*-|If there ever comes a day, When we can't be together, Keep me in your heart, I'll stay there forever.|-*
*-|If you live to be 100, I want to live to be 100 minus one day, so I never have to live without you.|-*
*-|We will be friends until forever, just you wait and see.|-*
- Winnie the Pooh
Goals are very important to have in one's life. Goals centralize the mind on reaching a destination that is wanted. All hopes and dreams are driven by the desire to accomplish them, so one could argue that life is an ambition -- a dream -- a hope -- some sort of strange goal -- and that life only goes on because of the wanting to go somewhere -- and anywhere. This could also mean that birth symbolizes the creation of a dream and that death symbolizes the completion and accomplishment of life. If life is a dream, then all we aspire in will come true if we believe enough.



 

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silversoldier

:: 2004 6 February :: 10.01pm
:: Mood: rockin'
:: Music: "Ghost Riders (A Cowboy Legend)"

today: ok day
Let's see... actually showered today. Yeah, my personal hygene has been rather shot for the past week... but things seem to be improving. Still haven't shaved, though. Anywho, on to school!!
English: even more (non) work on the essay (... yeah, did more reading on ORB instead). Biology: The Test!! Really easy test at that, but the test nonetheless. Algebra: The Other Test!! I completely forgot the *exact definitions* of laws of exponents for division... but that's only three points off the test... no worries. Lunch: really nothing exciting... sad lunch time. History: more Serbian research, along with sex talk with Bulgaria (they were my first invasion, after all!) Band: sight reading... really easy stuff, too. Spanish: not worth trying. Health: more nutrition... I'm already a nutrition freak...
And I saw Alisa after school. She says she'll probably break up with Mike (by the way, they got a PDA today...) because he's being a total ass and not caring about her.
Ok, I missed the Chudds, but darn. Pep band was awesome tonight. We really rocked (serious band-geekiness showing through)... anyways, the boys are going to state, meaning I'm going to state with the band with the boys with the basketball... HUZZAH!!

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chuckitatthewall

:: 2004 5 February :: 11.56pm

i liked today. i went to school and the guy who always rides through our school on his bike went through. i flipped him off but not so he or anyone else could see cause parents were dropping off their kids. then sarah and i walked over to where he had just gone through and i discovered that he smells really really good. i dont know what it was but it was yummy. also this guy in our class, aj, smells really good. axe is good stuff.
in religion class today nino raised his hand to answer something about some saint and said that the saint freed the people from jurisdiction. it didnt make sense at all cause you cant free someone from jurisdiction so miss doherty said "what does that mean?" and he didnt know so she said "nino, dont use words you dont know the meaning of in your work." he is always trying to use big words to sound intelligent but it just makes him sound dumb cause he doesnt make sense.
we had an assembly today and it was funny. people kept yelling stuff like "DAZZI! DAZZI!" LOL FUNNY! DUDE BONE MARROW IS FUN TO SAY!
MY MOM SAYS ITS TIME FOR A SHOWER. BYE!

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Jessika

:: 2004 5 February :: 7.40pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: News....*sizzle*...*type*...the usual

I am never good at subjects.
I FORGOT SOMETHING!!
I was waiting at the bus stop and a fight broke out across the street where the smokers hang out. Like 10 feet away from the school. After this guy beet the hell out of another guy, he got into a car that was waiting there: His mom's..his mom was sitting there watching him fight and did absolutely nothing about it all.....The bus ride home was full of discussions of what to do if we were that mom. We are a bunch of losers.




Today was very tiring. I was also hot all day. Not sure why.



At the prep assembly I got to sit on the floor in a chair!!!!! WOOOO for speech/debate!!!! I felt special ^_^....though I could not see over this swimmer's VERY ugly mullet...yes, the swimmers got haircuts. Most shaved their heads bald, 'cept mullet boy. It looks disgusting.

On that subject, Mark S. is a swimmer. Which means he is bald. Not only do bald guys look funny, but his best feature was his hair. = (....I touched the baldness, though! It feels cool! But I want a shirt that says "Bald guys suck" or something. Meant to be dirty, or not. Whichever I can depict the best.




