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2004 4 August :: 8.18pm
:: Music: Comment - hide
Oh yeah! Piggy!
I am the infamous butabara incident!
Which Gackt TV appearance are you?
quiz by acesquad.com
tee hee
Your date is TOSHIYA! Get in the mood real quick
cuz I'm sure you two will have a totally
wonderfull time together! At least tonight, I
mean!
Who in Dir en grey would you likely date?
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... I like Toshiya and all... but that comment, which I'm sure is implying something, doesn't make me all that comfortable. eh heh heh...
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2004 3 August :: 11.01pm
:: Mood: euphoric
:: Music: fair stuff
dim light in a vast darkness
This was an overall good day, and I'm happy. Yay happy!
This morning I went through my wardrobe to get rid of old/small/junky clothes. I feel so much better now, knowing that I have only clothes that I prefer. No more crap taking up space in my room... YAY!
Later, though, I had to go to the dentist, which is not a bad thing, dentists are good for life and it was an anual check up. However, the lady I had today must have been feeling a bit sadistic; when she did my flossing, she was pushing far beyond the end of my gums. I have quite a few cuts in my mouth now... But at least it's a clean mouth (?)
Then I ended up going to the fair tonight. Oh, it was so much fun. I went with our church group (which is hardly a churchy group... three of us are huge RHPS fans, two of us are bi/gay, one is acting as such, and we're all generally loud, raunchy, and very teenagerish), and had a blast. Besides our group, we met up with Sarah L. and her crew, and had a huge group there. Rock 'n Ride was fun, but this was a fuckin party. I don't think they appreciated us at kiddie land, though....
Sarah W. and I had the craziest ride on the Zipper. Seriously, it's the wildest time I've ever been on it. Insane, I tell you. Jon was freaking out on the Ring of Fire because he's pretty short and almost fell out of the restraints. And it was all fun.
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2004 2 August :: 11.58pm
:: Music: Explode- Nelly furtado
heres some random lyrics...lol
Vera's face burnt as a memory of bedroom fun
With a ligther and some hairspray
Smoking in the girls' room
Not worse than Shelley's rape behind the McDonald's
By a man she thought was fine, didn't tell anybody
Or maybe back then we just thought that she was getting some
Now we look back and see that she didn't know how
We never thought that we'd get caught up
Stuck in the teenage waste
As we explode
As we explode
As we explode
As we explode
Then getting drunk in the bushes by the road outside the Kmart
Rolling around in them to see if you would get prickled
Slip the acid on your tongue rooftop shopping mall parkade
We couldn't get enough
Then count the stars and the ten million woes
Just you and the universe judging each other
We never knew that we'd get caught up
Stuck in the teenage waste
As we explode
As we explode
As we explode
As we let go
It's a fight, it's a fight and you finally belong
Got a shiner now and it's more than a battle scar
More than a battle scar, such a good, good story to tell
At lunch break, lunch break, lunch break, lunch break
Such a good, good story to tell
You bully, you break, you bully, you break
You fake, you fake, you fake, you fake
You smoke, you toke, you want, you flaunt, you hit it and you're in it and it's spinning
And it's wild
We never thought that we'd get caught up
Stuck in the teenage waste
As we explode
As we explode
As we explode
As we let go
We're counting the stars
We're counting the stars
We're gonna go far, we're gonna go far
We're counting the stars, we're counting the stars
We're not very far, we're not very far
And it's you and me in the open air
It's truth or dare, we don't care
We're counting the stars, we're counting the stars, we're counting the stars, we're counting the stars
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2004 2 August :: 8.29pm
:: Music: Ippiki ookami Ron - Miyavi
Big Fat survey stolen from the Jimmsteroonie
Your full name:: Jessica Doris Kelly
Age:: 14
Height:: 5'5 1/2
Natural hair colour:: brown
Eye colour:: brown
Number of siblings:: 1 - younger sister
Glasses/contacts?:: nope
Piercings:: one in each ear. I hope to get a second peircing in my ears before school starts.
Tattoos:: nope
Braces?:: had them Now I wear a retainer
FAVOURITE
Colour:: Black
Band:: Dir en Grey, Miyavi, Disturbed, Enya
Song:: don’t know
Stuffed animal:: my Teddy and Cola, my big polar bear. I used to have a wolf-dog one, but I dunno what happened to him.
Video game:: kingdom Hearts
TV show:: Fruits Basket?
