am i correct to defend the fist that holds this pen?

:: 2004 20 January :: 10.18pm
:: Mood: confused

We can live like Jack and Sally if we want, and have Halloween on Christmas..
Dont get involved in politics.
Its all rather confusing, really. Here's the deal. i just got done watching the last 10 minutes of Bush talking. this is an overview that i have summed up to the best of my ability...
Ok, Bush wants to spend lots of money to help these prisoners that are being released to have a home. and be mentored by some faith, which basically means that the churches will probably get a bunch of tax money if they hire these guys. well, i think thats majorly bright... *shakes head*
hmm.. i am very confused because of my parents' differing political views. you see, my father is republican. although he wont tell me why. not that its a bad thing, really. i just want a better understanding of the stance of both parties, so he wasnt that much help. now my mother, on the other hand, is an alien, so she cant vote. (from sweden) but, she said if she wanted to choose, she'd most likely be democratic. do you see my situation here? *sigh* well, she tried to explain some of the major democratic views. and i kinda get it. im just a bit unclear about republicans. my sister said the following: "The republicans are more interested in building up the military and stuff. the democratic are more for the people. the republicans are retards. dad, you're a retard." yea, so.. the only thing my dad said (except to not talk so loud) was that the democrats are dumb. basically. not quite sure. maybe i should be a liberal. except there aren't many in the senate/congress and im not sure about their views either.
politics are scary and i want to hide from them.
besides that, if anyone can clear the air id be most grateful. well, on to bed i guess. i actually did my english, which is a start. but i didnt do bio. big suprise there. and nola is switching out of that class. :(
did i mention that i had one of the shittiest days of my life today?
except for lunch (strange, isnt it?) because i had some.. strange.. conversations with sabrina. all i will say is that it involved pretzels. thats all... really..
*runs away from politics*

...

*Rina

p.s. oh man, we are doing coil pots in ceramics and i had the most brilliant idea for mine. Jack Skellington from the Nightmare before Christmas! i am truly a genius.

:: 2004 18 January :: 10.35pm
:: Mood: dark

No one can run from the shadows of dreams
It seems that i haven't updated for a while. well, my life is just so gosh darn exciting i guess i dont have the time. Here is a run through of what most people call "life." I will be excluding details.

The Hell Tower that is called Thursday
maybe not an actual tower. more like one of the lower depths of hell that is not yet understood. note my amazing sarcasm. ha. ha.
well, i'll pick out the interesting parts. mostly because i dont really remember the first part of the day. *shrugs*
Lunch is amazing. I got to eat, and feel like crap at the same time. It appears as if one of my friends believes that i waste too much of my time on computer/tv/playstation. tv dominating. this friend thinks that because i have wasted my time on these petty excuses for entertainment, it has resulted in the drop of my grades. sorry. it has not. just because i have 2 c's, doesnt mean i am a complete dumbass. really, it doesnt. and im sorry if i have my own life, in which i sometimes like to sit and watch some television. oh yes, and im terribly sorry if i have offended you in any way by making lively conversation about television with other friends. and i do use 'other' as you believe i would. i would like to congratulate you on making me feel like shit.
everyone, please applaud this wonderful act of utmost crappiness.

so sorry.

What Dante could call 'The Friday of Hell'
The Friday of hell. it is most brilliantly named, if i do say so myself. well, the morning was good.
plans of a sleepover were made with 2 of my friends and second period was fun. amazing, isnt it? its one of those once in a lifetime experiences. thanks, ana. :)
Now then. there was a pizza party at the center at lunch. for the art people who painted stuff for the children's benefit. or something like that. who knows. Indeed, i went to this aptly named 'pizza party.' Of course, since i have freis it was most enjoyable being late. and having no pepperoni/cheese pizza left. just supreme.
I ate one piece after taking off the onions, mushrooms, peppers, and olives. it was delightful.
went to sixth period. my other friend (ah yes, so the term is again used.. fancy that.) told me about this 'friend' who controlled the pure shittiness of the day named thursday. more mean things. what fun i have in my social life, as you can quite imagine.
The day of disappointment
Saturday. also brilliantly named.
the day of the 'sleepover.' No calls, no plans.
no friends decided to come. fair enough, since it was such short notice.
More bloodsucking went on through the day. (i use the term 'bloodsucking' loosely and in the meaning of 'life-draining.' almost the same meaning. crazy, eh?)
Although it is quite tragic, i had no sleep. i just couldnt sleep. maybe it was my thoughts of friends that kept me awake. or perhaps it was the next day's comings that kept me from dreams. the main point is that i couldnt slip off into my favorite place where everything is either perfect, or cunningly nightmarish. no in-betweens or mixes of the two. but that could never affect our reality, could it?

pity.

