The trouble with love is it can tear you up inside. make your heart believe a lie. make you strong and then you'll cry.

Love can be a many splendid thing,
Can't deny the joy it brings,
A dozen roses, Diamond rings,
Dreams for sale and fairy tales.

It'll make you hear a symphony,
and you just want the world to see,
but like a drug that makes you blind...
...it'll fool you everytime.

The trouble with love is...
It can tear you up inside,
Make your heart believe a lie,
It's stronger than your pride.

The trouble with love is...
It doesn't care how fast you fall,
and you can't refuse the call,
So you've got no say at all.

Now I was once a fool, it's true.
I played the game by all the rules,
but now my world's a deeper blue,
I'm sadder, but I'm wiser too.

I swore I'd never love again,
I swore my heart would never mend,
Said love wasn't worth the pain,
but then I hear it call my name.

The trouble with love is...
It can tear you up inside,
Make your heart believe a lie,
It's stronger than your pride.

The trouble with love is...
It doesn't care how fast you fall,
and you can't refuse the call,
So you've got no say at all.

Everytime I turn around,
I think I've got it all figured out.
My heart keeps on callin',
and I keep on fallin'.. over and over again.
This set story always ends the same,
Me standin' in the pourin' rain.
It seems no matter what I do,
It tears my heart in two.

The trouble with love is...
It can tear you up inside,
Make your heart believe a lie,
It's stronger than your pride.

The trouble with love is...
It doesn't care how fast you fall,
and you can't refuse the call,
So you've got no say at all.

Haha, sorry I was singin'.
Anyways.. the last time I updated was last Wednesday because I'm too damn lazy.
...and I don't even remember what I did.

I haven't gone tanning since like Thursday.
...but anyways.
Uh, after school on Friday I went to Cody's house. We chilled and then we went to Toby's house for a little bit. Toby and Leah were going out, so me and Cody went back to his house.
I can't really remember what we did.
I think we ended up just chillin' for a while and then Shaun and Justin came over and we chilled and then they left.

On Saturday, Toby and Leah came over when Cody was cooking me breakfast and Cody took me home and Leah and Toby followed him. My dad picked me up at like 3:00, and I slept over there.

I'm gonna go find something to do.. i'll update later.

"I have myself to blame for the state I'm in today, and now dying doesn't seem so cruel"

Well, today is Tuesday, and it's about 10:00pm right now.

Here's what's been on the agenda:

Yesterday (Monday), I went to school, and right after school I had an interview at 4:00 at Subway.
It seemed to go really well. I talked to two people; the first one was a man, the second, a lady. The guy was really nice and friendly to me, but the lady made me kinda nervous at first.. and then as the interview went on she got nicer, and she told me all this dumb shit about how she just learned how to get to Wal*Mart from Subway. (She's from Uniontown.)
The lady told me they would talk to eachother and decide if I was right for the job.

After that, I went tanning, and then I went home and got ready for Cody's volleyball game. I went there and watched him play JV and then sat with him and watched Varsity play. Him and Shaun didn't get to play Varsity because they missed a bunch of practice.

After that, I went to the cemetary with Cody, Shaun and Stoner, and then Shaun took Stoner home... before droppign me and Cody off at Cody's house.
Cody's mom took me home at about 10:45, and I got home around 11:00 or something. I went right to sleep.

Today: I went to school and had a good day (surprisingly), and then I went right home so I could go to tanning at 3:30. After my tanning appointment, I got ready and went to Cody's volleyball game. They won JV and Varsity, and after the game I came home... so.. now I'm bored, and now I'm gonna go to sleep. Night.

I am so peaceful right now.
Today is Sunday, and I definitely was pleased with my weekend. It was long and wonderful.. and I had so much fun every minute.

On Friday after I last wrote, I took $130 dollars out of my bank account.
I went tanning at Bill's, and then I went up to BP with my mom so we could check oout "Wild Tanz" and that place is SO nice. It's definitely bomb. I got a month session there and it's awesome and the beds are so nice, I'm just so excited. They had a special going until April 30th, where there's $10 off of a monthly thing. I only paid $30 and I'm so excited.

After that, I waited around the house until my mom finally took me to Leah's where I met Leah and Jenna. We all went to Jenna's house and that's where I stayed all weekend. Every ngiht was the exact same thing.

On Friday, Jenna had a little party and everyone was drinking and I don't drink, so I was somewhat designated, and I cleaned up after everyone all night. It was LOADS of fun. They did make me drink 2 beers but it was in like 3 hours. At the very beginning, Leah spilled beer all over me, so I had to change... and then I cleaned up beer about 239847235 more times. It was me, Jenna, Leah, Kelli, Tiffany, Teska, Earl, and then some of Kelli's friends came over. No, seriously though, I did have fun with everyone. Teska and Earl had me cracking up all night, and Jenna was so totally smashed that she had me in tears constantly. It sucked that Tiffany had to leave at like 11:00.. we all missed her.
Kelli and her friends left, and then Earl and Teska left, and then Leah slept in Jenna's room, Jenna slept in her mom's room and i slept on the couch. Well.. actually.. me and Leah had to put Jenna to bed because she was hammered. She was so funny though.