Movie:: um um Pirates of the Caribbean, the Lotr series, Miyazaki’s stuff (spirited Away and Princess Mononoke in particular), the Secret Garden.. and probably some others I can’t remember.
Book:: Blood and Chocolate by Annette Curtis Klaus
Food:: Alfredo chicken/pasta
Game on a cell phone:: Falling Numbers
CD cover:: um... Enya’s “A Day Without Rain” album, and Dir en Grey’s Single “Jessica” just because it’s named after me ^^.
Flower:: rose
Scent:: Pikaki flower? Gardenia? Rose? thos kinds I guess
Animal:: Wolf
Comic book:: Gravitation, Demon Diary, Fruits Basket, Paradise Kiss
Cereal:: Rice Crispies with sugar on top.
Website:: poop
Cartoon:: Fruits Basket, Family Guy, Wolf’s Rain, Inu-Yasha... ummm yup?
DO YOU
Play an instrument?:: I teach myself some songs on the piano.
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?:: no.
Like to sing?:: yush. I luff to sing.
Have a job?:: nuh uh
Have a cell phone?:: yup
Like to play sports?:: depends on what sport it is
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:: no
Have a crush on someone?:: not really anyone possible to get at the moment ^^
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?:: Nope.
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?:: nope. I think we have 4.
Have any special talents/skills?:: people say I’m a good writer.
Excercise daily?:: not DAILY but every few days I actually attempt exercise ^^ Oh wait and I go on dog walks sometimes too, so I guess that could be considered exercise.
Like school?:: don’t know if I will yet, but I think I will.
CAN YOU
Sing the alphabet backwards?:: don’t think so
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?:: yush. Unless you mean the very very tips. that hurts.
Speak any other languages?:: know a bit of Japanese, but not enough to construct whole sentences and paragraphs or anything, same goes for spanish. I can constrict sentences for that. Some German vocabulary, but very little.
Go a day without food?:: Probably, though once the day was over I’d raid teh fridge like to other.
Stay up for more than 24 hours?:: If I try really hard.
Read music, not just tabs?:: if I take the time to write it out yes.
Roll your tongue?:: Yeah.
Eat a whole pizza?:: nope
HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?:: Not really
Cried to get out of trouble?:: yep probably
Gotten lost in your city?:: no
Seen a shooting star?:: yes. Many a-shooting star. My neck hurts.
Been to any other countries besides the united states?:: nope
Had a serious surgery?:: well, by appendix ruptured and they had to rush me in to get it taken out, but truthfully I don’t know if that’s “serious”. I heard you can die if the appendix ruptures and it isn’t taken out right away, but I don’t think I was close to it.
Stolen something important to someone else?:: No.
Solved a rubiks cube?:: nope
Gone out in public in your pajamas?:: yep i think so
Cried over a girl?:: I got in a lot of arguments and fights with my “friend” in second and third grade, so I guess you could consider it that.
Cried over a boy?:: Yes.
Kissed a random stranger?:: No.
Hugged a random stranger?:: Well someone I didn’t really know, but It wasn’t someone off the street or anything.
Been in a fist fight?:: nope
Been arrested?:: Oh yeah. I get arrested all the time. They know me at the police station.
Done drugs?:: not zee bad ones
Had alcohol?:: tried it. AND THE WINE AT MASS! THAT COUNTS!
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?::I’ve done that and had juice come out of my nose.
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?:: I don’t think ALL of the buttons, but quite a few i think. I want to do that in the empire state building sometime MUAHAH.
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?:: no
Swore at your parents?:: not so they could hear me.
Been to warped tour?:: Nope
Kicked a guy where it hurts?:: I don’t think so. Not on purpose at least. I’ve kicked a ball or something and hit them there, and while swimming I got pulled under water and was reaching out with my hands and opened my eyes to find I was inches away from a friend’s crotch. Yeah luckily I didn’t touch or hit him there or anything lol. He didn’t notice it.
Been in love?:: nope
Been close to love?:: don’t know.
Been to a casino?:: Yup.
Ran over an animal and killed it?:: my parents have
Broken a bone?:: Nope
Gotten stitches?:: no
Had a waterballoon fight in winter?:: don’t think so
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?:: No
Made homemade muffins?:: probably when I was little with my mom.
Bitten someone?:: yup
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?:: both
More than 5 times?:: yup. Disney world I think 6 times and Disneyland 8 or something. I don’t know I have to ask my dad.
Been to niagra falls?:: Nope.
Burped in someones face?:: yush
Gotten the chicken pox?:: Yes.
WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth:: when I got up at noon.
Went to the bathroom:: when I woke up? I don’t remember.
Saw a movie in theaters:: Spiderman 2? I think that was it. Don’t remember when we saw it though.
Read a book:: last week or something you’re talking about reading a whole one.
Had a snow day:: never
Had a party:: last month? I can’t remember.
Had a slumber party:: sometime in July
Tripped in front of someone:: I don’t remember these things
Went to the grocery store:: don’t know. I don’t usually go with my mom if I can avoid it.
Got sick:: Long time ago.
Cursed:: about an hour and a half ago
PICK ONE
Fruit/vegetables:: Fruit
Black/white:: black
Lights on/lights off:: off
TV/movie:: movie
Car/truck:: Car
Body spray/lotion:: Body spray
Cash/check:: Cash.
Pillows/blankets:: pillows
Headache/stomach ache:: neither
Paint/charcoal:: Paint.
Chinese food/mexican food:: Chinese food. Mexican is good too.
Summer/winter:: autumn
Snow/rain:: rain rain rain
Fog/misty:: Fog.
Rock/rap:: Rock! RAP SUCKS!
Meat/vegetarian:: Meat.
Boy/girl:: as to what I prefer? Umm.. well I am a girl, but I like guys.. ?
Chocolate/vanilla:: Chocolate.
Sprinkles/icing:: Icing
Cake/pie:: Pie.
French toast/french fries:: French fries. Oh the unhealthiness.
Strawberries/blueberries:: Strawberries I guess
Ocean/swimming pool:: Depends on where the ocean is and where the pool is and the temperature.
Hugs/kisses:: hugs
Cookies/muffins:: COOKIES!
p33n/bewbz:: poop
Wallet/pocket:: Wallet.
Window/door:: Window
Emo/goth:: goth, but either is fine
Pink/purple:: purple. Pink is evil.
Cat/dog:: DAWGEY!
Long sleeve/short sleeve:: short-sleeved I guess, but sometimes I wear a long=sleeved under a short sleeved.
Pants/shorts:: PANTS I SAY! SHORTS ARE SATAN!
Winter break/spring break:: Winter break
Spring/autumn:: autumn
Clouds/clear sky:: clouds. No clouds is creepy all-together, and if it’s overcast, it’s even better than “partially cloudy”
Moon/mars:: Moon
FRIENDSHIP
How many friends do you have?:: OH let’s see, let me count... HAHA I’m not going to count.
Do you have a best friend?:: Yush. more than one.
Have you ever liked one of your friends?:: Yup - a guy friend of course.
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?:: more girl friends
Have you ever lost a friend?:: Sure, I mean people change and you’re going to grow apart.
Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?:: Yes.
Whats an inside joke between you and a friend?:: um.. “I am a super super genius! Don’t you agree?!” “..... umm... *reassuringly* WE LOVE YOU!”. That’s not really an inside joke, but oh well I say. I have a lot of others that I don’t think I’’ll put here.
Have you ever gotten in a big arguement with a friend?:: Yup. In the second grade. I can’t do big arguments now. At least not very easily.
Whats the nicest thing youve ever done for a friend?:: don’t know.
Whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?:: Told me they admired me.
Do you miss any of your old friends?:: Yush I do
What friend have you known the longest?:: Bryce
Do you regret anything youve done to a friend?:: Oh yeah. Not going to say anything.
How often do you spend time with your friends?:: well at school. I guess it depends on which friends you’re talking about.
Do any of your friends drive?:: some are learning I think.
Has a friend of yours ever died?:: friend who was also family.
Whats the dumbest thing youve done with a friend?:: Not. saying. anything.
What do you think your friends think of you?:: Um.. I hope they think I’m a pretty entertaining person. A lot think I have something wrong in my head at times. I try to be a nice person, am I a nice person?
LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP
Have you ever been in love?:: you asked that already. No
If you have, with who?:: poop
Are you single?:: Yes
Are you in a relationship?:: -_- isn’t this similar to the last question?
If so, for how long?:: sporks are cool
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?:: sure. But if that other person kicks the bucket before you meet them, you’re out of luck haha.
What was your first kiss like?:: It was like poop.
How old were you when you got your first kiss?:: -6756
Do you think love is a load of shit?:: No it’s a load of Crap. lol jk foolio. Love ish not poop nor shit nor crap.
Whats the best experiance youve ever had with the opposite sex?:: sitting... next to one... WOAH! jk I dunno.
