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2005 22 December :: 6.17pm
holla'
im at home right now.
I have been for a week.
its cool.
im liking the at homeness.
food.
food is good.
work has sucked.
im feeling better.
chris best.
go to my academic records.
then final grades and that will give you your final grades.
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ray is going to texas tomorrow and that has me all kinds of sad.
im not sure what to make of anything anymore. i mean as far as he is concerned.
my brother said that he reminds him of marty.
that is an odd comparison.
what since ray doesnt smoke weed and all.
my parents and I have been rowing over my smoking.
i have the night off thank god.
last night i worked adn then I stayed at kristens.
that sucked cuz ray and I fought the entire night.
i hate fighting.
i was being really unreasonable though.
okay dinnertime says my brother.
AWESEOME.
Merry christmas to you all because I wont update again until its all over and done with.
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2005 21 December :: 11.18pm
I love christmas, i miss the snow and im glad to be going back home tho i did enjoy the stay even tho most of my time here was spent in a car...i think im becoming clostrophobic.
i cant wait to sleep in my own bed with erica again, i miss her the most...i love her so much
once i get my tattoo stuff on christmas my process of learning to be a great tattoo artest begins and im ready for it.
i dont know what im gona do for presents for my family. ive been gone so long and i dont know how im gona get them anything tho i think they will love having me home.
im pretty upset that some of my future plans got screwed up but what can i do. i know me and ben will be fine. i cant wait to see him again.
i want to be cold again, i hate being hot.
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2005 21 December :: 12.22pm
Well, my birthday ended up being ok. My mom called me 2 times to wish me a happy birthday, my sister called, Bri called, and Tony called. And...for the second year in a row...my dad did NOT call. I cant believe I actually thought he would call this year. Its ok I guess.
Im going with my mom today. She is picking me up around 2pm and we are taking off for a night or two. Its gonna be awesome! I really need some mother daughter time with her. Ever since I got my cell phone turned off I havent been able to keep in touch with her as much. Thank God Mama Putt is getting me a new one for Christmas. Now I will be able to talk to my mom everyday again.
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2005 21 December :: 9.08am
so brief synopsis here.
I am sick.
sick sick sick.
on some nasty horsepills.
I have a horrendouse sinus infection and my thyroid thing is probably back.
i have a very large lump next to my thyroid protruding out of my neck.
I got to work yesterday heather looked at me and told me to go home.
I have to work again today.
im going to work because I need to work, because I need the money.
I hate poor.
in brighter news.
I passed all of my classes.
Yay yay yay.
I really didnt think that I would or that I could and I did.
so yayness for me.
yay yay.
Two D's C and a B.
not great but I could have done so much worse and I am happy anyway ray is here so im out bitches.
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2005 20 December :: 3.34am
ITS MY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!!!
....I wonder if Andrea will call me and wish me a happy birthday
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2005 19 December :: 2.13pm
My 18th birthday is tomorrow!
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2005 19 December :: 10.14am
| Your Birthdate: February 15 | 
You take life as it is, and you find happiness in a variety of things.
You tend to be close to family and friends. But it's hard to get into your inner circle.
Making the little things wonderful is important to you, and you probably have an inviting home.
You seek harmony with others, but occasionally you have a very stubborn streak.
Your strength: Your intense optimism
Your weakness: You shy away from exploring your talents
Your power color: Jade
Your power symbol: Flower
Your power month: June |
this would be the biggest load ever.
that is not me at all.
jesus.
i hate trends so why do i always go along with them.
what a waste of time.
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2005 18 December :: 10.08pm
Well, Tony is still in Florida. I still dont know how much longer he is gonna be there. I want him to come home soon though. He doesnt need to be around the people he is around right now. He needs to be home with people who care about him.
I've spent most of the night on the computer looking for Airports near the place Tony is staying in Florida. And then the rest of the night was spent looking for tickets for him. The cheapest one we found was about $260. The rest are anywhere between $260-$400. And thats if he leaves on either the 19th or 20th. If he has to get flown back later than that...well we cant find tickets any cheaper than about $600. And we definitly dont have that kind of money. But I guess thats what this family gets for trusting someone likfe Brad. We all had a bad feeling about this, and should have went with our gut...but no. Now we are gonna get screwed out of a lot of money because Brad probly wont pay us back like we are gonna try to make him do. God he pisses me off. I will be so happy when Tony stops being friends with him.
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2005 18 December :: 12.33am
*sigh* each day is getting harder and harder. Im so worried that Tony isnt happy right now. I want him to be having fun while he is in Florida, not worrying about when he is gonna get home.