Funniest highlights of that night:
***We're all sitting at the table, and Earl and Teska were making me put their beers in the freezer because they weren't cold enough. Seeing this, Jenna decides her beer is too warm too, so she gets up from the table, walks to the kitchen, and puts her beer in the fridge. She comes back and sits down and looks at the table and is like, "Dude, where the fuck did my fucking beer go?!" I'm like, "Jenna.. you just put it in the freezer." and she's like, "I did??".. and she walked up to the freezer, took it out, and sat back down.

***We're all sitting around the table with scissors. Earl and Jenna are telling eachother to cut their hair. Earl tells Jenna to cut her hair. Jenna tells Earl to cut his hair. Jenna takes a piece of hair and holds the scissors up to it. Earl-"You wouldn't." Jenna snips it. Earl cuts a piece of his and lays it next to hers on the table. I reach over, grab the scissors, take my ponytail and cut about an inch off. Everyone's faces are all Ctrl+5'd (from AOL)... and everyone is staring at me. Kelli takes the scissors and cuts her hair. She passes them to Leah who cuts hers, and then Leah passes the scissors onto Teska who reluctantly cuts a small peice off of his, after declaring that he "doesn't appreciate the peer pressure."
Oh, and.. by the way... if you went to an open IM box and pressed Ctrl+5 to see what face showed up.. you're so dumb, adn that's so sad. And, if you're one of those people who knew what face that was without checking--that's even more sad.

Saturday: (Yesterday) We all wake up and get showers and shit and we're all sitting around. Tiffany, Earl, and Teska come over. Earl's lip is all fucked up, because when he went to ride his bike home last night.. eh tripped over it.. and his face definitely smashed off the road. But besides that, we all sit and chill. Then it started all over again, except we weren't drinking. We all had so much fun. At one point, we were all sitting there and Jenna's like, "How do they do it?! How do they make the candy into different Easter shapes??" and I'm like, "well, gee Jenna, don't you know?" Jenna says, "No.. not really.. do you??" and I'm like, "Yeah.. you don't watch Mr. Rodgers??" and Earl is like "That just answered a lot of questions I had about you. I've just realized.. you really remind me of Mr. Rodgers, you're always talking like him and shit."... Me, Jenna, Leah, Earl, Teska, and Jarrod all just pretty much sat around 'til like 2:00. Cody and Toby were there for a while, and I was having fun... but then Cody kept asking me to sleep over, and I couldn't.. and he was getting mad. When he was about to leave, I walked him otuside, and we got in a big fight about me not sleeping over. Leah was there and flipped out on him. She went in the house and got Jenna. I was standing there crying and Cody was flipping out. Jenna told Cody off and him and Toby left. Earl and Teska left. Jarrod went to bed. Leah slept on the big couch, and I slept on the little one.

This morning, we all woke up and chilled for a little bit, and then Betty made breakfast. Leah went with Toby and I chilled with Jenn, Jarrod, and Jenna all day. I sat outside with Jenna for a while and got some sun. (Key word=some.) Jenn braided Jenna's hair a little bit, adn then Jenna decided she didn't like it. We watched a little bit of 'Blow'. Me and Jenn watched 50 Southern Stars on VH1 for a little bit while Jenna slept. Jarrod and Jenn took me home... and here I am.

I'll update tomorrow.

So.. today is the 8th, and I haven't wrote since the 2nd. It's time for some updatage.

Last Saturday, huh? Well... what have I been doing this past week?

I don't remember Sunday the 3rd.

Monday the 4th: First day back to school, sucks--always. After school I probably did some chillage. I don't really remember at all.

Tuesday the 5th: PSSA testing, biznatch!!! (P.S. Biznatch is the new word.) I did some PSSA testing [bullshitted my way through some short-answer questions and created images with colored bubbles], didn't have a ride home, so I stayed and did shi-at the rest of the day.

Wednesday the 6th: PSSA testing again, biznatch!!! I did some PSSA testing [bullshitted my way through some short-answer questions and created images with colored bubbles], and then right before lunch I walked the fuck out. Haha, right out the front doors. Brandon (Lucy/Sandy) dropped me, Kelli, Leah, and Jenevieve to Jenevieve's house. We chilled... we did nothing much... chilled some. Haha, how about.. it was real nice outside, right? We decide to go for a walk. So.. we walk to the front entrance of the cemetary. We take a walk in the woods and chill on soem sort of platform thing.

