�~[:.L.u.M.i.N.e.S.c.E.n.T.:]~�

:: 2004 20 March :: 3.50pm

I'd really love it if y'all came to OUR play tonight...

:: 2004 20 March :: 3.49pm
:: Mood: depressed/contemplative/tired
:: Music: You're a shining star!...Can you feel the love tonight?

Don't mind me.
I think I made Mishelle's bday party hell. Sorry, Mishelle.

I may go to the play with Kelsey tonight. I hope I can.

So sick, so sick of being tired, and oh so tired of being sick....I love Taking Back Sunday. I am borrowing it from Alex. Along with other emo stuff. I feel emo. Yay emo!

I wish I knew what was wrong with me. I am not being myself at all. It seems like I am incapable of being bubbly or having any personality at all, or being like I usually am. I hate it. I am only tired, depressed, or apathetic. I slept for a long time last night and I am still tired.

I am going to go listen to emo and sleep.

chuckitatthewall

:: 2004 19 March :: 10.46pm

GO FUCK URSELVES U BITCHES!
I HATE FUCKIN EVERYONE RIGHT NOW. NINO FUCKIN SHOULD DIE IN FUCKIN HELL. THERE IS SOMEBODY ELSE WHO I'M PISSED AT BUT I'M NOT GONNA PUT THEIR NAME. WHAT THE HELL EVER FUCKIN HAPPENED TO MANNERS?? HUH? DOES ANYONE FUCKIN KNOW?! IF THEY EVER FIND WHERE PEOPLES MANNERS WENT THEY NEED TO FUCKIN TELL ME! I HATE NINO SOOOOOOOOO MUCH! CAN I EMPHASIZE (SP) ENOUGH HOW MUCH I FUCKIN HATE HIM???!!! i think i'm going through a depression time or something. i dont fuckin know what it fuckin is. i want to hurt everyone and i want lots of people to die. i'm not saying i'm perfect but it hurts me to see everyone elses imperfections. i hate it. i hate the way people are. there are so many bad people in this world who dont give a shit about anyone elses feelings. i know that i'm not always nice but i do care about how people feel or would feel from the way i act. i started crying right in the middle of l.a class today cause maria wrote "i'll miss u" on a thing we did for jessica. it was so nice and i guess i've been being really emotional lately so that was just too much. then nino said "why r u crying" or something. IT WAS SOOOOO FUCKIN MEAN! I HATE EVERYONE RIGHT NOW. I HOPE EVERYONE DIES. MAYBE NOT EVERYONE...BUT MOST PEOPLE.
GRADUATION IS ONLY 8 WEEKS AWAY...I THINK THAT THATS A PIECE OF ME ACTING SO UPSET ALL THE TIME. BYE

:: 2004 18 March :: 6.47pm
:: Mood: depressed and bitchy
:: Music: No Doubt..*NSYNC - God must have spent a little more time on you

I am fucking peachy. How are you?
There was SEX on the school football field today O_O

Chrisitie has a crush on SETH!!! Seth has a crush on Christie! It is so cute!!!

I still need to write my resume for crew >'.'<

We are doing a "talent contest" in drama. I, being talentless me, am doing my SOI piece. Exciting, eh? I should find someone else to do something with, too.

I am pathetic. I should get over it.

:: 2004 16 March :: 6.18pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: FUSE

It is coming baaaaackkk!!!
I am now going to prom. Thank Kelsey.

1 left their imprint | leave your imprint?

:: 2004 16 March :: 6.38am
:: Mood: really tired
:: Music: VH1

the play will kill me...
Yeah... I had soccer yesterday, then I had to rush over to play rehearsal, which was 4 hours long last night... I was at school until 11 for a little bell ringing... WHY did I sign up for sound crew? Oh, right, I was doing my civic duty to the drama crew, because someone has to do the crap job.
Oh, and apparantly, I'm now going to OUR prom with Quincy, and I'm supposedly going as Frank... yes... I don't think we've got the details quite worked out on that...
g'day!

:: 2004 16 March :: 7.52am
:: Mood: cynical
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday - Your Own Disaster...LTJ - Teenager in love..I want you to want me

Meh. Formally.
I went to bed about 7 last night. A full ten hour night!

I have been noticing stuff lately...Like how cute this one chick is....And she has the most awesome glasses! They are all like cat-eyed sorta and have sparkly jewel things on edges...She has orangeish-red hair as well. There is also another chick with BRIGHT red hair and she had red makeup when I saw her and she was so awesomely cute...Alright. Alex (JIMMY) is right...cute does sound young :-p. But she was!

With guys I am not even noticing looks anymore..well...noticing:yes, but caring:no...so I am gathering more crushes there...I am just too shy.

Which brings me to my next point. I am constantly pushing everyone away. I HATE IT. I am shy AND I push people away which means I lose alot more than I should. It fucking sucks how I can not stand to be close to anyone as much as I may want to. Quite depressing, really..