Guess what!!! I get to get out of drama and math class (periods 1&2) to take....a MATH TEST that is very difficult!!! JOY!!!!!!!! *eye roll* I am in Kynett's honor class. So we were automatically entered in the "American Math Contest". Christie is in the same level math, but HER class doesn't have to do that!! I hate math!!! = (


Hmm....I think that is all....homework time....joy...*sarcasm again*

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silversoldier

:: 2004 5 February :: 5.23pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: "Points of Authority" - LP

Ok... on to today
If you didn't read my update on the rest of the week, please scroll down... I'm a chronological freak, after all.
Let's see... I got to bed about two and a half hours ahead of the norm (norm being 12 right now) yet I still slept in late... annoyances.
English: Notti set us loose on our essays. I really don't think I'm going to have a good one for this... plus I only worked on it for half the period. But that's OK, I was reading my ORB, so at least I was productive. Biology: YOU GUESSED WRONG!!! anyways, we reviewed today, but tomorrow will be more Punnet squares. Algebra: Very fun today. We had a sub (a rather good looking sub at that... yes, I've had crushes on teachers before. sue me... Birkenbuel **drool**) ahem... anyways, his name was Mark Kuntz, and instead of reviewing for our test, he talked to us about his acting carreer... Let's see, in the professional work, he was an extra in Signs and The Slaughter House. Other than that, he worked at Shakespeare in the Park, community theatre, etc. in Seattle, but moved back to Great Falls, because he's going broke. So, he's taken up sub teaching until he pools enough money to head out to LA.
Next section: Michelle, you damn well better be proud.
I HAD MONEY FOR LUNCH TODAY!!!! Yes, Jordann finally paid me for the extra credit points (biology is such a screwy class), so I could actually have food today. I told everyone I'd be going into hibernation soon, as I ate way more than usual.
History: More Serbia studies today. I feel like I'm giving out more websites to other countries than I'm finding for my own... anyways, doesn't matter... not at all. Band: a bit annoying... Kellogg got pissed off at half the band today.. oh well. I know I'm still his favorite-est trumpet player in the WHOLE band ^_^ I'm such an idiot in that class... but at least I can play. Spanish: I really need to transfer out of that class... I'm really learning nothing fast... P.E.: Our team was in the Toilet Bowl, as we were the suckiest of the sucky. And, we lost again (Carly was back...) so we got 10th out of 10!!! oh well... You know what, I think I've got a crush on Jessica... we've been kind of flirty through the whole tourney... oh well. I love everyone (except for those who I don't love... many many people, in fact... we will call those peole the non-everyones, but not the no ones... I'm a no one. Jesse's a no one... in fact, all my friends are no ones... but I still hold a special place in my heart for y'all.) Anyways, I'm home. Got an extention on the essay, so my night is somewhat open... not very, though.

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silversoldier

:: 2004 5 February :: 5.04pm
:: Mood: relieved
:: Music: Garbage

Sorry for the long silence...
I've been up to about midnight every night working on homework, so I really haven't had a chance to update... Well, I'll try to remeber as much as I can for y'all.
Monday:
I felt like a total paranoid freak in the morning, as I was scared out of my mind when I came back to the huge crowd of school... I really hate those days. Anyways, in English we were told that we had to do the Tribune contest (finish a love story). Biology: more Punnett squares. Algebra: solving extremely complex fractions... History: WWI video. Band: new song!! solo part (yay!). Spanish: gustar/encantar. Health: ... health...
Ok... Monday wasn't that exciting (actually it was, but I'm having memory lapse)
Tuesday:
English: Book discussion on OM/M... Ally got into feminism, I got into cynicism, everyone else got into romanticism (yay isms!). Biology: Punnett squares. Algebra: even more extremely complex fractions. History: finish WWI movie, get assigned countries for Reconn project, I get Serbia. Band: Just another band day. Spanish: aburrido. P.E.: got pissed @ Cassie, because she called me off a spike in midair, and I got hit in the face... we lost.
The basketball game was great, though (grr Michelle, grr you and your skull-stepping insolence :P) Kind of annoying that the game started late, but oh well. We band-ees sounded good, and the drill team had a very good routine. Ah yes, hung out with my sax player, and Luke put his hair in pigtails... cute...
Wednesday:
I presented my love story in English. I was shaking so much when I read it, because I didn't even know what I wrote (did it at midnight the night before). Apparently, it was very good, because Ms. Notti read it to all the other classes. Biology: ... Punnett squares... Algebra: very entertaining, because Mr. Mclean was hoarse from the basketball game the night before, so the class was actually tame for once. History: went to the library to research Serbia. Yay! I caused the war, and I began the end of it!! Band: ... don't remember... but it was a band day... Spanish: again, muy aburrido. Health: did a study on McD's vs. Subway. I'm much healthier @ Subway (big wow...) and my caloric intake @ McD's is around 1500... hehehe... Then, went to church for confirmation, didn't need to go, as I don't need to know when the NT was written (our reverend is some sort of historical freak)... ah, yes, and Alex told me he was writing a thesis on gay marriage for U.S. History... yay him, good for him, power to the people :P
So, I think I'll put today on another update, because otherwise my computer might fry trying to load this all...

