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2005 13 December :: 11.15pm
I am coming home thursday. Boyfriend on arm.
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liz
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2005 13 December :: 5.25pm
precisely
She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Going home to see her Mama and her Daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
It's been a long hard year
She had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention
She was going way to fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was sooo scared
She threw her hands up in the air
Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this all on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said I'm sorry for the way
I've been living my life
I know I've got to change
So from now on tonight
Jesus take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own
I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
To save me from this road I'm on
Oh, Jesus take the wheel
Oh, I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
From this road I'm on
Jesus take the wheel
Oh, take it, take it from me
Oh, why, oh
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liz
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2005 13 December :: 5.21pm
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
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liz
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2005 13 December :: 4.48pm
hardy har har.
today was good day.
things are good.
we are good.
too bad yall dont have face book because my photo album is kicking and growing.
i adore digital cameras.
im all about pictures all the time.
its a sony cybershot and we make videos and stuff.
thats all sorts of goodness.
alright alright i need to study up a little for the art final.
art art art. I love art.
yayers. tonight is spaghetti night.
we will throw noodles at the wall and it will be funtastic and then i will study for my math. yuckers on math.
hehe.
i couldnt be more content.
edit*
i could be better if I had a mountain dew.
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2005 12 December :: 10.24pm
the problem is that i still care about you.
I just can't take your criticism
I know that im making a lot of mistakes, but please of all people dont tell me that i should tell my parents or that im wasting my life.
you have no right to say those things considering your circumstances.
things are different now.
and yeah im different now.
ive lost a lot of confidence that i used to have
ive also gained a lot of things.
that confidence is coming back now.
losing you was like losing a piece of me and im just finally getting it back. two months later.
im sorry that you feel like our relationship should have ended like it did or that we were always wrong for each other.
i dont feel that way.
i dont feel like any moment spent with you was a wasted one.
you will always be the first person that i loved and nothing can take that away.
im jealous.
of a lot of things.
michelle still.
mostly.
its just really hard.
as much as it hurts you I do love ray.
he makes me so happy.
he pushes me to be better than i can be.
i know that sounds absurd what with me drinking and all.
i just feel better now than i have. and that flucuates, obviously.
i cant explain anything i just know that i dont want this to be the relationship that ended badly.
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liz
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2005 11 December :: 7.23pm
sooooo.
who knows how to put pictures onto these journals.
I can't figure it out because i am journally impaired.
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liz
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2005 10 December :: 11.41pm
so i just figured all my grades and what they will be with whatever finals score i happen to get.
I can fail my spanish final and still pass the class. I only have to get a 75% to get a C.
Same thing with Art.
only I have to get a 70% to get a C.
I MUST get a B on the math in order to pass, there is no way to get a C.
and the writing class is portfolio and I think I did okay on that.
I know that C's are not great but I am just happy to be passing with the way that I have been in school lately.
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joslyn_julia
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2005 10 December :: 4.25am
today's perfectly drunken statement...
my teeth feel dehydrated.
yes i said that. i thought it as i sat next to a toilet praying to god i would throw up. all that came from it was realizing i needed to eat some bread, and never drink that much rum again in my life.
finals are next week. good luck to me... i want hot ilustrious drunken sex with my boyfriend
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2005 9 December :: 10.25pm
well i just got home from work.
well it was awhile ago, cuz i took a shower and made some beef stew since then.
now im ready to just chill for awhile because it was a hard day.
and I am a hard worker.
i keep that layaway together. well as together as it can be.
I really like my job.
I can honestly say that.
i dislike terry a lot, and i have unruly customers and bad days. but i do a good job that I am proud of and i get paid well and i like most of the people i work with.
hell im moving in with three of them in the next couple of months.
jason, annie, ray and I are getting a place and that is going to be really cool and i am really excited.
I kind of want annie and jason to hook up. that would be cool. jason is really cool.
anyhow. so i like my job.
for example i slept late and was 45 minutes late and no one said anything about it.
cooleys.
mmm this beef stew is excellent by the way.
well i guess that is all of my update for the day.
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2005 8 December :: 6.08pm
"have you ever cut the grass when it's raining, you get like sweat and rain mixed in together and suddenly you crotch is like a slip and slide"
L O FREAKING L.
I heart raymond tad.
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liz
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2005 8 December :: 4.12pm
I stand corrected. I will get credit for a D. Fantabulous. Now i just have to bust because I will have to get a B on my final in order to get a D in the class.
Shooty shoot shoot.
Super study time.
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liz
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2005 8 December :: 2.39pm
GOD DAMN DAMN DAMN IT.
I hate everything but mostly myself.
grr. everything was supposed to get better.
Do you think that my studying helped at all!!
No of course not because i jerked around all the beginning of the semester and now i have to fucking take Algebra over again.
FUCK.
I can't believe that i thought that i was so smart that I could just float by and not do any work and expect to get anything out of it.
Hey you spoiled brat guess what your in the real world now and that isnt how things work.
crap.
okay thats my rant.
Now i have to think of a way to tell my parents.
I mean If I super study like i planned to anyway I can get a D but I think that if you get a D it doesn't matter because you don't get credit anyway. AM I correct in this assumption.
I emailed someone about it and I am waiting on a response now.
Shit if I can't get credit anyway than i am just going to skip the exam and focus on my other two.
shit shit shit.
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liz
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2005 7 December :: 10.31pm
i just got a check for $100 from my mom to cover the tuition that is left over.
rock on mom. I love you.
seriously made my day so much better. also i finished my portfolio. yayers.
just have to turn it in tomorrow and that signifies me finishing my first college class. it is one of the ones that I am going pass so yayers.
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liz
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2005 7 December :: 4.00pm
erk, its been quite a day.
I slept until 1:30 well i went to class at 9 but then slept more.
anyhow. ray and I went to the library and then we got in a fight because I took out brave new world and 1984 and i was talking to him about it and he got all pissed.
then said that he doesnt want to go to college because everyone is a know it all.
then i got pissed.
we fight way too much over stupid shit.
and then we got to the root of the issue, that being that he is upset because he thinks that i am too good for him and a bunch of other stuff.
it is very exasperating.
anyway.
then we went grocery shopping and now he is at work and i am going to eat some food and work on my portfolio because it is due tomorrow and i want to get a good grade.
yay for me.
I have the next two nights off. and tonight obviously.
anyhow i am going to do the english stuff tonight,
art tomorrow, math friday and a little bit of spanish every night.
and whatever i dont feel comfortable with is going to be reviewed over the weekend.
I dont know my weekend schedule yet though so we will see on that one.
laters.
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liz
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2005 6 December :: 8.31pm
It’s now been over a year and a half, and in my heart, nothing has changed. The hardest part in not “having” her is that we remain friends, with an unexplainable bond. Those days everyone has, when you just can’t smile, she has always been the one to fix it all, without trying, just by being there, and I always have the same effect on her.
When I said forever, I truly meant it, and I always will... Forever
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