ITEDs (IOWAS!) start today. = )

:: 2004 14 March :: 9.31pm

but I guess this whole journal crap won't matter much, considering woohu will probably close down anyway within the next month.

:: 2004 14 March :: 9.28pm
:: Mood: dismembered
:: Music: The Matrix

it's hard to say what tragedy is
Yeah, the world seems to crumble around us, and it seems we don't have much room to walk anymore. But, hey, we always asked for our solitude. Ironic, how our insanities come from sane complaints.
I read the Trib article today about testing going on in the next few weeks... God... I'm already pissed about Iowas coming up, but then it hit me that NCLB tests are coming too... Fuck... I don't know if I've got much faith in the sophomores... They're the group that decides on sink or swim of the school... Not to mention my parents' occupations... Alexander, you may hate me for this one, but look what the republicans started this time. And I can't fucking believe that they got support for all this... Stress...
And I just noticed today that my music for Symphonic tryouts is missing... I really hope there are more copies...
Oh, and just fucking wonderful. My mother finally found out that I have an online journal:
Lacey: "What are you doing right now?"
Me: "I'm on my journal."
She: "Oh, well I need to print something off later" *walks upstairs*
mom: *rushing down stairs* "What is this?
Me: my journal
she: why is it online
me: because I'm too lazy to put it on paper
she: who can read it?
me: nobody, unless I want them to
she: like who?
me: like Michelle, Jessika, and Roxanne
she: is this the thing that got you in trouble with Schylar?
me: no **thinking: what the fuck?**
carrying on in the convo, me pissed at her, she unhappy with the whole idea
So then, Lacey comes back down, and I bitch on her, because I've been trying to keep this journal quiet, because I know my parents are too fucking stupid to understand some things need to be kept quiet to them. She's all "well, you didn't tell me you wanted to keep it secret from them."
"there are a lot of things I tell you that I don't want them to know."
"well, you didn't say it straight out"
"whatever"
And how the fuck would my mom know about what's been going on with me and schylar unless lacey said something... FUCK! I can't trust anyone again. It's all screwed.

4 left their imprint | leave your imprint?

:: 2004 14 March :: 11.19pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: Home movies

Damn little boy
The little boy was in a bad mood when he came home. My mom ended up slapping him because he was bad mouthin her, being disrespectful, and just talking uneducatedly. He kicked her back, so she slapped him again. He grabbed the bag of apples and threw them at her. Then they were all out brawlin...all on the floor...he kicking, she punching....Then they ended it, he got up and ran to John's house. (John is his friend)..He called his dad and he came and picked him up from there. The dad called the mom and she would not talk. The little boy called the mom and she talked to him, and he ended up talking for his dad...they were threatening her to take Marty as well as Harley and press charges against my mom...So then she hung up and would not answer any more. She called the cops and asked what to do. The only thing possible is for her to report the little boy as a runaway...so she is doing that. She went to her work to get the divorce papers and then down to the police station. I am all alone...

This may sound bad, but I want her to come back so she can do my hair. It looks bad :-p.

...I hope nothing bad happens...

:: 2004 14 March :: 1.24am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Dave the Barbarian!

Quiz time
HASH(0x88a48a0)
Rain: You are the sound of rain. You have two
important sides. There is your strong, powerful
side and your calm, gentle side. Both are very
important. Rain also reflects a bit of darkness
in your personality. It isn't bad, just shows
that along with the good, you also can see bad,
which can come in handy. (please rate my quiz)

What Sound Are You?(now w/ pics)
brought to you by Quizilla

Water
You are guided by water. You are generally calm and
peaceful, but you can be very destructive
without even realizing it.(Rate my test)

What force is your soul?
brought to you by Quizilla

...I feel watery and wet....(DO NOT MISINTERPRET -_-)

hhrfyj
your dark and mysterious..you have a hidden talent
but you don't tell anyone..its probably an art
of some kind...you don't let people get that
close to you because you've been hurt
alot...your tough and independant..your
actually alot like me....cool..please rate..

What emotion does your soul hold...(kinda for girls but either can take)
brought to you by Quizilla

You are Cleopatra of the Nile. The great
biographer of the time, Plutarch, wrote of
Cleopatra, 'Her actual beauty, it is said, was
not in itself so remarkable that none could be
compared with her, or that no one could see her
without being struck by it, but the contact of
her presence, if you lived with her, was
irresistible . . . It was a pleasure merely to
hear the sound of her voice, with which, like
an instrument of many strings, she could pass
from one language to another . . .' You have a
spark in you that draws other people to you.
Indeed, you are drawn to others because you are
always curious. People can talk to you; and
you have a passion in life to know, live, love,
and learn. Please rate my quiz.

