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2004 4 March :: 5.36pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: BoFlex commercial...LostProphets
People are dying, I think.
Last night around 2 in the morning, I was awoken by a pounding. It kind of sounded like it was on the door, but kind of not. I was too groggy to go figure out, so I yelled at it to stop. I felt better since it obeyed. I was in near sleep mode and it began again. I yelled again and it didn't stop...so I kept yelling and finally it did. I woke up and decided to stay home like I should forever. Later the tiwns and my mom discovered this spot and then a line. In my opinion it looked like a melted crayon and then a line drawn in different crayon because of the texture crayons seem to leave on the walls. Harley said it was ink. But oh no, ditch the logical (not that those were LOGICAL persay...just better), and my mom concluded it is black blood. JOY. Someone is BLEEDING in our walls. And it is brought on by bad music, tv, and video games. Yup. She is now going to "bless" our house on Saturday. I don't know if I would rather have someone save me that day or stay to make sure they leave my room spawning demonic things. *shrug*
I think I should try school again tommorrow
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2004 2 March :: 8.04pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Fairly Oddparents
Oh dear god.
So...I was really feeling shitty today. The only high point was remembering that my mom said she would take me to the doctor today. I was making her brownies and she came home. I brought it up and suddenly she was saying how she had never said she would even think about taking me tonight and definitely not. I get all emotionally inbalanced and stuff when I get sick. I began to cry. I went upstairs and was all out bawling. I could not help it. She called me down and was all bitchy and yelling. If we were going at all, it was going to be right now and I was getting my way just like always...blahblahblah. The seriously did not help my tears stop. So we went...I was crying the entire time we were in the waiting room. I finally stopped as my name got called. My mom said I was there for a little cold that I won't shut up about. Tears again. Nurse lady took my temperature...all that good stuff. Asked how long I had had my cold. I said it seemed like more than a cold...told her of the yuckiness..the lack of being able to breath. Oh and the mom said "She has been spitting up bile" and laughed at me. She said I would be dead had I been. Nurse made it seem like I was all right and all that good stuff. She left and I began to cry again. Once I stopped we had been waiting for like 10 minutes. Waited another ten. Doctor dude came in. Still made it seem like I had a little cold. Turns out I did. He called it Mononucleiosis. Yup. I gots me some mono. He said it was spreading like wildfire around the school. I began to cry again. There is nothing to do about it. Just deal with it. He is not sure if I have it definitely or not, but more than likely, and even if it was definite, it would be pointless just to know. As he was sitting there watching me cry, he brought up depression. I seemed to have the sympoms and all that good stuff. Nice of my mom to pipe in and say how "demanding" I was. He said depression hightens illness. all that good stuff. Yah. I know it. My mom kept going on about me being demanding and all bipolarish and crap. It came up that my dad had serious bipolar and and schizoeffective or something and she has severe depression. So now I shall be on Zoloft. Not Prozac...she wants to make sure I am taking my own pills as I constantly steal hers ;-). I need to sleep or cry or die or something.
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2004 1 March :: 6.07pm
:: Mood: hot
:: Music: Disney Channel
gng
Well...I stayed home today. I am running out of days quickly = (. I woke up at 11 after going to bed at 10:30....then I went back to sleep at noon till 3:20. I think I am on the path of sleeping my life away again.
I feel kinda bad for Roxanne. Barbi and I were gone today. We 3 are in a group and our thing is due tommorrow.
I think my house was burning down earlier today. It stunk and now is all hot and stuff.
I am cooking mozzarella sticks. I also forgot what was supposed to go here.
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2004 29 February :: 3.29pm
:: Mood: apathetic
:: Music: Christian stuff
Wooo!...?
Hecate
?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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Last time I do believe I got Morpheus.... *shrug*
BTW....IT IS SNOWING!!!!!!!!!! ;_;
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2004 28 February :: 11.03pm
:: Mood: old ladyish
Wooo!...?
I am dying my hair right now. I have to walk all hunched over so my hair won't fall off te top of my head. I also can't see. I had taken out my contacts, and my glasses won;t work because I can not look up enough. So my typing sucks. As you can all see.
Today I got Mozzarella sticks (YUM), the Da Vinci code, a swimsuit, hair dye, some protein drink, and my mom to say she will FINALLY take me to the doctor on Monday. YAYAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!