(We're all sitting in the woods... surrounded by trees)
Jenna-"I see a squirrel!"
Kelli, Leah, and I in unison-"Where?!"
Jenna-"I am not even going to begin to tell you which tree it's on"
Me-"Try."
Jenna-"It's the one that's leaning a little to the right and it's kinda brown"
Leah-"You mean.. every single tree in front of us?"
Kelli-"Is it kinda dead?"
Me and Jenna-"They're all dead..."
Leah-"I think I see it, is it that tree right there?" (points out to the hundreds of trees)

...we sat in the woods for QUITE some time, cracking up about those trees. For some reason, it's just not that funny right now.

So.. we were walking out of the cemetary.
Jenna-"Guys.. where we going?"
Me-"Dairy Queen."
(We never had any intentions or plans on going to Dairy Queen, I just rreally wanted to go.)
After a couple more, "Where are we going?"s, and some more, "Dairy Queen"s, we got there.
We walk in Dairy Queen, and we're all fucking laughing and deciding what to get. It's only like 12:00PM right now, we still have all day. So.. we decide what we're going to get.

Ok, so picture this.. we're all out of it. The lady makes Leah's blizzard, and walks over to the counter.. (this all happened in slow motion.. so try to imagine it like that.. in slow motion and all.) She is holding Leah's blizzard, and then when Leah is about to grab it, the lady hands it to her upside-down, smiling.
Take a minute to let this sink in.
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We're all hot. We just walked to Dairy Queen from Jenna's house. We're all pretty out of it... and this lady.. we could SWEAR.. because we all saw it.. handed Leah her blizzard upside-down.
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So, you know Jenna. She's a bitch, and she tells it like it is, she don't really give a fuck. She looks at this lady with her Jenna face and says, "Umm.. excuse me... you just handed her that blizzard upside-down."
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Then the other lady hands us the other two upside-down.
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The first lady says, "Oh, I know, my boss is sitting right there.. I had to do that, he wants us to hand them to the customers upside-down to show that they are so deliciously thick that they won't pour out."
...So.. we all crack up. Yeah, we definitely laugh our asses off.

We're all stting in Dairy Queen and we're chowing down our ice creams.. suddenly... we all tweek out. We can't stop laughing. By this time, there are a lot of people in Dairy Queen, and they're all looking at us. So we left.

We walked to Jenna's house, and I had this great idea to walk alopng the side of the cemetary on the outside of the fence to get to Jenna's instead of walking up the bigass hill.
So.. we're walking along, and then all of a sudden.. we notice we're on the INSIDE of the fence. There's no openings. We're stuck. We had to climb the fence.. except none of us could climb the fence except Jenna. So.. Jenna's standing on the outside, we're on the inside, and we're attempting to climb over. Making many, many failed attempts. At one point, I even tried squeezing under the fence.. but that was definitely not happening.
So.. I ran. I ran all the way to the front entrance and then spotted a water hose like 50 yards away, so I ran there.. and then I ran all the way to Jenna'a house. It was exhilerating.. but tiring, and I gave myself cramps.

We chilled the rest of the day. Tiffany, Teska, and Earl came over and we chilled with them. Everyone went home, and Jenna took a nap, and I got home about 11:30.

Thursday the 7th: (Yesterday) PSSA testing again, biznatch!!! I did some PSSA testing [bullshitted my way through some short-answer questions and created images with colored bubbles], and then right before lunch I walked the fuck out. Haha, right out the front doors. Jenna drove soem girl home, and then she took me, Nicole Bakosh, Kelli, and Leah home with her. We all talked and chilled and it was nice. Everyone left. First Kelli and Nicole went home and then when Me, Leah, and Jenna went to pick up Jenna's mom, we dropped Leah off. Tiffany, Teska, adn Earl came over and we all chilled for a while and then Kelli and Dewey dropped her kitten off so Jenna can baby-sit it for the night.
Me, Jenna, Tiffany, Teska, and Earl sat in Jenna's room and played with the cat. Hehe--I fed it cat nip and it went crazy. *innocent face*

They all went with Jenna to take me home.

Jenna-(to them, not me) "Hey.. I'll drop you guys off when I take Lisa home."
Tiffany-"Okay, well we'll go now then."
Jenna-"Well.. do you want to come with me on a road trip?"
Tiffany-"uhh...??"
Jenna-"It's a road trip to take Lisa home... but you can come with me if you want."
Tiffany-"Yeah, sure."
Lisa-(To Tiffany) "Are you just allowed to show up sometime tomorrow?"
Tiffany-"What?"
Lisa-"Will your mom be mad if you just show up tomorrow afternoon?"
Tiffany-"What are you talking about?"
Lisa-"Well.. I mean.. I live in Nebraska, but if you guys are cool with it.. that's cool."
...everyone's just like 'what the fuck?'...
So.. we're driving down the road.. to my house.
Teska-"Where do you live???"
Lisa-"I told you.. Kentucky."
..everyone laughs...
Jenna-"Actually.. you said Nebraska."
Lisa-"Yeah.. but you have to go through Kentucky to get to Nebraska."
Teska-"No you don't."