If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?:: One that considered me his girlfriend but I didn’t consider him my bf, one online one that lasted pretty long, and yeah.
Have you ever been dumped?:: Yes
Have you ever dumped someone?:: Not openly saying “I’M DUMPING YOU” or any of those obvious things.
Whats the most sexual thing youve done with the opposite sex?:: Sat on him! lol Actually I probably have sat on a guy before when I was little or something. When I was little... Oh wait nevermind I know what the answer to that is. OH GOD MAKE IT GO AWAY!
WORD ASSOCIATION
Slippers:: Fuzz
Hat:: baseball cap
Hard:: floor
Free:: flying
Space:: a big black thing and shtarsh
Taste:: A tongue.
Good charlotte:: funny hair
Red:: blood
Deep:: Ocean
Heart:: Love
Cord:: bungee cord
Cheese:: sharp cheddar or swiss
Rain:: the most beautiful thing in the world
Work:: plain office building
Pedal:: pedal on a bicycle
Head:: ...a head.
Bed:: shleep
Fluff:: cotton balls
Hardcore:: Metal
Race:: track runners
Knife:: Cool looking dagger like Crocodile Dundee’s lol.
Jump:: off a cliff
I.... am:: Edward, Hear me SQUAWK!
want:: a hug
need:: food eventually
crave:: music
love:: music
hate:: rap
did:: something
feel:: warm
miss:: Nick and Grandpa
am annoyed by:: democrats
would rather:: it be raining
am tired of:: thinking of school
will always:: bite my nails.
SILLY STUFF
What is your favourite genre of music?:: rock/hard rock/metal/Celtic
What time is it now?::4:54 PM
What day is it?:: Monday
Whens the last time you called someone?:: Some day.
How much money do you have right now?:: $180 something I think
Are you hungry?:: Not really.
Whatcha doin?:: sitting
Do you like parades?:: They're okay
Do you like the moon?:: I luff it.
What are you going to do when youre done with this?:: make LJ icons and signature banners.
Isnt cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?:: yes. Fork is better.
If you could have any magical power what would it be?:: It’d be cool to be a pyrokinetic. Controlling fire wooo!
Have you ever had a picnic?::yeah
Did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young?::no
What about sock em boppers?:: Nope
Are you wearing any socks right now?:: no
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
funny?:: yeah when I want to be I guess.
pretty?:: Not really
sarcastic?:: Yes.
lazy?:: yup
hyper?:: every once in a while
friendly?:: I hope I am.
evil?:: Sometimes.
smart?:: Pretty smart
strong?:: physically or mentally?
talented?:: Depends
dorky?:: yup
ASSOCIATE THESE WORDS WITH SOMEONE YOU KNOW (or dont know)
high:: Antonia. lol jk
skip:: Julie
dance:: Jessica Lenker
lonely:: Wobbly Headed Bob
pen:: Krusty-kun
flower:: Grace
window:: Marilyn?
psycho:: Misao-chan
brain freeze:: Louise. Why? That’s just how my mind works.
orange:: Jyovanne (sp)
sassy:: Rachel
jelly:: Kelly M.
FOR OR AGAINST
suicide::Against. It’s for people who are weak.
love:: for
drunk drivers:: against.
airplanes:: for
war:: For!
canada:: I guess for.
united states:: for
rock music:: for
gay marriage:: I think they should make a different word for it if they want to get married, otherwise it’s fine with me.
school:: for
surveys:: depends
parents:: for
cars:: for
killing:: Some people.
britney spears:: Against
pants:: FOR! People running around pant-less?! *shudders* Reminds me of that time in San Francisco...
WOULD YOU EVER
Sky dive?:: nope
Play strip poker?:: maybe if I was drunk
Run away?:: from who?
Curse at a teacher?:: maybe
Not take a shower for a week?:: That’s... gross.. but if I was threatened I would do it.
Ask someone out?:: depends
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?:: No. I’d try not to.
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?:: Sure!
Go scuba diving?:: sure
Write a book?:: Yup
Become a rockstar?:: sure
Have casual sex?:: I don’t think so...
LAST QUESTIONS
What shampoo do you use?:: feh I dunno
Whens the last time you did something sexual with the opposite sex?: I dunno
What kind of computer do you have?:: iMac and I love it so everybody else can shutup.
What grade are you in?:: I'm going into 9th.
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?:: I threw M&Ms at Camille and Chris and Ashleigh and Julie at the movies, which created a war of M&ms.
