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Jaganshi

:: 2005 28 March :: 12.48am

Lithaladhwen: For those who backlog chat.... apparently dragons could breathe fire because THEY ATE PLATINUM. Or something. And then there was fire. And hydrogen and stuff. The guy behind Animal Planet's Dragons special said so. That's how it wa
Lithaladhwen: s done.
Lithaladhwen: There's a chat transcript to prove it beyond any shadow of a doubt.
DeathRaySpleen: ...you're aware this was about 24 hours ago, right?
Lithaladhwen: The special?
Lithaladhwen: Yes.
Lithaladhwen: My parents watched it, but I am only now able to see the light. And the importance of platinum.
Lithaladhwen: Brian thinks they may have gone extinct because they ran out of platinum. ^_^
Lithaladhwen: That's why it's rare now.
Lithaladhwen: Dragons ate it.

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Jaganshi

:: 2005 26 March :: 11.17pm

Recent news.... sorry I haven't updated.

First of all... remember how my roomate moved out at the beginning of the year because she 'wanted a room to herself'? Turns out she thought I was a lesbian.
Awesome. Fucking brilliant and awesome. But at the same time.... why am I always the last to know? First, no one told me I was pregnant (my mother thought I was because strep throat was not the obvious answer... pregnancy was), and now this??


Also, the girls in the room directly below mine were singing all fancy-like. They were being jokingly operatic and it was cool. I replied and we had a sort of bizarre duel. This escalated beyond their Disney medlies and ended in me singing Der Holle Rache (the aria of The Queen of the Night in Die Zauberflote).

If any of you have heard that song... you know what happened.




Yeah. It was a lot like that.

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jaganshi

:: 2005 23 March :: 10.55pm
:: Music: Katamari Damacy OST

Oh yeah. *points to self* That's right.
Professional Assassin
PROFESSIONAL ASSASSIN: You're a pro. A soldier of
death. You have a job to do, and you do it.
Killing is your business, and business is good.


Which Type of Assassin Are You? (With Anime pics!)
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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 23 March :: 10.09pm
:: Mood: crappy

Well, I think I'm going over Jims tomorrow.. I was supposed to go tonight but I just didn't call him back, so I guess I'm not. I have a CAD project to do anyway, it's worth liike 50 points so I really need to do it. But I didn't start yet.

A picture of Gabrielle and one of myself!!Read more..

ahhh, so today Geometery was dumb, we went over PSSA problems that would be on the PSSA test and I didn't know how to do like any of them.. haha. We got this 50 page packet that's due when we go back on Wed. Uhhh.. yeahh

English we didn't do anything-- as usual. All we ever do since I've been here is sit and talk. Anyways, I'm now reading 1984 by George Orwell.

Study Hall and lunch were boring, and long.

PE I walked on the track.. I'm actually exercising and sorta watching what I eat.. I'm losing weight little by little. My goal is like 120. I weigh 145 right now; I still have a long way to go.

Accounting we had to make a Journal on Excel, but yesterday mine didn't save so I had to start all over from scratch- ahhh die.

Child Care this little girl Natelie (I think that's her name) was throwing up all over the place so we had to call her Mom to come get her.. I felt bad because she looked so miserable.

CAD we just talked about cases that were happening all over the us, the one where the husband took the feeding tube out of his wife, the other one where 2 juviniles robbed and killed an elderly lady, and another where a teenager shot up his school just a few days ago.. I really like that class.
After class Greg (cute guy!) came up to me at my locker and was like "Hey Jena, I noticed you don't talk much in class, are you shy or what?" I was like "No, I'm actually really loud I'm just new so I kinda keep to myself." Then he walked me half way to class but had to go himself. He was like "see ya later" and touched my back, whoa. Haha, I'm so dramatic. Anyways, he's really nice.

Bio we just took a test- boring!

Tomorrow I'm going to Jims hopefully. He's gonna be mad at me for not calling him all day. I hate talking on the phone anymore.

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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 22 March :: 10.18pm
:: Mood: tired

SOOOO I finially got a new computer. Well we're renting one until we move into our new house.. I'm downloading everything right now it's going like 93583094758 miles an hour because I have DSL or whatever, so that's neat.

Canon Mac is okay I guess, people are nice- I have some friends. More guys than girls.. which is suprising. But whatever.. it's cool. There are some reeeeeally cute guys here, that's for sure.