I went home and went to sleep.

Today.. Friday the 8th: I went to school. Bummed, because the PSSAs were over. I had an easy day and didn't do anything. Cody wasn't there, because he was sick.
I came home after school and here I am. I'm going to the bank right now and then going tanning, so.. hit me up.

Well, I just got home and the time is now 11:24.
Since I last wrote, which was Tuesday, this has been my agenda:

Wednesday the 30th: I went to school and I can't even remember what I did after. I probably went home with Leah and Toby and her mom to get her mouth brace tightened and then Leah's mom took us all out to get ice cream. Mmm.. and then um.. I can't really remember but I think I got in a fight with Cody because he whipped a basketball at my leg and made me cry... all because I didn't say hi to him when he walked up to Leah's house, because he said "fuck" and Leah was like, "Dude, my mom's in there and the door's open, can you like.. not say that?" and he was like, "i don't give a fuck, what's she gonna do? beat me up?".. and I thought that was real rude.
So...I hung out with Leah and Toby all that day.

Thursday the 31st: I went to school, and after school I stayed for detention with Toby and then Toby's mom picked us up (me, leah, and toby), and we all went to Toby's house. Cody came over and apologized to Leah and they talked a while.. and then we all sat on Toby's porch, and then we watched Super Troopers, and then we all ate dinner. (Toby's mom made really good chicken and noodles.) A little bit later we all went home.

Friday the 1st: (Yesterday) I went to school and then I went home with Cody and then Leah and Toby picked us up, and dropped me and Leah off at her house. I helped her clean her room, and then the boys came over and we went to Toby's. We went and chilled under the garage up the street after we all had snowcones at Toby's house. It was really gross because Brandon threw up. I slept over Leah's, and Cody slept over Toby's.

Saturday the 2nd: (Today) Ugh!!! After desperate attempts to stay asleep, because my phone kept ringing, me and Leah finally got up because Greg was knocking on her front door at like 11:30 in the morning looking for Toby!!! Grr!!! So...we woke up, at cereal, took showers, and then went downstairs to help her mom pack up the dining room. Toby and Cody came over adn we all spent the morning packing everything in the dining room up in boxes, because Leah's sister and brother-in-law are moving in, and the dining room is going to be a bedroom. So.. after we were all done, we took Cody to his house to get ready, and then Toby went to his house to get ready, and me and Leah stayed at her house and did our hair and make up, and changed our clothes.
The plan was to go to dinner and then a movie. We were going to drive past the movie theatre to see what was playing, and then go get dinner in the time that we had until our movie started.
Well, we get to the movies and it is PACKED!!! There was no way we were going to be able to see a movie. So.. we decided to just go get dinner. So... we're driving down 51.. and we keep on driving. No one knows what they want to eat. So.. finally.. we're in Pittsburgh, so we're like, "Okay, well let's all just go eat in Pittsburgh." So.. we're driving through Pittsburgh trying to decided where we want to eat, and Leah suggests the Spaghetti Warehouse. So.. we go to the Spaghetti Warehouse, and our waitress sounds like a guy. Of course cody and toby HAVE to mock her, because.. well.. they had to.
So, me and Leah spend all our time like, "Guys! Shh!!! Stop It! right now!! You're embarassing!!! Shhh..." We all ate bread and got our drinks, and then mine had soemthing floating in it, so I made Leah tell her to get a new one, because I didn't want to. So, Leah tells her to get me a new drink, and it took like 25 minutes for the drink to come back.
So.. we all order, and our soups and salads arrive. Me and Cody got Wedding Soup and Leah and Toby got salads. A little bit later, our dinner comes. I ordered Spaghetti and Meatballs, Cody & Toby ordered Chicken Marsala, and Leah ordered Chicken Parm. They were all soo good. So.. we ate and then left.
On the way home we saw Brumley, but we didn't stop, we just kept on going... and then we saw a couple other people that we knew. They were standing on the sidewalks and shit waiting to get in clubs.

So.. we're driving down the road and I'm looking out the window, dazing off and we stop at a red light. All of a sudden my heart stops, and I am puzzled. "Um, guys..." I say, trying to keep calm and not freak out, "..there's.. no driver in this car..." The car next to us didn't have anyone in the driver's seat!!! ...Leah responds, "Lisa.... uhh.. that cars parked." Yeah, I felt dumb.

So anyways, we go back to Leah's house so I can get my purse and shit, and then they drop us off at Cody's sisters. Cody helps her get her car started, because she neeeded to go somewhere, and then she drove me home.

I am on Liz's computer right now, and she's probably not too thrilled about that...

Soo.. since the last time I wrote, whcih was the night before Easter.. here is my update.

I woke up for Easter at like 11:00, and I was lke, "SHIT!," because I didn't get to go to church. So I go upstairs, and my mom says she woke up super late because of how late everyone was up last night, so instead of waking everyone up, she just hurried up and got ready and only her and Shawn went. I wouldn't have made it anyway, I had to take a shower... but I still wish I would've went.