Or just make out?:: i guess
How many posters do you have in your room?:: Full sized? 9 I think... no 11. Yeah 11. Then I have a crapload of other stuff pinned up on my wall.
How many cds do you have?:: don’t know
What time is it now?:: 5:09 PM
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2004 1 August :: 10.05pm
:: Mood: full
:: Music: Coin Lockers Baby - Miyavi
I suppose first I shall begin with the visit to Bryce's.
I've been friends with Bryce ever since I was a baby - my mom and his mom were roomates for a while and have been friends ever since Mom came to California from the east coast. A few years back, Kim (Bryce's mother) rented a room out to Steve, who, as it turns out, was gay. However over time I guess he became "bi" because he is kind of "together" with Kim at the moment, even though his old boyfriend for a while seemed very disappointed. I've meet that guy before. his name was Lenny and he was really funny, but that's beside the point. So yeah now Bryce, Kim, and Steve are all living together in their house. Bryce's real dad is from England, but he hardly ever gets to see him.
Anyway, they have a dog named Heidi who just had puppies. All but one died. Her name ish Daisy-Belle, but they just call her daisy for short. She ish a Scotty dog and she's so cute!
Thursday? Or was it Wednesday we went to see them. Bryce had died his hair darker for the summer. I wouldn't say it looked great on him, I think his eyebrows were too light. We ate lunch with them, and Denise, Bryce, and I started talking about stuff. He was the one who had got me started on System of a Down and all that metal stuff, so we talked about some of that - mostly System. Once we get over that awkward silence in the beginning of visits we can talk pretty freely about stuff. He's the kind of guy that's asked you if you have a boyfriend and gotten your cell phone number, but you can't really tell if he means anything by it.
The puppy kept bouncing around and a few times Bryce practically sat on her. In an attempt to get my soda away from her so she wouldn't knock it over I ended up knocking it over instead, because I'm so graceful.
Denise, Bryce, and I went for a walk around their block, which was nice. We started talking about times when we were little and would go on camping trips. I felt like I was such a horrible child. Oh dear I don't even want to remember some of those times. I spent the whole time hoping he wouldn't bring up something I would regret him ever bringing up. Luckily he didn't, though I bet he does remember some things.
Embarrassing...
Anyway, after the walk I asked if we could go see Heidi, their other dog, who was in a back room office thing. Bryce said sure so he started to go in the house and then Kim asked "are you going to his room?" God I hate it when people ask questions like that. Bryce said, "No!"
lol.
Kim just laughed and said "oh okay because you don't want to go in his room - it's a mess." At that point I remembered that Kim was the kind of laid back person that could care less if we went in his room "alone and unchaperoned" - I just automatically took it as if she was insinuating something. Actually I think I was worried more about what my mom thought when Kim asked the question. She's always worried about that kind of stuff. Last time we were over at his house Denise and I were both in Bryce's room, and he had these rubber gloves kind of hanging on this shelf-black-metal-cart-thing where he had his TV and video game stuff. When mom came in she asked "So... what are all these gloves for?" he didn't notice anything in her voice, but I did. It bothers me when you know your mom is assuming something dirty and then she asks about it. In the end he showed her how he cuts off the fingers of them and is able to make a shooting thingy using a soda bottle cap, a rubber band, and the finger of the glove. He could shoot beads and stuff pretty far with them. Twas cool.
So yush we played with Heidi and sat in the backyard for the rest of the time until it was time to leave.
Now for the camping trip.
Well, on Friday we went up to Lake Tahoe to go camping. Our campsite was by Emerald Bay, but it was actually a 4.6 miles hike if you wanted to get there, and it was a ten minute drive just to get to the actual lake. Saturday morning we wanted to go to the lake for a swim. However, the dog wasn't allowed to go on the beach, so we took him back to the campsite and put him in his bed in the tent, because if we left him outside he'd go crazy with all the chipmunks and squirrels. So in the tent he went, and we made him as comfortable as possible and opened the windows to let air in if it got hot and everything. It wasn't like we wanted to leave him there, but we kind of had to.