My first period is Geometry Full, then I have English 11, then study hall, lunch, gym, Accounting 1, Child Care 2, CAD [12th grade Gov. and Econ.] ohh yeah me =smart. ha then my Bio class. There is so much walking to do, but it's okay I guess. I do miss everyone from Bentworth. *hugs*

Gabrielle is getting so big. I'd post a pic, but my digi cam was in the fire and it's ruined. But she's getting so much more cute every day. Definitely.

Blah, I just hate having to walk down to the bus stop.. I have to walk down the road. I'm just not used to it. I used to get rode up to the other bus stop, that was nice. Oh well, most of the time my Mom drives me down anyways. ;)

Last weekend was fun- Gabrielle and I stayed over Jims house. Friday we just hung out, Saturday Donna, Jim, Gabrielle and I went to see Jeff. He definitely grew up, he got a little taller, put on some weight, his voice got deeper, and all around looks a lot older. He gets to come home this coming weekend for Easter.. and every other weekend after that. That's cool- I'm actually glad he's coming home.

I just read a really good book, it's called Postcards from No Mans Land by Aidan Chambers

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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 21 March :: 2.20pm

i miss all you guys from bentworth!

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jaganshi

:: 2005 19 March :: 3.23pm

Sore wa... himitsu desu.
Brian and I talk about my icon


He thinks my icon is.... something. All I know is I enjoy it and he hasn't told me to stop using it. =^.^=

Arch mage144: How would you feel if I did something like that with a picture of you?
Lithaladhwen: Depends.
Lithaladhwen: which picture would you use?
Arch mage144: ...I don't know, this is hypothetical. One that looks good.
Lithaladhwen: Would I be topless?
Arch mage144: I wouldn't share those photos.
Lithaladhwen: As long as you couldn't see anything.... and the photo was flattering... Hell I'd probably use it.
Arch mage144: *thud*
Lithaladhwen: *sparkle*
Arch mage144: You sparkle alright.
Lithaladhwen: If I had a digital camera.....
Lithaladhwen: you'd see.
Arch mage144: ...
Lithaladhwen: I would make such icons..........
Arch mage144: ...is that all you'd do with it?
Lithaladhwen: What I'd do with the camera...
Lithaladhwen: is...
Lithaladhwen: a secret.
Arch mage144: *thud*

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Jaganshi

:: 2005 19 March :: 1.17pm

I had a conversation with my Korean cab driver today about how capitalist societies like America leave poor people behind. Also about teen pregnancy, but mainly about the cost of education being overlooked in favor of faulty economic plans.

I ranted about the Establishment with a cabbie. ^_^

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jaganshi

:: 2005 18 March :: 4.16pm

Well, done with my interview now.
I don't know hot it went; I can never tell. We got along fine, but then I can get along with anyone if I really try.
So...
I guess I'll find out at the middle/end of May when I have my final interview. (This is probably why they won't hire me. My interview process is not as smooth and sexy and we would all like. They insist it's no problem, however, so I'll go with that.)

Board RP continues! I'm still excited!

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Jaganshi

:: 2005 18 March :: 12.55am

Yay! My career as a board RPer begins!

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jaganshi

:: 2005 17 March :: 12.00am

YOU PEOPLE NEED TO USE WOOHU CHAT!!!!

THE CHAT IS LONELY!!

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jaganshi

:: 2005 16 March :: 3.21pm

You scored as Chaotic Good. A Chaotic Good person is someone who has little intrinsic respect for laws or authority, seeing them as insufficient to sustain what's right. These people work according to their own moral compass which, while good, is not necessarily always aligned with that of society. Despite their chaotic tendancies, these people are good at heart.

Chaotic Good

75%

Chaotic Evil

65%

Neutral Evil

60%

Neutral Good

60%

True Neutral

55%

Lawful Neutral

45%

Chaotic Neutral

40%

Lawful Evil

40%

Lawful Good

30%

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jaganshi

:: 2005 14 March :: 11.40pm

Well, I'm feeling a lot better about this break than I was a few days ago. Friday night I was really torn up about it. But, as Spock teaches... pain is a thing of the mind. The mind can be controlled.

I applied for several summer jobs today, and will canvass the local mall tomorrow. Friday I have two more to handle. This should put me where I want to be goal-wise for apps.

I also have a new gmail account, and I do think I like it.

In RPish news, I'm finally getting around to a sketch of my latest character. (Latest to RP, but she's one of the characters I made over Christmas break, so she's been around a little while.) It's a little more anime-style than most of my other drawings, simply because it's too small to work in the amount of detail I prefer to include. At any rate, when she's finished, I'll let you guys know. It will be on my DeviantART with the others.