Tony, I know i have told you this about a thousand times, but we will get you home. Your Aunt Lisa has already said that she will pay for the ticket with her credit card and brad will pay her back every cent if he doesnt get you home when he said he would (which is the 23rd at the absolute latest!!) I love you! And I will see you soon!
Oh, good news Tony, I found your free movie pass!!!
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2005 16 December :: 11.53pm
Ok wow! This is total bull shit! This just proves that our frikin school really only cares about sports. Ok, so we had a snow day today, but we still had the basketball game tonight at the high school. But because of the snow day we had TODAY, they are cancelling the dance that was supposed to be TOMORROW!! How much frikin sense does that make!??! That makes me really angry!
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2005 16 December :: 2.10pm
Im sad....the dance got cancelled!! This sucks.
Oh well, I didnt have a "date" anyway.
My birthdays in 4 days! yay!
Oh, everybody wish and pray that Tony comes back before Christmas cuz I guess he might not and he really really wants to and I want him to too!
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2005 15 December :: 9.08pm
Wooh! I made honor roll. Go me.
Its weird...but I've decided that I miss Andrea a lot right now.
I think Im starting to like the fact that no one reads this anymore..I might actually be able to write whatever I want for once without people giving me shit about it.
Well....Tony is in Florida right now...or at least on his way there. He's gonna be gone for my birthday :( But its totally cool cuz I know he is having fun. Or at least I hope he is. Well, I miss him. But I know us being apart a little bit at a time is gonna help us alot. SO yea..
My birthday is in 5 days. (December 20th) so Im looking forward to that alot. Saturday Im going to a birthday dinner thing and then to the Winter Snow Ball....which I have nobody to go with since Tony is gone. This is gonna be really weird. I havent gone to a formal dance alone ever. Im gonna feel like a loser!!
LOve you Tony, and I miss you.
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2005 14 December :: 3.11pm
MATT WHETZEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hang out with me tomorrow night.
I left a message on your phone.
finals are over and I have some free time.
Be my friend.
I love you.
Call me.
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2005 14 December :: 1.01pm
i am actually more nervous now, after having taken the exam.
time for some sleep though,
then work at 4.
suck on work.
its going to be some kind of hell in that place and i am not prepared to deal with it.
goddamn people and their layaways.
let me tell you.
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2005 14 December :: 10.50am
I was lying in bed last night, almost asleep all cuddly and warm and just ready to be peaceful and I said, oh shoot I forgot the laundry in the dryer.
he got up and not only got my laundry but apparently put more in being that when I woke up this morning all of my laundry was folded and nice in a pile in my room.
I dont want to go home because I am going to miss him so much.
I dont want to sleep alone. ever.
we talked about a lot of stuff last night, it was cool.
I mean we always talk about stuff but we talked about us. and our relationship.
I dont know if it was the day, but we talked a good long talk.
he asked me if I felt that my days of wanting to be single were over.
and I said thats hard to answer. they are for the moment. isnt the moment all that matters.
and then he said what are you doing tomorrow around two. lets get married because I dont want to ever lose you.
and I called him ridiculous and crazy and impulsive and said if you find the priest Ill be there.
at this time last year I would have said the same thing to pj.
that is what is so scary.
Im afraid because of him.
how is it that things just stop.
i mean it was a gradual stop and I cannot say that if circumstances were different i would still be in love with him and want to spend the rest of my life with him.
ray said that you can fall in love with anyone under the right circumstances. if you just focus on the good..
I think he is right there.
the next couple of weeks are going to be crazy.
i dont have to work that much and I dont have school. so im just going to sit around and veg it out.
ray has school. and then on friday he is going to texas.
he is going to come back on wednesday.
renewed accent and all.
I heart his accent.
im supposed to clean today.
whoops i dont want to .
I have my final final at 12.
i thought it was at 10 though and so i went there and there was one other person and i was like hey and then the two of us sat there for 15 minutes and i was like um im going to find his office and come to find out it was at noon instead of 10.
whatever. at least it wasnt the other way around.
also ive gotten almost all of my christmas done with.
I have to get gifts for Kristin, heidi, haven, and kristin's mom.
whose name i cannot remember.
crappers.
oh and kaylee.
and ray.
but his is going to wait until after christmas because I am getting him a sweet ass guitar.
he picked it out when we went to guitar center and it is pretty and about $400.
so that will take some saving.
he doesnt know that is what im getting him though.
he is going to get me a kick ass digital camera though, or so he says.
im afraid of what is going to happen when we get into the stage where we dont have that like, learning something new every day and falling more in love every day.
that will be sad and im not going to like it.
we talked about that too though, and he was all like, you have to try to keep those things going, its when you stop trying that things go sour.
i dont know.
i should go take a shower and get all relaxed before this final. its the kicker.
Holla'
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