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chuckitatthewall

:: 2004 4 February :: 11.40pm

LAST PERSON WHO...
. Slept in your bed: me and my dog on top
. Saw you cry: uh....my mom i think
. Made you cry: mr.vane and my aunt marie for dieing
. Spent the night at your house: hmm louise?
. You shared a drink with: i took a sip of my sisters drink w/out asking but thats not sharing really
. You went to the movies with: louise and jessica and anna was there
. You went to the mall with: sarah
. Yelled at you: my dad, he called me a jackass
. Sent you an e-mail:i dont know
. Said "I love you" to you: my mom

HAVE YOU EVER...
. Said "I love you" and meant it: yes but to a picture and to my family
. Been to New York: yup but not the city
. Been to Florida: yup
. California: well cause i live here yes
. Japan: no
. Mexico: no
. China: no
. Canada: almost
. Danced naked: yuck. no
. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: kinda. i had a dream i cussed out sarah then i cussed sarah out behind her back
. Got a really bad feeling about something then it happened: not really
. Wished you were the opposite sex: never
. Had an imaginary friend: yes. i remember he used to wear blue shirts a lot
. What are you going to do after you finish this survey: type some other stuff then be forced to go to bed
. What was the last food you ate: chicken and salad and a nasty red potatoe and spinach
. Are you bored: not really
. How many buddies are on: 17

WHAT WAS THE...
. Last movie you saw: in theatres LOTR and at home billy elliot or pirates of the carribean
. Last noise you heard: my mom tell my sister to be quiet
. Last time you went out of the state: last summer

. Hair Color: brown
. Eye Color: green on the outside and hazelish near the middle
. Height: 5'3
. Glasses/contacts: unfortunately yes
. Current Age: 13
. Siblings: 4 older sisters
. Siblings Ages: 23, 22 (in 2 days),20,19
. Location: san jose california
. Any Piercings: yuppers-ears
. Are You Timely Or Always Late: depends on whose driving
. Do You Have A Job: no
. Do You Like Being Around People: only if they dont shop at abercrombie

STUFF...
. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: of course
. Have You Ever Cried Over Something Someone of The Opposite Sex Did: stupid ass sean made me cry cause he cried
. Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: ENGLISH PEOPLE!
. Ever Liked a close Guy/Girl Friend: well he used to be my friend but i havent talked to him in a while and i like him now.

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
. Cried: yes..once again my aunt marie and mr.vane
. Bought Something: yes
. Sang: lol yes. i feel so bad for my family
. Said I Love You: no
. Missed Someone: yes
. Hugged Someone: yes
. Kissed Someone: no
. Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: day dreamed
. Had a lot of sleep: no
thats a nice survey. so today was nice. lynn stopped being mad at me but then started again this afternoon.
ruben, sarahs old boyfriend, just told me he thought i was hot. (JESSICA DO NOT TELL HER THAT) i dont think i believe him but hes not lieing then that is good. i admit that i like him but havent been able to cause of sarah. he is nice and i dont see why sarah doesnt like him but i dont really care.
so today in the car on the way home from ccd sarah started talking about owning cabins and stuff. she was complaining about owning only one house. we dont even own a house though so i felt kinda dumb but i said "yea i know the biggest thing we own is a car".everyone seems to think that just cause my dad is a lawyer that we are rich so its embarrassing when people find out that we rent our house. they dont realize that we did own a house once and we almost bought one but my sister always got sick and we had to back out of it.
i'm tired of writing. good night or day depending on when u read this

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linkedfantasy

:: 2004 4 February :: 9.02am
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: the ringing in my head

happy for once.... but i feel like im setting myself up for failure. i dont want to get overly excited.... the more excited you are, the more it hurts when u fall....
me and elanna are on speaking terms again. if u saw us a couple of months ago, you'd think we were inseperable. but that's not what my subject is about...it's about my birthday part at the skatium. laser tag...food...friends... it'll be awesome. almost too good to be true you know? so, i'm trying not to get too excited. hard habit to break since i've done it so much.
well.... im updating my journal and changed some stuff around. hope you like it.

forever and today
robert........