I'm proud of my characters. I've neatly avoided the angsty bishounen stereotype as best I can. My characters do not brood or angst if there's any way around it. Usually there is.
I'm trying to cover as many D&D alignments as possible and still roleplay the characters well. It's a little difficult to roleplay a chaotic neutral character, but once you've done lawful evil, chaotic good and true neutral, it's the logical next step.
I'm considering getting involved in at least one board RP this summer. RPGWW (my choice forum of consistent awe-inspiring RP) has pretty high standards, and I'll be interested to see where my characters fit in with the existing population.

Anyway, enough rambling about my characters I suppose. You probably don't want to hear any of the specifics. Just thought it had been a while since I'd rambled for you fine folk.

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jaganshi

:: 2005 11 March :: 10.06pm

The time before I have to go up to my parents' house is always the hardest. All I can think about is how tired I am of being lonely and separated from everything I care about. I hate that I have no choice. I have to go because I need a place to stay this summer.

But I hate it. This is the time before I've resigned myself to it, when I feel most separated from Brian... like a child locked out.


I'll sleep in our bed alone tonight. Then I won't see him tomorrow. Or the day after. I won't be able to call him either, since I don't have a calling card. I technically can't use IM.

I'm tired of being alone. I don't want it anymore. I know once I get up there I'll realize how stupid this all is, how little it all matters. Once I get home I won't be capable of hating anything.

Suffice it to say, I miss Brian and it's only been a few hours. I've gone longer without seeing him when I'm working. But at least then I knew I could go back to my room with him and that everything would be okay as long as he was there to make me happy. Now... I can't see the reason why. I'm leaving him for a week and I don't feel like I have a good reason to be so unhappy again. I don't want to go back.



Could you on this fair mountain leave to feed,
And batten on this moor?




I hate it. I hate being there, and I hate the person I have to be just so that I can stay here. I hate myself when I'm there, and there's nothing anyone can do about it. It doesn't do me any good to care.
For the next week, consider me as good as dead.
Have a lovely spring break everyone. I'll see you next Sunday. I'm leaving someone else in my place until then. She can deal with all this foolishness.

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Jaganshi

:: 2005 11 March :: 9.42pm

Dance the night away by karchan85
Name
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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 10 March :: 10.40am
:: Mood: moody

Today is my last day at Bentworth Highschool.


new house number for friends: 745-3133
and I still have my cell phone: 986-1260

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jaganshi

:: 2005 9 March :: 10.44pm

Senki is a genius.

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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 9 March :: 10.31am
:: Mood: blah

Sorry I haven't been commenting on anyones journal, I will return soon when I get a new computer because the fire trashed mine.

Awww.. I finially saw my new house with all the furniture in it.. it's really cute. I'm doing my bathroom in lime green, and my bedroom I'm not sure yet.. but the whole house is "tropical" theme, except for my bedroom/bathroom/huge closet, and my sisters bedroom. This Saturday when all my BUDS come over I hope my bestest BUD BECKY, can bring her digital camera so I can take some pictures to post them on my journal so everyone can see my house, because it's so rad.

Today is going so slow, we're only in 4th period. I'm going shopping with my Mom tonight to get some decor for my room and bathroom. Also a new crib for Gabrielle.. because her's is in the dumpster.

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Jaganshi

:: 2005 8 March :: 1.38pm

I might foam at the mouth, but just present me with some little toy, give me a cup of tea with sugar in it, and I shouldn't be at all surprised if I calmed down completely, even be deeply touched, though afterwards I should most certainly snarl at myself and be overcome with shame and suffer from insomnia for months. That's the sort of man I am.

You see, people who know how to avenge themselves and, generally, how to stand up for themselves--how do they, do you think, do it? They are, let us assume, so seized by the feeling of revenge that while that feeling lasts there is nothing but that feeling left in them. Such a man goes straight to his goal, like a mad bull, with lowerd horns, and only a stone wall perhaps will stop him. (Incidentally, before such a stone wall such people, that is to say, plain men and men of action, as a rule capitulate at once. To them a stone wall is not a challenge as it is, for instance, to us thinking men who, because we are thinking men, do nothing; it is not an excuse for turning aside, an excuse in which one of our sort does not believe himself, but of which he is always very glad. No, they capitulate in all sincerity. A stone wall exerts a sort of calming influence on them, a sort of final and morally decisive influence, and perhaps even a mystic one. . . . But of the stone wall later.) Well, that sort of plain man I consider to be the real, normal man, such as his tender mother nature herself wanted to see him when she so lovingly brought him forth upon the earth. I envy such a man with all the forces of my embittered heart. He is stupid--I am not disputing that. But perhaps the normal man should be stupid. How are you to know?

