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2010 15 April :: 12.00am
so i should be either doing hw or sleeping, but lacking motivation to do either... i'm online.
Ohh yeah, and happy birthday to me
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2010 6 April :: 4.54pm
is a break still a break if you are doing homework the whole time? I love the overload of work that I am expected to be doing... not. More like I am ready to rip my freaking hair out!
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2010 30 March :: 5.34pm
someday better things will come our way...
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2010 22 March :: 4.35pm
Well, i wish it would get green and warm. I feel like I am totally falling behind with everything. I am tired, sick, and have a lot to do! I wish that mike could find a job, and we could pay our bills, and that I could feel accomplished for once.
Life just feels so hectic lately, I don't know what to do.
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2010 17 March :: 4.41pm
my head is killing me... my throat hurts... i think i am generally just falling apart.
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2010 16 March :: 4.06pm
it should also be said that i seriously need to change my layout
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2010 16 March :: 3.58pm
there is something to be said for the fact that everytime i go to write on a friends wall on facebook, not only do i get distracted by looking at other wall posts but then i feel so sad after being distracted that i don't write them anything...
I would say i am crazy, but that probably isn't news
Of course it could be that part of me that wants to have people want to be around me, but whats the sense in that if they all just piss me off or let me down anyways.
I guess I should just stick to reading... at least in books I can't get hurt
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2010 9 March :: 4.06pm
i love being left out.
go me
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2009 31 December :: 2.49am
this is me being pissed.
grrr....
somedays i just don't understand why he even bothers, especially when i seem to just be a nuisance...
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2009 13 December :: 1.12pm
it would figure... i quit smoking and now my lungs are ablaze with sickness. I feel like i am dying... and finals are this week. ugh.
dont
want to
be
awake.
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2009 10 December :: 5.18pm
:: Music: Autolux- Turnstile Blues
I want to blow things up.
I am stuck in a fit of rage.
I want my husband to be home.
I want my parents to fuck off and die
I want to not have a presentation for Finals tomorrow
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I want to find peace, so i won't feel the need to yell at people.
and concentration.
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2009 10 December :: 1.12am
:: Music: Ida Maria- Nothing Sweet about Me
Ft. McCoy today... well yesterday.
I hate leaving him up there, i wanted to stuff him in the trunk and run away. I know i was the one to push for him to stay, and be paid for having his knee stuff done, but now i am fearful that I won't have him for christmas, and it will just be another empty holiday, on my own.
I miss him, i love him, and i feel empty without him.
I just want him home now. In my bed... *sigh* Hopefully in time for christmas... hopefully he will get surgery before then if he needs it and he will be home. hopefully i get through finals without doing anything stupid, or reckless, or whatever. I just need some comfort... and possibly some eternal sunshine.
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2009 8 December :: 11.42am
I wanted snow, and now it is in the way of going to visit mike. the irony these days just gets stronger and stronger.
Day trip to Navy pier after i get out of math... well, actually leave math early to catch the train ect, ect. but i will be doing a wonderful photo project on the smith collection of stained glass, and see how well we can rush about chicago, so then i won't have to worry about getting back to kenosha at like midnight. sigh....
somedays it's just fuck it all, and i want to run run run.
and i should re-do my layout on here... the damn snow patrol bit is just so old now.
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2009 7 December :: 10.23pm
Mariokart is fun
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2009 7 December :: 4.50am
a whole lotta messed up
so, i saw my man today... drove across the state when i should have been doing an essay that is due in 3 hours. It was good, at first. Then less so, and now worse. I am married and i still feel like a rag doll, that just makes me feel all sorts of fucked up. I try to be happy, and yet i still feel down... I wish i could explain it all to mike, but at this point i am not convinced it will ever matter.
just throw on a mental bandage once again, and hope that i forget... although that hasn't been working so well as of late... seeing as past bandaids are falling off and i can't help but be overwhelmed by the past. ugh.
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