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LoupGarou

:: 2004 3 February :: 11.28pm

LAST PERSON WHO...
. Slept in your bed: Me
. Saw you cry: Probably Marilyn and Louise
. Made you cry: erm... school?
. Spent the night at your house: Marilyn and Louise
. You shared a drink with: Mikaela (I can't remember the last time I shared a drink with someone, but she's pretty much the only person who takes my drinks and actually drinks out of them)
. You went to the movies with: ...Marilyn and louise
. You went to the mall with: Mom and my sister and my grandma
. Yelled at you: Stephanie for spitting and kicking their lockers when we were mad at them ( I didn't spit! I just kicked! Wow I feel really low right now)
. Sent you an e-mail: Amanda M.
. Said "I love you" to you: Mom... no wait.... Dad...... oh whatever. One of my parents

HAVE YOU EVER...
. Said "I love you" and meant it: yes. To my family ^_^
. Been to New York: yup! I like it there! GO NEW YORK SONG! Sing it I say!
. Been to Florida: Yes. I'm going to Walt Disney World for Easter. SOUVENIERS FOR EVERYONE!
. California: Hmm... lemme think... No! Never! ....wait...... I live there.
. Japan: I wish
. Mexico: nuh uh
. China: nopers
. Canada: negative
. Danced naked: I sure hope not!
. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: Yesh
. Got a really bad feeling about something then it happened: Yesh
. Wished you were the opposite sex: When I was little
. Had an imaginary friend: Yes! His name was Peetree and he looked like a multicolored Grinch!
. What are you going to do after you finish this survey: poke people and talk
. What was the last food you ate: eggs with ham and home fries! (that's right folks, I ate breakfast food for dinner)
. Are you bored: Not really, but this chair needs a cushion.
. How many buddies are on: 12

WHAT WAS THE...
. Last movie you saw: Gundam Wing: Endless Waltz
. Last noise you heard: The Enya song "Shepherd Moons"
. Last time you went out of the state: Summer I think. We went to Rhode Island to visit family.

. Hair Color: curly brown
. Eye Color: brown
. Height: 5'4" or somethin like that
. Glasses/contacts: nope
. Current Age: 14
. Siblings: one younger sister
. Siblings Ages: 12
. Location: Santa Clara County, California, USA
. Any Piercings: ears
. Are You Timely Or Always Late: usually right on time
. Do You Have A Job: nope, but this summer I'm allowed to get one.
. Do You Like Being Around People: sometimes

STUFF...
. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: yep
. Have You Ever Cried Over Something Someone of The Opposite Sex Did: yeah. Shawn the ass was being..... an ass!
. Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: nice guys! ^_^
. Ever Liked a close Guy/Girl Friend: Kind of I guess a bit. (GUY friend mind you)

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
. Cried: no
. Bought Something: no
. Sang: yes
. Said I Love You: affirmative
. Missed Someone: yesh
. Hugged Someone: yup
. Kissed Someone: I think so. My mom or dad
. Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: No I don't think so.
. Had a lot of sleep: I wish!

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LoupGarou

:: 2004 3 February :: 7.05pm
:: Mood: lousy
:: Music: Darkness - Disturbed

Try spelling "racecar" backwards
Sorry I haven't been able to update in a few days. I suppose I'll begin with my weekend at San Francisco.

We all met at my grandma's house, and when we were ready to leave, Adam (my cousin), Larry (my uncle), and Mema (what I call my grandma) all piled into the car along with my mom, dad, sister, and me. The drive wasn't all that exciting, and to my dismay it was sunny outside. Adam played his gameboy and talked with Denise most of the time and I either stared out the window or looked through my mangas.