Easter was alright, I sat around and ate a little bit of candy, and then I took a shower, dropped my mom off at my grandma's and went back home to get ready, and then drove me and Liz down.
I ate a ham sandwich and some DELICIOUS cake my mom made. (Mmm, it was so moist.) And then I went to Cody's.
I watched the basketball game with him, and played a little bit with Kaleigh, and then when his grandma got there, we all ate dinner. Me, Cody, Stacy, Kaleigh, and Cody's grandma. Cody's mom made stuffed grape leaves and they were so gross.. they were sour! I guess I don't like grape leaves. Cody didn't like them either. I didn't even liek the stuff they were stuffed with. The cheese and broccoli was good, though.
After dinner, Amber came over, and we all just hung out, and then Cody's grandma took me and Cody to Fayette City when she went home. We went to Toby's house and hung out there a little bit. I talked to Toby's mom and little sister, like I always do when I go there.
Then we all put on hoodies and walked to Mike Carr's house, and hung out there a little bit.
My mom picked me up there, and we dropped Cody off and I went home.

On Monday, which was yesterday, I woke up and got all ready, because I was going to meet Cody and Shaun at the school and go home with Cody. Well, I lost track of time, and I was late, and they left without me, *sad face*, but anyways... when Cody got home, his sister, Amber, picked me up at my house, and she dropped us off at Mike Carr's house. We sat in there for a little bit, and then Toby came over. We just chilled in Mike's house all day, and then his parents left and me and Cody ate some delicious potato salad.. I didn't eat too much, because after too much potato salad, my stomach gets mad.
Mike's mom took me home at about 11:00pm.

Today, Cody has volleyball, and I'm like really bored, and I don't have anything to do. *sad face* We have school tomorrow--I'm so upset, I hate school!!!

Well, there's 16 days until I get my license, if I pass.. that is. I really hope I pass, but I don't know how to parallel park... uh-oh. That's okay, I think I can learn in two weeks... if anyone would TAKE ME DRIVING!!!! ..But nooone ever does.. they hate me!!!
I am taking my test in my aunt's car though, because I will definitely not be able tot ake it in mine, since it's a 5 speed.

Anyways.. I guess I'm gonna go.

Oh.. by the way.. over the break, like on Thursday or something--I got my cell phone back. I just don't have text messages.. but.. feel free to call me for whatever.

Last night, it was about 1:00 in the morning, and I'm just chillin' in my room, checking my e-mail, updating my woohu and myspace and shit. All of a sudden I heard this incredibly loud *BOOM*. It came from outside and down the highway. Then, I heard all the doors in the house opening and closing, and people running around upstairs.

I walk out of my bedroom, holding a cheese grater (okay, shut up, i know, i know, "what was i going to do? grate a robber's face?" but it was the only thing i could find that would do any damage at all), and i heard someone come in from the door and run upstairs. So, I'm all freaked out, and I run upsatirs, and Pete and Shawn are standing at the window in the living room, looking out onto the highway. They told me there was a wreck.
I got on my shoes and coat, and met my mother at the bottom of my driveway, where the wreck was.

Apparently, some girl in a cavalier was coming down the highway, with her boyfriend following. All of a sudden, there was a car coming up the highway in the wrong direction, and hits the girl head on. The girl was standing there, shook up, but alright, and her face was bloody. The other car, the one that was coming up the one-way highway in the wrong direction, was back about 100 feet, and over the side of the highway.
My mom said she looked out the window, to see what the sound was, and she could hear a man yelling, "HELP ME!!! PLEASE! SOMEONE HELP ME!", and so she called 911.
When the firefighters got there, they hadn't even seen the car with two men trapped inside, off the side of the highway, my mom went down to tell them.
They were all drinking.
The girl and her boyfriend, who was following her, were from Washington, and they were coming home from Murph's Pub, which is just a couple yards back in the other direction.
The two guys that were trapped in the other car were completely hammered, and both cars were completely totalled, and the one with the two guys in it didn't even have a front end anymore.. it was all just one big mesh.

I let the girl and her boyfriend use my cell phone to call home, and we brought her down tissues.

Today's a good day.
Okay, well, the last time I wrote was Monday, March 14th. That was a long time ago, and I don't feel liek remembering that much.

I CAN tell you that on Thursday, March 17th, Saint Patrick's Day, I went to Jenevieve's house after school and we all threw a party for her mom. It was pretty cool. Me and Jenna had school in the morning, but we still stayed up til like 2:00 in the morning with everyone.
School the next day blew. As usual... and even more so for one who is workin' off of about 9 hours of sleep.

