NOT get along with teachers but seriously it's like everything i say, or every question i answer, this teacher disagrees and they re-word it just a TAD BIT and say that THAT way is correct. no. sorry. that's what i just said. didnt you just hear me? i just wanna be like hello?! thats the answer i just gave! where were you? ugh it is pissing me off so bad. does anybody else have this problem?

:: 2006 25 September :: 7.18pm

so it is true. lesson learned. dont trust anyone.

god dammit i am so pissed. due to a stupid person who i thought was okay to trust, i am getting a zero. that is ridiculous. i am so mad.

okay so ulitmetely it's my fault but i am still so angry.

:: 2006 25 September :: 9.58am

wwow wanna know what i hate?

when bitches lie to you and then ditch you AND THEN ARE TOTAL COWARDS AND CAN'T EVEN PICK UP THEIR DAMN PHONE. AND THEN WILL PROBABLY MAKE AN EXCUSE AS TO WHY THEY DID ALL THAT

PRAISE THE LAWDDDDD@!