We took a detour and ended up driving through the gay part of San Francisco, which was really fun, because you'd pass these houses and some of them had flags with rainbows on them; even the streets were lined with those flags. You'd look on the sidewalk and see a bunch of guys walking together. ^_^ Fun fun. Mema said she saw one of those "flambuoyantly gay" people jogging and he was flailing his hands out while he jogged (you have any idea what I'm talking about?). You know; one of those girly gay guys. ^_^

Finally we got to the hotel (the Hyatt I think). From the outside it really didn't look that impressive, but once you got inside it was really cool. You could see all the floors from the inside, and part of the building was slanted like a pyramid. In the middle of the lobby place was a big circular art structure thing on top of a cool fountain. The water would flow off the sides of a brass bowl-like thing so the water came down in a continuous sheet of liquid silk. OooooOOOOOOoooOOoo I say!

We checked in and my grandma got a suite, which was nice enough I guess, though the only thing really suite-like about it was the nice bathroom. The view wasn't even that good, and it was only on the fourth floor. She had a balcony though.

Our room was on the very top floor if you don't count the restaraunt that takes up all of floor 18. I'm not all that great with hights, so I avoided the window as much as I could. Later I would get used to it, even stick my head out there a few times, but when I first got in the room, there was no way I was going over there.

Everyone else got situated, and once we had eaten snacks that pretty much made up our lunch, we walked around a bit outside. There was this giant thing that I first thought was a play sructure out the back door, but it turned out it was "art". Even still we jumped around on it... well, no ON it really, but below it where some raised platforms of cement served as stepping stones.

Then we walked a little bit toward the bay, where there was a small place that was too small to really be considered a park but too large to be considered a lawn thing. A lot of homeless people were there; at least two were sleeping on the grass, and one seemed to be worshipping a..... tree. We moved on towards some shops; John wanted to find a Wallgreens to get some baby Tylenol for Anna, because she had an ear ache. Adam and Denise kept running ahead and jumping around, and it was both making me mad and getting me very nervous. You think Adam would know to stop when a street came after what happened to his brother. I told Mom, and she had been thinking the same thing, so she told them to calm down. Adam was still goofing off when he almost stumbled into a street, so Larry made him come back and hold his hand. We found the Walgreens and I started trying glasses on just for the heck of it. I've always wondered how I'd look in glasses.

After we were done looking around, we decided to head back to the hotel to get ready for dinner. It was getting darker outside, and the sky became that dark cobalt blue that I've always liked. At one point when we were walking on top of a shopping area (yes, there was a walkway. Don't worry, we weren't climbing on the roof or anything. It was only two to three stories above the road anyway) there was a really nice view of the Bay Bridge if you went up some dual stairways. We took some pictures there, but because my dad and uncle took it from below, you couldn't see the Bay bridge.

We went back inside and got ready for dinner. I really didn't want to change my clothes, but mom made me, and i thought I looked bad in all that fancy stuff. Well, to be truthful, it wasn't all that fancy. Just casual-fancy. ..... But I still didn't like it!

We didn't eat at the restaraunt at the top of the hotel because it was a frickin $50 per person and they wouldn't even let us get up there to look around. Instead we went to the one downstairs in the lobby. It was nice, but the food took forever to come.

While we were finishing dinner and waiting for dessert my uncle had the idea of making boats to have a race down the little river in the lobby. My dad made his out of a safeway card and straws, I made mine out of my sister's kid menu, and most of the rest were made out of straws. Well, except for Larry's, which was made out of straws and cheese. My dad melted a crayon to use the wax as glue, and my uncle melted the wax to make sure the cheese stuck to the straw properly O_o.

When we finally raced I came in third and my dad came in first. Anna, who's ear ache was now better, came in second, and she was so proud of herself. She's so cute. ^_^

We went back to Mema's suite and waited for a little while to decide what to do. I was really bummed because I wanted to watch Gundam Wing: Endless Waltz. I had gotten it on Friday and hadn't been able to watch it yet. I was frusterated because I had waited two weeks to see it and everyone wanted to play a board game. I wouldn't have been so grumpy if Adam and Denise hadn't begged to watch it earlier just like I had. Then they went and changed their minds on me and wanted to play the board game. I was tired too, which added to my grumpiness.
Oh well. Maybe I'm just selfish. -_-

The next morning Sue, John, Anna, and David left early. We drove around Frisco in the rain, whish was nice. Except for going up all those steep hills. God, I hate doing that in the rain. It maked me feel like we're going to slip because of the wet streets and fall backwards.