Fell asleep at 5:30 a.m.

Today, the day of broken dreams
I am truly broken. im broken into thousands of bits and tiny halves of bits, and the millions of particles within them. such is expected from nature i guess.
plans were made for the same 2 friends to sleepover after we terrorized the little ones at the medieval fair held at lakes park. crushed. no one calls.
i woke at 8:30 to be dragged to church. i literally mean dragged. rain came. it was so soothing. and calming. and i tried with all my might to stay awake in church. really, i did.
Mom took me to Starbucks. got a frappuchino and a cookie. i wished i could have stayed there. i love bookstores.
came home and glued myself to this lovely machine. i dare say, that paint shop pro is addictive. dinner. then more broken-ness. explained to mother my failure of buds. cocoa should be a medical solution. i will look forward to ana's cocoa pot.
so ends my days. but i must say, with all honesty, that i have 1 or 2 good friends. one of them is andrea. i love you andrea, because you make me like this ----> :)

stay tuned for the next thrilling episode.

-me.

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Rina	:: 2004 14 January :: 5.50pm :: Mood: pulls out hair :: Music: Disturbed GO FUCK YOURSELF LOSER stabs madly at computer screen ... throws monitor out window [eye twitches] knocks over bookshelf and kicks wall Feel my fucking wrath and die. 9 comment \| leave comment

:: 2004 10 January :: 9.51pm
:: Mood: creative? maybe.
:: Music: American Hi-Fi

[insert maniacal laughter]
Ok, first of all--

:)

Now i can tell you about tonight. It was way fun.
I went over to chelsea's house and syd was already there, so we talked and stuff until we went to meet melissa. We met her and went to Friday's. I think we might've mentally abused our waitress, but thats ok. It was all fun :D. Me and mel had a chicken blt and syd and chels both had a cheeseburger. yumm.. anyways, while syd was in the bathroom we were talkin in some funky accent and chelsea said that she was an australian-southern-chinese bitch. and somethin went on before that about her head being air or something, but i ended up saying 'if you're a chinese southern bitch with a booger blocking the air to your brain, then im the bloody easter bunny.' except i said it as if i was british and it all seemed fairly hilarious at the time. :D Sydney is Jesus.

Well, after dinner we went to the theatre and we got tickets. to peter pan. hahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
We were crazy in the theatre before the film started and chelsea ended up sitting on the floor between me and sydney. it was hilarious. Well, the movie went on, and near the end when wendy and peter kiss, and he smiles real big and the light thing is in the sky, yadda yadda; We all start cracking up. We were all laughing so hard. and i, personally, knew that i should stop, but couldnt. and then we laughed at the end when the freaky aunt lady gets to keep Slightly (one of the lost boys).

the end.

but i feel like writing so i think im going to do that. yay.

*Rina

:: 2004 9 January :: 4.09pm
:: Mood: ECSTATIC
:: Music: In Keeping Secrets of Silent Earth:3 - Coheed & Cambria

Yawns are contagious. So is my overwhelming happiness.
I AM TOTALLY STOKED.
i, carina, shall be going to the AFI, Thursday, and Coheed & Cambria concert.
ahhhhhhh!!! HAPPINESS!!!

This makes me grin very much.

Ok.. Yesterday i went to the doctor. and it only took about 10 minutes. yay. and that included the time we had to wait. so.. yay. :)
I got a prescription for Amoxicillan. If you dont know what that is, its just a fancy word for extremely large pills. But they make me feel better. :)

*grins* i cant wait until March 4th.

Anyways, school was ok. I completly forgot that it was DEAR today. (haha ana) i felt kinda dumb because i thought it was wednesday. it is friday. wow i am incredibly retarded. but that is ok, because i can go to a kick-ass concert. Well, in second period we watched slides of Mr. Smith's life. what fun. i could tell that it was really great because ana, jesenia, and tiffany were trying to sleep. Poor Mr. Smith. no one really cares.
Third period was a free day. and i had brought my flute. The retardedness of me continued... ah well. Kelly was talking to me all period about Yuu Yuu Hakusho. I cant wait to see the Dark Tournament. :)
Fourth period i couldnt find my math book. someone stole it or something. i just took notes. fun.
Fifth period we went over the exam still. we spend about 10-15 minutes on some questions. i screamed 'Why dont you just give us our test grades? its much easier than us listening to the nonsesne that comes out of your mouth!' well, i was screaming it in my head. since i value my health, i didnt actually say it aloud. :)
Lunch.. i am loved! everyone missed me! :D
Sixth period.. more on 'To kill a mokingbird.' i honestly dont know why we're reading it.
Seventh period we got new computers! they are very sweet black gateways. yay :)
Im going to teach chelsea html. hahahaha fun.
Speakin of chelsea, we are most likely going to go to the movies tomorrow haha. and she is going to the concert too! fun,fun friends. much fun.
but i cant go anywhere unless my room is up to mother's expectations.
Gots to clean me room, mate.
*Rina [themonkeyinthemiddleator who is extremely excited about the concert. really.]