What famous female ruler are you? (written for the girls)
brought to you by Quizilla

:: 2004 13 March :: 9.11pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: "Milk" - Garbage

this is life...
Grey Vibes
Your Energy is Grey. Your thoughts are unclear,
muddled, and confusing. Dark thoughts or
depression may be clouding your true colors.
It may be that you have been hurt and rejected,
or maybe you are just manipulative, dark, and
evil.

What color is your energy?
brought to you by Quizilla

nef...
Couldn't have had a better day... ha...
Since the tourneys are over, I have to say the weekends seem pretty dull... Life at home is very dragging... and since I won't bother with my homework right now... oy... Can't say I've been too successful with chatroom conversations either... well... that's it... blah... death...

5 left their imprint | leave your imprint?

:: 2004 13 March :: 7.02pm
:: Mood: Tired
:: Music: K99...I am too lazy to change it.

Lyke Oh My. God. Lyke totally freak my out I said right on!
Nirvana
Grunge! You're all about the music and would even
turn your back on fame just to stay true to
your roots... You reached your high in the
early '90s, but you're still making some good
stuff! Keep rocking!

What genre of rock are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

I am so tired.

I got an AP today. It has nakee people on front. O_O

We also got about a hundred burritos. There was a big sale going on.

chuckitatthewall

:: 2004 12 March :: 10.43pm

oo school....
i'm going to begin by talking about today cause it was REALLY good. we went to church today like we do every friday and i was walking back from communion and someones cell phone was going off and i cant remember what the music was but it was funny. so then everything was the same as usual until l.a class. we had this substitute, Mrs. Duffy, cause our regular teacher was doing something else. i hate mrs. duffy. jessica sits in the front right where Mrs. duffy decided to stand to give instructions. when we got there jessica and eric were talking to her about asia and where she'd been and eric was talking about the languages. so jessica was asking about stuff and i could tell that mrs. duffy was getting annoyed but i still wanted to ask her if she'd been to england...i didnt. then later on in the period she was acting really bitchy and she almost gave bobby a misconduct for yelling out to much. i dont think he does but maybe thats because i'm so used to it. (I'm going to start using proper capitalizations because I realized how stupid I look when I don't) Then Jessica was being random again and asked her if she knew that Jessica was related to the first duke of England. She said "no" then Jessica asked her if she knew what "chloraphobia" (sp) was and she said "no" again. Then she asked Jessica "Are you always this random" or something like that. She kind of had an attitude when she said it and I thought it was really rude. What the hell is wrong with being random? I just think that she has a stick stuck up her ass that would probably take years to remove. I feel bad for her daughter. There was some other stuff but I don't feel like typing about it.
Science was deffinately the best period of the day. I went over to sit next to Jessica. Ooo Kyle. He is so fuckin hot in a weird way. I don't think that if you saw him on the street you would say "Oh wow! That guy is hot!". I think it is more like you have to know him to think that. Somebody was talking about a fake tattoo that they had and then he said something about how his are better. Then he did the best thing he has done since the end of the year swim party last year. He lifted up his shirt to show his tattoos! KYLE WITH HIS SHIRT UP! HOW NICE! Allow me to describe what it looks like. He doesn't have muscles or anything but there is no fat at all. He is very tan naturally and it looks SOOO nice. I think that there should be a rule that says Kyle cannot wear a shirt when its hot outside. That would be a good, GOOD rule. i know this is going to sound dumb but I'm going to say it anyway. I just find it funny that we were born in the same hospital on the same day of the same year, we both have gone to the same school for 9 years, and we both have outy belly buttons. lol. well i used to but sadly, not anymore. My sister says that we are meant for eachother...I wish she was right. Anyway, getting back to science class and Kyle and how he acted during it. I was trying to figure out what we were supposed to be doing on an assignment so I said "What are we doing" then looked up and said "Eachother." then later on I said it again and he said "Were humping". I didn't really know what to say either time and I did think it was funny so I laughed at it. GOD! HES SO FUCKIN HOT!
so then after school my sister took louise, sarah, and I to Target so we could get School of Rock. I love that movie. As we were driving in the parking lot we passed Starbucks and Sarah saw what looked like a pig and she announced it. We all looked and then my sister pulled over and offered to let us out to pet the pig. So we got out of the car and then the "pig" looked at us. We all realized at the same time that it wasnt a pig. It was a dog. lol. Sarah yelled "Dude, its a dog" and then we all ran back to the car. lol it was sooo funny.
yesterday...OOO PAINFULL! I had the pleasure of learning how to slide. I did it completely wrong and scratched up my right knee, left elbow and even my stomache. Now my shoulders hurt from it but it was pretty fun minus the scrapes.
I forgot to put this up there so I'll put it here instead. I got all B's on my report card! YAY! thats the first time in like 2 years.
Tomorrow is our first game. FUN!...yea right. were gonna suck. i'm not holding out to much hope for this game. GOOD LUCK US! okay i'm done cause i'm tired.
night night fools!