So we went out to the lake and went swimming and all that - it was really nice. That lake is so pretty - for a few hours. Then we went back. While walking up to the campsite the squirrels made that creepy laughing noise. They had made it when they chased eachother up a tree and left Scooter down below barking at them, and were doing it now, and I couldn't help but wonder why they were laughing at me. The first thing I went to check on was Scooter. But he wasn't in the tent. He was nowhere in the tent, his whole crate was gone. My first impression was that someone had stolen him, but we went down to a ranger thing and called the Visitor's Station. Someone seemed to know of a dog there, so we drove over. This lady came out and told us that Scooter was in the kennel across the street. He had been taken away because we had left him unattented. "Yes the tent was very hot and the dog was under stress and..." blah blah. When I put him in the tent, it wasn't hot at all, when we came back it wasn't hot at all, and he has terrier in him, he's been barking at the squirrels the whole time. So the barking she heard was most-likely him barking at the birds and squirrels in the tree because he could see them from the open window of the tent. What pissed me off more was that this guy went into our tent and took our dog without leaving a note or anything. Not to mention that comment about "the dog was under stress". That comment got my dad mad, but he didn't blow up at the lady or anything. he just brought it up afterwards and said it was like calling us bad parents, which is true. The thing that also bothers me is that you can't do anything as a family without leaving the dog unattended, and they don't have a place where we can drop him off at a kennel or anything (they said the one that they had taken him to was not for use). We're getting a citation for leaving the dog unattended now. It's dumb and it pisses me off.
They kidnapped my dawgey.
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2004 1 August :: 9.45am
An X if its true, an _ if its false. add one of your own at the end.
(x) I have never been drunk
(x) I never have smoked pot
(_) I never have kissed a member of the opposite sex
(_) I never have kissed a member of the same sex
(x) I never crashed a friend's car
(x) I have never been to Japan
(_) I never ridden in a taxi
(_) I never have been in love
(x) I never have had sex
(_) I never have been dumped
(x) I never shoplifted
(x) I never have been fired
(x) I have never cut myself on purpose
(x) I never have been in a fist fight
(x) I never snuck out of my parent's house
(x) I never have been arrested
(x) I never made out with a stranger
(x) I never stole anything from my job
(x) I never celebrated New Year's in Time Square
(_) I never went on a blind date
(_) I never lied to a friend
(_) I never had a crush on a teacher
(x) I never celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans
(x) I never have been to Europe
(x) I never skipped school
(x) I never slept with a co-worker
(x) I never have thrown up in a bar
(x) I never have purposely set myself on fire
(_) I never have eaten sushi
(x) I never have been snowboarding
(_) I never have been happy with myself
(x) I never have met a movie star
(x) I never went to a prom
(x) I never bungee jumped
(x) I never have been to a pop concert
(x) I never have dated someone for over a year
(_) I never ate a mango
(x) I never killed anyone before ...or have i...
(x) I never went sailing
(x) I have never had a job
(_) I have never told someone how much they meant to me.
(x) I never have gone sky diving
(x) I never ran outside and danced in the street naked.
(_) I have never had a lesbian/gay close friend.
(x) I have never watched C-SPAN for over an hour.
(x) I have never been out of the country
(x) I have never made out in a carwash.. sounds fun though
(x) I have never had cum come out of my nose during a blow job
(x) I have never gone night swimming with a hot person of the opposite sex
(_) I have never eaten peanut butter.
(x) I have never seen Citizen Kane all the way through.
(x) I have never broken a bone.
(x) I have never been able to think of original "I have nevers"
(_) I have never enjoyed eating veal
(x) I have never been whale watching
(_) I have never stayed up until 10 AM listening to music
(_) I have never seen real boobies
(x) I have never had everything perfectly fine at one time
(x) I have never had any silence in my house
(_) I have never had a crush on a friend
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2004 31 July :: 10.52am
:: Mood: bubbly
:: Music: "Colour My World" - James Pankow
cycles
My moods have gone through many cycles in the past few days.
Brief but true statement...
So, I enjoyed the fair, I enjoyed the people (those I was with and those I was looking at), I enjoyed the food (though I should really be at the gym because of it), and I enjoyed... well... I have no way of wrapping that up... but the fair was nice. And I didn't hit my head in the glass maze. How proud can I be??
Oh, as I forgot to say before, I'm done with my archiving of poetry (though there are still a few things I need to type up), so I can update my journal again. That was a long, painful process...
Today, I woke up late (oops!), and stayed around the house for a while. Then I read (I'm getting responsible!!). Then the sister, the mother, and I went to the mall. I got some jeans, a Morrocan-ish button-down, an orange plaid (sounds horrible, but looks really good) camp shirt, and a brown lightweight knit. Yeah... shopping is difficult. I'm too short for most of the clothes that I wear, but I have wide shoulders and, generally, my waist/shoulder measurements are sizes that would normally be used for a taller person. I just have a wide bone structure... difficult, but I can live on.