:: 2004 9 January :: 2.54pm
:: Mood: tired

OK... School started again! BLAH big time! I only have a little more to go so i'll just have to suffer through it like everyone else.
RICHARD: did you get the e-mail me and dad sent you???? I just sent another one!I'll send you the CDs you want!

Alright....wow I come back to school and find Chris is in my first period.....hes a hottie ha ha.....and well, i thought i forgot about Adam but i still like him so yeah....i can't talk to him about it because im a BIG CHICKEN! oh well, so goes life. Hmmm...what else has been going on....nothing. eh.
Oh yeah...on monday driving back to Alecia's house, Christina got in a car accident on the island. What a loser....yet again it wasn't a big deal, just some scratched paint...she rearended this guy who for no reason what so ever decided to slam on his breaks going 15mph. LOSER. oh well people are stupid.
im going to complain now ha ha ha. I have to go to work at 5:30...yuck!its only a three hour shift but its a friday night and i have better things to do! Losers! Next week i only have three hours...WHAT IS UP WITH THAT???? im mad. i have to work on saturday too. Same shift. ha ha.i don't even get to work with Logan...how fun is that? God i don't even get to stare at a gorgeous guy at work any more....lame.
well i got to go ha ha laterz yo....oh and uh poke the monkey!

:: 2004 8 January :: 12.35pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: 100 hottest hotties on VH1 :)

Just wonderful
Im home and im sick. It cant get anymore lovely. My fever went down a bit, and my eyes aren't watering anymore. But, my throat is worse, i have a constant headache, and my ears hurt. Beautiful.
Well Mom woke me up at 5:45 in case i was well enough to go to school. I wasn't. i had a fever so i hobbled back to my room and slept more.
I woke up 10:30. Then, I was too numb to do anything so i sat in front of the tube. kind of. I was almost awake watching I Dream of Jeannie. and then i saw that Vh1's 100 hottest hotties was on. now im watching it. I saw the first segment and Orlando Bloom was 76. I could have stabbed the tv. but this is the second segment, and we're on 54 i think. *shrugs* More later if my headache goes away.
*Rina

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:: 2004 7 January :: 6.35pm
:: Mood: sick :(

Where's my medication?
I'm sick :(
My throat is sore, my nose is stuffed, and i have a fever. not to mention i just feel like crap. and my eyes are really warm and keep on watering. and it hurts :( but, lets get on to better things, shall we?

Today was the first day of school since winter break. i'd like to tell you that it was really fun and amazing.. but it was school.

Woke up early, took a shower, ate breakfast yadda yadda, and left for school. it was really cold outside and i was wearing a skirt. im so dumb. Anyways, me and lisa went up to our alpha-home room which is ms. burbank. a biology teacher. yay. We went to our first period. yay. ms. roeder just talked the whole time and i died.
second period sucked. it sucked monkey. We had a substitute named ms. stebbins (or 'man-woman' as we used to refer to her in middle school.. yuck). We had to watch a movie on impressionism and had to answer questions. I died. i seriously think i would have cried of boredom if i didnt remember that this is school. you're not supposed to cry in school, silly. yea, i died. i just wanted to start screaming and crying,"Damn you, Impressionism!!!" :(
Third period was a little better. i just sat there. what fun. i was kept sane by darbie. thank you darbie.
Fourth period, i was on the brink of dying again. We had 11 projects to choose from and had to get into groups of 3. think again. none of the people in there are my 'friends.' Yes, we talk every blue moon but i dont think that is enough to have a friendship. *shrugs*
Fifth period was ok i guess. We had new seating arrangements and i thank the good lord that i sit by nola. Thank you thank you thank you. we got our exam questions back (not the answer sheet. i was going to strangle ms. freis.) we went over some questions and out of 19 i think i only got 5 wrong. i tried really hard to stay awake. but her voice is monotone so i just thought of me being at home in the next 2 or 3 hours.
hold on, my eyes are watering again.

alright thats better.