So.. umm.. I can also tell you that that next day, I went home with Leah after school and we met up with Toby and Cody... I slept over Leah's house, and on Saturday we met up with Toby and Cody (who slept over Toby's house). We went and chilled with.. what's that kid's name? Mike Carr? Yeah.. we were there for a second, and then we went back to Toby's... where I realized I forgot my purse.. So.. we took the car and drove back and Toby got my purse, and then we went for a ride, and then we went and chilled back at toby's... i think.
Toby took me home after that... After we all sat in the first room with all the lights off and called eachother stupid naems. To Cody, everything was "keerkee".. and then he staretd calling ME keerkee, and then I would get all mad, so everyone started calling me keerkee.. and then I just gave in, so uhm. yeah. i guess my new name is keerkee to them all now. haha they're so gay.

So on Sunday, I woke up at like 1:00pm and Toby picked me up and dropped me off at Cody's, after i tried stopping in the bank to see if I could cash my check. Well.. it didn't work, because the lady at the bank wouldn't cash my check without photo ID and I dont have one.. soo.. I got all pissed off, and I ended up telling my mom I want to take all my money out of there. That bank pisses me off.

So.. me and Cody chilled at his house for a while. We slept until like 6:00, and then walked to Crystal's house. Mmmm.. we ate some pizza hut and it was so bomb. I love Pizza Hut pizza, its so great. I can just image it now. It's so thick and fluffy, and the cheese is so great. Mmm.. you know I'm making you want one now that you've read this.

So yesterday.. which was the next day, and happens to be Monday. I didn't do anything. I went tos chool.. walked halfway home until Pete picked me up, and then I chilled for a while... I can't really remember what I did.
I think I may have taken a long ass shower and just max relaxed.. I don't really remember going anywhere though.

Today, I woke up for school and put on some blue sweatpants and a blue t-shirt. I went to school and it was gay. I took a test in Spanish that I probably failed because I suck and I'm dumb.
I ate a salad for lunch. It's not that i don't like turkey dinner, I just.. ordered a salad... it was peer pressure. It sounded so good at the time. Well, acually, I can't say that.. it was good.

I came home from school and I cleaned my room. I waited until like 10 'til 5:00, when Cody and Shaun gave me a calll. They picked me up, and we went and picked up Justin Marish. We drove around and then they took me to this crazy house, where everyone was carrying on like 4 conversations, and they were sooo funny.. and it was just insane.
After that, we went to Johnny's house and I watched them play poker. That was pretty crazy.. because one minute Bub would have like 5 chips, and then hed end up with like 20 more.
Shaun took me home at like quarter after 10:00.. and I started typing this dumb thing after I ate some beef stuff and noodles that my mom made. It was sooo good.

School sucked so hard... I hate it. I hate it with a passion.
I begged my mom not to make me go, but she has no heart, she didn't care. I was crying like, "mom, please!! please don't make me go! the kids there make fun of me. they call me fat, ugly, and stupid, and throw things in my hair! please!! cody won't even be there to make them stop!! i wouldn't make you go! please!" and she was like "go to school, you ugly, fat, stupid girl!!!!!"

I don't know what I'm going to do all day. I am burning Rich a CD as of right now. I wish Cody would come over and watch "The Notebook" with me. I never got to see it yet. We bought it the day it came out, but then Rich's girlfriend took it, and just brought it back last night. I rrreaally want to watch it, but I don't want to watch it by myself. Where are you, Cody?!

Okay, well, the update for today sucks not even half as bad as the school day did, so don't complain, bitches!

Oh, and leave a comment or something! I'm even asking for your two cents... I mean, it even says, "click here to put in your two cents."

So today I'm chillin' at my house all by myself.
I watch a little G.I. Jane and then A Few Good Men.
Then Cody randomly comes over after the Navy guy dropped him off.
He had another meeting with some Navy guys.. I really hope he deosn't go.

He stayed for liek 15 minutes and then he left, because Opie called and said he was coming to pick him up. He asked if I wanted to go, but I said no, considering I would have had to take a shower, get all ready, adn there were no tampons.

I haven't done anything all day.

Does anyone read this? Could you please comment here and there about something?

yeah i just got home from school

Yesterday, after school, I rode Cody's bus home and then went to his house and schooled him in some MX Unleashed, because we both know I rock at that game. *wink wink* Haha, he just won't admit it.
I took a nap, and then he had to get ready for Brandon's mom's funeral.. and I didn't have anything to wear, plus my mom was going to be there in 5 minutes to pick me up.. so I went home.

A couple hours later, Cody called me from Leah's phone and asked me if I wanted to go out to eat. I said yes.. so he told me to get ready and they'd be here in 20 minutes... so that's what I did.

They came over and picked me up.. and we went on our journey.

At first, we were going to eat at Denny's, and for some reason decided not to??
So we drove into McDonald's parking lot... drove up to the drive-thru and right before we got to the speaker, we all decided what we were going to get, so as soon as Toby drove up to the speaker, everyone was yellign and screaming and it was a mess...