We went to Footloose tonight. Fun... but definitely community theater. The choreography was great, but the blocking was horrible. But it was fun... Not to mention Jarred Van-Heel was in a very revealing mesh shirt for his character. And I read in his bio section that he's been Rocky for RHS... Oh, I'm strangely retching right now, but it's out of an overload of lust.... I'm a dirty little Christian boy...
My voice has slowly recovered from last night... for the majority of the day, though, I was talking in precise monotone. It's a good thing that I don't sing for money because all the yelling I do for social events really has ruined some opertunities... Which reminds me that Ashley said I should join choir this year. They want to know how I sing... Well, I know I've got more talent than some people in choir, and I probably will try out for The Fantasticks this year... but no... for one, I don't have a period open, and I just don't want to be involved...
I should probably go to bed. I need to start getting up earlier so I'm ready for soccer tryouts (agh... another reason to get to the Peak...)
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2004 31 July :: 6.44pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: With you- Jessica Simpson
Band camp is over!!! at last!
finally band camp is over, and i couldnt be at a better time........i was about to go insane >.< i kept gettin in trouble and yelled at......but im ok now.....now that its all over
Jenn gave me a ride home yesterday, and she was sick....so i wake up this morning, and i caught her cold >.< so now i feel all nasty...i hate bein sick.
anyways......my boyfriends coming down *cheers* and my cousin is leaving on thursday!!!!!! im soo happy he's leaving.....hes soooooooooooooooo annoying....i swear....i cant take it anymore >.<
I saw nicole today! at publix!!!! omg i was soooo happy!!!!!!!!!! i also saw shannon, and zach! it was awesome!!!!! i missed alll of them sooooooooooooooooo much!
oh, and today is my uncles b-day -.-;;;;; soo they're all here, and i soooo dont want them to be here....this is like the worst time for them to be over....
anyways, i think im gonna go talk to them..*sigh* even though i wanna sleep......i'll update later i guess, bye byes for now
Joe
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2004 31 July :: 1.37pm
:: Mood: emo
:: Music: little girl whining
my computer seems to be crashing
I am a lyric whore. SO FUCK ME.
On a string I was held. The way that I move, can you tell?
My actions are orchestrated from above. So I swing and I sway.
Wave my hand. Kick my leg. And it is always right with the music.
"Until all that swinging starts to make you sick"
For a song I was bought. Now I lie when I talk with a careful eye on the cue card.
Onto a stage, I was pushed with my sorrow well rehearsed.
So give me all your pity and your money. Now. All of it.
"We used to think that sound was something pure"
If I could act like this was my real life and not some cage where I've been placed,
then, I could tell you the truth like I used to and not be afraid of sounding fake.
Now all that anyone is listening for are the mistakes.
In a house, by myself, I hear the ice start to melt and watch rooftops weep for the sunlight.
And I know what must change. Fuck my face. Fuck my name.
They are brief and false advertisements for a soul I don't have.
Something true I have lacked and spent my whole life trying to make up for.
But I found in a song and in the people I love. They will lift me up out of darkness.
Now my door stands open. I am inviting everyone in. We will drink.
We will laugh until the morning comes. That is what we are going to do.
(Bright Eyes)
I don't think lj-cuts work here. Deal with it.
I have about 5 inches of space right now because my mom shampooed the carpet, thus pushing everything up against the computer. But, she did not use shampoo like normal people. No. She used VINEGAR. So, I am squished, about to suffocate due to smell, and very, very hot.
Fair was interesting. Gwen and I had fun by ourselves, since that is how we usually were. I was about to shoot the sexist pig working at the Thunderbolt. I was also about to shoot other people as well. Ring of Fire is so much more fun at the very top then second to top, as Gwen and I found out. Today I shall go again. I wish someone else was going, besides my family, but oh well. I am going to go visit Ashley and her bunnies. Highlight of last night: these hot dudes. Pathetic, but *drool*...one had on a pink shirt and long hair pulled back. He sat across from me on the Pharoh's Fury. I just sat and stared....*pathetic*...and then in line for the Ring of Fire, there was this dude with blonde poofish hair, a labret piercing, and hot emo glasses. HOT!!! He took off his glasses and lacked the hottness, but was still nonetheless.
