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joslyn_julia

:: 2007 1 November :: 11.29am

okay so this is proof that the world is small...

my cousin alysse goes to oakland university in detroit with Samantha Huegan (i know i spelled that wrong... sorry)
Anyways, they are friends and although i never knew sam, alot of my friends did.

So that is me finding irony in life, plus my dad called because he thought i know sam.
Aside from that, i got new running shoes. I can do very short sprints and run a quarter mile before my shins really hurt, but i am workig my way up.
Attempting to quit smoking but i always have to leave room for error. But good for now.

that's it i guess.
:P

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kate

:: 2007 21 October :: 4.35am
:: Mood: Sleepy
:: Music: Bright Eyes

4am Forever
Bright Eyes concert follow up:

AMMMAAAAAAZING!!

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kate

:: 2007 19 October :: 8.57pm
:: Music: Portishead - Glory Box

Gah.
I miss everyone I've ever known.

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joslyn_julia

:: 2007 18 October :: 9.12am
:: Music: Skunk Anasie- Secretly

i feel sick,
i have had at most 3 hours of sleep, but here is the best of it, i could have fucking sstayed in kalamazoo longer because i had class cancelled until my 3 o'clock.
it sucks, fucking hauling it out of bed, feeling like shit and trying to sleep on the fucking 6:37 train all to show up by 8 am and find out no class.

On the ups, it gives me time to work on all i need to do. on the downs, i feel sick and i only have 2 ciggs.
i hate commuting. I want to go home, forever. i am sick of school.

-----edit----
and bonus!!!! not only do i have to remake a 10 page project that didn't save, I don't have my third class either.

god, today was a waste.

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joslyn_julia

:: 2007 11 October :: 11.59am

so, i am waiting for my photography class to start. I am really lonely, so i wish that i had money to venture up to carthage this weekend, but then again... well, i won't go there.
I am not looking forward to my next class. I am supposed to do a presentation, but the sidewalk is closed off to get to the class, s maybe i won't have class?!?!!
Now, i need to pull together the energy tonight and tomorrow and the next day to work out, even if i do pull 12 hour days tuesday, thursday and saturday.
Someone should visit me. I have captain morgan... hah. j/k that's mikes.
but yeah.
class.

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joslyn_julia

:: 2007 9 October :: 11.53am

one would think that i could sleep in my own apartment without a bed mate... nope, not happening, it took three attempts at sleep in the living room before i pulled myself up and over to my bed, where i half slept until my alarm went off. I really miss mike. perhaps it's just the comfort of sleeping next to someone, but i suppose it is mostly just a good thing that he is working...

to class. bah

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liz

:: 1988 1 January :: 2.11pm

so I am at school right now just dicking the time away.
I had to take the bus because my car broke down and so I borrowed one from my parents but then it broke down too. its been a bad week and now i have to go and buy books and that will be pretty damn hefty in itself. yuck on book buying.
andy and I seem to be pretty okay all things considered. we moved and our new apartment is awesome sauce.
no other news.
im going to trek it across campus to see if books are cheaper at brians. im fairly sure they are also I have three hours to kill before my next class.

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kate

:: 2007 19 August :: 1.35am
:: Music: Regina Spektor

Fotografia, Uniwersytet, Spac.
I never realized how uncomfortable this little box is to type in. It's shoved to the bottom left corner and no more than an inch and half high. The white background is pretty depressing too. I guess it's the perfect atmosphere for sappy Internet blogging.

There are a lot of things I want to do with my life. I wonder about if I'm doing them. I feel like I'm trying hard, but not making it very far. Why am I going to Alma College? I have proved that I'm a city person. I'm a street photographer. I'm going to a school with an excellent photography program.. but the school is in the middle of nowhere. In the middle of Michigan, to be exact. Not that Michigan is nothing. I have grown very fond of my state over the last year. But after living a year in Warsaw, I simply won't survive long in a small town.

It's money. It's all about money. If I had money I would drop Alma and go to study at Griffith University in Brisbane, Australia. If I had money I would buy a decent camera and photoshop. I don't have a camera right now. Can you believe that? I have this feeling of hopelessness without it.. this nothingless. When I was in the UP this weekend, my camera broke. I can't afford a new one. I want a nice one though, not just another digital camera every tourist or mom has. Sometimes I wonder who I'm kidding though. I don't know a damn thing about photoshop, about aperature or other camera technicalities. I feel like I know little more than the average photo taker. I guess that's not important though. What's important is that I take photos because I love to do it. I get frustrated, though, when I think my photo could be so much more, but my camera makes it look pixely or ruins the colors. I try to convince myself it will be better when I start college because I can get a job and save up for things like a nice camera, lenses, and I'll be taking classes to learn all of the ins and outs of photography and exercise my ability. But it's difficult to take a photography course with no camera. And it's difficult to get a camera when you owe the school $1,200 before you can even start classes and I've got less than half of that in my bank account. All I can do is rely on my parents once again, even though they can't spare the money. It only adds to the amount that I owe them. Maybe you shouldn't owe your parents, but I know they don't have much more money than I do, so I feel obligated.