I didnt want to look bored to tears at lunch so i tried to be really happy and pretend that i didnt have to make up 3 pages of questions for biology since i didnt get them before break like everyone else. Well, i looked like i was high. i didnt shut up. really i didnt. i kept talking until 6th period. but i was kinda happy at lunch because Sabrina and Sam are in 3rd lunch with me.
*feels forehead*
lets get a move on. i have a headache. and im typing with my eyes closed so excuse any spelling/grammar errors.
sixth period i died too. i was a little cheery because sabrina was there, and i didnt finish some cookies at lunch, so i accidently talked with my mouth open and i sounded like a retard. More great news. we have to read 'to kill a mockingbird'. we listened to half the first chapter on audio and it was really hard to stay awake. really hard. i hate the book already. i understood it fine, but im not a fan of slow books.

No. you havent read a slow book until you've attempted to read the first few pages of this so called 'novel.'

anyways, i was really excited in seventh period because melissa got contacts and cut her hair. she looks good. and, she told me about the concert with Coheed & Cambria, AFI, and Thursday. I want to go sooooooooo bad!!! Maybe if i clean my room...
Got home, gave myself a headache from an unknown cause (my biology book) and felt extremely crappy. I had a slightly sore throat this morning. it became more painful at lunch. i had a huge ass headache that added to my suffering and now i am full blown with this cold. roar. i would scream but im too tired and it would probably hurt my throat.
I scanned my Orlando Bloom picture that took me forever. maybe i'll put the link up. *sigh*
Maybe Johnny and Orlando will keep me happy until the O.C. comes on. i swear that the show was one of the more powerful reasons i kept my sanity. Now i must try and get up ( i took the comforter from my bed and wrapped it around me because i was freezing. im still freezing and my fan isnt even on. )

I wish i get better by tomorrow so i can do something this weekend. I wanted to see another movie with speedy :)
*grabs cough drop bag*
this is my friend feelbetter the cough drop bag. we have bonded much since i first met him when my mother came home with him in a grocery bag. yay.
*Rina

crawlie! is there something wrong? you didnt seem that happy today. i wish i could give you a hug :(

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:: 2004 5 January :: 4.02pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: Blink 182

well then...yesterday i went to the movies with my sis.....stuck on you is an ok movie. Some parts were funny others were just wrong...ha ha. Lets see.... today i had to take my sister to her flute lessons at 10 am....never again. Then i found out my dad got into a car accident....big time sucks...no worries thought it was just a fender bender so everyones is fine....hes pissed though. Who wouldn't be? Yeah so later i went bowling with Christina and Alecia....haven't seen them in a while. Then we went to Chillies and our waiter kept comming by our table every five minutes to fill up my water that didn't need refilling....ha ha i take a sip and he comes running...ha ha. I just think he needed an excuse to come back to our table. Oh well.
I have to go to work today again! Yuck! oh well, afterwards im sleeping over at Alecia's house along with Christina. I only have a three hour shift..not bad but hey...i'll get her house around 9pm....considering she lives on the island. Honestly, who wants to live on Sanibel...nothing to do there lol.....well besides going to the beach but ya know.
Hmmmmm......i was so excited...ha ha i got an email from my cousin who stayed over....i seriously wasn't expecting him to write! I feel special! ha ha.Anyway i showed him this site and he might join...a subscriber from sweden ha ha too bad he'll most likely write in swedish but that might trigger more sweds right? nice. flies away ha ha.ok. Im starting to wonder if anyone even reads my journal...im too boring ha ha. Go ahead and leave a comment....not that hard...just poke the damn monkey!!!! "roy, we always figured you for a dumb shit" ha ha i love that line!
Tomorrow is the last day of winter vacation. Kinda sucks...i dont want to go back to my classes considering all of them suck and i hate them because there is NOTHING ELSE I COULD TAKE BUT POTTERY!! I SUCK AT POTTERY! oh well, i'll be out of here in five months. which is 18 weeks, or 135 days including weekends. wow GRADUATION! yay! i can't wait to leave the country! muha ha ha ha! ^_^ i need to get ready for work...i have to leave in half an hour...yuck! remember: POKE THE MONKEY! Laterz

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:: 2004 4 January :: 11.44pm
:: Mood: hyper
:: Music: I believe in a thing called love - The Darkness