We were able to watch about fifteen minutes of Gundam Wing on the way back on Larry's lap top, but it lost betteries soon.

Yup. That was basically my trip to good ol' Frisco. Parts of it made me really miss New York. *dramatic sigh*.

Okay, now I'm listening to the New York song with Frank Sinatra and Tony Bennet. Fun! I think I'm going to start on another wntry now about what has happened the past school days. Yush, I am behind. T_T

Oh well. What can you do?

Bye bye!


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Jessika

:: 2004 3 February :: 8.03am
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Katie Rose..Offspring

Ewwwieeee!!!!
I choked up more blood this morning. It was yucky. First it was just more like bloody spit. Then a huge fucking clot came up from my throat. I am pretty sure it did not originate there, however. Where the hell was it from??




I woke up at 4:30 this morning. Even I can not sleep as long as I thought. I had to get up. Too much bed time = a lazy me. I did not do most of my homework. I hope my teachers understand. But I doubt it.

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chuckitatthewall

:: 2004 2 February :: 9.58pm
:: Mood: so fuckin pissed

today was a fuckin nightmare. i hated today. so we went to school and then sarah got out of her car and walked right passed me on her way to lynn. luckily louise was there and she came over to me. we both got really pissed and were yelling and getting very angry cause of the sean thing. we yelled and stuff and then jessica got there and we got very angry again and yelled. so we went into the lockers and louise went over to stephanie and hit her twice. not too smart cause now she is in trouble. so anyway stephanie got really pissed and they all got pissed at us and us at them. at recess sarah came up to me and said this:

at that point i was very close to beating the shit out of her so i turned around and complained to louise and jessica. i hate them so much. it makes me so mad how stephanie completely changed what i said about sarah around. we were all in the car and i said "sarah is obsessed with her boobs" then stephanie agreed with me and we were kinda making jokes about them and stephanie was laughing and stuff. then when stephanie got mad at me and louise and told sarah that i was the one who was saying all the stuff even though she was too. stupid ass bitch. i cannot trust any of them. sarah had such attitude that she made me fuckin cry and she has caused louise to cry several times. it makes me so mad that i cant describe my feelings.
my mom just called sarah's mom and stephanie's mom and told them what happened. stephanie is mad at my mom and so is sarah. what ever i really dont care. lynnn is trying to help thought so that is good.
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Jessika

:: 2004 2 February :: 3.19pm
:: Mood: sore
:: Music: Crossroads.

Woohu.com is in green and yellow letters! Trippy!!!
I had a dream. It goes as such: I went to an AFI concert and found Ed(NO clue why...) I asked him to hold my money because I had no pockets. It was around $40. We were sitting there watching the concert, yet I wasn't really watching it. I have no clue what I was doing, but I could not see the stage or anything. Rather weird. We were up front, but left to go explore the building place. It was a big usually deserted place in the middle of an empty field. It had like 3 floors and the concert was in the basement. There were then 2 balconies, all with crappy views, and a big sign that said "Screwers Zone". Orgys were everywhere. Ewww. We got grossed out anf left. So we went to the big field and I found Gwen and Shell and lost Ed. Shell had to run because her parents were gonig to kill her because they drove up like 1 mile away and expected her to be right there, but she wasn't. (Stupid Mishelle!!! Not being a mindreader and such) So she ran after the car and miracualously caught up to it. I was sitting there with Gwen and I think Shayla. Gwen had a motorcycle and took us on a ride. We ended up nearly hitting a bunch of fences and flipping over them instead. I was very scared of Gwen's frightening driving. I found myself very very thirsty. I had Gwen take me to Ed and asked for my money. He showed me a receipt for alot of stuff, like drinks and munchies, meaning he spent all my money. Brittney Kelley was there with him. I got very pissed and was about to pass out because of dryness of mouth. I was going to kill them. But Gwen handed me a coke or something, so we just left and went into the concert. We went down into the "Middle Class" section. We were like 5 rows from the front and Gwen had painted my face with white makeup and black stars over my eyes and another on my forehead. Davey picked 3 people from the crowd with faces like that. Not me. They each got to pick a song. And they all were calling him Kayla. I believed in the dream that ha was Kayla and it wasn't until I woke up that I realized that was wrong. You could hardly see the other band members. Next he picked people with huge elephant masks on. Shortly after I woke up.