I've been thinking about Poland a lot lately. I always think about Poland. Why is it that life works out in almost painfully ironic ways? My best friend is in Hungary. I know a language that will probably never help me in Alma, MI. My camera breaks a week before I start photography classes. Heh. All I can do is laugh about it. I accept that I need to work harder having circumstances like this.. most of the people I love the very most are all around the world. I will probably only see a few of them ever again, and then maybe only once more. And I know that I'm going to meet many more people that I will cherish.. and never see again. It's something I accept in traveling though.

I wish I could study in Australia. I really want that the most. I wish that the school would be more helpful to me and I wish I knew what my plan was for even the next year, let alone the next four years.

Perhaps I'm complaining. But who looks at this anyway?

God I hate money.

Justine.. you take really beautiful photographs. They make me feel everything at once.

Perhaps I should sleep. It has been a long day.

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liz

:: 2007 4 July :: 1.54am

yeah well fuck you guys then

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kate

:: 2007 28 June :: 5.01pm

Leaving Poland
COMING HOME PARTY (they say to put the important stuff first)

Yes, I'm returning to the mother land.. to the United States of America. I've been in Poland for ten months. Have you forgotten what I look like? If so, then you should come to my party and reacquaint yourself. If not, you should still come because I envy your good memory. Here are the details.

Jessica Schmidt's dad's house (on main street)
July 4th
5:30pm - pretty late because we'll be watching fireworks and celebrating

If you don't know where Jessica lives.. call her. Unfortunately I don't have her phone number. Maybe if she reads this note she will be so kind as to leave a comment with the number at which she can be reached. Orrr.. you can call me after July 1st at 696-9764.

I know it's Independence Day and you're all popular and torn between which party you're going to choose, but I hope you can at least stop by for ten minutes.

Do zobaczenia!

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joslyn_julia

:: 2007 28 May :: 11.18pm
:: Mood: dorky

RAWR!!!!
i am avoiding doing my homework because every week that it gets closer to the end of the quarter the less interested i am in being in the high rise and more interested i am in being with my sweetie.

i supose i should write this last paer though and get it doen before mike calls me on his way to work. BAH!!! i am sooo sick of stupid papers.

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liz

:: 2007 23 May :: 8.12pm

"Into The Ocean"

I'm just a normal boy
That sank when I fell overboard
My ship would leave the country
But I'd rather swim ashore

Without a life vest I'd be stuck again
Wish I was much more masculine
Maybe then I could learn to swim
Like 'fourteen miles away'

Now floating up and down
I spin, colliding into sound
Like whales beneath me diving down
I'm sinking to the bottom of my
Everything that freaks me out
The lighthouse beam has just run out
I'm cold as cold as cold can be
be

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion... yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down

Where is the coastguard
I keep looking each direction
For a spotlight, give me something
I need something for protection
Maybe flotsam junk will do just fine
the jetsam sunk, I'm left behind
I'm treading for my life believe me
(How can I keep up this breathing)

Not knowing how to think
I scream aloud, begin to sink
My legs and arms are broken down
With envy for the solid ground
I'm reaching for the life within me
How can one man stop his ending
I thought of just your face
Relaxed, and floated into space

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion... yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Now waking to the sun
I calculate what I had done
Like jumping from the bow (yeah)
Just to prove that I knew how (yeah)
It's midnight's late reminder of
The loss of her, the one I love
My will to quickly end it all
Set front row in my need to fall

Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
into the ocean...end it all

[Zayra]
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion (yeah)
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(In to space)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(I thought of just your face)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)

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joslyn_julia

:: 2007 22 May :: 12.36am

in the word's of avril.... "I'm the mother fucking princess!"

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joslyn_julia

:: 2007 20 May :: 10.46pm

i felt like shit... i do feel like shit.
but then i watched the music video on jackie's wall and it made me feel better.

but i still feel horrible and i want to fucking get drunk so i don't have to feel anything.

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joslyn_julia

:: 2007 14 May :: 9.23pm

little to my roommates knowledge... we are having an R.A. and a mediator come over so this post-it bull shit will stop...

TONIGHT!!!

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