-Dostoevsky "Notes From The Underground"

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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 8 March :: 10.24am
:: Mood: apathetic

Yesterday I came to school and Mrs. Downing [guidance counsler] called me into her office.. I guess her and the other guidance counsler [I forget her name.] got me an exersaucer for Gabrielle. I was tearing up.. so I have to pick that up soon.

Girls- party at my new house this weekend.. you know who you are! Bring your sleeping bag/pillow because I don't really have any. I'll give you directions, don't worry!!

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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 7 March :: 10.11am
:: Mood: cranky

Yesterday we went down to the house to get what we could out.. we worked from 11:00 in the morning until about 7:00 at night.

All of my mom &Georges friends, and Matts friends come out.. none of our family really helped us except for my Uncle Don.

Our furniture will be in our new house today.. we're all moving in this week. New school next week.

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jaganshi

:: 2005 6 March :: 11.55pm

I need to sink my teeth into this spicy chicken sandwich before they turn around and devour my brain.

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jaganshi

:: 2005 6 March :: 11.52pm

I've been thinking... it feels good to have a planet. A good feeling of security. I like knowing I have solid rock beneath me all the time. Of course, I get creeped out when I think about the fact that that rock is floating on a magma sea. Like 'Waterworld' only instead of floating on water, everything floats on Hell. Sucks. But, on the up-side, it seems to work... so I'm all for it. Go magma!

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jaganshi

:: 2005 6 March :: 11.47pm

MALLORY!!!!

I know you read these from time to time....
If you read this entry, email me.
I know you are not a fan of the weblogs, but I need a way to harass you online more effectively. I have one invite code to give away, and if you're interested, it's yours.

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Jaganshi

:: 2005 6 March :: 8.56pm



I am a d10


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Jaganshi

:: 2005 2 March :: 9.41pm

QUIZZES
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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 2 March :: 7.36pm
:: Mood: distressed

So we've been staying at the Spring Hill Suite in Washinton by Wal*Mart for about the past week..I just came out my Aunt Loraine and Uncle Dons for the next two weeks until we can move into our new townhouse in Cannonsburg.. it's like a little community of townhouses called Southpoint or something like that- it's right by a golf course. We can actually move in this weekend.. but I told my mom that I wanted to wait another week to make sure that I was caught up in everything. So I'll be going to Cannon Mac.. I don't really want to move. Okay, I really don't want to move. But what can you do if your house catches on fire? It's a really nice house. My room will be the "loft" with a huge closet that will fit Gabrielles crib/dresser in, and my own bathroom. That is definitely awesome. Not this weekend, but next weekend- party at the new house! haha, definitely.

So everyones been giving me baby clothes, I swear Gabrielle has more clothes that anyone can imagine.. she has more clothes than what she has before- but I don't really need clothes, I need toys and a highchair.. all the expensive things. My Aunt Loraines office chipped in and gave her $100 dollars to buy a playpen/highchair.. which was really sweet. Everyones buying her clothes, and giving me some really cute used ones.. they look like brand new. I went shopping, I got a few things. Nothing will ever replace some of the clothes I had. But we're slowly getting our lives back together.

Everyones asking me "Is everything okay?" Yeah, everything's fine- I lost my house, everything in it, but yeah. Great. Lol, I guess I'd do the same thing if someone elses house caught on fire.. so I really shouldn't say anything. Already there are rumors that I'm moving to California?? Okay, no, I'm not moving to Cali. Sorry.. can't get rid of me that easily! [BECKY!] haha.

Thanks to my friends who are also helping.. you know who you are- I don't have to name names. I love you girls. I couldn't do it without you.

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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 24 February :: 2.56pm

Well, as some of you might have heard.. yes, my house did catch on fire. Everyone got out except my dog Zeus, and my bird Corona. Please pray for them, because we loved them just as much as we loved anyone in our family.

It still hurts to bring all this up, but I wanted to write it down as soon as I could, not for anyone else, but formyself.