Well...my back hurts. See y'all later.
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2004 28 February :: 10.37am
:: Mood: groggy
:: Music: *scratch*...The puppy wants in.
I have a dream....that one day....my three children....
Ok. I did indeed have a dream last night. Just not like Martin Luther King. Nope. Mine was fun. And had a few members of AFI in it. It goes as such:
I am not sure why, but Davey and Adam (the drummer ;- )) were going to stay in Great Falls for a weekend. I offered to give them rooms and such, so they were staying with me. For some unknown reson to myself, I went off and stayed the night with Roxanne the first night they were here. If some AFI was in my house, I would not leave....But anywho. I came back pretty early Saturday. I discovered I could talk with them slightly, but whenever I wanted to start a conversation, I couldn't. I looked at them and said "It's YOU. I can't!" Fianally, I began to warm up to Adam. We had some interesting conversations. While we were out, it had snowed, melted and somehow snow was on the ground again. It was like 60 degrees out... Stupid Montana weather. We decided to go to the store. Davey wanted the "Thirst Quencher"...I figured out he wanted Sprite, but they did not have any. We got the next best thing. Then we looked again and found it, after the store dude told us they had none. So Davey got sarcastically annoyed and stole a tiny little thing of soda after saying "This'll teach ya", but then a store person came and he got caught. Somehow he got off the hook, and we checked out our stuff. The store clerk(the one that caught Davey stealing) looked over at me, gave me an evil look, and pointed saying "You had better watch out. I will get you." It creeped me out beyond all reason. I was happy when we left. We went back to my house, and I found out they also have Woohu journals = p. So, I added them to my friends page.
Shortly after, my puppy came and woke me up. It was 7:45 im the morning for Christ's Sake!
I realized I really need a boyfriend. Pathetic, eh?
I lost another death yesterday. Ironically I keep getting sicker and sicker. Coinkydink? I think not. I shall now go die in my sleep.
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2004 28 February :: 11.38pm
:: Mood: weird
Waterfall
?? Which Natural Wonder Or Disaster Are You ??
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You belong in the land of darkness, otherwise known
as one of the worlds in which I dwell. All here
is beauty inspired by tragedy and great sorrow.
Write or go through other creative outlets to
express the anguish you may be feeling, and
never let anyone tell you that you are just
being 'weepy' or full of 'teenage angst'(if
you're a teenager.If not, then they really
should be punished for calling you one. They
probably are trying to insult your
maturity...fools.)and always remain yourself,
dark and amazing. Never change.
Where do you belong?(ANIME IMAGES)
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Well well well, the old fashioned 17th century
vampire, one of my faves. You look for the good
things in life, you posses a lot of classical
class, and follow that of the original
vampires, you have no shame in what you are,
infact you embrace it, you love it and wouldn't
have it any other way. Your wealth is
unspeakable and your way of luring people with
your mystical ways and looks is amazing, and
most people would often call you The
Seductress.
What Kind Of Vampire Would You Be? (Cool answers, AND FOR GILRS UNLESS YOU ARE A CROSSDRESSER)!
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You are a water spirit known as an Undine. Undines
are usually found in forest pools and
waterfalls. They have beautiful voices and can
sometimes be heard singing over the sound of
the water. An offering of perfume will keep
them in your favour. Love rules in this
'watery' creature.
What Magical Creature are You?
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You are an Inu Yasha master! You know everything
there is to know about the show. ^_^ I applaud
you.
Inu Yasha Quiz (HARD)
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2004 27 February :: 9.55pm
everything was nice till i woke up...
i'm bored and there is nothing better do so i find myself writing about my bad day right now.