No read if you don't want to hear yuckiness.


I am staying home today. Last night I wished my stomach would take itself away from me because it hurt so much. I even cried for like 20 minutes due to the pain. At around 9 I began to puke. Now it gets gross. Yuck was coming out of both ends and I puked in the garbage in the bathroom. Then I found out the garbage was WEAVED so my puke fell onto the floor. I called in the little bot and had him bring me something...he brought the kitchen garbage. So I puked an0other 20 mintues or so then had to clean up the mess on the floor and almost puked again. I then went to bed and slept for 13 hours. Harley is sick so home to. Marty is here, but ot sick. She does not even know why she is here.

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chuckitatthewall

:: 2004 1 February :: 9.43pm
:: Mood: so fuckin pissed off

STEPHANIE THE BITCH
sarah just gave me bad news. sean has a girlfriend. some abercrombie named mary. yup mary like a saint but shes not. her sn starts out with "sexkitten" and i think there is some numbers. sickass. she makes me so mad. he could like louise or jessica or me cause we are good and we dont have sns like 'sexkitten" and other nasty shit to do with sex. i hate her so much. i feel like crying right now. i guess i'm a stupidass for wanting to cry over a person i've only met once and talked to on the internet. NEVER FUCKIN MIND!!!! THE PERSON IS STEPHANIE!!!!!!!!!!! STEPHANIE! THAT STUPID BITCH! I HATE HER! I HATE HER SO MUCH! dude she only started liking him after he told her she was "hella hot". that stupidass motherfucker. i hate both of them. i dont like sean anymore. hes probly some superficial little asshole who only likes her cause she is "hella hot" and has boobs and shit like that. dude that fuckin makes me so mad. god damn her. dude shes gonna end up pregnant like tomorrow or soemthing and end up living her life inside of a nastyass trailor in a nasty ass trailor park and her like will be so fucked up she wont know how to fix any of it. i will laugh when that happens. why the hell does she do this? she will go out with any guy that likes her if he is even minimally (sp) hot. stupid bitch. you cant trust her to be around a guy you like cause she will take him and without any regrets. why did she do this?i hate them. i have never fuckin wanted to kill someone so fuckin badly like i do right now. OH AND FUCKIN THE PATRIOTS ARE FUCKIN LOSING!AND THEY SUCK! I'M SO MAD! THEY LIED TO ME. I ASKED SARAH IF STEPHANIE WAS AT HER HOUSE AND THEY SAID SHE WASNT SO I SAID SOME STUFF TO HER ABOUT STEPHANIE. FUCK THEM! I HATE THEM BOTH MORE THAN ANYONE CAN IMAGINE! JASON IS TALKING TO THE PRECIOUS ASS HOLE NAMED STEPHANIE BITCHY ASS FUCKER SHIT SUCKER! I DONT HAVE ANY MORE FUCKIN PATIENCE TO SAY WHAT ELSE HAS FUCKIN HAPPENED!

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Jessika

:: 2004 1 February :: 6.11pm
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: Full House

Die bitch. DIE.
I FINALLY saw POTC!!! Thank you Raab!!! Wooo!!!! That movie made me laugh = )



And.....I think that is it. Tata.

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linkedfantasy

:: 2004 1 February :: 2.22pm
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: NOFX Album: The idiots are taking over

a breeze.....
again, on my mother's computer. The front door is open adn there's a breeze coming through. very inspirational. i've wanted to change my music because it doesn't go with the theme of my website.
hmmm... another thing. i've seem to pick up NOFX from an old frined elanna. you might know ehr from other entries or in my old journal. She's like in a whole different world. if u ever met ehr, she has this effect on you....adn we're you're apart form her, you feel a sense of sadness and jealousy. jealous because of whoeevr she's with, you feel like she'd rather be with them adn not you... that's why we are no longer firneds. she went to the mall and didnt invite me and i EXPLODED. i don't know why. i got SO mad..... hmmm.... even though i wouldn't have been able to go, the fact that she went with two of her other friends made me sad/jealous..... i'm too much of a burden to be anyone's friend.

forever and today
robert.......


P.S: I hope wherever you are elanna....that you get this somehow..... you're too good of a frined to let go and i jsut want to clear things up so that i am not a burden to you anymore. i HEART you

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