My mom woke me up two nights ago, she turned my lights on in my room. My first thoughts before she said anything was "Oh God, she's been drinking- I'm going to KILL her for waking Gabrielle up." It was a Monday night, so I was in bed for school. I remember this all so clearly because I felt as though our lives were ending, this all happened in a few seconds but it seemed so much longer to me. My Mom started screaming "FIRE, FIRE, GET OUT OF THE HOUSE." The only thing I could think of was to get Gabrielle out of the house. I didn't think about taking anything with me, I just automaticly got my comforter off of my bed, grabbed Gabrielle and got out of the house . My Mom got my sisters, they were right behind me. It took her a few minutes to wake Anna up, she must have been in such a deep sleep. I remember as I was running through the house that George was running for the sink to get water to try to put it out, but our water was out so that idea was shot. I found out later that he also tried to find a fire extinguisher.. but couldn't. My Mom wouldn't come out of the house, she was trying to save Corona, see heres where it gets kind of messed up. I remember running out of the house, Samantha was in front of me. I told her to take Gabrielle and to go up Aunt Loraines-- but then I changed my mind and took Gabrielle back into the house. [I know, that was stupid.] I started calling for Zeus, but he didn't come.. George started screaming at me and Mom to get out of the house because the fire was really starting to get terrible and the smoke; you could hardley breathe. So I ran up my Aunt Loraines and Uncle Dons, my sisters were already up there.. then I could hear George screaming for help because my Mom wouldn't come out of the house. She was in like total shock. My uncle Don ran down to help, while I called 911. I swear to God it took them like 20 minutes to get there while I just watched my house go up in flames. In all that time my Mom was screaming and making it worse for my little sisters, especially Anna. Gabrielle was up, but she was laying in my Aunt Loraines room. I just kept saying that everything would be okay, and the animals were doing great. But it never really sank in that the house was on fire until I saw the flames that came out of the roof. I just started crying. I cried for about 10 minutes straight. Jim showed up about 4:00 AM. [This all started at 3:00 AM] I just cried on his shoulder for a couple minutes. Our house was just going up in flames, the fire fighters couldn't even get through the front door because of all the smoke. It took them about an hour to just get the fire under control, and even when they did leave, people just kept coming and coming. We had the parametics check everyone out, everyone was okay. Then Red Cross came, and they gave us $680 for clothes, $500 for food and until Monday we have 2 rooms at the Red Roof Inn [where I'm at now.] Jim left around 7:30 AM.. I tried to sleep but in the end I just kept remembering everything and it just like haunted me. Around 8:00 my Mom and I went down to look at the house. Oh my God. You can't even image how much damage is actually done. The fire started in our back computer/office room. It was an electrical problem that started the fire. In the end we lost everything in the computer/office room, everything in our laundry room [which included almost all of my Mom, Georges, Sam and Annas clothes] our dog Zeus, our bird Corona, and everything else in the house is basicly ruined because of smoke damage.. I can't use anything of Gabrielles because the smoke/ashes are toxic to babies. All of my clothes are ruined to unless we get them dry cleaned- which isn't worth it. All my purses, coats, hats, scarves, boyyds bear collection, basicly like I said everything we can't use. We are going back to the house tomorrow to salvage what we can.. which will be very limited. But already people are giving money, clothes, food to us to help us out. We've been here for a day now.. I don't know when I'm going back to school. Hopefully never. It's to depressing.. I don't even have anything anymore. I have nothing.

I'll update when I can.. I'm on the laptop that George brought in from the Sand Bar, so I won't be online.
The number for my room: 228.5750 EXT. 227

Thank you to the fire fighters who risked their lives to save our house, the parametics who made sure we were okay, Red Cross who gave us money for clothes, food, and somewhere to stay, my Mom and Georges friends Tom &Mary Lou and Terry &Karen, Annas Girl Scout leaders Kelly &Kristy, Jim and his mom Donna and our whole family.. we couldn't do it without you.

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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 22 February :: 7.00pm
:: Mood: bored

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think Im happy but Im not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You dont know what its like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when your down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no ones there to save you
No you dont know what its like
Welcome to my life


Uhhhhhh.. welcome to everybodys life.

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xxinterrupted

:: 2005 21 February :: 11.00pm
:: Mood: bitchy
:: Music: petey pablo - raise uppppp

Well, I really just have 2 things to say in this entry.

1. I do not think it is fair to people like me, that everyone takes things out of my AIM info. I do not do it to you, so I expect the same respect.

2. It bothers me that people can't make their own layout for their journal. I guess I just like the fact that I am creative enough to think of the ones that I do. No, I'm not trying to say that I'm better than anyone- I know a lot of people who do much better layouts in their journals. But it just bothers me that some people just copy/paste pre-made layouts into their journals.

Okay, that's all. Good night.

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