i got up and my bad day began. i froze as i put my uniform on and then i went down stairs to eat some breakfast...i ate cheese. lol. being catholic during lent sucks. no meat on fridays and according to my mom you have to "sacrifice for jesus". i dont care..i hate being catholic..its so fuckin annoying. so we got in the car and i said "mom, why exactly cant i go to the dance tonight" and she said "i dont know..its lent and you have to make som sacrifices." so i said "well does that mean i cant go to any during lent" and she said "we'll go week to week". at this point i was getting pissed cause she always has to drag god and catholocism (sp) into everything! so i asked (with attitude) why she has to drag the church into everything and she got really mad at me. so we go to the end of the block where we turn to go down the other street to get to one of the big roads and she started to slow down a shit load and there isnt even a stop sign there so i was like "jeeze mom you gonna get us killed if you slow down like that" that did not help at all...it made things twice as bad. so then she was starting to yell and said "marilyn, why dont you shut up until you know how to drive?!" then i did. so i pulled out a math packet that i needed to get signed but was going to take a missing assignment for so i wouldnt get grounded from the dance which was pointless cause i did anyway. then she found out what my "game" was and got even more angry. so we got to this intersection/ merging spot on the road and i dont know what i said but she slapped me for it and i looked out the window cause i didnt feel like looking at her and she accused me of trying to see if the guy next to us saw and was gonna call cps on her. (that was a big runon sentence..oh well) we finally got to school and i didnt want to give her one of those sitting down hugs or even say goodbye and she got really mad at that too.
school was much more fun that that car ride that really only lasted 15 minutes but seemed like an eternity. at first i was acting really bitter and angry and i threw my books on the ground..it was a tantrum i admit it but i was so fuckin pissed that i needed to be a bit violent. i think i hurt louises leg a couple of times when i threw my books. so when she reads this..I'M SORRY! (and i'm also sorry for not being so nice on the internet tonight too) i almost got another pink slip today for religion and that would have been my detention but luckily she never collected the thing. during lunch stephanie was moaning cause of her pms cramps really loud. she like screams and it hurts my ears as well as everyone else around her. spanish was the best period. jessica was doing this really weird thing where she would kinda sit forward in the chair then move back really fast and it would hit my desk and move my whole chair thing back and down the row of desk things. at one point amanda told jessica to stop but it was so funny...you kinda had to be there to think that. then eric kept farting and it smelled SOO bad and he named them "zippy" lol. jessica started fanning the air and he said "thats the bad thing about zippy..he doesnt go away when you do that" or something like that..it was so nasty. we got our tests back and i had an average of 31/58 right and for some reason today that was especially funny. i think that we were just laughing at everything though. lol it was fun.
after school we kept singing the song "this is the new shit" by marilyn manson. then my mom came......... i think that should sum everything up but i'll speak more. i got in the car along with sarah and louise cause we take them home everyday and i said "so..what am i grounded from." and she said some stuff along the lines of we'll talk about this and i wasnt gonna talk about it in front of your friends. then she said "tomorrow i'm going to take you to a jail to show you were all the bad kids go." and i asked her why and said that she couldnt cause i have softball that i cant miss. then she said "yea i know but we can have you home by noon" so i got irritated and said 'why? its not like being rude to you is gonna turn me into a convict" then she said "i was kidding..your dad and i have to go up for some guy your dads defending" enough about that.
everyone is at the dance tonight but jason isnt there so louise cant beat him without me! YAY! well i have a really bad headache so i'm gonna go.
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2004 27 February :: 6.18pm
:: Mood: Weak
:: Music: Rocko's Modern Life!!!!!
My leg hurts.
Well....more pea soup-like substance this morning...
My computer is fucking up. I have to get on under my brother's name. Bleh.
I was about to stay home today, but I had stayed home Wendesday, and I am using my ten days sparingly. I was so weak and tired today...I nearly passed out or died or something in choir and history.
I need to go sleep now.
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2004 26 February :: 10.14pm
these past 2 days have been much better than the other bad days that happened earlier. so..tuesday was our schools version of mardi gras and it was fun. jessica, louise, and i walked around we went to the cake walk and louise won a cake. he was a chocolate cake with chocolate frosting and we named him henry and ate part of him using our fingers. it tasted really yummy. then we walked around a bit more and i dunno what we did until jessica needed to go work at a 3rd grade booth thing. louise and i sat there and laughed a lot and then we went to go get some more junk food. we went and a root beer float for jessica, 2 nacho things and 2 sodas for us. we looked like big fat pigs carrying all of it back but it was really good.
so yesterday sucked. our softball practice was rained out so i couldnt beat or yell at ruben..oh well. i will see him on monday if it doesnt fuckin rain. i'm not saying i hate the rain but i really wanted to go to practice for that reason. oh well.