Whatever spikes your altoids
ok here's the deal..
Me and Andrea met at the Bell Tower tonight. We decided to go see a movie and ended up watching peter pan hahaha. the ticket lady was a real bitch.. we'd beat her down with sticks if there wasnt plexiglass seperating her from me and andrea!
Anyways, we missed the Deluxe coca-cola commercial they always play. 'brian, its time for dinner!' 'its Deluxe, son! Deluxe!' haha
hmm... well, we are in the movie, and its playing and im like 'whoa.. tone it down a bit.. this isnt pg-13' it was funny.
There was one part where peter pan whistles and all these fairies come from this huge, -erm- fairy tree and everyone's quiet. At that moment andrea says 'fairies!' i tried so hard not to laugh. really hard. i almost died. hmm. most of the scenes were really fake so i kinda coughed out 'computer' a few times. it was really funny at the time. We were eating Andrea's altoids (they're addictive little buggers) and there must have been something in them because we were kinda crazy lmao. after the movie was done we went back to the tower to find a payphone. we called home. then we stood outside of bed bath & beyond. While we were waiting there some guy hit a sign really hard and andrea jumped back kinda far and it was hilarious because she was like ' i thought we were getting shot at.' :D We saw two UGLY cars. Andrea yelled 'you have an ugly car!!' and i said 'um, the windows are rolled down' pretty hilarious.
O! and this one guy in a black pickup truck went from the parking lot onto the street by going through this place where there are three concrete bar things on the road and there is a side walk. so, he basically just kinda drove on the sidewalk. redneck! hahahaha yea.. i had my disposable camera so i could waste film so i took two pictures of a tree and one of a stop sign. w h o a. it was kinda funny.
Well, i really must be going.. i have to play flute at 10:30 in the morning. i dont want to wake up at 9! *pouts* ah well. thats the way it goes.
*Rina

:: 2004 4 January :: 2.30pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Thursday

whoa buddy
Hmm.. i haven't updated for a while.
Well, Ninni and Richard left. I was sad :( but we're seeing them in another 5-6 months so its cool :) I went to church today. It was kinda boring.. I went to target afterwards and got some powder and a bag of coffee. did you know that they want $7 for some starbucks?? thats really dumb. *shoots economic factors* o well.
I went to tgifridays with lisa yesterday. it was amazingly crowded because it was some arts and crafts fair. arg. well, we ate lunch and went over to the theater to see a movie. We saw Stuck on You. it was funny on some parts and kinda lame in some other scenes. thats just my opinion though.. *shrug*
lets see.. nothing much to really say. oh yes, i forgot. i made a livejournal. it is slightly complicated but really cool if you get the hang of it. of course, i like woohu better, and thats why it is my main journal. my livejournal one is just a place to put all my icons. i mean, you just tell me you want it and Ill be like, uh, yea sure. no big deal. you dont even have to credit me. just say, hey this is cool can i have it?
easy as pie. and pie is really good.
i actually just finished some pumpkin pie like half an hour ago. I think i forgot to say that the day before Richard left, we went mini-golfing. or did i? psshh bad memory.
*Rina

p.s.. i dare you to click the comment button

:: 2004 3 January :: 11.41pm
:: Music: um nothing... the tv is on ha ha

back from work....found this i like it ha ha

Your rockstar husband by girl_rotten
Username
Husband Tony Lovato of Mest
Wedding Day March 21, 2025
Number of Kids 7
Created with quill18's MemeGen!

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:: 2004 3 January :: 4.12pm
:: Mood: tired and depressed
:: Music: none

Hey hey hey!
Yesterday when my mom and brother were dropping our guests off at the airport, i couldn't believe how empty our house was. It was just me and Carina...oh and the cat but hes quiet. I just kept walking out of my room into the living room and expected to see my cousin sitting on the porch or on the couch with my brother hanging all over him. I am alone now yet again...just me and carina...and Mr. Andersson.....kinda sad really. After being so busy, having to get up early and doing this and doing that, it so damn boring just being home doing nothing. Honestly, i think everyone is having a case of seperation anxiety.
I can't wait until i leave this country! It's going to be a completly new start...new place, new friends, different weather..god i can't wait. I think i would miss my friends the least.....i mean since this school year started i havn't had a chance to hang out with any of them i've been to busy or they have been to busy. All of our classes are different in school and i hate the classes im taking. Nothing is really working out for me this year. Last year was the best. I was always hanging out with my friends and having a good time. This year just sucks...we all have jobs. I hate growing up....just 8 months and im a legal adult. This blows....8*(
What's worse is that i have to go to work today....i dont want to work!!!! I hate my work!!! NEVER WORK AT A GROCERY STORE!! oh well....its money but it still sucks! i might as well get going since i leave in a half an hour for work...yuck! Om du vill skriva till mej, min address i buttercup12780@yahoo.com Du kan oksa lemna en hmm...comment om du tryker pa "poke the monkey" pa hoger sida...hejda

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