Leah-"I want a double chesseburger meal thing.. ask if they have it"
Toby-"They don't"
Leah-"Ask them!"
Toby-"No!! They don't have it.. they only have what's on the screen!"
Leah-"The other McDonald's did!!! Ask!!!"
Toby-"No!!! That was at the stupid McDonald's!!!!"
Leah-"Ask them!"
Toby"-"No!!!"
Leah-"Ask them!"
Toby-"No!!!"
(All this while, me and Cody are in the back seat CRACKING UP..seriously laughing our asses off)
Me-"There are people behind us!!!"
(A long line has now formed behind us)
So we're all laughing and yelling and screaming, and in the midst of it all the line behind us is getting long and then Leah says:
"Just leave!!!", "Leave!!, Leave now!!!"

Hahaha, so Toby drives away and then we sit in the parking lot cracking up, thinking about if they were listening to us--how funny would that be??

So.. we drive to Wendy's parking lot. Yeah, Wendy's!! Woohoo! We're set on Wendy's.... and then Toby's like, "they're closed."
Me-"Nooooo!!! Eat great even late! Eat great even late!!!!"
Leah-(in a chant)"Wendy's! Wendy's! Wendy's! Wendy's!"
Me-"Eat great even late! Eat great even late!"
Leah-"Wendy's! Wendy's! Wendy's! Wendy's!"

So we drive across the street to BurgerKing.
I have never ate at Burger King.. so I don't know what to get. Finally, Leah orde'rs some chicken tenders.. so I order some chicken tenders.. and realize after Cody gets his chicken sandwich, that I should have gotten a chicken sandwich--oh well, I'll learn next time.

So we eat our food, and Cody goes and gets some carmel cheesecake. So we're sitting there eating our carmel cheesecake and Cody gives a bite to Toby.. so I'm like, "it's soo good, Leah, you have to try it!" and she's like, "no thanks, I don't really liek cheesecake." So we're all like, "but it tastes liek carmel!!" and shes like, "Yeah, but I don't like carmel either." So finally we make her try it, after Toby si like poking her in the face with the fork and Cody is screaming at her to try it and I'm like, "Leah, you have to just try it.. whats the worst it can do? If you don't like it, spit it out in a napkin." So finally she tries it. She makes this disgusted face and spits it out in a napkin and we all crack up laughing at her and i'm like, "Hahahahahaha Leah!!! I can't beleive you tried that!! You're so stupid!!!! Why woudl you try a carmel cheesecake if you don't liek cheesecake and you don't liek carmel!!!??!?!?!? Hahahahaah!!!"

And then we went home. They dropped me off and then Cody and then Toby took Leah home. We all had a fun night.

As for today, we had a two hour delay and I was lovin' it, except when I got to school and they said that we had every class except they switched 4th period to go to after 6th and all this funky stuff. I don't know.. I just followed the crowd and ended up confused in the office a lot.

I came home right after school because I am going to Wal-Mart with my mom to pick up contacts, and I'm considering trying on some glasses, jsut to pick out which ones to get...although I have no money today I'll save up... and also, I'm going to put an application in Eat n Park for hostess... I really need a new job, I hope I get something.

Well, that's really about it.. I'm going to scan some pictures.

So I fixed my computer right...
Yeah.. I did.. and I'm renovating everything. I'm giving my woohu a new look.. but I jsut haven't decided on what to use for my icon.. I'll probably search for something after this little update.. we'll see.

So I gave out my invitation code... to some random chick.. oh well, no one else was gonna use it, right?

And I'm part of a new community now. Don't worry, it's just myspace. I love it, but it's not going to take away from my woohu. *smile*

My Internet hasn't been working for the longest time.. it would connect fine, no problems, except that it wouldn't let me do anything internet-related. If I tried to open Internet Explorer, it said The web page is unavailable.. like I wasn't connected. It wouldn't connect to AIM, like I wasn't even connected to the Internet or something.. nothing would work, or even give an error message, so I could try to fix the problem.. oh, except that my Libcom Web Accelerator said it couldn't load because the HTTP listening port was in use by another application. I dunno.. i called the place so many times, and every time, each new person would give me a different response.. and none of them kenw what they were talking about... they all ended up telling me to bring it into the shop with a $40 fee.. but, fuck that.. i don't have $40... so I jsut threw in the start up disk and re-did everything. I feel so fresh.

I dunno.. I blogged (I hate that word) once on myspace.. but noone commented or anything. That made me feel so lonely. I hate 0 comments.

So.. I haven't updated for like 2 months, huh?
It would be virtually impossible to update day-to-day from then, so.. in a nutshell, this is what's been up:

-Yesterday was Cody's 18th birthday. We had a little get-together, not really a party because there was only a couple of us, but just enough that we ate 2 bags of wings and some birthday cake.. oh, and played a bunch of poker.

-My car is mine. My dad (real dad--Tom) got all the registration and everything--it's all set to go, I just have to learn how to drive a standard now. It won't be too hard, I don't think, because I was already in it once.