TODAY WAS GOOD! this morning i got 6 boxes of girl scout cookies from jennifer..YUM! oh dude i could eat girl scout cookies all the time.so then we went to our classes and lunch was nice. we ate our food then we went out side (me louise jessica jennifer and anna) and i suggested that we go annoy sarah stephanie and lynn for entertainment. so we went without anna or jennifer and ended up stopping half way down the intermediate hallway to look in at the 4th graders t.v cause they were watching willy wonka and the chocolate factory. so we watched for like 5 minutes or something then mrs. gurries walked passed us and went a little further and i dont know what we did but she said "ladies, i dont think you should be doing that. go back to your homeroom" she might not have said those exact words but it was something similar to that. dude we werent even doing anything bad..since when cant we peak into a class room?! stupid butt face.
WELL I HAVE TO GO CAUSE MY SISTER IS BEING A BITCH!
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2004 26 February :: 9.30pm
:: Mood: Take a guess.
:: Music: Full House
BOO!!
Lonliness dominates you. You can hide it well, but
its there, and your friends can see it. You
constantly feel alone, and need to do things to
fill your time. Your afraid to tell people
this, but sooner or later it gets out in a bad
way, and you think you screwed up everything.
And when you are in love is when you are sad
the most. (Please Vote)
What Emotion Dominates you?
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2004 25 February :: 10.21pm
:: Mood: existant
:: Music: "Perfectly in My Way" - BallyRag
sorry for the no update...
yeah... I've been busy trying to finish up ORB... well, no worries, I have the page count now...
Today... nothing special. We schedualed for classes. Pep assembly (band's going to state, yay!) ... which by the way, means I will be gone Friday and Saturday, just for the heads up...so... classes were about 30min. long today because of all the *special happenings* ... yes... um... doughnuts in band today (the concert was last night... um, best that none of y'all came) .... yeah... nothing too special.
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2004 25 February :: 10.19pm
:: Mood: nostalgic
:: Music: Sister Sister
I have typed this fucking entry three times.... *angry face insert*
You adopt a child. Do you tell them they are adopted or not? If you don't, they will remain oblivious. They will not know what they are missing, so will forever be in happiness with you. (Judging that they have no way of finding out except you.) Or...do you tell them? They may hate you for not telling them sooner, or whatever, as it seems they would, but that will pass, correct? They will spend time now searching for parents that they more than likely will never find. There WAS some reasons there parents did not want them, or could not handle them. They will never find the parents they search for. But, they will love you all the more for telling them and being honest, right?
Which way is more correct? O_o
On another note, I coughed up stuff that looked like pea soup. It was all the puke green color and thick and chunky. Rather yucky.
I still have to put the finishing touches on my egg drop. That thing was such a fucking nuisance!!!!!!!!!!! I had to CUT the sticks with scissors to make it small enough. My hand hurts ;_; I need to put pretty pictures on it now. And test it... = - /
I gave my white guitar to Shane. I have no use for 3 guitars.
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2004 24 February :: 9.23pm
:: Mood: nostalgic
:: Music: dog barking incessantly
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Certain things really reminded me of other things today....like a chain reaction of good things.....bad memories to have when you know they will never again be. Meh....oh well. "Hakuna Matata", right? Got to put your past behind you. No going back. Get over it.
Harley's little nerdy friend likes me. JOY. *puke*
I may stay home tommorrow. I still feel all sick and stuff. It was funny. Today in Science, I realized my base was way too big. Annie said she would help me fix it, and she ended up literally sawing off popsicle stick with a big pair of dull science scissors. She also happened to get glue all over the desk. Mr. Logan will kill us tommorrow = ).
Speaking of death, there are around 5 people that have asked me to kill them over the past year or 2. I am willing to do it with a smile on my face, sure, but do I SEEM like the killer type???
Err....don't answer that.
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2004 24 February :: 8.12am
:: Music: "lethal industry"- Dj Tiesto
bah!
Well everyone i know i havnt upadated in awhile, i've been busy as heck, AND ive been grounded >.< well anyway, bunny's single again now, im single again >.<; and now tylers dating brandy O.o. well anyway, Mojo's evil father wont let me call her or visit her anymore, but he cant keep me away from her at school, hell no, i am never going to ditch her.i recently told a few people about a certain secret, and they took it well ^^; i didnt get screamed at or anything :ish happy: and i met a few friends online who i talk to, tis a list...lol :names off people:
shaitin
brandon
david
alex
....lol...and theres more but i forgot -.-
well im off to play rs...tty guys later!
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