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2004 11 August :: 2.16 pm
:: Mood: --->blah<---
:: Music: only one
You are my only one
Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one
Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one
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2004 11 August :: 10.25 am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Ashlee Simpson
you think you know me. word on the street is that you do
so school is back and im not attending the first day. oh fuckin well. I hate school. But for some reason Im sorta eager to go back. Maybe its the friends, maybe Im just crazy, whatever it is, it cant be safe.. Well, I couldnt fall asleep worth shit last night. And I hated it, but what can i do? Nothing. Then I went to the dentist today, and the told me I need to get my wisdom teeth removed! [insert scary/sad face] arghh.. oh well what can i do? ill just be on a bunch of fuckin pills n shit. and not eat for a day. sounds alright i guess, and its another excuse to miss school. :-D well tampa was fun i guess, i wanted to come home the 2nd night though.. But those weed couches were crazy! and that enerhy drink i semi drank was groos to the fullest point. and those damn front desk ppl became wayyy to attached in a very short time. routine call my fuckin ass. but yeah yellin at my sister was interesting. and *IOWA* was nice. haha, and my mom got slapped in the face with water, and i swear if all those dads that know we talk about their sons. that sucks, haha oh well!
but it was nice to be in my bed last night, even though Ashleys is great too :o) Krystinas apartment is really really nice! And Monica is so cute! Hah, it should be and interesting weekend! Specially with my drinking efforts yesterday! ha. well i think ima go! Ill write later!
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2004 30 July :: 12.40 pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: Nothing
blah...
hey guys whats up? Im at Ashleys watching her clean. Even tho at the moment shes not even in the room, and hasnt been for like 10 mins so i have no idea how fast this cleaning is going to be going.. her mom is home tomorrow which blows really bad.. osjdbgf jf.. ahhhh school starts soon. god i fuckin hate school, school reminds me of Jeremy, because everything everyone does reminds me of jeremy bc i spent way to much time and invested way to much of my heart into him. anywho yeah school can blow me, i hate it. blahhhh, back to bitches, gangstas(( not true ones, bc only TRUE gangstas drink crunk energy drinks and koolaid.)) and hoes, and preppy ppl and hallwyas and lunchs and blah i hate school.
saw Brad last night. no one really cares. but i did. urmmmm and i watched a movie with ashley, and i went out to dinner with her dad @ carrabas and i think i know a kid that works there from like middle school.. yeah i think.
god, this is a really random journal entry. oh well . i seem to be good at randomness. blah well i guess ill go, tty guys later, xo
i love youuuuuuuuuu Ashley!!!!!!!!!!!
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2004 29 July :: 12.03 pm
blah.........
my heart sucks.
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2004 25 July :: 10.54 am
:: Mood: wishful
:: Music: Staind
stuff
well I got my tattoo and it hurt like fuckin hell and now its just really sore and gross bc theres a scab over it. A scab the shape of a star, how appeling. ick. not really.. Anyways, I havent felt that good in the past few days..My mom came home in like an emotional breakdown last night but wouldnt tell me what was wrong? SO i couldnt help, i wasnt in a good mood anywas bc Ashley n I got into a fight.So i was like whatever and went into my room and feel asleep.. Then twice this morning the power went out so it got really really hot and the fans went off and it was gross..I guess thats really it. Lee hasnt called me since 2 days ago and i wanted to talk to him about something but oh well? well i guess thats about it i dont have anything else to say! xoxo
I wake up and your 1st on my mind
I lay there for a minute and think of you
in that passing time.
I swing my feet to the side of my bed..
and get up and walk.. with thoughts of you still running through my head.
I walk around in a daze
their all sayin you'll snap out of it
its just a faze.
Nothing seems real anymore
Im like a different person because of you.
But still theres nothing I can do to get you.
I walk to the bathroom,
to splash water on my face..
As I stand there I inhale deeply,
letting it all sink in..
still thoughts of you are filling my head..
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