I DON'T WANT SOME WEIRD FUCKING CHURCH LADY WATCHING MY HOUSE! I DON'T EVEN KNOW THIS STUPID PERSON, BUT MY MOM IS BEING A FUCKING BITCH ABOUT IT!! SHE DOES NOT EVEN KNOW HER LAST NAME! IT IS JUST THE "DONNA THAT HAD A STROKE"..
Next entry may be from Eureka.
Fuck you........
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2004 30 July :: 3.11pm
You're emo music! You like to hang out with friends
and listen to sappy love songs, broken-hearted
losers and talk shit about everyone else.
Loosen up a little bit.
What kind of music are you?
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That isn't very friendly = (...I don't talk crap about people and am sometimes very loosened up..
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2004 30 July :: 2.52pm
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: ac
Stupidity at its greatest
My mom gave 300 hundred fucking bucks to her CHURCH!!!! I can't fucking believe that! HOW DUMB! WE DON'T HAVE 3 HUNDRED BUCKS FOR A FUCKING CHURCH
And Nick doesn't love me = (
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2004 28 July :: 11.48pm
Donald-kun wants the address to this journal. Shall I give it to him? Nooooooo.... well...... noooo..... Hmmm... If I do, being that he has promised to not criticize anything, I may say what I want:
*ahem ahem* DONALD-KUN'S A POO-POO HEAD!
Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee haha!
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2004 26 July :: 4.35pm
:: Mood: fidgity
:: Music: Brahms Cappricio in F# min.; Op. 76, No. 1
Just another manic monday...
I had full intention to go running this morning, but didn't. I meant to shave today, but haven't. I've yet to brush my teeth. And I've read nothing out of Once and Future King today. That's four negative points.
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I've had a wonderful piano rehearsal all day, I got my trumpet back from the repair shop, someone told me they appreciate my poetic writing, which has led me on my excavation of old works to start The Morgue, and I'm looking forward to soccer. Five for the positive.
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So today has so far been positive, it seems. Also, negative points tend to be separated by periods, while positive points get commas... slightly strange.
Without realizing it, I've pretty much told y'all my day. Lovely. Short and to the point. Disturbingly so.
Oh, wait. Our computer has been having internet connection problems lately, so we may get the modem replaced on Wednesday... I wonder how much of that has to do with me always erasing history and such on the internet... I'm assuming that could be a good reason... oh well.
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2004 25 July :: 7.56pm
:: Mood: alive and breathing
:: Music: "Ammunition" - Switchfoot
sirens and flashing lights
I feel as though I'm in limbo at the moment. Time's certainly seemed to have slowed down, and nothing is happening here. Plus, my stomach is screwed up right now, and I can feel everything moving through my digestive system... interesting, but disgusting and somewhat painful.
But ignoring the state of the moment, things are looking... about like the state of the moment. I'm having a very melancholy time right now. We went down to Bozeman to visit my grandma. She's doing well, though she's smoking even more than usual. Not good for any of us who were there. My aunt Diane was there too, and she made for some good conversation. Dad and the dog stayed home because both were sick, and the sister was at camp, so *we* is really the mother and me. I intended to get new soccer shoes, but just about everyone is out of stock, so I'll have to order from Eurosport... We went to the soccer shop in Bozeman... sad sad efforts. Then we were driving back along main street and came upon the Crazy Days sales. Ended up stopping at a shoe store where I bought a new pair of street shoes, though they sadly weren't on sale. Then on Saturday, Mom, Diane, and I went garage sale hopping. Diane got a variety of things, my mom got a pressure cooker, and I got an oversized book of literature. 1000-some pages for 25¢... not too bad of a deal, I'd say.
But, despite our fun times, I've been feeling stripped away inside. I did a lot of window shopping for guys... Not the greatest morale booster. I'm feeling more and more shitty about my situation because 1. I'm being horribly dishonest with many people including my family and 2. I'm desparately wanting a relationship with someone... It's a big leap to try to fix either of those issues, and I don't have the will right now to do it.
We have one chance, one chance to get everything right. We have one chance, one chance, and if we're lucky we might. My friends, my habits, my family, they mean so much to me. I just don't think that it's right. I've seen so many ships sail in, just to head back out again and go off sinking... ~Modest Mouse "One Chance"
I'm wanting to fix it all now, and I know that trying to do that is going to make things worse. I have so many low-confidence issues right now. Each thing, one at a time. I live for a tomorrow and hope that I can accomplish one task in that day. One thing at a time, a slow evolution, a slower enjoyment... Life can be a painful process at times, and this is certainly a time.
I need a creative release.
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