-Winter sucks ass. I hate being cold, and I hate snow. I wish summer would just come already!

-I offically quit La Eda's. I haven't been there in a couple weeks--yeah I miss it, but oh well. It's time to find a better job, right? I have to find one quick though, because I really, really want these shoes I saw the other day.. they were so cute.. and plus, I have to save up for car insurance... tell me this isn't luck: My dad is paying half my insurance, and then my mom is paying half of whatever III have to pay... and since the car is paid for and was just a gift to me, it's not liek I have to pay for car payments or anything.

-Uhh.. I joined track. That's right, my fatass joined the track team--by myself. haha, i don't even know what made me do this, I don't liek to run... I jsut one day was down the office one day waiting for Cody to get out of Mr Z.'s office like, "hey, where would I be able to find papers for track?", and they handed me some and I turned them in..

Well... I can't really think of anything else.. if I do.. I'll update again. So until then.. so long suckas.

So today I talked to Cody on the phone all day. We both wanted him to come over, but.. he couldn't get a ride. He told me he was going to walk. I told him not to. He said (around 2:00) that he was going to try to find a ride and that he'd call me back. He never called me back. His mom called me at 2:45 looking for him. Noone knew where he was. Sarah said she saw him walk past her street on Fayette St. towards St. Sebastian when she got home from school, but she couldn't tell where he was heading.
I called so many people looking for him.
His mom asked me, "Who is April Horrell?" Me-"Um, I don't know.. why?", her-"She has been calling here an awful lot lately." me-"i don't know, I don't know any Horrell's.", her-"I know of some Horrells, is she the oldest one?", me-"I don't know, I don't know who she is...?", her-"She is from Fayette City, I think she hangs out with Josh Albaugh.".. and I'm thinking, "who the fuck is April Horrell???"
But anyways, I call Crystal and Richie answers, and when I told him I was still looking for Cody, he told me he was with Albaugh, I'm like "ohhh, how did you know that?" he's like, "Sierra Horrell.".. I'm like, "DAMN IT! I WISH I WOULD'VE KNOWN SIERRA'S LAST NAME EARLIER!!! IT WOULD'VE MADE THIS A LOT EASIER!"...
So I get Sierra's number off Crystal, call her and ask her where Cody is, "He's with Josh", me-"I already called Josh's house."
her-"well, Josh is at his aunt's, but he's not there right now, because me and Caitlin called there earlier bc we wanted to hang out with Josh, but his aunt like flipped and said he wasn't there."

She gave me the number anyways and told me to call just in case, and if I find out where Josh is to tell him to call her bc she was looking for him.

I called Josh's aunt's house and there was no answer. I called Ducci and he didn't answer so I left a voicemail.

So anyways, I jsut called him and left him a message on his answering machine not too long ago saying to call me when he got home. But I'm still sad, because I wanted to go to the movies tonight.. it's the only night he has off work, and i bet he's out drinking, which means he's not going to school tomorrow. damn it.

Well... so Thursday, I went home and did nothing, because my boyfriend had to work.

Yesterday, Friday, January 7th: I didn't go to school, and it was okay, because my mom let me stay home, and Pete doesn't count right now, becasuse he's an ass. He hasn't counted, officially, since Thursday. I know you may not know what I'm talking about, but I don't feel comfortable saying what I mean right now.

So...me and Shawn stayed home, and I helped my mom clean her house.
I talked on the phone with Cody, but then he had to go to work 4-10. He ended up working over until 11.
I really wanted to go out to eat, and me, Shawn, and my mom really wanted to get out of the house. I don't know if you know, but it's on very, very rare occasions that my family goes out to eat. The only time in the past we have gone out was, a) if we were in Maryland, b) If we suddenly got a large amount of money and were celebrating, and c) Me, Liz, and mom would go out if Pete was drunk. Soo.. we asked Liz if she wanted to come, and she said no, so it was just me, mom, and Shawn. We went to Ponderosa, and they wouldn't sing my brother happy birthday. it was so sad. :-(. I called and asked them beforehand, and they said yes, if we would have known they weren't going to do it, we would've went to Hoss's.
So anyways, we all got steak and dessert and salad and everything we could fit in our stomachs. It was great. And then we went home.
After we went home, I did nothign. I just sat around with my mom.. I had nothing to do. So.. I talked on the phone with Cody and fell asleep with my mom.
Now, being a person who used to smoke a lot of marijuana, it is strange to dream. Dreaming is pretty much a new thing for me. And it is crazy. Sometimes, I don't even want to wake up, because my dream is so interesting. And actually, that happens a lot. I've been sleeping in from school almost everyday, because at the time of my first awakening, it just seems right that my dream is more important than waking up and tending to my priorities.

Anyways. It's 12:19PM, and I have to find out what I am going to do today. Wait a second, scratch that.. I have to work. Damn. I am quitting soon anyways, look at it that way.

Anyways, I'm out. Laterr